the way i woke up this morning
is the way i always want to wake up
i've never slept so sound
knowing that in my dreams i see you
and will continue to see you when i wake up
This references a trip to Vermont her and I took together on Valentines Day during our 3 month anniversary where we slept together. I wouldn't make such a point of pointing out this line if it weren't special, so trust me: Vermont was special to our relationship.
you bring out the best in me
i can't believe myself sometimes
what i can do because of you
because of what you put in me
People that knew me before we started dating can atest to how much of an asshole I was 24/7. I'm still a huge asshole, but I'm a tad bit nicer at times. That's Amy's doing.
you will always be just as exciting
as the day i met you
I met her in 8th grade where I first had a crush on her. I found her an immensely exciting new person. We sang in the school chorus together and then the District Choir, which were like... super chorus for kids our age. And we got in. And spent lots of time together. And I was nuts about her more than any other girl. Recently, she asked me if I would still find her as exciting 20 years from now. That was my response. For more backstory info, I went to a different school at the end of 8th grade. I tried to tell her my feelings but fucked up big time and actually ended up saying "You know, I used to think you were a slut, but now I think you're really cool!!" After 9th and 10th grade at the different school, I got sick of it and went home, where, upon my return, Amy fell for me. We've been together since November 13th, 2003.
and the night i told you i love you
to existentialism on your floor
i knew that everything was right
This is exactly what it says. The first time I told her I loved her was when we were lieing on her floor listening to Straylight Run's "Existentialism On Prom Night." I would have said it earlier, much much MUCH earlier, but that moment just felt perfect, and I wanted the first time I said it to be memorable.
is it a panic attack
or just the feeling of one?
without you it's hard to really tell
When Amy and I don't see each other for extensive periods of time, I get nervous as to if she still cares for me and get sick. It usually ends up in just a lot of vomiting alone in my bathroom. Nothing really bad.
the tension, the terror
its all gone
That's a Straylight Run reference to the song "The Tension And The Terror" which is a love song to John Nolan's girlfriend. It felt right to quote because he's my idol.
