Disclaimer: I don’t own the Quest Team or “Where You Are”, by Jessica
Simpson. I am making no money out of this.
Category: HR Angst (I hope), music video.
Rating: 13+
Note: Another lame-brained fic originating from a beautiful song. Enjoy!
 
 

Jessie Bannon shivered inside her woollen sweater. She wrapped her arms
tightly around herself, trying to stop the bitter cold from freezing her to
death. It was quite funny, actually, she realized, shivering again. No
matter how many coats she wore or how long she sat in front of the fire, she
always felt cold. It seemed as though the warmth in her life had been buried
along with him.
Jessie let out a loud sob. A large tear rolled down her soft, pale cheek.
I promised myself I wasn’t going to cry again, she reminded herself. But the
tears wouldn’t stop when they started coming, and they came much too often.
Shivering again, Jessie realized that she had reached her destination.
Rockport Cemetery.
She looked down at the fresh grave at her feet, and the overwhelming grief
that overtook her nearly split her heart in half.
She felt the tears coming again, and this time she didn’t even try to stop
them. She knew she couldn’t.
Jessie knew he had hated her tears. She remembered the days of endless
laughter, the days that had gone by too quickly, the days that would never
come again. Remembering his smile, Jessie felt a sharp contraction in her
chest. The smile so full of sunshine. The smile that lit up her world in a
way she never knew was possible. The smile, so bright and luminous, had left
her in eternal obscurity…
Wiping the tear from her frozen cheek, Jessie knelt by the barren grave.
“Hi, Jonny,” she whispered. “I know I shouldn’t be here. I-I’m not allowed
to, actually.” Her voice broke. She took a deep breath. “It’s just that I
miss you so much…sometimes…sometimes I feel like I can’t go on. It’s so
hard, Jonny. I never imagined it would be so hard.”
Suddenly, she burst into tears. Her breath steamed into the icy air. She
fought to control herself.
“I love you, Jonny!” she wailed. “I love you and I want you to come back!
Please!”
Taking ragged breaths, she tried to calm herself.
“You know, my therapist says it’ll get better with time. She says it won’t
feel like there’s a hole I my heart. But she’s wrong Jonny. I know I’m going
to mourn your death every day for the rest of my life.”
And she knew that was the truth. For as long as she lived, this raw anguish
would chew at her heart. The tears of loss would stain her cheeks forever.
There was no escape from this sheer agony.
“You know, Jonny, I hate counselling. As if talking to some old lady will
make me stop missing you… But Dad and Dr. Quest are forcing me. Do you know
why? Because they think I’m crazy. I’m not. I’m not exaggerating when I say
that I feel you. I know you’re watching me every moment of every day.” She
paused. “That’s the only thing that keeps me from using Dad’s revolver on
myself.”
She glanced at her watch.
“Oh, no!” she cried. “I’m not supposed to be here. If our Dads find out,
I’ll be lying here by your side.” She smiled wryly. “Not that I mind.”

She kissed his tombstone, thinking that if she just wished hard enough, she
would feel the softness of his mouth. Her lips touched the cold stone.
“I love you, Jonny. I’ll be back.”
 
 

Walking out of the cemetery, Jessie suddenly felt a wave of warmth wash over
her. She smiled. Jonny.

As she strolled along, she starts singing,

*There are times
I swear I know you’re here,

When I forgot about my fears
Feeling you my dear…
Watching over me
My hope sees
Of what the future will bring
When you ride me on your wings
And take me...
 
 

Where you are
Where you and I will breathe together
Once again will be dancing in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
And you'll be smiling back at me
Only then will I be free
When I can be where you are.
 
 

Suddenly, a fuzzy image of a young blonde man can be seen walking behind
her. He is transparent, like a hologram. Jessie cannot see him, but she can
feel him, and hear that clear, familiar voice singing out to her:

And I can see your face
Your kiss I still can taste
Not a memory erased
 

She smiles. She feels warm inside. Warm and safe. She hasn’t felt this way
for so long. She sings:
 

Oh I see your star
Shining down on me
And I’d do anything

Both: if I could just be right there
 

Where you are
Where you and I will breathe together
Once again will be dancing in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
And you'll be smiling back at me
Only then will I be free
When I can be where you are
 

Jonny comes up close behind her, and touches her, then wraps his arms around
her, as she stands still. She cannot feel his touch, but she can sense his
tenderness.
His voice is so comforting:
 

Now baby there are times when selfishly
I wish that you were here with me
So I can wipe the tears from your eyes and make you see
That every night while you are dreaming
I’m here to guard you from a far

Both:
And anytime I feel alone I’ll close my eyes
And just be there where you are

Where you are
Where you and I will breathe together
Once again will be dancing in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
And you'll be smiling back at me
Only then will I be free
When I can be where you are

Jessie laughs, she cries, she is happy and she knows not how to contain
herself. She feels a certain peace in her heart and soul. She believes that
a day will come when she will see him—touch him—feel him once more.

Both sing out their feelings:

Baby, I still believe
I still believe, I will touch you that sweet day
That you take me there, where you are
I still believe, oh got to believe
I still believe, I will touch you that sweet day
That you take me there, where you are
I still believe
I’ve got to believe
I’ll always be waiting here
That sweet day.
 
 

As the song ends, Jonny disappears. Jessie reached the Quest Compound, and
walks inside with a lively smile on her face.
 
 

The End.