3/4/03

    The answer to the last moment of Zen's question is... "No." Yeah.. suckage... I really should start listening to my dreams... Friday night I dreamt of many things and many people. It was a regular "People-from-Sheila's-Life" marathon. I mean, every heart breaker, every heart broken all smushed into a surprisingly coherent dream. And of course it fortold the happenings of Sunday night when I was smushed in the back seat driving down the darkened highsway... I should of listened... I swear one day I'll snap and use my powers for evil.

    3/5/03

    Today I was "active" and "sweated"... "a lot." Well, actually I'm being over dramatic. I rollerbladed over to Mega's house and then we went for a walk for an hour or so. Today was a walking day. Everybody was out and about! I should start rollerblading more. I miss my old "Thunder Skate" days. I used to tear it up teenie booper style! But I brought some of the northern ice skate flavah to the blades! yo. yo. *cough* Anyway I also really have this urge to just go to the beach. Hopefully I will go friday night... I need to find a date for friday... hmmm... Oh! And happy birthday to my spit brother, Mike! You're a man now and you didn't even have to kill anything!

    3/6/03

    I'm such an idiot when it comes to talking to guys. It's amazing I've ever had a boyfriend. I'm not even seriously interested in this guy... I just want to get to know him. Is that so hard to ask? *combusts shortly after consuming own foot*

    3/7/03

    Midnight Madness at the fair.. oh my... *wink*

    3/8/03

    I'm getting better I swear.. just one step at a time... and speaking of steps I'm off to go swing dancing with Flipper. I've always wanted to go out to a dance hall but due to lack of oppourtunity and interest of others this will be my first time. Shall be fun. Also in other news, today reaffirmed my hatred for political debates... I know it's not good to get all apathetic but debates are never debates. They just end up becoming who can put down the other person more and feel better about themselves in the process. It's just too much of a pain. I hope today was just an unusually high "political" day at Squabble. Becuase it wasn't too enjoyable... Then again I'm partly to blame... I just can't keep my fingers still...

    3/9/03

    The song "Mad World" done by Gary Jules is so haunting... I never got to review it but please look into the movie Donnie Darko. Now I got that off my chest, onto some even more so emo news (not like it was a burden but I was just listening too it.) Anywho I dreamt on Friday of the happenings of Saturday night... This is the second time this has happened to me in two weeks (all prophecy like and such)... very weird indeed. I've gotten into the habit of listening to classical so that I sleep dreamless. But on the occasions that I had these dreams I had decided not to fear but delve into the affairs of my unconscious. Seeing that my dreams are often an open forum for them to play and torture me. This past Friday's was particularly haunting and I can't keep the twin events out of my head... They just keep on replaying as if I'm missing something and must go back. I don't remember the ending of the dream though... And the ending of last night? I have yet to really pin that down... I know how it must be. I just have to use my last bit of strength to make it so... sadly...

    3/10/03

    I just woke up. I have not gotten too much sleep of late and today was nice and stressful. SO the nap was needed. Today for my 1st period history class was the "pop" PSATS. Basically we were chosen to be "test" test takers and try out a new PSAT... for 4 and a half hours. SO yeah combined with that and running on fumes my brain had pretty much turned to mush. Mush I say... mush... and now it's Pizza Time.

    3/11/03

    Today while driving on Jason Avenue I came to a crossroad... Jason Avenue was perpendicular with a road named Jason Place. *sigh* I think about that right now and it makes me REALLY sad for some reason... really sad... this sucks...

    3/12/03

    I really hate two faced people.. even if it is to be diplomatic. I reallllly strive and I hope I succeed at not being that fake. Pisses me off. *pissed off* And my butt is numb! Grrr... It's just that; you like someone then find out weeks later that they haven't had the best thoughts about you. It would just be so much easier to know to scrap the relationship and not spend all that useless time on them. It's not like the relationship is really going anywhere... Also it makes you feel like a friggin' idiot. Here you are the whole time showing your weak side, being all vulnerable, and trusting. Meanwhile they are hating you for that behind your back. *sigh* It's just too much I wana go home.

    3/13/03

    < monotone >Today was my first swing dance lesson. I love swing dance. It's my new passion. I'm busy now. I'll elaberate with bad grammer and akward phrases later. Night. < /monotone >

    3/14/03

    I am SOOOO glad today is friday.. though it doesn't feel like it... I've had a rough week. This morning, I actually woke up without relatively any problem (despite the ache in my arm and stomache from the tetnus-diptheria shot I recieved the day before.) I had a feeling today would be a good day and would bring new and welcomed change. But honestly it hasn't been anything much... nothing horrible but nothing WOW! Ohwell, I suppose it still has 5 hours technically to turn for the best. Tonight actually is Bradford Family Game Fun Night at the Suarez residence. Yesterday I had the sudden urge to have an assorted game "pow-wow" per se. I love just hanging around playing some card games or whatever. It'll be nice and relaxing. I do love a man that can appreciate a good hand of "Hand and Foot." I just have to fine one... If not that... then a nice nose. mmm... yum...

    3/15/03

    I talked with X today and tonight he'll be shipping to Germany because his training is over. Wow... I can't even imagine that... just up and moving to a foriegn country, where you'll spend 18 months of your life. I mean, he knew about he was moving to Germany but really it just seems so exciting. So new... Also the "krew" heard from Aaron up in basic and though it was rough at first he's doing really well. I'm not all for joining the military but gosh what change! What an oppourtunity! *gets all dreamy* I miss the guys but they are doing fine and actually doing something with their lives. Kudos.

    3/16/03

    I have been tossing and turning majorly over the past few days. I blame my bad shoulder. On another random note, I skinny dipped yesterday. It was tons of fun. Very um... free. I'll have to do it more whether alone or not. Heck it's only the human body! Why be ashamed? *laughes* Note: I say this now. While fully-clothed and not in the prescence of men. ;P

    3/18/03

    I've beenn slack and now I pay for it.. with tons of bad luck and bad grades... I really know I could do better.. GOD DAMN IT! I deserve better! I hope. Anyway, my only solace is my crafty pants and the fact that I have cheese sauce waiting for me in the fridge... cold cheese sauce... *sigh* I swear this had a point.

    3/20/03

    Today was much better than the past few days. Not it luck but, I suppose, I had the right frame of mind... an apathetic one! *laughs* Anyway, I got a letter out to Jessica today. I had recieved one from her a week ago... it made me cry with bittersweet happiness. I really miss her like a fiend! I can't wait... *sigh* In other news I did not place in that play competition I had entered but Flipper got top three! MMMEAANNNIIINNNGNGGGG he gets his play put on... yadda yadda... I'm really overjoyed for him which overshadows my jealousy/disappointment. Always next year! Besides that Alaskan asshat didn't won... goodness indeed...

    3/25/03

    Woah... I had not updated for a while... Let's see what I've been up to... all listamitized!

• I can now "cuddle" in swing. I'm a swing dancing machine.. I run on groove. And I gots plenty of that! *4 steps in happiness* Swing is an utter blast and on Saturday a whole bunch of friends came out and tried it. I believe it went over very well... It better have... *grimace* *needs a fitted zoot suit*
• Slept 14 hours yesterday. I dreamt weirdly but pleasantly. Usually when I have the typical "romantic comedy" kind of dreams I get all depressed when I wake up... but this time they were a nice escape from the usual. Heck, if I can't have it in real life! They were so vivid too... mmm... And sorry guys I didn't have the dreams about anyone I knew just random niceness.
• Father recorded some in the studio with his new band, MoondoG. The last song gives me chills!
• I'm nobody's little weasel...

    3/27/03

    I like the list thing... nice and "bullety." So here we go... *leads into it with a under-turn swing spin*