A Summer Too Long Ago To Remember (Explanation)
To start it off, this song is about the break of May Club. I was arrested for shoplifting and went by the first rule of May Club (no getting arrested, if you are arrested you are out) and removed myself from the band. It then ended. It was bound to end close to that time anyway, I just happened to be the one to do it. Josh stopped talking to me, John kept talking to me, and Alex and I never talked much anyway except at band practice anyway. The title for this song comes from the Taking Back Sunday song "A Decade Under The Influence." For some reason, that just makes me think of summer... That and the fact that May Club started summer of 2003 and ended near the summer of 2004. So the song...
You ask if i still hold a grudge
but how could i
there's nothing to hold a grudge against
(i only wanted whats best anyway)
there's no fight to be had
what would the fight be about?
this is only "he said i said"
i said nothing
i said too much actually (i forget what i said)
One night I wrote an entry over at livejournal saying how I wish I was playing in a band still after watching the extra features on the new TBS album. I saw the togetherness of the band and just remembered what May Club used to be. Well, David (Hoffman, the "manager" of our band) saw what I wrote and sent it to Josh, so he IMed me. He asked somewhat if I had a grudge, I don't remember the conversation exactly, but thats where that came from. The "I said nothing" line refers to how I called John and Josh to say I was out but I never called Alex. The "I said too much" line refers to how I kept talking to John and kept going on and on about how I hated Josh because since he stopped talking to me, I figured that he hated me, so I returned the hate. I'm good like that.
and he said "lets start this over
we never needed you anyway"
and he said "i can't let it end
i'm not ready to call it quits"
and you said "i can't believe you"
and i said "i never believed me either"
The first person is John. He hated Josh and wanted to continue making music, just without Josh. The second person is Alex. Alex went to Josh with riffs he wrote and the two of them are now in a band called Outbound, check 'em out (if you get the chance..). The third person is Josh. He sent me an e-mail saying exactly that ("I can't believe you") the night I left a message on his phone saying I quit. The last line is... guess who.
so lets call it a day
we can't work anymore
This refers to how May Club started to come at standstills during practice and wouldn't work.
am i too obvious for you?
i could be more cryptic if you like
hide my message in a barrage of words
that no one can understand
This is in reference to how Josh and John write: lots of metaphors. It's not meant as an insult but it kind of comes out as one anyway. This song is meant with any grudge in it to anyone, but it has the feel anyway.
i'd rather you hear me now
and know i didn't want it to end
This line is self explanatory.
"it's all a journey" (are those my words?)
i guess i ended it too fast
Josh wrote a song to me in Outbound, called "Having No Contrast" (click to read) in which he gave a line as a quote from me, being "It's all a journey." I never said that, but he said he thought it would have been a good thing for me to say. "I ended it too fast" is self explanatory.
but what are rockstars for, anyway?
sing it out, and sing it proud
Josh refers to himself as a rockstar a lot. "Sing it out..." is an obvious play to John Nolan and Straylight Run with "Existentialism On Prom Night" and "sing like you think no one's listening."
