"Warning Sign" by Coldplay (September 3, 2002), for Eliot: "Warning sign,/You came back to haunt me and i realised,/That you were an island,/And i passed you by./And you were an island to discover,/Come on in,/I've gotta tell you What a state i'm in,/I've got to tell you in my loudest tone,/That i started looking for a warning sign./When the truth is, I miss you,/Yeah the truth is, That i miss you so."
"Mockingbird" by Carly Simon & James Taylor (September 3, 2002), for Vicki: "Mock (yeah) ing (yeah) bird (yeah) /Yeah (yeah) /Mockingbird/Now, everybody have you heard?/He's gonna buy me a mockingbird/And if that mockingbird don't sing/He's gonna buy me a diamond ring."
"If You Don’t, Don’t" by Jimmy Eat World (September 3, 2002): "We once walked out on the beach and once I almost touched your hand./Oh how I dreamed to finally say such things then only to pretend./Don't you know I'm thinkin', drivin' 405 past midnight./You know I miss you./Don't you know that I miss you?/Ninth and Ash on a Tuesday night./I would write to you from a museum mile, toast to you:/your whisper, your smile./Up the stairs at the Weatherford, a ghost each place I hide./If you don't don't know, why would you say so?/Would you mean this please if it happens?/If you don't know, why would you say so?/Won't you get your story straight./If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?/And I need this now more than I ever did./If you don't well, honey, then you don't.."
"All I have to do is Dream" by The Everly Brothers (August 27, 2002), for Eliot: "When I want you in my arms/ When I want you and all your charms/Whenever I want you, all I have to do is/Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream/When I feel blue in the night/And I need you to hold me tight/Whenever I want you, all I have to do is/Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam…"
"In My Place" by Coldplay (August 27, 2002), such a beautiful song: "In my place were lines that I couldn’t change/I was lost/I was lost/Crossed lines I shouldn’t have crossed/I was lost, oh yeah/yeah, how long must you wait for it?/yeah, how long must you pay for it?/yeah, how long must you wait for it?/i was scared, i was scared tired and underprepared/but i'll wait for you/If you go/and leave me down here on my own/then I’ll wait for you…"
"I Woke Up in a Car" by Something Corporate (August 25, 2002), for Morgan W.: "well i woke up in a car/i traced a way to fall/so i could see the mississippi on her knees/i've never been so lost/i've never felt so much at home/please write my folks and throw away my keys…"
"Downfall" by Trust Company (August 25, 2002), for Jessie: "Fear in me so deep it gets the best of me,/In the fear I fall, here it comes face to face with me,/Here I stand hold back so no one can see,/I feel these wounds, step down,/step down,/step down./(am I) Breaking Down/Can I break away/Push me away, make me fall,/Just to see, another side of me,/Push me away, you can see,/what I see, the other side of me."
"Alive" by Pearl Jam (August 25, 2002): "Oh, she walks slowly, across a young man's room/She said I'm ready...for you/I can't remember anything to this very day/'Cept the look, the look.../Oh, you know where, now I can't see, I just stare... /I, I'm still alive/Hey I, but, I'm still alive/Hey I, boy, I'm still alive/Hey I, I, I, I'm still alive, yeah/Ooh yeah...yeah yeah yeah...oh...oh..."
"This Is The Place" by Red Hot Chili Peppers (August 22, 2002), this song just has an incredible beat!: "Can I get some vaseline/Step into a modern scene/Take a chance of that/Which seems to be/The making of a dream/I don't want to do it/Like my daddy did/I don't want to give it/To my baby's kid/This is my calling..."
"Everything You Want" by Vertical Horizon (August 22, 2002), for Eliot: "You're waiting for someone/To put you together/You're waiting for someone to push you away/There's always another/Wound to discover/There's always something more you wish he'd say/He's everything you want/He's everything you need/He's everything inside of you/That you wish you could be/He says all the right things/At exactly the right time/But he means nothing to you/And you don't know why…"
"Colorblind" by Counting Crows (August 17, 2002), for Eliot: "I am colorblind/Coffee black and egg white/Pull me out from inside/I am ready/I am taffy stuck and tongue tied/Stutter shook and uptight/Pull me out from inside/I am ready/I am fine/I am covered in skin/No one gets to come in/Pull me out from inside/I am folded and unfolded and unfolding/I am colorblind/Coffee black and egg white/Pull me out from inside/I am ready/I am fine."
"Kiss from a Rose" by Seal (August 4, 2002), for Eliot: "There used to be a graying time all alone on the sea/You became the light on the dark side of me/Love remains a drug gets me high, that's how I feel/Did you know that when it snows my eyes become enlarged/And the light that you shine can be seen/Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey/The more I get of you, the stranger it feels, yeah/Now that your rose is in bloom, a light hits the gloom on the grey…"
"Letters to You" by Finch (August 3, 2002), This song made me think of Peter and Jessie, for obvious reasons. But it grabbed me quickly, anyway.: "Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms/It's empty tonight and I'm all alone/Get me through this one/Do you notice I'm gone?/Where do you run to so far away?/I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so."
"Full Moon" by Brandy (August 3, 2002), for Eliot: "Boy, I saw you soon as you came bouncin' through the door/You and your mans and them just took over the floor/Started doing your thang/And it made notice you even more/The way you turned around and looked at me seemed as though/You must've somehow felt me staring on the low/Something tells me you're the kind of guy I'd like to get to know…/Since you walked up in the club/I've been giving you the eye/We can dance if you want/Get it crackin' if you like/Must be a full moon/Feel like one of those nights."
"Simple Gifts" by Shaker Elder Joseph Brackett, Jr. (1848) (August 3, 2002), for Vicki: "Tis the gift to be simple,/'tis the gift to be free,/'tis the gift to come down where you ought to be,/And when we find ourselves in the place just right,/It will be in the valley of love and delight./When true simplicity is gained,/To bow and to bend we shan't be ashamed./To turn, turn will be our delight,/'Til by turning, turning we come round right."
"Aerials" by System of a Down (August 3, 2002): "Life is a waterfall,/We're one in the river,/And one again after the fall./Swimming through the void/We hear the word,/We lost ourselves,/But we find it all?/Cause we are the ones that want to play,/Always want to go,/But you never want to stay,/And we are the ones that want to chose,/Always want to play,/But you never want to lose."
"(I Don’t Want to Lose) Your Love (Tonight)" by The Outfield (July 25, 2002): "No one's around when I'm in trouble/You know I'd do anything for you/Stay the night - we'll keep it under cover/I just wanna use your love tonight/I don't wanna lose your love tonight."
"More than a Feeling" by Boston (July 25, 2002): "I looked out this morning and the sun was gone/Turned on some music to start my day/I lost myself in a familiar song/I closed my eyes and I slipped away/It's more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to play/I begin dreaming/'till I see Marianne walk away."
"Thoughtless" by Korn (July 25, 2002): "You take your turn lashing out at me/I want you crying when you're dirty in the front of me/All of my hate cannot be found/I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming/So you can try to tear me down/Beat me to the ground/I will see you screaming…"
"Change Your Mind" by Sister Hazel (July 21, 2002), from the Sister Hazel concert last night: "If you want to be somebody else,/If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself/If you want to be somebody else/Change your mind..."
"Happy" by Sister Hazel (July 21, 2002), this was an amazing performance:"I remember watchin'/All the once upon a times/Remember thinkin'/Who's content and who's for rent/And you said don't you want to be like that man!?/Oh No--No--No!/But then he cracks that smile/And that don't look so bad to me/Happy--I'm Happy/But that ain't good enough for you/Happy--I'm Happy…"
"Under the Milky Way" by The Church (July 21, 2002): "Sometimes when this place gets kind of empty,/Sound of their breath fades with the light./I think about the loveless fascination,/Under the Milky Way tonight./Lower the curtain down in Memphis,/Lower the curtain down all right./I got no time for private consultation,/Under the Milky Way tonight./Wish I knew what you were looking for./Might have known what you would find."
"In the Car" by Barenaked Ladies (July 21, 2002), as Vicki asked, "Why do people write songs like this?" Had to put up the lyrics…a little explicit, don’t you think?: "We were looking for ourselves/and found each other/In the Car/It was rare to do much more/than simply mess around/In the Car/It was mostly mutual masturbation/And though we spoke of penetration/I'd have to wait for someone else to try it out…In the Car/we were waiting for out lives/to start their endings/In the Car/We were never making love/We were never making love/We were never making love."
"Nothing Else Matters" by Metallica (July 19, 2002): "Never opened myself this way /Life is ours, we live it our way/All these words I don't just say/And nothing else matters/Trust I seek and I find in you/Every day for us/something new/Open mind for a different view/And nothing else matters."
"Hakuna Matata" (July 19, 2002), courtesy of Vicki: "Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase/Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze/It means no worries for the rest of your days/It's our problem-free philosophy/Hakuna Matata!"
highlights from the John Mayer concert (July 17, 2002)
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"Why Georgia," for Peter: "Still ‘everyting happens for a reason’ is no reason not to ask myself If I am living it right."
"Love Song for No One," Vicki, you said this was your song, so here you go:"Searching all my days just to find you/I'm not sure who I'm looking for/I'll know it/When I see you/Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom/Staying up all night just to write/A love song for no one/I'm tired of being alone/So hurry up and get here."
"Back to You," for Andrew, though things have changed, I can’t think differently about this song because it was just perfect:"It always comes around/Back to you/I tried to forget you/I tried to stay away/But it's too late/Over you/I'm never over/Over you/Something about you/It's just the way you move/The way you move me/I'm so good at forgetting/And I quit ever game I play/But forgive me, love/I can't turn and walk away…"
"Great Indoors," I don’t know why I love this song; it was part of the encore: "Check your pulse it's proof that you're not listening to/The call your life's been issuing you/The rhythm of a line of idle days/Scared of a world outside you should go explore/Pull all the shades and wander the great indoors…"
"Say Goodbye" by Dave Matthews Band (July 15, 2002), for Lindsay: "…Now let's make this an evening/Lovers for a night, lovers for tonight/Stay here with me, love, tonight/Just for an evening/When we make/Our passion pictures/You and me twist up/Secret creatures/And we'll stay here/Tomorrow go back to being friends/Go back to being friends/But tonight let's be lovers,/We kiss and sweat/We'll turn this better thing/To the best…"
"Secret Garden" by Bruce Springsteen (July 15, 2002): "She'll let you in her house/If you come knockin' late at night/She'll let you in her mouth/If the words you say are right/If you pay the price/She'll let you deep inside/But there's a secret garden she hides…"
"This Velvet Glove" by Red Hot Chili Peppers (July 12, 2002), for Eliot: "It's such a waste to be wasted/In the first place/I want to taste the taste of/Being face to face with common grace/To meditate on the warmest dream/And when I walk alone I listen/To our secret theme/Your solar eyes are like/Nothing I have ever seen/Somebody close/That can see right through/I'd take a fall and you know/That I'd do anything/I will for you…"
"Seein’ Red" by Unwritten Law (July 12, 2002): "And swallow your pride and drown/When there's no place left to go/Maybe that's when you will know/Follow the leader down/And swallow your pride and drown/When there's no place left to go/Maybe that's when you will know/Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess/Don't have much time for sympathy/But it never happened to me/You feelin’ down/I don't know where I’ll be when you come around/And now it's time to make a choice,/And all I wanna hear is your voice..."
"Hate to Say I Told You So" by the Hives (July 12, 2002), for Michael: "Do what I want cause I can and if I don't/ because I wanna be ignored by the stiff and the bored/because I'm gonna./Spit and retrieve cause I give and receive/ because I wanna gonna get through your head what the mystery man said/because I'm gonna./Hate to say I told you so./I do believe I told you so./Now it's all out and you knew cause I wanted to…"
"Beautiful" by flickerstick (July 12, 2002): "You could be the devil in my bed/You could be the angel in my head/ You could be the voices that I hear/I'm singing along because it sounds just like you're near/Cause you're so beautiful/You're beautiful today/You're so beautiful/Beautiful in every little way."
"Jesse’s Girl" by Rick Springfield (July 8, 2002), for Lindsay because of Dang; for Vicki and Katty because of their drumming; and for Frans who definitely loved hearing us all belt out this song!:"Jesse is a friend,/yeah I know he's been a good friend of mine/But lately something's changed that ain't hard to define/Jesse’s got himself a girl and I want to make her mine/And she's watching him with those eyes/And she's lovin' him with that body, I just know it/Yeah 'n' he's holding her in his arms late, late at night/You know, I wish that I had Jesse’s girl…"
"America" by Bree Sharp (July 4, 2002), have to be patriotic…though this song doesn’t really cut it. More cynical than anything. Vicki wanted to listen to it.: "Radios, T.V. shows/Fill my holes with your goodies/I sold my privacy/So that I would always be pretty/And I can tell you that the best things are free/With proof of purchase."
"Spaceship" by Angie Aparo (July 4, 2002), this song reminds me of the Fourth, for some reason:"If you get tired of satellite flyers/And fame has let you down/Under the wire and over the moon/I'm around…"
"Inside Out" by Eve 6 (July 4, 2002), you should have remained in the shadows. Sorry:"Want to put my tender/Heart in a blender/Watch it spend round/To a beautiful oblivion/Rendezvous/Then I'm through with you."
"Don’t Panic" by Coldplay (July 4, 2002): "Oh, we're sinking like stones/All the we fall for/All those places we've grown/All of us are done for/We live in a beautiful world,/Yeah we do, yeah we do…/Oh, all that I know,/There's nothing here to run from,/And there, everybody here's got somebody to lean on."
“Out Loud” by Dispatch (June 30, 2002): “Would you be the wind to blow me home?/Would you be a dream on the wings of a poem?/And if we were walking through a crowd/well you know I would be proud, if you'd call my name Out Loud,/if you'd call my name Out Loud, do you suppose I would come running,/do you suppose I'd come at all? I suppose I would...”
“Soul to Squeeze” by Red Hot Chili Peppers (June 30, 2002); for Eliot: “Where I go I just don't know,/I got to, got to, gotta take it slow./When I find my piece of mind,/I'm gonna give you some of my good time.”
“Elias” by Dispatch (June 30, 2002); for Vicki: “If you die will i get word that you're gone/Or will i hear it in passing conversation/Will i stop short and, fall to the ground/Distance is short when your hand carries what your eye found/Hold my hand just one more time, to see if you're really gonna meet me...”
“A Hard Day’s Night” by The Beatles (June 30, 2002); for the boss: “It's been a hard day's night/And I've working like a dog “Patience” by Guns N’ Roses (June 30, 2002): “I'll been walkin' the streets to night/just trying to get it right/it's hard to see when so many around /You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd/And the streets don't change, but baby the names/I ain't got time for this game/'Cause I need you, /yeah but I need you,/oh I need you,/woh I need you, /oo This time
“Only One” by Lifehouse (June 27, 2002); for Andrew: “It's all shallow and all so appealing I'm up to my ankles and i'm drowning/Anyway in a sea of sarcastic faces familiar places where everything looks/Quite the same here it's all confusingly amusing bitter and tainted/The picture you painted to me/i guess you're the only one that nobody changes/i guess you're the only one left standing when everything else goes down/you're still the only one/Who will never change faces...”
“I'm Like A Bird” by Nelly Furtado (June 26, 2002); for Eliot: “Your faith in me brings me to tears/Even after all these years/And it pains me so much to tell/That you don't know me that well/And though my love is rare/Though my love is true/It's not that I wanna say goodbye/It's just that every time you try to tell me that you love me/Each and every single day I know/I'm going to have to eventually give you away.../Hey I'm just scared/That we may fall through/I’m like a bird/I only fly away...”
“Don’t Fade” by Toad the Wet Sprocket (June 26, 2002); for Vicki: “don't fade, you're staying here with me/don't fade, i need to know that someone still believes.”
“You Can't Hurry Love” by The Supremes (June 23, 2002): “You can't hurry love/No, you just have to wait/She said love don't come easy/It's a game of give and take/You can't hurry love/No, you just have to wait/You got to trust, give it time/No matter how long it takes/But how many heartaches/ Must I stand before I find a love/To let me live again?”
“You Give Love A Bad Name” by Jon Bon Jovi (June 23, 2002): “An angel's smile is what you sell/You promise me heaven, then put me through hell/Chains of love got a hold on me/When passion's a prison, you can't break free/You're a loaded gun, there's nowhere to run/No one can save me, the damage is done/Shot through the heart, and you're to blame/You give love a bad name.”
“Blister in the Sun” by The Violent Femmes (June 23, 2002): “let me go on like I blister in the sun/let me go on big hands I know your the one...”
“Complicated” by Avril Lavigne (June 23, 2002); I don’t like her voice, but the song is so catchy!: “Why you have to go and make things so complicated?/I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated/Life's like this you/And you fall and you crawl and you break/and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty/and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it...”
“Chicago” by Ingram Hill (June 23, 2002); we saw them perform at DC Sessions yesterday!: “If you ever want to come home from Chicago/And leave the things that habit made you love/I’ll be there to await your arrival/To give you a life you’ll never know...”
“Hands” by Jewel (week of June 22): “If I could tell the world just one thing/it would be that we're all o.k./And not to worry/cause worry is wasteful/And unless in times like these.”
“Interstate Love Song” by Stone Temple Pilots (week of June 22): “Leavin' on a southern train/only yesterday you lied,/promises of what I seemed to be/only watched the time go by,/all of these things I said to you.”
“Amber” by 311 (week of June 22): “Whoa, amber is the color of your energy/whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally/you ought to know what brings me here/you glide through my head blind to fear/and I know why...”
“Counting Blue Cars” by Dishwalla (week of June 22): “Must of been late afternoon/On our way the sun broke free of the clouds/We count only blue cars/Skip the cracks, in the street/And ask many questions/Like children often do/We said, Tell me all your thoughts on God/'Cause I would really like to meet her./And ask her why we're who we are.”
“Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door” by Bob Dylan (week of June 22): “Mama, take this badge off of me/I can't use it anymore./It's gettin' dark, too dark for me to see/I feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door./Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door/Mama, put my guns in the ground/I can't shoot them anymore./That long black cloud is comin' down/I feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door./Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door”
“Every Breath You Take” by The Police (week of June 22): “Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace./I dream at night, I can only see your face./I look around but it's you I can't replace./I keep crying baby, baby please…”
“Brown Eyed Girl” by Van Morrison (week of June 22); for the boss: “Hey, where did we go/Days when the rains came?/Down in the hollow/Playing a new game,/Laughing and a-running, hey, hey,/Skipping and a-jumping/In the misty morning fog with/Our, our hearts a-thumping/And you, my brown-eyed girl,/You, my brown-eyed girl.”
“La Cienega Just Smiled” by Ryan Adams (June 16, 2002): “And I hold you close in the back of my mind/And raise my glass 'cause either way I'm dead/Neither of you really help me to sleep anymore/One breaks my body and the other breaks my soul/La Cienega just smiles as it waves goodbye.../And I'm too scared to know how I feel about you now/How I feel about you now/La Cienega just smiles and says, ‘I'll see you around.’"
“Ten” by Jimmy Eat World (June 16, 2002): “The feelings change so fast./ Safety scares them away./I can't bring myself to say it's my own advice I need.../So take another drink with me./Blame no one./Look in my eyes and blame no one.”
“What Do You Need?” by Goo Goo Dolls (June 16, 2002); for Peter: “When we're alone we'll/Find some peace/Why do we need to turn it on/Why does it always feel so wrong/What do you need from me tonight/The truth is so complicated now/You feel so free to say/You're wrong.”
“Cover This” by Dispatch (June 16, 2002): “I ain't lookin' for confusion/ But it tends to follow me/’You can come into my house,’ she said/’If you do it quietly’/But I said/’There ain't no chance at that’/Cause I am listenin' to what you got/Put up your hands if you want me to stop/And I turn around, but I think you're crazy/If you think this happens a lot...”
“Let it Be” by The Beatles (June 16, 2002): “And when the night is cloudy,/There is still a light that shines on me,/Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.”
“There You’ll Be” by Faith Hill (June 6, 2002); for Jessie: “When I think back on these times/And the dreams we left behind/I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed/To get to have you in my life...”
“Lithium” by Nirvana (June 6, 2002); for Scott: “I'm so lonely and that's ok,/I shaved my head/And I'm not sad/And just maybe/I'm to blame for all I've heard/And I'm not sure/I'm so excited/I can't wait to meet you there”
“Bent” by matchbox20 (June 6, 2002); for Eliot: “If I fall along the way/Pick me up and dust me off/And if I get too tired to make it/Be my breath so I can walk/If I need some other love/Give me more than I can stand/And when my smile gets old and faded/Wait around I'll smile again/Shouldn't be so complicated/Just hold me and then/Just hold me again/Can you help me I'm bent/I'm so scared that I'll never/Get put back together.”
“It’s Over” by Goo Goo Dolls (June 6, 2002); for Peter: “And I didn't think about/All the ways I hurt you and myself/And I hide/Wouldn't say a thing to you/I keep it to myself and my mind/I can't stand without you/And I won't find the answers when you're gone/But it's over to you/And I can't find the answers when you're gone/And it's over to you/And you can't find the answer where you are...”
“Warning” by Incubus (June 6, 2002): “When she woke in the morning/She knew that her life had passed her by/And she called out a warning/Don't ever let life pass you by/I suggest we/Learn to love ourselves before it's/Made illegal/When will we learn?/When will we change?/Just in time to/See it all fall down...”
“Third Time Around” by Angie Aparo (June 2, 2002); for Peter: “One time's a shame/Two times and you're to blame/And you lose your precious crown/The Third Time Around/This ain't no freeway/You pay for it someday - I guess...”
for Alex
“Tiny Dancer” by Elton John (June 2, 2002); for Alex: “Blue jean baby, L.A. lady, seamstress for the band/Pretty eyed, pirate smile, you'll marry a music man/Ballerina, you must have seen her dancing in the sand/And now she's in me, always with me, tiny dancer in my hand...Hold me closer tiny dancer/Count the headlights on the highway/Lay me down in sheets of linen/you had a busy day today.”
“He’s Gone” by The Watchmen (June 2, 2002): “How can I survive without my friend of mine/He was not perfect
Yet somehow perfect/What am I to do I've lost that part of me/Will I be alright/yeah, will I make it?”
“Flake” by Jack Johnson (June 1, 2002): “It seems to me that maybe/It pretty much always means no/So don't tell me you might just let it go/And often times we're lazy/It seems to stand in my way/Cause no one no not no one/Likes to be let down...”
“Bubble Toes” by Jack Johnson (June 1, 2002): “It's as common as something that nobody knows that her beauty will follow wherever she goes/up the hill in the back of her house in the would she love me forever, I know she could...If you would only listen/You might just realize what you're missing/You're missing me.”
“Somewhere in the Middle,” by Dishwalla (May 30, 2002); for Peter: “you had this look that of an angel/it was such a bad disguise/did you think for second I would not realize/tripping hard falling down onto the ground/cause I can't stand up/and I can't fall down /cause I'm somewhere in the middle of this…”
“Miserable,” by Lit (May 30, 2002); for Peter: “I love the things that we should fear/I'm not afraid of being here/So much the same/It makes me helpless alone/You make me come/You make me complete/You make me completely miserable.”
“Wide Open Spaces,” by Dixie Chicks (May 28, 2002): “She needs wide open spaces/Room to make her big mistakes/She needs new faces/She knows the high stakes…”
“Black,” by Pearl Jam (May 28, 2002): “Some day I know you’ll have a beautiful life/I know you’ll be a star in somebody else’s sky/but why, why…/Why can’t it be mine?”
“My Stupid Mouth,” by John Mayer (May 28, 2002): “…One more thing/Why is it my fault?/So maybe I try too hard/But it's all because of this desire/I just wanna be liked/I just wanna be funny/Looks like the jokes on me/So call me captain backfire/Oh I'm never speaking up again/Starting now.”
“Gravity,” by Angie Aparo (May 25, 2002): “The Gravity/Of whether you were meant for me/Came crashing like a symphony/In someone else's used to be…/we lied about the things we would feel when we're older/Oh God what a fine waste of time/And I miss you/ are you coming over.”
“Load Me Up,” by Matthew Good Band (May 25, 2002): “if heaven's for clean people, it's vacant/and hey are you know?/and hey are you being careful?/and hey are you lukewarm?/hey ya you are/i'm frantic so load me up…”
“When The Levee Breaks,” by Led Zeppelin (May 21, 2002); for Peter: “If you're goin' down South/They got no work to do,/If you don't know about Chicago./Cryin' won't help you, prayin' won't do you no good…/Going, going to Chicago... /Going to Chicago... /Sorry but I can't take you…”
“When The Stars Go Blue,” by Ryan Adams (May 21, 2002); for Emma: “…Where do you go when you're blue/Where do you go when you're lonely/I'll follow you/When the stars go blue.”
“In my Life,” by the Beatles (May 20, 2002); to the Class of 2002: “There are places I remember/All my life/Though some have changed/Some forever, not for better/Some are gone, and some remain/All these places had their moments/With loves and friends I still can recall/Some are dead and some are living/And I have loved them all…”
“#41,” by Dave Matthews Band (May 18, 2002): “Only waiting I wanted to stay/I wanted to play/I wanted to love you/I'm only this far/And only tomorrow leads my way/I'm coming waltzing back and moving into your head/Please, I wouldn't pass this by…”
“By Your Side,” by Sade (May 18, 2002): “when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again/i will find you, darling, and i will bring you home/and if you want to cry/i am here to dry your eyes/and in no time/you'll be fine/you think i'd leave your side, baby/you know me better than that…”
“Walking Away,” by Craig David (May 18, 2002): “I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life/I'm walking away, oh, to find a better day/I'm walking away.”
“At the Stars,” by Better Than Ezra (May 18, 2002): “And I finally found/That everybody loves to love you/When you're far away/Could it be we've done something wrong?/We'd make it back to your place before dawn/’Please Don’t Take Me Home!’”
“Running Away,” by Hoobastank (May 17, 2002); for Lindsay: “I just wanted you to tell me the truth/You know I'd do that for you/So why are you running away?”
“Summer Romance (Anti-Gravity Love Song),” by Incubus (May 17, 2002): “I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly possible...with you/So I call you on the tin can phone/We rendezvous at a quarter-two and make sure we're alone/I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free.”
“Creep,” by TLC (May 17, 2002): “Love you forever baby soul and mind/And you gotta know if you don't give it I'm ‘a get mine/So I creep/I creep around because I need attention/Don't mess around with my affection.”
“Where Are You Going?” by Dave Matthews Band (May 17, 2002): “…I do know one thing/It’s where you are, its’ where I belong/I do know where you go, is where I wanna be…If along the way/You are growing weary/You can rest with me until a brighter day.”
“Strong Enough,” by Sheryl Crow (May 15, 2002): “God, I feel like hell tonight/Tears of rage I cannot fight/I'd be the last to help you understand/Are you strong enough to be my man?”
“Tomorrow,” by silverchair (May 14, 2002); okay, so, Scott says he won the contest about the meaning of this song, but he definitely cheated. Vicki put in the most effort. But I believe it is Andrew who got the right answer… and didn’t sign the book. Oh well: “Won't you come with me, to a place in a little town./The only way to get there's to go straight down./There's no bathroom, and there is no sink./The water out of the tap is very hard to drink,/Very hard to drink./You, wait 'til tomorrow…”
“oh well, okay,” by Elliott Smith (May 11, 2002): “if you a get a feeling the next time you see me/do me a favor and let me know/'cos it's hard to tell/it's hard to say/oh well, okay.”
“If I Ever Lose My Faith In You,” by Sting (May 10, 2002): “If I ever lose my faith in you/There'd be nothing left for me to do/I could be lost inside their lies without a trace/But every time I close my eyes I see your face.”
“Building a Mystery,” by Sarah McLachlan (May 10, 2002); for Peter: “you woke up screaming aloud/a prayer from your secret god/you feed off our fears/and hold back your tears/give us a tantrum/and a know it all grin/just when we need one/when the evening's thin/oh you're a beautiful/a beautiful f*cked up man/you're setting up your/razor wire shrine…”
“If I Had a Million Dollars,” by Barenaked Ladies (May 10, 2002); for Andrew: “If I had a million dollars/Well, I'd buy you a monkey/(Haven't you always wanted a monkey?)”
“Burden In My Hand,” by Soundgarden (May 8, 2002); inspired by Andrew’s away msg: “…down below the truth is lying/Beneath the riverbed/So quench yourself and drink the water/That flows below her head …I shot my love today would you cry for me/I lost my head again would you lie for me…”
“The First Taste,” by Fiona Apple (May 7, 2002); to Peter: “I lie in an early bed, thinking late thoughts/Waiting for the black to replace my blue/I do not struggle in your web because it was my aim to get caught/But, daddy longlegs, I feel that I'm finally growing weary/Of waiting to be consumed by you…”
“Champagne High,” by Sister Hazel (May 7, 2002): “…while your story's completed mine is a long way from done.”
“Wonderful Tonight,” by Eric Clapton (May 7, 2002): “My darling, you were wonderful tonight.”
“Rebuilding,” by Kim Zorn Caputo (May 5, 2002): (poem)
“I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For,” by U2: “I have climbed the highest mountains/I have run through the fields/Only to be with you/I have run I have crawled/I have scaled these city walls/Only to be with you/But I still haven't found/What I'm looking for…”
“The Dolphin’s Cry,” by Live (May 1, 2002); to everyone living (May 1, 2002): “Come to me sweetly, come to me /Love will lead us, alright/Love will lead us, she will lead us/Can you hear the dolphin's cry? /See the road rise up to meet us/It's in the air we breathe tonight/Love will lead us, she will lead us /Oh yeah, we meet again/It's like we never left/Time in between was just a dream.”
“Crush,” by Dave Matthews Band (May 1, 2002): “Crazy how it feels tonight/Crazy how you make it all alright love /You crush me with the things you do /I do for you anything too /Sitting smoking feeling high /In this moment it feels so right /Lovely lady /I am at your feet /God I want you so badly /I wonder this /Could tomorrow be /So wondrous as you there sleeping /Let's go drive 'till morning comes /Watch the sunrise to fill our souls up /Drink some wine 'till we get drunk /It's crazy I'm thinking /Just knowing that the world is round /Here I'm dancing on the ground /Am I right side up or upside down /Is this real or am I dreaming …”
“To Sir, With Love,” by Don Black (April 30, 2002): “The time has come for closing books and long last looks must end/And as I leave I know that I am leaving my best friend/A friend who taught me right from wrong and weak from strong/That's a lot to learn,/What, what can I give you in return?/If you wanted the moon/I would try to make a start /But I, would rather you let me give my heart/To you, with love…”
“And So It Goes,” by Billy Joel; This is one of the saddest songs I have ever heard. I’m not sure if it was originally covered by Billy Joel, but I am much more into the words, anyway. (April 30, 2002): “But if my silence made you leave,/Then that would be my worst mistake./So I will share this room with you,./And you can have this heart to break./And this is why my eyes are closed -/It's just as well, for all I've seen./And so it goes, and so it goes,/And you're the only one who knows…”
“Down with the Sickness,” by Disturbed (April 30, 2002): “Looking at my own reflection/When suddenly it changes/Violently it changes/Oh no, There is no turning back now/You've woken up the demon ... in me.”
“Stupify,” by Disturbed (April 24, 2002): “I've been waiting my whole life for just one ****/And all I needed was just one ****/How can you say that you don't give a ****/I find myself stupified, coming back again/All I wanted was just one ****/One tiny little innocent ****/And when I feel like I'm sh*t out of luck/I find my stupified, coming back again…”
“Big Machine,” by Goo Goo Dolls; for Peter (April 21, 2002): “…Nothing’s real and nothing lasts/And I’m aware/I’m in love and you don’t care/Turn your anger into lust/I’m still here but you don’t trust at all/And I’ll be waiting/Love and sex and loneliness/Take what’s yours and leave the rest/So I’ll survive/God it’s good to be alive…”
“Dreams,” by Fleetwood Mac (April 16, 2002); “Now here you go again/You say you want your freedom/Well who am I to keep you down/It's only right that you should/Play the way you feel it/But listen carefully to the sound/Of your loneliness/Like a heartbeat .. drives you mad/In the stillness of remembering what you had/And what you lost.”
“Even Angels Fall,” by Jessica Riddle; for Peter (April 13, 2002): “She made it easy, made it free,/Made you hurt till you couldn't see./Sometimes it stops, sometimes it flows,/But baby that is how love goes./You will fly and you will crawl;/God knows even angels fall./No such thing as you lost it all./God knows even angels fall…”
“Here is Gone,” by Goo Goo Dolls (April 12, 2002): “I'm not the one who broke you/I'm not the one you should fear/We got to move you darlin’/I thought I lost you somewhere/But you were never really ever there at all…/And I wanted to be/All you need/Somehow here is gone…”
“Time,” by Hootie and the Blowfish (April 12, 2002): “Time, why you punish me?/Like a wave bashing into the shore/You wash away my dreams./Time, why you walk away?/Like a friend with somewhere to go/You left me crying/Can you teach me about tomorrow/And all the pain and sorrow/Running free?/Cause tomorrow's just another day/And I don't believe in time…”
“Somewhere Out There,” by Our Lady Peace; for Jessie (April 12, 2002): “Last time I talked to you,/you were lonely and out of place./You were looking down on me,/lost out in space./Laid underneath the stars,/strung out and feeling brave./Watch the riddles glow,/watch them float away…/you gotta save your tired soul,/you gotta save our lives.”
“Big Eyed Fish,” by Dave Matthews Band; for Jessie and Emma (April 6, 2002): “But, oh God,/Under the weight of life,/Things seem brighter on the other side.../Lighter on the other side...”
“Black Rain” by Staind (March 30, 2002): “Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them to you/And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom from you/…It’s not easy to hide all this damage inside/I'll carry you with me until I'm not alive.”
“My December” by Linkin Park (March 25, 2002): “Just wish that I didn't feel./Like there was something I missed./And I.../Take back all the things I said./To make you feel like that./And I.../Take back all the things that I said to you./And I'd give it all away./Just to have somewhere to go to.”
“Lucky Denver Mint” by Jimmy Eat World; theme song (March 24, 2002): “This time it's on my own…/You're not bigger than this, not better/Why can't you learn./Hurry go on ahead./Good things won't let you wait./I'll catch up when we get home./At home I'll leave./A dollar under water keeps on dreaming for me…”
“Love Song” by Sky (March 22, 2002): “Then she decides that the dogs belong inside/It's a never-ending ride you're taking/I can decide for you/It's kinda like a love song…”
“Everlong” by Foo Fighters; for Peter (March 22,2002): “and I wonder/when I sing along with you/if everything could ever feel this real forever/if anything could ever be this good again/the only thing I'll ever ask of you/you've got to promise not to stop when I say when.”
“Warm Machine” by Bush; for Peter (March 22, 2002): “This is the night/This is the sound/Here comes the warm machine…”
“Name” by Goo Goo Dolls; for Peter (March 19, 2002): “You could hide beside me maybe for a while/and I won't tell no one your name/I won't tell em' your name/Scars are souvenirs you never lose , the past is never far/Did you lose yourself somewhere out there, did you get to be a star/Don't it make you sad to know that life is more that who we are?”
“All You Wanted” by Michelle Branch (March 19, 2002): “I wanted to be like you/I wanted everything/So I tried to be like you/And I got swept away…”
“Rings” by Toad the Wet Sprocket; to the new season (March 19, 2002): “You must cut me down to look inside.”
“Stay” by Lisa Loeb; for Vicki and forking (March 15, 2002): “So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up/And this woman was singing my song:/Lover's in love and the other's run away/Lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay/Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was/Dying since the day they were born/Well, well, this is not that/I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.”
“The One” by Foo Fighters; for Jessie and her lovely driving (March 15, 2002): “You’re not the one but you’re the only one/Who can make me feel like s***”
“Jeremy” by Pearl Jam; for Blair and for keeping me warm (March 15, 2002): “Clearly how I remember picking on the boy./Seemed a harmless little… Ooh, but we unleashed a lion./Gnashed his teeth and bit the recess lady's breast./How could I forget.”
“I Want It That Way” by Backstreet Boys; to the whole star-gazing crew (March 15, 2002): “You are, my fire,/The one, desire,/Believe, when I say,/I want it that way…”
“Tonight Tonight” by The Smashing Pumpkins; for Peter and for calling (March 15, 2002): “Time is never time at all/You can never ever leave/without leaving a piece of youth…”
“More Than Words” by Extreme (March 13, 2002): “Saying ‘I love you’/Is not the words I want to hear from you/It's not that I want you/Not to say, but if you only knew/How easy it would be to show me how you feel/More than words is all you have to do to make it real/Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me/Cos I'd already know…”
“Baby Baby” by Amy Grant; for Vicki (March 13, 2002): “And ever since the day you put my heart in motion/Baby I realize that there's just no getting over you.”
“Escape” by Enrique Iglesias (March 13, 2002): “You and me/Up and down but maybe this time/We'll get it right/Worth the fight/Cause love is something you can't shake/when it breaks/All it takes is some trying…”
“3 Libras” by A Perfect Circle (March 12, 2002): “threw you the obvious and you flew/with it on your back, a name in your recollection,/thrown down among a million same./difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed/and passed over/when i've looked right through/to see you naked and oblivious/and you don't see me…”
“The Hollow” by A Perfect Circle (March 12, 2002): “Run desire run/Sexual being/Run him like a blade/To and through the heart/No conscience/One Motive Cater to the hollow/Screaming feed me here/Fill me up again/Temporarily pacify this hungering…”
“Raining in Baltimore” by Counting Crows; for Peter (March 9, 2002): “These train conversations are passing me by/And I don't have nothing to say/You get what you pay for/But I just had no intention of living this way.”
“I Hope You Dance” by Lee Ann Womack; to the people who keep me going--you know who you are (March 8, 2002): “I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,/You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,/May you never take one single breath for granted,/God forbid love ever leave you empty handed…/And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance/I hope you dance....”
“Papercut” by Linkin Park; for Jessie and NYC (March 8, 2002): “It’s like a face that I hold inside/A face that awakes when I close my eyes/A face watches every time I lie/A face that laughs every time I fall/(And watches everything)/So I know that when it’s time to sink or swim/That the face inside is hearing me / right beneath my skin…”
“Let Her Cry” by Hootie and the Blowfish (March 5, 2002): March 5, 2002: “I say that I don’t care I just run my hands/through her dark hair and I pray to God/you gotta help me fly away.”
“Not Only Numb” by Gin Blossoms; the recent feeling these past few weeks…the numbness (March 4, 2002): “Changing shades within the evening/In a day then I'll be leaving/I'm not only back, I'm not only numb/When the air at home is thin/Getting out then looking in/Yeah she knows/It ain't awful hard to tell/What it's like, my little hell/Yeah she knows.”
“A Thousand Miles” by Vanessa Carlton; for Jessie and John (March 4, 2002): “And I need you/And I miss you/And now I wonder/If I could fall/Into the sky/Do you think time/Would pass me by/Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles/If I could just see you tonight…”
“Black Balloon” by Goo Goo Dolls; for Peter (March 4, 2002): “Comin' down the world turned over/And angels fall without you there/And I go on as you get colder/Or are you someone's prayer?”
“I’ll Stand By You” by The Pretenders; for Andrew (March 4, 2002): “Oh, why you look so sad,/The tears are in your eyes,/Come on and come to me now./And don't be ashamed to cry,/Let me see you through, /'Cause I've seen the dark side too./When the night falls on you,/You don't know what to do,/Nothing you confess/Could make me love you less./I'll stand by you…/Won't let nobody hurt you,/I'll stand by you…”
“Hey Jealousy” by Gin Blossoms (March 4, 2002): “And you know it might not be that bad/You were the best I ever had/I hadn't blown the whole thing years ago/I might not be alone.”
“11am” by Incubus (February 21, 2002): “…I start my day thinking about/What I’ve thrown away/Could I push rewind?/All the credits strewn/In signifying the end/But I missed the best part/Could we please go back/to the start?/Forgive my indecision…”
“Echo” by Incubus (February 21, 2002): “There’s something about the look in your eyes/Something I noticed when the light was just right/It reminded me twice that I was alive/And it reminded me that you’re so worth the fight…”
“Trouble” by Coldplay (February 14, 2002); for Jarryd: “I spun a web, it’s tangled up with me/And I lost my head/The thought of all the stupid things I said…/I never meant to cause you trouble/I never meant to do you wrong.”
“Turn My Head” by Live (February 13, 2002); for Peter: “Your eyes are crazy/I bowed to save my head and/I can’t forget you/but I can’t remember.”
“Age of Innocence” by Smashing Pumpkins (February 12, 2002): “If you want love/you must be love/but if you bleed love/you will die loved…”
“Breathing” by Lifehouse (February 10, 2002): “‘Cause I am hanging on every word you say/And even if you don’t want to speak tonight/That’s alright, alright with me/‘Cause I want nothing more than to sit/Outside heaven’s door and listen to you breathing/Is where I want to be.”
“Waltz #2” by Elliott Smith (February 10, 2002): “I’m never going to know you now, but I’m going to love you anyhow…”
“Whenever, Wherever” by Shakira (February 2, 2002); for Katty and Vicki: “Lucky that my lips not only mumble/They spill kisses like a fountain/Lucky that my breasts are small and humble/So you don't confuse them with mountains…”
“Angels Would Fall” by Melissa Ethridge (February 2, 2002); for Andrew: “So I’ll come ‘round and see you again/I’ll be just a very good friend/Have mercy on my soul/I’ll never let you know where my mind has been/Angels never came down…but if they knew, if they knew you at all/Then one by one the angels would fall…”
“Rockabye” by Shawn Mullins (February 1, 2002): “All her friends tell her she’s so pretty/but she’d be a whole lot prettier if she smiled once in a while/’cause even her smile looks like a frown/she’s seen her share of devils in this angel town/everything’s going to be alright/rockabye…”
“Movies” by Alien Ant Farm (February 1, 2002): “I want you to be free/don’t worry about me/and just like the movies/we played out our last scene.”
"Farther Down" by Matthew Sweet (January 27, 2002): "Farther down I’m desperate for you/Where you never have to know/Farther down I’m still without a clue/Just something, something takes my pain away."
"Tell Me What to Say" by Black Lab (January 27, 2002): "I would stop waiting/stop crying/stop reading into why you’re staying away so long/I would stop calling/stop writing/stop faking/stop denying/you’re as good as gone/But I don’t know/So you just tell me what to say/and I will say it to you."
"Bridges (Strength in Numbers)" by Dispatch (January 25, 2002): "The furrowed bed of sand worries again as it had before/waves left the land/for the falling leaves the child weeping alone/he’s letting go of the anchor and all the lines…"
"Hands Clean" by Alanis Morisette; for Blair (January 25, 2002): "We’ll fast forward to a few years later/And no one knows except the both of us/And I have honored your request for silence/And you’ve washed your hands clean of this."
"Flying Horses" by Dispatch; for Andrew (January 24, 2002): "I saw this girl with the most beautiful hair/She had it wrapped around her for clothes she did not wear/I asked her for a lock and complied/After leaving gorgeous footsteps/in the sand as if she didn’t care."
"Bohemian Rhapsody" by Queen; for Lindsay (January 24, 2002): "Is this the real life?/Is this just fantasy?/Caught in a landslide/No escape from reality…Anyway the wind blows/Doesn’t really matter to me."
"Independence Day" by Elliott Smith; for Michael (January 23, 2002): "So go to sleep/and make a change/I’ll meet you here tomorrow/Independence Day."
"Standing Still" by Jewel; for Laura and Vicki (January 22, 2002): "Do you want me/Like I want you/Or am I standing still/Beneath the darkened sky?/Or am I standing still?/With the scenery flying by?/Or am I standing still/Out of the corner of my eye?/Was that you passing me by?"
"St. Patrick’s Day" by John Mayer (January 22, 2002): "Here comes the cold/Break out the winter clothes/And find a love to call your own/You, enter you…"
"Space to Share" by Scapegoat Wax; for Andrew (January 22, 2002): "’Move along’ is all your heard/I’m sure you’re fine right there/But if you’re bad with words/We have a space to share."
"Mourning" by Tantric; for Jessie (January 17, 2002): "I purposely forgot about/Loving anyone/’Cause I’m the only one who has/Who has been stepped upon."
"Crazy" by Seal (January 16, 2002): "Miracles will happen as we trip…No, we’re never going to survive unless we get a little crazy."
"Last Night" by The Strokes (January 14, 2002): "Oh baby I feel so down, way to turn me off when I feel left out."
"Nice to Know You" by Incubus (January 5, 2002): "To obtain a bird’s eye/is to turn a blizzard to a breeze/I haven’t felt the way I feel today/In so long it’s hard for me to specify/I’m beginning to notice how much this feel like/a waking limb, pins and needles/Nice to know you/Goodbye."
"Forever" by Ben Harper (January 5, 2002): "Forever always seems/to be around when things begin/but forever never seems/to be around when things end/So give me your forever…Not a day less will do/From you."
"Wasting My Time" by Default (December 29, 2001): "Well this is not for real/Afraid to feel/I just hit the floor/Don’t ask for more/I’m wasting my time/You can’t stop the feeling/And there’s no reason/Let’s make the call and take it all away."
"In the End" by Linkin’ Park; for Jessie (December 22, 2001): "I tried so hard/and got so far/But in the end, it doesn’t even matter…"
"Raise Up" by Petey Pablo; for Lindsay (December 22, 2001): "This one’s for North Carolina/C’mon and raise up/Take your shirt off/twist it ‘round yo’ head/Spin it like a helicopter."
"I Wish You Were Here" by Incubus; for Andrew (December 22, 2001): "The world’s a roller coaster, and I am not strapped in/Maybe I should hold with care/While my hands are busy in the air/Saying, ‘I wish you were here.’"
"With or Without You" by U2; for Peter (December 22, 2001): "Nothing left to win and nothing else to lose/With or without you/I can’t live with or without you."
"Einstein on the Beach" by Counting Crows; for Kathryn and Vicki (December 8, 2001): "The world begins to disappear/the worst things come from inside here/and allt he king’s men reappear/for an eggman, on and off the wall/who’ll never be together again."
“3x5,” by John Mayer (November 25, 2001); for Peter; for Vicki; for Andrew: “I'm writing you to/catch you up on places I've been/You held this letter/probably got excited, but there's nothing else inside it/didn't have a camera by my side this time/hoping I would see the world with both my eyes/maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm/in the mood to lose my way with words/Today skies are painted colors of a cowboy's cliché/And strange how clouds that look like mountains in the sky/are next to mountains anyway/Didn't have a camera by my side this time/Hoping I would see the world with both my eyes/Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm/in the mood to lose my way but let me say/You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes/it brought me back to life/You'll be with me next time I go outside/just no more 3x5's…”
“Do What You Have to Do,” by Sarah McLachlan (November 15, 2001); for Andrew: “and I have the sense to recognize that/I don't know how to let you go/every moment marked/with apparitions of your soul/I'm ever swiftly moving/trying to escape this desire/the yearning to be near you/I do what I have to do/the yearning to be near you/I do what I have to do/but I have the sense to recognize/that I don't know how/to let you go/I don't know how/to let you go…”
“Fast Car,” by Tracy Chapman (November 8, 2001); for Vicki: “You got a fast car/And I got a plan to get us out of here/I been working at the convenience store/Managed to save just a little bit of money/We won't have to drive too far/Just 'cross the border and into the city/You and I can both get jobs/And finally see what it means to be living…”
“For Me This is Heaven,” by Jimmy Eat World (November 1, 2001): “this is what she says, gets her through it:/'if i don't let myself be happy now, then when?'/if not now when?/when the time we have now ends./when the big hand goes around again/can you still feel the butterflies?/can you still hear the last goodnight?/close my eyes and believe/wherever you are,/an angel for me.”
“Both Hands,” by Ani Difranco (October 28, 2001); for Vicki: “now use both hands/oh, no don't close your eyes/i am writing/graffiti on your body/i am drawing the story of/how hard we tried/i am watching your chest rise and fall/like the tides of my life,/and the rest of it all/and your bones have been my bed frame/and your flesh has been my pillow/i am waiting for sleep/to offer up the deep/with both hands.”
“Far Behind,” by Candlebox (October 20, 2001); for Peter: “But then some day we could take our time/To brush the leaves aside so you can reach us/But you left me far behind/Now maybe I didn't mean to treat you oh so bad/But I did it anyway/Now maybe some would say you're left with what you had/But you couldn't share the pain/No, no, no…”
“Blurry,” by Puddle of Mudd (October 12, 2001); for Andrew: “Everything's so blurry/and everyone's so fake/and everybody's so empty/and everything is so messed up/pre-occupied without you/I cannot live at all/My whole world surrounds you /I stumble then I crawl/You could be my someone/you could be my sea/you know that I’ll protect you from all of the obscene/I wonder what your doing/imagine where you are/there's oceans in between us/but that's not very far/Can you take it all away…”
“Kiss the Rain,” by Billie Myers (September 30, 2001); for Andrew: “Whenever you need me, kiss the rain/Whenever I'm gone too long,/If your lips feel lonely and thirsty,/Kiss the rain/and wait for the dawn./Keep in mind we're under the same sky/And the nights as empty for me, as for you/If ya feel you can't wait till mornin'/Kiss the rain…”
“Walking in Memphis,” by Marc Cohn (September 22, 2001): “But do I really feel the way I feel?”
“Above Me,” by Rufio (September 9, 2001): “You showed me life and lived nothing less/‘Cause you’re so above me/I'll take my time your memory is bliss/The angel above me/When I look at the stars they shine of your eyes/The sky it burns bright with your presence tonight/Yet you're so above me and I cannot fly.”
“Control,” by Puddle of Mudd (September 3, 2001): “I love the way you look at me/I feel the pain you place inside/Lock me up inside your dirty cage/While I'm alone inside my mind…”
“Superman,” by Five for Fighting (August 26, 2001); for Lindsay: “I can’t stand to fly/I’m not that naïve/I’m just out to find/The better part of me/I’m more than a bird...I’m more than a plane/More than some pretty face beside a train/It’s not easy to be me…”
“Stuck in a Moment You Can’t Get Out Of,” by U2 (August 24, 2001): “I never thought you were a fool/But darling look at you/You gotta stand up straight/Carry your own weight/These tears are going nowhere baby/You've got to get yourself together/You've got stuck in a moment/And now you can't get out of it /Don't say that later will be better/Now you're stuck in a moment/And you can't get out of it …”
“Pictures of You” by The Cure (August 21, 2001); for Desmond: “You were always so lost in the dark/Remembering/You how you used to be/Slow drowned/You were angels/So much more than everything/Hold for the last time then slip away quietly/Open my eyes/But I never see anything..."
“Hear You Me” by Jimmy Eat World (August 3, 2001); for Jarryd: “Never said thank you for that/Now I’ll never have a chance/If you were with me tonight/I’d sing to you just one more time/A song for a heart so big God wouldn’t let it live.”
“Schism” by Tool (June 21, 2001): “I've done the math enough to know the dangers of a second guessing / Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication /Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion/between supposed lovers/between supposed brothers/And I know the pieces fit.”
“Drops of Jupiter” by Train (June 8, 2001); for Jessie: “Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken/your best friend always sticking up for you/even when I know you’re wrong/Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance, five-hour phone conversation/the best soy latte that you ever had/and me?”
“So Right” by Dave Matthews Band (June 4, 2001); for Andrew: “Our love is so right/I’ll not forget how you look right now/Our love is so right/Remember let’s just move together/Our love is so right/I swear it cold last forever…”
“Make Yourself” by Incubus (May 28, 2001): “If I hadn’t made me, I’d have fallen apart by now/I won’t let them make me, it’s more than I can allow/So when I make me, I won’t be paper mache/And if I f*ck me, I’ll f*ck me in my own way.”
“Video” by India Arie (May 24, 2001): “So get in where you/Fit in go on and shine/Free your mind, now’s the time/Put your salt on the shelf/Go ahead and love yourself/ ‘Cause everything’s gonna be alright.”
“It’s Been A While” by Staind (May 21, 2001); for Peter: “It’s been a while since I could hold my head up high…” *if you don’t know these lyrics by now, you’re crazy!
“Here’s to the Night” by Eve 6 (April 17, 2001); for Jarryd: “Don’t let me let you go/Here’s a toast to all those who hear me all too well/Here’s to the nights we felt alive/Here’s to the tears you knew you’d cry/Here’s to goodbye/Tomorrow’s gonna come too soon.”
“Yellow” by Coldplay; for Peter: “I’d bleed myself dry for you…It’s true/Look how they shine for you…”
“Drive” by Incubus: “Lately I’m beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found…”
“Nutshell” by Alice in Chains; for Peter: “If I can’t be my own/I’d feel better dead.”
“Outside” by Staind; for Peter: “I’m on the outside/I’m looking in/I can see through you/See your true colors/ ‘Cause inside you’re ugly/You’re ugly like me/I can see through you/See to the real you.”
You've got a fast car,
is it fast enough so we can
fly away? --Tracy Chapman
