Kaila stands awatch, sedentary, above the gradient blue silhouette of a bike that stands unaffected below her in my living room. She is clad in a reflective, almost luminescent silver top that neglects to obscure what approaches a unanimous majority of her torso. It is suspended by two transparent spaghetti straps embellished with vaguely orange beads that dissapear behind her shoulders. The remnants of a white skirt that has encountered a liberal set of hands and a pair of scissors covers no more than what is absolutely necessary to keep her appearance this side of pornographic.
Kaila greets me today with the same gloriously innocent expression she gave me yesterday and the day before. She is the first to see me as I step through the front door to my apartment. I traverse the cold tiles of my living room and relish the transition to carpet in my bedroom. Today, I notice the BMW catalog that I left carelessly the night before on my desk. The 3 series coupe straddling the cover is like a Topaz Blue island lost on the black center of my corner desk.
And I know I want it, that bmw - the one that omniscient car junkie/liberal arts major after omniscient car junkie/liberal arts major has put down in tirades that usually conclude that everyone and their half sisters from South Central Los Angles have BMWs these days. Now there's an argument for the Mercedes camp. Let's all buy a Benz so that we can differentiate ourselves from the destitute common folk from across the tracks that can still afford BMWs.
Don't think that I'm dropping the poser label on anyone who has bought a vehicle meant to be driven hard. Afterall, there are plenty of BMW drivers out there who know that LSD stands for limited slip differential and not lysergic acid diethylamide. I've even met a few, but not many. BMWs and Mercedes have always been status symbols in the general psyche - no one's ever denied it. But is every guy who buys one a poser hell bent on showing the world his "drive" and how good he looks in a convertible?
Say you saw a Jonathan, perhaps of the Tse variety, driving a 2002 Laguna Seca Blue M3 down the highway, hair combed and gelled, sunglasses obscuring his eyes.. Would the average passerby predict immediately that I was a self absorbed poser trying to elicit attention from every other decent looking female in sight? Would he even consider for a moment that I was perhaps just off work and on my way to a twisty section of mountain driving in Rockville, about to get the driving kick of my week?
Not all of us buy sports cars to meddle in the pool of attention-seeking driving neophytes who think that their cars are somehow extensions of their personalities. Some of us buy cars because we honestly cannot get enough hair pin turns and decreasing radius sweepers under out belts to stop our blood from boiling long enough for us to pull off of the track (it's usually the boiling coolant that does for me.) Affirmative, mam, one day I want to be able to afford a sporting machine because squirelly automobile antics on roads (with turns) make my day. Yes, I one day want to be able afford a high dollar sports car. No, I do not think that it will somehow increase the radii of my testicles, nor am I unhappy with the size of mine to begin with. So I sit here, laughing at the Bavarian Motor Work versus Mercedes-Benz debate. If I needed a status symbol, I'd wear hundred dollar bills on my collar and gold plated boxers that would only subtly show if my Versace pants dropped too far below my waist. (I don't happen to own anything Versace.)
The chase for money is undeniable. I'm in school because I'm afraid that if I leave, I'll be unable to sustain myself in the future. Chances are that you are too. I'll be the fifth perhaps today to admit that it goes beyond sustenance. I'm not afraid to admit that I want nice cars, a decent house, and hopefully a hot wife i'll get along with after the honeymoon's over not because I need to show anyone what I drive or where I live, but because I personally enjoy barnstorming around the mountains on the weekends and because I want to have a garage big enough to house my rig (and my bikes... "Bikes: keep it real.")
As for the supermodel wife, Kaila awaits in the living room. "Jonathan - Love, Kaila" signed on her money spot - must be a sure thing.