come back and sing to me

Out to Dry
by Live
The dust had just settled
She's wonderin', what happens now?
I don't know where I am
I've never seen this place before
Am I dreamin'?
Or is this the real world?
Your love's too good for me

Lay with me lady, you're drivin' me crazy
I promised you all my life
These things that sustain me, oh how they drain me
But I'll never hang you out to dry

The sun had just faded
She's wonderin', where are we now?
I don't know who, who I am
I aint never felt like this before
Am I dreamin'?
Or is this the real world
Your love's too good for me

Lay with me lady, you're drivin' me crazy
I promised you all my life
These things they sustain me, oh how they drain me
But I'll never hang you out to dry
I'll never hang you out to dry
I'll never hang you lord

Lay with me lady, you're drivin' me crazy
I promised you all my life
These things they sustain me, oh how they drain me
But I'll never hang you out to dry
I'll never hang you out to dry
I'll never hang you out to dry
Ooh ooh
(to fade....)
May 21, 2003

dunno where I want to be right now... Next Year
by Foo Fighters
I'm in the sky tonight,
There I can keep by your side
Watching the wide world riot and hiding out
I'll be coming home next year
Into the sun we climb
Climbing our wings will burn white
Everyone strapped in tight
We'll ride it out
I'll be coming home next year
Come on get on get on
Take it till life runs out
No one can find us now,
Living with our heads underground
Into the night we shine
Lighting the way we glide by
Catch me if I get too high
When I come down
I'll be coming home next year
I'm in the sky tonight
There I can keep by your side
Watching the whole world wind around and round
I'll be coming home next year
I'll be coming home next year
Everything's alright up here
When I come down
I'll be coming home next year
Say good-bye

awesome concert last night!
Declaration of Faith
by Zwan
this man you love, this boy you hate
the hills are his in all embrace
enchanted and not soon lost
this man you call with lover's draw
so coarse in kind it can't be sought
for leaving is what i do

i declare myself
declare myself of faith
i declare myself
declare myself of faith

ever wonder why they kill the weak ones, baby
there's no one here to care
someone always thought a good reason, baby
just why we're really here
affirm my power to spend my dollars, to get us home, yeah
i've got no money, got no secrets

maybe we were born to kiss another
maybe we were born to run forever
or maybe we were born to come together, or whatever
kiss me alone

this boy you chance, this man you'll find
will dry the tears behind your eyes
so stop laughing and play the muse
this heartache rots that which spills
from my heart into your will
so give in to the rivers wind

i declare myself
declare myself of faith
i declare myself
declare myself of faith

every wonder why they kill the weak ones, baby
so they can to testify
for every single ghost on that freeway, baby
has got to give a mild holler to spend my dollars
we've got to get away
i've got no money, got no secrets

maybe we were born to love each other
maybe we were born to run forever
or maybe we were born to come together, or whatever

kiss me alone
kiss me alone
kiss me alone
kiss me alone

maybe we were born to love
maybe we were born to love
maybe we were born to love
maybe we were born to love each other

kiss me alone
kiss me alone
kiss me alone
kiss me alone

maybe we were born to love
maybe we were born to love
maybe we were born to love each other
kiss me alone

Have You Seen Me Lately
by Counting Crows
Get away from me
this isn't gonna be easy
but I don't need you
believe me
you got a piece of me
but it's just a little piece of me
and I don't need anyone
and these days I feel like I'm fading away
like sometimes when I hear myself on the radio
Have you seen me lately?
I was out on the radio starting to change
somewhere out in America
it's starting to rain
could you tell me the things you remember about me
and have you seen me lately?
I remember me
and all the little things
that make up a memory
like she said she loved to watch me sleep
like she said,
"it's the breathing
it's the breathing in and out and in and..."
Have you seen me lately?

I’m Not Sleeping
by Counting Crows
Waiting for the moon to come and light me up inside
And I am waiting for the telephone to tell me I'm alive
Well I heard you let somebody get their fingers into you
It's getting cold in California
I guess I'll be leaving soon
Daylight fading
Come and waste another year
All the the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
When we see the early signs that daylight's fading
We leave just before it's gone
She said "everybody loves you,"
she says, "everybody cares"
But all the things I keep inside myself
they vanish in the air
If you tell me that you'll wait for me
I'll say I won't be here
I want to say goodbye to you
Goodbye to all my friends
Goodbye to everyone I know
Daylight fading
Come and waste another year
All the the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
When we see the early signs that daylight's fading
We leave just before it's gone

Miss You Love
by silverchair
Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But I'm not too sure
How I'm supposed to feel
Or what I'm supposed to say
But I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love

Make room for the prey
'Cause I'm coming in
With what I wanna say but
It's gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but...

I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

It's just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade and
I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

Remember two days
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

for Alan and John
Wish You Were Here
by Pink Floyd
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

for Tim, Dan, and John
Sexbomb
by Tom Jones
Aw, Aw baby, Yeah, ooh Yeak, huh, listen to this
Spy on me baby use satellite
Infrared to see me move through the night
Aim gonna fire shoot me right
Aim gonna like the way you fight
And I love the way you fight

Now you found the secret code
I use to wash away my lonely blues well
So I can't deny or lie cause you're a
Sexbomb sexbomb you're a sexbomb uh, huh
You can give it to me when I need to come along give it to me
Sexbomb sexbomb you're my sexbomb
And baby you can turn me on baby you can turn me on
You know what you're doing to me don't you. ha ha, I know you do

No don't get me wrong ain't gonna do you no harm no
This bomb's made for lovin' and you can shoot it far
I'm your main target come and help me ignite ow
Love struck holding you tight hold me tight darlin'

Make me explode although you know the route to go to sex me slow slow baby
And yes
I must react to claims of those who say that you are not all that huh, huh, huh

Sexbomb sexbomb you're a sexbomb
You can give it to me when I need to come along
Sexbomb sexbomb you're my sexbomb
And baby you can turn me on turn me on darlin'
Sexbomb sexbomb you're my sexbomb sexbomb
You can give it to me when I need to come along
Sexbomb sexbomb your're my sexbomb
And baby you can turn me on

You can give me more and more counting up the score
Yeah
You can turn me upside down inside out
You can make me feel the real deal uh uh
I can give it to you any time because you're mine
Ouch, Sexbomb, aw baby

Sexbomb sexbomb you're my sexbomb
And you can give it to me when I need to be turned on no, no
Sexbomb sexbomb you're my sexbomb
And baby you can turn me on turn me on
And baby you can turn me on turn me on
Baby you can turn me on turn me on
Ooh baby you can turn me on turn me on
Baby you can turn me on oh
Baby you can turn me on oh
Baby you can turn me on
Well baby you can turn me on

for John
Waiting
by Smashing Pumpkins
please drive slow
i've never been this way before
violence reels in the underground
yes, i am waiting
in silence throne
to fill the meetings
to strike me down
no more a reason
than god above
let your curses run
yes, i am waiting
for your love
for your love
radio waves of a dying sun
radio speaks my soul alone
forget my names, erase the page
and dinners draw the passengers
yes, i am waiting
in silence throne
my blood of treason
my tears of home
no more a feeling
than being cold
of playing on
yes, i am waiting
as i walk your street
yes, i am waiting
as i ride your dreams
yes, i am waiting
inside your doubts
inside your doubts
just let me out

for Dan
Build Me Up Buttercup
by The Foundations
Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down (let me down)and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby
When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart

"I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again
But you're late, I wait around and then (bah-dah-dah)
I run to the door, I can't take any more
It's not you, you let me down again

(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time, and I'll make you happy
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo

Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby
When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart

You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore
If you'd just let me know (bah-dah-dah)
Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more
Why do I need you so

(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time and I'll make you happy
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo

I-I-I need you-oo-oo more than anyone, baby
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart

for John
Miracle
by Vertical Horizon
It's taken much too long
To get it right
Would it be so wrong
To maybe find someone
A miracle

And all you really need
Is everything you could never be
And so you'd give it all
For a miracle

Is there a trace
Inside her face
Of a lonely miracle
And so you wait
And lie awake
For a lonely miracle

You never really know
What it is
Not until it goes
And if it comes again
It's a miracle

But what you miss is love
In everything below and up above
And could she bring it all
A miracle

Is there a trace
Inside her face
Of a lonely miracle
And so you wait
And lie awake
For a lonely miracle

for Angie
Tubthumping
by Chumbawumba
We'll be singing
When we're winning we'll be singing

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away

He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink

He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times

Oh Danny Boy
Danny Boy
Danny Boy

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

Don't cry for me
Next door neighbour

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

I get knocked down
But I get up again (we'll be singing)
You're never going to keep me down (when we're winning)

to Yitz
Feels Like Home
by Chantal Kreviazuk
Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

Hard Candy
by Counting Crows
On certain Sundays in November
When the weather bothers me
I empty drawers of other summer's
Where my shadows used to be
She is standing by the water
As her smile begins to curl
In this or any other summer
She is something all together different
Never just an ordinary girl
And in the evenings on Long Island
When the colors start to fade
She wears a silly yellow hat
That someone gave her when she stayed
I didn't think that she returned it
We left New York in a whirl
Time expands and then contracts
When you are spinning
In the grips of someone
Who is not an ordinary girl
When you sleep
You find your mother in the night
But she stays just out of sight
So there isn't any sweetness in the dreaming
And when you wake the morning covers you with light
And it makes you feel alright
But it's just the same hard candy
You're remembering again
You send your lover off to China
Then you wait for her to call
You put your girl up on a pedestal
Then you wait for her to fall
I put my summer's back in a letter
And I hide it from the world
All the regrets you can't forget
Are somehow pressed upon a picture
In the face of such an ordinary girl
When you sleep
You find your mother in the night
But she fades just out of sight
So there isn't any sweetness in the dreaming
And when you wake the morning showers you with light
And it makes you feel alright
But it's just the same hard candy
You're remembering again
Again
It's just the same hard candy
You're remembering again
Again
And it's just the same hard candy
You're remembering again
Go ask her to come around
And see me late after dark
Don't ask me to come around
Then wait to if there's a spark

Light in Your Eyes
by Blessid Union of Souls
I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

always been one of my favorite songs
Sleep to Dream
by Fiona Apple
I tell you how I feel, but you don't care
I say tell me the truth, but you don't dare
You say love is a hell you cannot bear
And I say give me mine back and then go there, for all I care

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds and you're not at all what you seem
This mind, this body and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise

I have never been so insulted in all my life
I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride
First you run like a fool just to be at my side
Now you run like a fool, but you just run to hide, and I can't abide

Don't make it a big deal, don't be so sensitive
We're not playing a game anymore; you don't have to be so defensive
Don't you plead me your case, don't bother to explain
Don't even show me your face, cause its a crying shame
Just go back to the rock from under which you came
Take the sorrow you gave and all the stakes you claim
And don't forget the blame

Walk This Earth Alone
by Lauren Christy
You're in the doors that keep revolving
The sirens that keep screaming
You're in the flashing of the headlights
The things that I'm believing

You're in the water that I'm drinking
the sound of 911
The walls that protect me
From the damage that you've done
In this world you are with me

But I walk this earth alone
But all I've eve known
Is you are right beside me
If I love you for a day
You'll blow my life away
Could I leave you behind me

You're in the crashing of the windows
The angels 'round the ceiling
You're in the fire in my belly
The fucked up way I'm feeling
You're in the warning on the label
The pills that disappear
The whines as I'm talking
The words you'll never hear
In this world you are with me
But I walk this earth alone
But all I've eve known
Is you are right beside me
If I love you for a day
You'll blow my life away
Could I leave you behind me
Could I leave you behind me...

another beautifulGreat Expectationssong
Siren
by Tori Amos
and you know you're
gonna lie to you
in your own way

and i lie some other day
you do, yeah
and you say girl

know know too well
know the chill
know she breaks
my Siren

know teenage flesh
know the chill
know she breaks
my siren

now i know the chill
no i

NEVER was one
for a
prissy girl
coquette
Call in For
an ambulance
Reach high
doesn't
mean SHE'S
holy
just means
She's got a Cellular
handy
almost
Brave
almost
pregnant
almost in love "VANILLA"

and you know you're
gonna lie to you
in your own way

and you don't need
the light on to guide you
through the southern lands
go said go yes

know know too well
know the chill
know she breaks
my Siren

know teenage flesh
know the chill
know she breaks
my siren

NEVER was one
for a
prissy girl
coquette
Call in For
an ambulance
Reach high
doesn't
mean SHE'S
holy
just means
She's got a Cellular
handy
almost
Brave
almost
pregnant
almost in love "VANILLA"

Criminal
by Fiona Apple
I've been a bad bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad sad world
When a girl will break a boy
Just because she can
Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to Suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need Guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds
Before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence
At hand
But I keep livin' this day like
The next will never come
Oh help me but don't tell meTo deny it
I've got to cleanse myself
Of all these lies till I'm good Enough for him
I've got a lot to lose and I'm
Bettin' highSo I'm beggin' you before it ends
Just tell me where to begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
I've got to make a playTo make my lover stay
So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

for Alan
Brave New World
by Styx
The lines are drawn in the sand across the caress of time
The lines are drawn in the sand across the caress of time

There's a face in the glass
Looking through the mirror
At the maze of my past
It was never clearer

On the distant horizon
The sun approaches
Better cover my eyes
Better hide the roaches

In the best of my time
There was something better
And the quest of my mind
Was to try and get her

Something simple and pure
As the thoughts in my head
Not the tears in the rain
Over me she shed

We were almost there
Still I was unaware

Here in the Brave New World's embrace
I watch the parade begin
Searching for one familiar face
And I wonder where I fit in
How will I know if there's a place
For me in the Brave New World

To be calm in the eye
Of the human storm
In house full of dreams
I am safe and warm

Looking back at a life
Filled with warm embraces
No regrets only memories
Of smiling faces

We were almost there
Now change is in the air

Until now I held the zone
I ruled the world
I called it home
I never saw the down side

See the now see the Zen
There is no division
Through the eyes of a child
There is perfect vision

And the best of our lives
Resonate the hills
And the sun's gonna shine
And you know that I will...

Apparitions
by Matthew Good Band
Say hello
Remain
Close to me
No goodbye suicide mystery

The rat in your brain
Turns a wheel
Connected to your guts and
All your thoughts are in me,
All your faults in me

What would you say
If we lived on TV
Besides all the things they told you

We're stuck
Inside our own machine
Apparitions

Say hello
Well is it strange
Where you are
Where you used to be kind of free
Are they laughing at you

The rat in your brain
Rules the world
From the comfort of your living room
Tell me are we leaving soon

We're stuck
Inside our own machine
Apparitions

one of the best workout songs ever
Bombs Over Baghdad
by Outkast
1, 2.. 1, 2, 3; yeah!
Inter-national, underground
Thunder pounds when I stomp the ground (Woo!)
Like a million elephants with silverback orangutans
You can't stop a train
Who want some? Don't come un-pre-pared
I'll be there, but when I leave there
Better be a household name
Weather man tellin' us it ain't gon' rain
So now we sittin' in a drop-top, soakin wet
In a silk suit, tryin' not to sweat
Hits somersaults without the net
But this'll be the year that we won't forget
One-Nine-Nine-Nine, and brutha anything goes, be whatchu wanna be
Long as you know consequences, to give and for livin' defenses
Too hot, I'm jumpin' jail
Too low to dig, I might just touch hell
HOT! Get a life, now they gon' sell
Then I might catch you a spell, look at what came in the mail
A scale and some Arm and Hammer, so grow grid and some baby máma
Black Cadillac and a pack of pampers
Stack of question with no answers
Cure for cancer, cure for AIDS
Make a nigga wanna stay on tour for days
Get back home, things are wrong
Well not really, it was bad all along
before he left, ads to a ball of power
Thousands of thousands miles per hour
Hello, ghetto, let your brain breathe,
believe there's always more, ahhhhh!

Don't pull the thang out, unless you plan to bang
Bombs over Baghdad!
Yeah! Ha ha yeah!
Don't even bang unless you plan to hit something
Bombs over Baghdad!
Yeah! Uhh-huh

Uno, dos, tres, it's on
Did you ever think a pimp rock a microphone?
Like that there boi and will still stay street
Big things happen every time we meet
Like a track team, crack fiend, dyin to geek
Outkast bumpin' up and down the street
Slam back, Cadillac, 'bout five nigga deep
Seventy-five emcee's freestylin' to the beat
Cause we get krunk, stay drunk, at the club
Should have bought an ounce, but you caught the dub
Should have held back, but you throwed the punch
'Spose to meet your girl but you packed a lunch
No D to-the U to-the G for you
Got a son on the way by the name of Bamboo
Got a little baby girl four year, Jordan
Never turn my back on my kids for them
Should have hit it (hit it) quit it (quit it) rag (rag) top (top)
Before you read up, get a laptop
Make a business for yourself, boy, set some goals
Make a fair diamond out of dusty coals
Record number four, but we on a roll
Hold up, slow up, stop, control
Like Janet, planets, Stankonia is only
A movin' like floor commin' straight to Florida
Lock all your windows then block the quarters
Pullin' off on bell 'cause a whippins in order
Like a three piece fist, 'fore I cut your daughter
Yo quiero Taco Bell, then I hit the border
Penny pap rappers tryin' to get the five
I'm a microphone fiend tryin' to stay alive
When you come to ATL boi you better not hide
cause the Dungeon Family gon' ride, hah!

Bombs over Baghdad! Yeah

B-I-G, B-O-I
An-An-Andre
To the T-O-P

Bob your head. Rag top.

(1, 2.. 1, 2, 3, 4) (Gimme some)

Power, Music, Electric Revival

Rapunzel
by Dave Matthews Band
Open wide
Oh so good I'll eat you
Take me for a ride
In your sweet delicious
Perfect little mouth
Thereupon I linger
You will have no doubt
I'll do my best for you I do
Love
Let's stop to get it going
Lost myself just thinking
About the two of us
From each other drinking
Begin with the lips
Fingertips and kissing
Turn me inside out
I do my best for you
Up and down we go
From the top you push me
This is such a thrill
Lost in love and dancing
Shake your tambourine
You blow my head open
Of this there's no doubt
I do my best for you I do
For you I would crawl
Through the darkest dungeon
Climb the castle wall
If you are my Rapunzel
You let your hair down
Right in through your window
Good they locked the door
I do my best for you
I think the world of you
All of my heart I do
Blood through my veins for you
You alone have all of me
I give my world to you
To you I will be true
Too good to be real
Smell of something cooking
My soul you're to steal
Food of love we're filling
What you've given me
For it there is no measure
Of one thing I am sure
I'll give my best for you
I think the world of you
All of my heart I do
Blood through my veins for you
You alone have all of me
From you my strength is full
To carry your burdens too
I give my world to you
Hip lock up so tight
You drive me crazy
Crazy is all right
With you looking at me
You make me feel high
Every single thing you do to me
Is like I'm drunk
I do my best for you I do

good CD
Truffle Pigs
by Matthew Good Band
Don't fail me now
Don't you even fucking think it
We're dead somehow
But somehow we're still breathing
The secret's out
But it's too loud to think it
Whatever drowns the counting machines out
That drive you to eat shit
Damn I'll bring them to their knees

Don't leave me now
Don't you even fucking think it
I'm not myself
But somehow I'm still being him
The secret's out
But it's too loud to think it
Whatever drowns the truffle pigs out
That drive you to eat shit
Damn I'll bring them to their knees
Jen, I'll bring them to their knees

for something a little different…
Mild und Leise
an aria by Wagner
Mild und leise
wie er lächelt,
wie das Auge
hold er öffnet—
Seht ihr’s, Freunde?
Seht ihr’s nicht?
Immer lichter
wie er leuchtet,
stern-umstrahlet
hoch sich hebt?
Seht ihr’s nicht?
wie das Herz ihm
mutig schwillt,
voll und hehr
im Busen ihm quillt?
Wie den Lippen,
wonnig mild,
süßer Atem
sanft entweht—
Freunde! Seht!
Fühlt und seht ihr’s nicht?
Hör ich nur diese Weise,
die so wundervoll und leise,
Wonne klagend,
alles sagend,
mild versöhnend
aus ihm tönend,
in mich dringet,
auf sich schwinget
hold erhallend
um mich klinget?
Heller schallend,
mich unwallend—
Sind es Wellen
sanfter Lüfte?
Sind es Wogen
wonniger Düfte?
Wie sie schwellen,
Mich umrauschen,
soll ich atmen,
soll ich lauschen?
Soll ich schlürfen,
untertauchen?
Süß in Düften
mich verhauchen?
in dem wogenden Schwall,
in dem tönenden Schall,
in des Welt-Atems wehendem All—
Breath—
ertrinken,
versinken—
unbewußt—
höchste Lust!

Something Isn't Right Here
by The Juliana Theory
Something isn't right here.
You've gone and left me on the ground.
Something isn't right in this world called confusion.
You gave it all away before you could lose it.
Something isn't right here on the ground.
You never said goodbye.
You died.
You chose to carry on a lie.
Something isn't right here. You've gone and left me on the ground.

Of a Broken Heart
by Zwan
If only I'd die
Just once in my life
Only try
To take a guess
To be the best
A feeling I hide,
That runs this world
That keeps us alive
I want you to climb with me

Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die

The heart of a child
Is in your hands
So let's see you smile
'Cause I'm not impressed with your loneliness
It's been a while
Since you forgave all your changes made
So lets count the miles together

Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die

If only I'd die
Just once in this life
Only try
Together

Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die

Lyric
by Zwan
here comes my faith to carry me on
faith not ungreat
i fight to to stay strong so i
stand accused of playing numb
i know it is wrong
for i give my strength
i give my heart
take these chains
and hold them as ours
for i must shine
and i will a star
in a season all mine

a lyric, a time, a crusade, a line
one minute, a friend, a road without end
a lyric, a time, a crusade, a line
one minute, a friend, a road without end

so fierce is the view
i cast about
i'm leaving no room
for you to get out
you'll never get out

don't, can few cry without and aside
i need you as my way
across my life
to spend these years
create a new thought
for i give you strength
and offer my heart
take these chains
and hold them as ours
for i'm a star
and i will shine
in a season all mine

a lyric, a time, a crusade, a line
one minute, a friend, a road without end
a lyric, a time, a crusade, a line
one minute, a friend, a road without end
a lyric, a time, a crusade, a line
one minute, a friend, a road without end
a lyric, a time, a crusade, a line
one minute, a friend, a road without end
a road without end

Pitseleh
by Elliott Smith
i'll tell you why i don't want to know where you are
i got a joke i been dying to tell you
a silent kid is looking down the barrel
to make the noise that i kept so quiet
i kept it from you, pitseleh
i'm not what's missing from your life now
i could never be the puzzle pieces
they say that god makes problems
just to see what you can stand
before you do as the devil pleases
and give up the thing you love
but no one deserves it
the first time i saw you i knew it would never last
i'm not half what i wish i was
i'm so angry
i don't think it'll ever pass
and i was bad news for you just because
i never meant to hurt you

happiness is never how you think it should be so
If I Told You This Was Killing Me, Would You Stop?
by The Juliana Theory
watch your mouth
hold your toungue boy
because you're running out of breath
running out of time
before every careless word that you utter
renders you utterly useless
now you're drowning in your own saliva
trying to speak yourself to the top of your hardcore world
well keep on talking
just keep on rambling
you've got your mouth full
now listen here's the pleasant part
you and i we fell apart
why don't you make up your mind
shut your mouth
burn your bridges
throw your words like an attack
stab me in the
wait a second what's that
i just heard
nevermind it's obviously useless now
you're standing on your soapbox
yelling from the rooftops
everything you say is a lie
now listen here's the clever one
who speaks before his thoughts are done
why can't you make up your mind
watch your mouth
hold your tongue
some things are better left unsaid
now i hope you're pleased
you let your pride stand tall
it danced within your words right before your fall
why don't you say that to my face
if i told you this was killing me would you stop?

Soma
by Smashing Pumpkins
Nothing left to say
And all I've left to do
Is run away
From you
And she led me on, down
With secrets I can't keep

Close your eyes and sleep
Don't wait up for me
Hush now don't you speak
To me

Wrapped my hurt in you
And took my shelter in that pain
The opiate of blame
Is your broken heart, your heart

So now I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray my tears
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools

One last kiss for me...yeah
One last kiss good night

Didn't want to lose you once again
Didn't want to be your friend
Fulfilled a promise made of tin
And crawled back to you

I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray myself
To anyone, lost, anyone but you

So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me, yeah
Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah
When god sleeps in bliss

And I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
And I'll betray myself
To anyone

Apparently this is which SP song is me. I think I may agree.
Ava Adore
by Smashing Pumpkins
it's you that I adore
you'll always be my whore
you'll be the mother to my child
and a child to my heart
we must never be apart
we must never be apart

lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find

and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head
we must never be apart
we must never be apart

in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart

drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you should ever seek to find
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
in time
we must never be apart

and you'll always be my whore
cause you're the one that i adore
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
in you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
in you I feel so pretty in you I taste god
we must never be apart

old school
Thirty-Three
by Smashing Pumpkins
speak to me in a language i can hear humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so I pull my collar up and face the cold on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you

Farewell and Goodnight
by Smashing Pumpkins
goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tite
may it hold you through the winter of a long night
and keep you from the loneliness of yourself
heart strung is your heart frayed and empty
cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love
it's unsung, and i say
goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always, to all that's in your heart

goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your
head lite with the wishes of a sandman and a night light
be careful not to let the bedbugs sleep tight nestled in your covers
the sun shines but i don't
a silver rain will wash away
and you can tell, it's just as well
goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always to all that's pure that's in your heart

And So I Died of a Broken Heart
by Zwan
If only I'd die
Just once in my life
Only try
To take a guess
To be the best
A feeling I hide,
That runs this world
That keeps us alive
I want you to climb with me

Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die

The heart of a child
Is in your hands
So let's see you smile
'Cause I'm not impressed with your loneliness
It's been a while
Since you forgave all your changes made
So lets count the miles together

Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die

If only I'd die
Just once in this life
Only try
Together

Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart
Until I die of a broken heart
A broken heart

Until I die

for John
Like a Stone
by Audioslave
On a cold wet
afternoon
no room for love and emptiness
by a freeway
i confess i was lost in the pages
of a book
full of death
reading how we'll die alone
and if a god will lay to rest
anywhere we want to go
in your house
i long to be
room by room
patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone

and on my death bed
i will prey
to the gods and the angels
like a pagan
to anyone who will take me to heaven
to a place
i would recall
i was there so long ago
the sky was bruised
the world was black
and there you led me on

in your house
i long to be
room by room
patiently
i'll wait for you there
liek a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone

in all i read
till the day was gone
and i sat in regret
in all the things i've done
for all that i've blessed
and all that i've wronged
in dreams till my death
i will wonder on

in your house
i long to be
room by room
patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone
alone

Into the Dark
by The Juliana Theory
"Into The Dark" Dad, your boy is about to fall. He walks the razor's edge.
He's on the brink of fading out. He's at his bitter end.
Dad, your boy who used to run, you taught him how to crawl.
He left home to find his own, now all he had is gone.

In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you and in your head where it dwells.
I'd give you my hand if you'd reach out and grab it.
Let's walk away from this hell.

Mom, your baby is on his way.
He'll soon be at your side.
Cause he's forgotten all he's known.
A part of him has died.
Mom may never understand why baby's come and gone.
He left home to find his own, now all he has are lies.

for Ryan
Echoes
Pink Floyd
Overhead the albatross hangs motionless upon the air
And deep beneath the rolling waves
In labyrinths of coral caves
The echo of a distant time
Comes willowing across the sand
And everything is green and submarine

And no-one showed us to the land
And no-one knows the wheres or whys
But something stirs and something tries
And starts to climb towards the light

Strangers passing in the street
By chance two separate glances meet
And I am you and what I see is me
And do I take you by the hand
And lead you through the land
And help me understand the best I can

And no-one calls us to move on
And no-one forces down our eyes
And no-one speaks and no-one tries
And no-one flies around the sun

Cloudless everyday you fall upon my waking eyes
Inviting and inciting me to rise
And through the window in the wall
Come streaming in on sunlight wings
A million bright ambassadors of morning

And no-one sings me lullabies
And no-one makes me close my eyes
And so I throw the windows wide
And call to you across the sky.

Black and Blue
by Counting Crows
Fading everything to black and blue
You look a lot like you
Shatter in the blink of an eye
You keep sailing right on through
Every time you say you're learning
You just look a lot like me
Pale under the blistering sky
White and red
Black and blue
You've been waiting a long time
You've been waiting a long time
To fall down on your knees
Cut your hands
Cut yourself until you bleed
Fall asleep next to me
Wait for everyone to go away
And in a dimly lit
room where you've got nothing to hide
Say your goodbyes
Tell yourself we'll read
a note that says
I'm sorry everyone
I'm tired of feeling nothing goodbye
Wash your face
Dry your eyes
Cause you've been waiting a long time
You've been waiting a long long time
To fall down on your knees
Cut your hands
Cut yourself until you bleed
But fall asleep next to me
Have a dream I'm falling down
On my face
Scrape my knees
Scrape my hands until they bleed
Cause you're fast asleep next to me
Next to me

Raygun
by Matthew Good Band
Shoot me with your raygun
Full of holes so the day light can get to what's dark
I remain trapped inside your body
the vice above your head
the hole inside your heart
shoot me with your raygun
full of night and day light savings
armor me with futile aspirations
the knives of many nations
a shovel and some dirt
digging down you'll find you're old inside
so shoot me with your raygun
full of holes of indignation
we've never been there before
take me with you
to the place where everything is unsaid
I remain trapped inside my body
wishing it was over

Shoot me with your raygun
through the night so the day light finds you
wishing it was over.
Shoot me with your raygun
through the night so the day finds you
wishing it was over
Digging it down you'll find you're old inside

So shoot me with your raygun
Full of holes of indignation
we've never been there before
you and me

will always remind me of this break
One Last Breath
by Creed
Please come now I think I’m falling
I’m holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I’m trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down

I’m looking down now that it’s over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say

Let me say
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down

Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there’s something left for me
So please come stay with me
‘Cause I still believe there’s something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me

Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking

L.A. Song
by Beth Hart
BETH HART LYRIC SHEET She hangs around the boulevard
She's a local girl with local scars
She got home late
She drank so hard the bottle ached
and she tried
but nothin's clear in a bar full a flies
So she takes
She understands when she gives it away
She says

Man I gotta get outta this town
Man I gotta get outta this pain
Man I gotta get outta this town
Outta this town & out of L.A.

She's gotta gun
She got a gun she calls the lucky one
She left a note right by the phone
Don't leave a message 'cause this ain't no home
and she cried
She cried so long her tears ran dry
Then she laughed
'Cause she knew she was never comin' back
She said

Man I'm gonna get outta this town
Man I'm gonna get outta this pain
Man I'm gonna get outta this town
Outta this town & out of L.A.

It's all she loves It's all she hates It's all too much for her
to take she can't be sure just where it ends or where
the good life begins
So she took a train
to a little old town without a name

She met a man he took her in
but fed her all the same bullshit again
'Cause he lied
he lied like a salesman sellin' flies
So she screamed
it's a different place
but the same old thang
It's all I love It's all I hate It's all too much for me to take
I can't be sure where it begins or if the good life lies within
So she said

Man I gotta get out of this town
Yeah now I gotta get back on that train
Man I gotta get out of this town
I'm outta my pain
So I'm goin' back to L.A.

still cannot decide if I actually like this song
Spin
by Lifehouse
Why would I chase your shadow all my life
And be afraid of my own?
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be than
Be alone and convinced that I know

When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
You and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
Cause I know I'm not sure
about anything
But you wouldn't have it any other way

When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
You and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

Spinning turning watching burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking crawling climbing falling
All my life has found its meaning

You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
You and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing

for Vicki and for break and for life
A Praise Chorus
by Jimmy Eat World
are you going to live your life wondering
standing in the back, looking around?
are you going to waste your time thinking
how you've grown up
how you missed out?
things are never going be the way you want
where's it going to get you acting serious?
things are never going to be quite what you want
even at twenty five you got to start sometime

are you going to live your life standing in the back looking around?
are you going to waste your time?
got to make a move or you'll miss out
someone is going to ask you what it's all about
stick around nostalgia won't let you down
someone is going to ask you what it's all about
what are you going to have to say for yourself?

i'm on my feet
i'm on the floor
i'm good to go<
so come on davey, sing me something that i know
want to always feel like part of this was mine
want to fall in love tonight
here, tonight

You Know You’re Right
by Nirvana
I would never bother you
I would never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
And I have never felt so well
Pain...
You know you're right

I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let's talk about someone else
Steaming, soup begins to melt
Nothin' really bothers her
She just wants to love herself

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it'll come to this
Things have never been so swell
And I have never felt so well

Pain...
You know you're right
You know your rights
Pain...

Always
by Saliva
I hear... a voice say "Don't be so blind"...
it's telling me all these things...
that you would probably hide...
am I... your one and only desire...
am I the reason you breath...
or am I the reason you cry...
Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...

I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess I'll pack all my things...
I guess I'll see you around...
Inside... it bottles up until now…
as I walk out your door...
all I hear is the sound...

Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...

I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...
Always... always... always... always...

I see... the blood all over your hands...
does it make you feel... more like a man...
was it all... just a part of your plan...
this pistol's shakin' in my hands...
and all I hear is the sound...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
and now I'm done with you...
Always...

Take Me As I Am
by Tonic
I never knew my father
I never knew his pain
Or that an empty home life
Would break him down again
So when I feel like running I have to look inside
I want to find the answer
I want to break my line

Fear falls down like rain
And it makes me whole again
Fear falls like rain

Take me as I am
I'm not broken
Pieces of my life are not tokens
I want to let you know that I'm still learning
How to love again and stop hurting

I want to roll my darkness into a million suns
I need to find forgiveness when all the pain is done
I want to hear I'm sorry, I want to let you go
I have to find my own life, I want to learn to grow

Fear falls down like rain
And it makes me whole again
Fear falls like rain

Take me as I am
I'm not broken
Pieces of my life are not tokens
I want to let you know that I'm still learning
How to love again and stop hurting

It makes me whole again

Take me as I am
I'm not broken
Pieces of my life are not tokens
I want to let you know that I'm still learning
How to love again and stop hurting

Tomorrow
by SR-71
Is it any wonder why I'm scared,
If I was a little younger would I care,
feeling like the walls are growing stronger,
i don't know if this cage can hold me any longer

You never dreamed you'd have to love your life so guarded,
cause they'll find a way to make you feel discarded

i'm not afraid of tomorrow,
i'm only scared of myself,
feels like my insides are on fire, and i'm looking through the eyes of someone else

I never thought they'd want me to go even faster,
never thought i took my foot off the gas,
everybody loves to be in on the pressure,
but i know they're all waiting for the crash

you never dreamed you'd have to live your life so guarded,
cause they'll find a way to make you feel discarded,
things have changed you've become a complication,
can make it through another days
humiliation

i'm not afraid of tomorrow,
i only scared of myself,
feels like my insides are on fire and i'm looking through the eyes of someone else
someone else...

is it any wonder why the answer keeps me petrified,
is it any wonder why,
i'm scared...

finally found out what song I kept hearing on the radio!
She Talks to Angels
by The Black Crowes
She never mentions the word addiction
in certain company.
Yes, she'll tell you she's an orphan
After you meet her family.

She paints her eyes as black as night now.
She pulls those shades down tight.
Yeah, she gives me a smile when the pain comes.
The pain gonna make everything alright.

Says she talks to angels.
They call her out by her name.
Oh yeah, she talks to angels.
Says they call her out by her name.

She keeps a lock of hair in her pocket.
She wears a cross around her neck.
The hair is from a little boy,
And the cross from someone she has not met, well, not yet

She don't know no lover,
None that I ever seen.
Yeah, to her that ain't nothing
But to me it means, means everything.

She paints her eyes as black as night now.
Pulls those shades down tight.
There's a smile when the pain comes.
Pain's gonna make everything alright.

now, I actually don’t like Eminem that much and have some severe reservations, so I sort of feel like a hypocrite for making his song the last one of the year, but this song is just so catchy! For Andrew
Lose Yourself
by Eminem
Look, if you had one shot, and one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted
One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip? Yo …

His palms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgetting
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's chokin’ now everybody's jokin’ now
The clocks run out, time's up over – blough!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't give up that easy, no
He won't have it, he knows his whole back's to these ropes
It don’t matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so stacked that he knows
When he goes back to this mobile home, that’s when it's
Back to the lab again, yo, this whole rhapsody
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

You better …
Lose yourself in the music, the moment you own it
You better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime

You better …
Lose yourself in the music, the moment you own it
You better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime

You better …

The soul’s escaping, through this hole that is gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is boring, but superstardom’s close to post-mortem
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows, it’s all over, these hoes is all on him
Coast to coast shows, he's known as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He's grown farther from home, he's no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cuz here goes the cold water
His hoes don't want him no more, he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds
I suppose it's old partner, but the beat goes on
Da da dum da dum da da

No more games, I'm a change what you call rage
Tear this mothafuckin’ roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playin’ in the beginnin’, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin’ and stepwritin’ the next cipher
Best believe somebody's payin’ the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I can't get by with my 9 to 5
And I can't provide the right type of life for my family
Cuz man, these goddamn food stamps don't buy diapers
And it's no movie, there's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard and it's getting even harder
Tryin’ to feed and water my seed, plus
Teeter-totter caught up between bein a father an’ a prima Donna
Baby mama drama screamin’ on and too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another day of monotony
Has gotten to me to the point I'm like a snail
I've got to formulate a plot or end up in jail or shot
Success is my only mothafuckin’ option, failure's not
Mom, I love you, but this trail has got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem’s lot, so here I go it’s my shot
Feet fail me not cuz maybe the only opportunity that I got

You can do anything you set your mind to, man

for Eliot
Think About Me
by Goo Goo Dolls
You take a lot of chances with your feelings
No one really knows what you feel
And fiction is the only way you're dealing
You turn your pretty head if it gets real

You take it so slowly
And your eyes look so lonely
And it's only when you think about me
Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me

I got head don't let me sleep
You got secret I can't keep
You see a little stranger in your mirror
The girl you never know is what you fear
You take is to so slowly
And your eyes look so lonely
But it's only when you think about me

Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me
All you want is something I can't be
All you want from me is what you need
And I'm saying

You take it so slowly
And your eyes look so lonely
But it's only oh you, take it so slowly
Now it's only 'bout me
When you think about me
Think about me
When you think about me
Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me
When you think about me

I don’t even know what to say anymore
You Were Meant For Me
by Jewel
I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
Got my eggs and my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you.
Break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
Never put wet towels on the floor anymore' cause
Dreams last so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
Called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
Picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
Saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
It made me miss you oh so bad
Dreams last so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
Go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides, what would I say if you had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday.
Brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up. Turn the sheets down.
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pj's and hot into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight
Dreams last so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you

for Jessie
Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)
by Green Day
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

for Jessie
Closing Time
by Semisonic
Closing time time for you to go out go out into the world.
Closing time turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.
Closing time one last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from.
Closing time - this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits - I hope you have found a friend.
Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Yeah, I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from...

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...

also a song that reminds me of Jessie, which I almost forgot until we heard it on the radio
Babylon
by David Gray
Friday night I'm going nowhere
All the lights are changing green to red
Turning over TV stations
Situations running through my head
Well looking back through time
You know it's clear that I've been blind
I've been a fool
To ever open up my heart
To all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule

Saturday I'm running wild
And all the lights are changing red to green
Moving through the crowd I'm pushing
Chemicals all rushing through my bloodstream
Only wish that you were here
You know I'm seeing it so clear
I've been afraid
To tell you how I really feel
Admit to some of those bad mistakes I've made

If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Babylon, Babylon

Sunday all the lights of London
Shining , Sky is fading red to blue
I'm kicking through the Autumn leaves
And wondering where it is you might be going to
Turning back for home
You know I'm feeling so alone
I can't believe
Climbing on the stair
I turn around to see you smiling there
In front of me

If you want it
Come and get it
Crying out loud
The love that I was
Giving you was
Never in doubt
And feel it now
Let go your heart
Let go your head
And feel it now
Babylon, Babylon, Babylon

thanks to Sharon, for introducing me to this lovely song
A Sorta Fairytale
by Tori Amos
on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i ride along side
and i rode along side
you then
and i rode along side
till you lost me there
in the open road
and i rode along side
till the honey spread
itself so thin
for me to break your bread
for me to take your word
i had to steal it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you,p> i could pick back up
whenever i feel

down new mexico way
something about
the open road
i knew that he was
looking for some indian blood and
find a little in you find a little
in me we may be
on this road but
we're just
impostors
in this country you know
so we go along and we said
we'd fake it
feel better with
oliver stone
till i
almost smacked him -
seemed right that night and
i don't know what
takes hold
out there in the
desert cold
these guys think they must
try and just get over on us

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this
day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i was ridin' by
ridin' along side
for a while till you lost me
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along till you lost me
till you lost
me in
the rear
view
you lost me
i said

way up north i took my day
all in all was a pretty nice
day and i put the hood
right back where
you could taste heaven
perfectly
feel out the summer breeze
didn't know when we'd be back
and i, i don't
didn't think
we'd end up like
like this

and for no good reason—except for that my hair really is everywhere!
Screaming Infidelities
by Dashboard Confessional
I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I were anywhere with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
And I am alone
In my defeat
I wish I knew you were safely at home.

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.

for Alan, the coolest The Cheat ever!
Requiem
by Jethro Tull
Well, I saw a bird today --- flying from a bush and the wind blew it away.
And the black-eyed mother sun scorched the butterfly at play --- velvet veined.
I saw it burn.
With a wintry storm-blown sigh, a silver cloud blew right on by.
And, taking in the morning, I sang --- O Requiem.
Well, my lady told me, ``Stay.''
I looked aside and walked away along the Strand.
But I didn't say a word, as the train time-table blurred
close behind the taxi stand .
Saw her face in the tear-drop black cab window.
Fading in the traffic; watched her go.
And taking in the morning, heard myself singing --- O Requiem.
Here I go again.
It's the same old story.
Well, I saw a bird today --- I looked aside and walked away along the Strand.

My Little Empire
by Manic Street Preachers
My little empire
Has risen and it's set
My little empire
Is as good as it can get
My little empire
Is coming around
My little empire
It don't make a sound
My royalty it does not exist
It is extinct for the eye to see
My ideology it is dead and gone
Almost forgotten for the eye to see
My little empire
I'm sick of being sick
My little empire
I'm bored of being bored
My little empire
I'm happy being sad
All of my sins are attempts to fill the voids
All of my voids they are filled with sin
All of my demons they are kept within
And all my violence it does not exist
My little empire
I'm happy being sad
My little empire
I'm fucked with being fucked
My little empire
I'm done with being dumb
My little empire
I'm happy being sad
Happy being sad
Happy being sad
Happy being sad

for Yitz; one of those songs that just hits you…
The Luckiest
by Ben Folds
I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here
And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know
That I am
The luckiest
What if I'd been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?
And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know
That I am
The luckiest
I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you
Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away
I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you
that I know we belong
That I know
That I am
The luckiest

Another great song. Thanks, David.
Don’t Stop Dancing
by Creed
At times life is wicked and I just can't see the light
A silver lining sometimes isn't enough
To make some wrongs seem right
Whatever life brings
I've been through everything
And know I'm on my knees again
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way
Children don't stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away...away
At times life's unfair and you know it's plain to see
Hey God I know I'm just a dot in this world
Have you forgot about me?
Whatever life brings
I've been through everything
And know I'm on my knees again
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way
Am I hiding in the shadows?
Forget the pain and forget the sorrows
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way
Children don't stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away...away
Am I hiding in the shadows?
Are we hiding in the shadows?

Shine
by Plain White T’s
You know it tears me up inside
to see the feelings that you hide
hide inside that empty bottle
i wish you saw how great you were
i wish you saw what life was worth
you wouldn't have you hide your problems
and i don't care what you might think
i think you've had to much to drink
can't even talk when your this way
runaway runaway
but that won't make it any better
runaway runaway
and make tomarrow harder to live
that today
there's so much out there you could miss
there's so much life out there to live
if you would just believe in yourself
you know you're better than all of this
you know you've got so much to give
but you're so afraid to give of yourself
and i don't care what you might think
i think you've had to much to drink
can't even talk when your this way
runaway runaway
but that won't make it any better
runaway runaway
and make tomarrow harder to live
that today
there's a bright light shining inside you
it shines out though your eyes
don't drown it away don't be afraid
don't hide let it shine
you say your lookin' for happiness
but when it comes you runaway from it
you tell yourself you don't deserve it
there's not much more that i can do
now the rest is up to you
until you love yourself you'll never change
runaway runaway
but that won't make it any better
runaway runaway
and make tomarrow harder to live
that today
you'll keep on running
until you deal with today

Die Another Day
by Madonna
I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I'm gonna kiss some part of
I'm gonna keep this secret
I'm gonna close my body now
I guess, die another day
Sigmund Freud
Analyze this
I'm gonna break the cycle
I'm gonna shake up the system
I'm gonna destroy my ego
I'm gonna close my body now
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go
For every sin, I'll have to pay
I've come to work, I've come to play
I think I'll find another way
It's not my time to go
I'm gonna avoid the cliche
I'm gonna suspend my senses
I'm gonna delay my pleasure
I'm gonna close my body now
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day

“All for You” by Our Lady Peace (November 11, 2002), really into Our Lady Peace’s Gravity: “Jack Kerouac K-K-K-Kerouac / On the road and in my head / And the irrelevance, intelligence / A new tattoo a lot more sex / Broken families / A new enemy / And you will not make up for this / This suburban man he wants discipline / But I just need a friend / It’s all for you / You got me where you want / It’s all for you / Just stop breaking my heart / You’re the blood of a seed and its all that I need / Got me where you want / It’s all for you / You got me, oh, you got me where you want”

“A Story About a Girl” by Our Lady Peace (November 11, 2002), for Jessie: “you waking up slowly / You're nothing but lonely / Are you waking up holding / Holding your breath / And are you looking for something / I promised you one thing / I promise I'll always / Always be / There / Baby girl, stand up and fight / This is not some paradise / Oh it's just where we live / And finally you think you're alright / And that it eats you up alive / You better get used to it”

“In Your Eyes” by Peter Gabriel (November 10, 2002), for Alan: “…All my instincts, they return / and the grand facade, so soon will burn / without a noise, without my pride / I reach out from the inside / In your eyes / the light the heat / in your eyes / I am complete / in your eyes”

“Try, Try, Try” by The Smashing Pumpkins (November 10, 2002), for Jacob: “Try to hold on to this heart a little bit longer / Try to hold on to this love aloud / Try to hold on for this heart's a little bit colder / Try to hold on to this love…”

“Just a Game” by The Stereo (November 10, 2002), for David: “this is all over now / i'll leave and you’ll be a memory / when you say goodbye / i'll leave and you’ll be a memory / will i be your memory?”

“Peanut Butter Jelly” by the Buckwheat Boys (November 8, 2002), for Maren: “It's peanut butter jelly time, peanut butter jelly time, peanut butter jelly time / Where he at / There he go / Peanut butter jelly / Do the peanut butter jelly, peanut butter jelly, peanut butter jelly with a baseball bat / Now, break it down and freeze / Now tic tac toe (uh-huh) / Tic tac toe (let's go) / Tic tac toe (you got it) / Tic tac toe (let's ride) / Now, freestyle, freestyle, freestyle, freestyle, freestyle, your style / Where he at / There he go”

“Best Years of Our Lives” by Baha Men (November 3, 2002): “I get such a thrill / When you look in my eyes / My heart skips a beat, girl / I feel so alive / Please tell me baby / If all this is true / 'Cause deep down inside / All I wanted was you / Makes me wanna dance / It's a new romance / I look into your eyes / Best years of our lives”

“Hallelujah” sung by Rufus Wainwright (November 3, 2002): “…Your faith was strong / But you needed proof / You saw her bathing / On the roof / Her beauty and the / Moonlight overthrew you / She tied you to a kitchen chair / She broke your throne / And she cut your hair / And from your lips / She drew the Hallelujah…”

“I’m a Beliver” by the Monkees (November 3, 2002), for Yitz: “I thought love was / More or less a given thing / But the more I gave the less / I got, oh yeah / What's the use in trying / All you get is pain / When I wanted sunshine / I got rain / And then I saw her face / Now I'm a believer / Not a trace / Of doubt in my mind / I'm in love / I'm a believer / I couldn't leave her / If I tried.”

“There by the Grace of God” by Manic Street Preachers (November 3, 2002), for John: “And all the drugs in the world / Can't save us from ourselves / Victims with the saddest hearts / Passing by the grace of God / There by the grace of God / With grace we will suffer / With grace we shall recover / There by the grace of God…”

“Mad World” by Gary Jules (November 3, 2002), ”one of the saddest songs ever”: “hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow / no tomorrow / no tomorrow / and I find it kinda funny / I find kinda sad / the dreams in which I'm dying / are the best I've ever had / I find it hard to tell you / I find it hard to take / when people run in circles it's a very very / mad world / mad world”

“Rx Queen” by the Deftones (October 30, 2002), for James: “I won't stop following you / now help me pray for / the death of everything new / then we'll fly farther / cause you're my girl / and that's alright / if you sting me / I won't mind / we'll stop to rest on the / moon and we'll make a fire / I'll steal a carcass for you / then feed off the virus / cause you're my girl / and that's alright / if you sting me / I won't mind / now look at em / look at em now / look at em sting / I see a red light in June / and I hear crying / you turn newborn baby blue / now we're all the virus”

“Sober” by Tool (October 17, 2002): “There's a shadow just behind me, / shrouding every breath I take, / making every promise empty, / pointing every finger at me. / Waiting like a stalking butler / who upon the finger rests. / Murder now the path called "must we" / just before the son has come. / Jesus, won't you fucking whistle / something but the past and done? / Why can't we not be sober? / I just want to start this over. / Why can't we drink forever. / I just want to start things over.”

“Forever Young” by Grasshopper Takeover (October 6, 2002), for Yitz: “You say love is what you need. I would do anything just to bring you up to speed, that all my hopes and all my dreams, they come together exactly as they seem. / First rule says you've got to believe in who you are. Second asks you to believe anything is possible. Third, get up and do it, boy you'll be a star. My roots are constellations, guiding me home 'cause I'm living for the love of rock and roll…”

“Don’t Fade Away” by Dead Can Dance (October 6, 2002): “Don't fade away / My brown-eyed girl / Come walk with me / I'll fill your heart with joy / And we'll dance through our isolation / Seeking solace in the wisdom we bestow / Turning thoughts to the here and everafter / Consuming fears in our fiery halos…”

“Wrap Your Arms Around Me” by Barenaked Ladies (October 6, 2002): “…Do you believe we are all innately good? / Do you think that you would love me till tomorrow if you could? / Would you please turn down the radio? / So we can speak / I put my hands around your neck and you wrap your arms around me…”

“Wild Night” by Van Morrison, for Vicki and 9/4: “And everything looks so complete / When you're walking out on the street / And the wind catches your feet / And sends you flying, crying / Oooh, oo-ooh wee The wild night is calling / The wild night is calling / Come on out and dance / Come on out and make romance…”

“Ghost” by Indigo Girls, on a sadder note…: “and there's not enough room / in this world for my pain / signals cross and love gets lost / and time passed makes it plain / of all my demon spirits / i need you the most / i'm in love with your ghost…”

“Help Me” by Nick Carter, heard it on the radio today. I am a dork: “I wish I could define / All the thoughts that cross my mind / They seem to big for me to choose / I don't know which ones to lose / And I've fallen down so far / I think I'll never feel life / About the love for me / Shining down here from your eyes…”

“American Girls” by Counting Crows, for Vicki: “…American girls are weather and noise / Playing the changes for all of the boys / Holding a candle right up to my hands / Making me feel so incredible / She comes out of closets every night / But then she locks herself away / Where she could keep everything from me / I could have been anyone you see / She's nothing but porcelain underneath her skin…”

“The Future’s Overrated” by Arkarna, for Andrew…and the monkey on the cover: “Right now i'm all alone, tell me who's gonna take the blame, / it's easy to shout about but nothing's gonna ease the pain / It wont be the same without you, It wont be the same without you, / There's no reason why you had to go, I did what I could, / Looking back now I realise, you've got to go while the going's good, / It wont be the same without you / The future's overrated …”

“Grace is Gone” by Dave Matthews Band: “I could never love again / So much as I love you / Where you end, where I begin / Is like a river running through / Take my heart, take my eyes / I need them no more / If never again they fall / Upon the one I so adore / Excuse me please, one more drink / Could you make it strong? / 'Cause I don't need to think / She broke my heart / My Grace is Gone / Another drink and I'll be gone…”

“On a High” by Duncan Sheik, to 8/27: “and there are some who say there are so many things I need / so I run or I fight and I crawl or I scream and I bleed / I bleed, I bleed / well, it's a lie it's a lie - don't you believe it. / if you're fine then you're fine - it's all how you see it. / oh, there never will be no conspiracy of happiness. / I'm on a high I'm on a high / and there's nothing more to it / I have the sun, it's a star / why should I refuse it…”

“Fortunate Fool” by Jack Johnson, for Eliot: “She's got it all figured out / She knows what everything's about / And when anybody doubts her, / Or sings songs without her / She's just so mmm”

“Nothing Compares to You” by Sinead O'Connor, forgot how much I like this song: “It's been seven hours and fifteen days / Since you took your love away / I go out every night and sleep all day / Since you took your love away / Since you been gone I can do whatever I want / I can see whomever I choose / I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant / But nothing ... / I said nothing can take away these blues, / 'Cause nothing compares ... / Nothing compares to you…”

“Green Eyes” by Coldplay, for Andrew: “The green eyes, / yeah the spotlight, / shines upon you, / and how could anybody, deny you. / I came here with a load, / and it feels so much lighter now I met you, / and honey you should know, / that I could never go on without you, / Green eyes.”

“Dosed” by Red Hot Chili Peppers, for Eliot: “I got dosed by you and / Closer than most to you and / What am I supposed to do / Take it away I never had it anyway.”

“You've Got to Hide Your Love Away” by John Lennon, I’ll always remember this song from the cruise: “How could I even try / I can never win / Hearing them, seeing them / In the state I'm in / How could she say to me / Love will find a way / Gather round all you clowns / Let me hear you say / Hey you've got to hide your love away / Hey you've got to hide your love away.”

“A Whisper” by Coldplay, perhaps my favorite song on the CD: “I hear the sound of the ticking of clocks, / Remember your face and remember too, / where you are wrong. / I hear the sound of the ticking of clocks, / come back and look for me, look for me, / when I am lost. / Just a whisper, a whisper, a whisper, a whisper. / Just a whisper, a whisper, a whisper, a whisper…”

happiness is free when
you lose your mind...