But there's not one soul who understands why

No one gets it no one sees

This isn’t a joke, this is really me

My life my pain it’s all real

Not a story nor tale ... this is how i feel

It does not leave it does not heal

This is my life my pain its so real

The tears burn and stain my cheek

As I cry myself every night to sleep

My body deteriorate I grow more weak

The slashes on my arm, a true indication of a freak

Why can’t you see you don’t you care?

I thought you were my friend but you were never there

Did I not make it clear I WANT TO DIE

Instead you brushed me off with a simple goodbye

But before I go, gone forever

I want you to know... that I will always remember

I had the strangest dream last night,
I woke up,4am in a fright,
I dreamed about a dear friend,
You'll understand it in the end,
I drempt that we met and began to chat,
Harmless conversation about this and that,
Then he put his hand on my shoulder,
I felt my heart as i began to studder,
He told me that he really cared,
And that he would always be there,
I felt so great to have a great friend as this,
So i leaned over and gave him a kiss,
He told me he liked me and i did too,
This is no joke,
It's really true,
In the end I gave a hug and a kiss and began to cry,
Because I did not want to say GOODBYE- By Jess

My name is Jessie,
My life is messy,
My feelings in my mind are true,
And there's no way im telling you,
Cause you will laugh and you will cry,
Then i will have to say goodbye,
Cause life is cruel,
I say it's true,
If it happend to me,
It will happen to YOU!- By Jess

I have a friend named Anthony,
He is very special too me,
When his online name appears on my icq bar,
The smile on my face goes on very far,
Im unsure what he feels about me,
I think it's good, most likely
What this poem says,
It's very true,
I cannot stop thinking about YOU- By Jess


As the sun is raised in the cool dark land so peaceful and bright
I get out of bed holding my koala tight,
I hold it close each and every day,
for it reminds me of my love so far away
I will not cry nor hide behind my hair
because i know you'll always be there
I love you soo much
That I smile in every way as i think about you every day, OUCH, papercut..the pain has such a way,
but when i think about you the pain goes away,
body, mind, soul and heart,
there is nothing that could keep us apart
i love you.....


(stress) aproach the door
(stress) walk into the parlor
(stress) going to the counter
(stress) setting up the appointment
(stress) choosing the ring
(stress) walking down the hall
(stress) entering the "room"
(stress) seeing the chair
(stress) sittin in the chair
(big stress) seeing the needle
(inbearable stress) needle held to the skin
(more unbearable stress) the count
3

2

1

(PAIN!!!!!!)
the needle through the skin
(shock) looking down to see a hole in your bellybutton
(amazement) smiling at what u see
(wierd) thanking the piercer
(relief) leaving the room
(surprise) seeing the price of the whole ordeal
(joy) leaving the parlor
SELF SATISFACTION=

IM NOT A CHICKENSHIT!


I've never had a feeling so right,
Like I have with you,
Can't explain the things you do,
But boy when you,
Tell me softly you love me too,
It's like we were ment to be,
So for eternity,
You will have a part of me,
And all i need,
Is for you to stay right here with me.

You are the reason that my heart beats,
I know I never thought,
I would ever fall so deep,
But now i see,
That the love that we share is oh so sweet,
What is i told you that i believe,
That you are my soul,
My destiny,
What is i was to say in every way,
Deep in my heart is where you'll be.

Time goes by when we stand still,
Love you for eternity I will,
I know that we were ment to be,
That's how i feel when you're with me,
Time goes by but we stand still,
Love you for eternity I will,
I know that we were ment to be,
That's how i feel when you're with me.

As you hold me close so tenderly,
I watch you fall to sleep,
I see in you the one who now completes me,
The half of me I used to be.

Time goes by when we stand still,
Love you for eternity I will,
I know that we were ment to be,
That's how i feel when you're with me,
Time goes by but we stand still,
Love you for eternity I will,
I know that we were ment to be,
That's how i feel when you're with me.

Time goes by when we stand still,
Love you forever yes I will,
I know we're ment to be,
That's how i feel baby!


i quietly walk up to you
(step step step)
i have a question to ask
(look into his eyes)
do you love me?
(stares into eyes)
please tell me you do
(pleading)
would you hold me close?
(hand to your chest)
would you hold me tight?
(hands to your chest)
tell me this
(stare deeply into his eyes)
would u kiss me?
(leans in)
would it matter what the kiss was?
(look of question)
no, of course not
(look of question)
wether a polite kiss to a romantic and passionate french kiss
(eyebrow raised)
would u kiss me?
(look of question)
i would not mind one now
(grins)
u know i wouldnt
(smiles)
u know i love you, dont you?
(look of awaiting)
(brings you closer)
would u stay here with me if i asked?
i think you would
(sigh)
just forget what i just said
(smiles)
just tell me u love me
(look of satisfaction)



I would walk to the edge of the universe for you,
Paint you a crimson sunset over sheltering skies,
I could learn all the world dialects for you,
Whisper sonnets in your ear discovering truth,
I could never worship pagan gods around me,
I will only follow the path that leads me to you
baby...always
Every step I take for you,
I will always defend, never pretend,
That every breath I take for love,
I could never be wrong,
The journey is long,
With miles to go before i sleep



My Definition

My eyes are the window to my soul,
My soul is what I truly am,
My arms, I use to hold you tight,
My waist, for you to lift me high,
My legs, to run up to greet you after being apart,
My mouth where I say "I love you",
My lips in which we kiss...
My heart is where you will always be....