And now some old moments of Zen from July 2001...

    7/1/01

    A while ago I listed all the most useless saying said to make someone feel better. I now just remembered one... If it was meant to be it will be. or it's sister saying... All things happen for a reason. So basically if it's not in fate's cards screw you. Trust me telling someone they can do nothing about the matter certainly does not help. We leave too much up to fate. I certainly don't trust it. Maybe if that person had just fought a little harder it would have been theirs. But no they didn't have the balls and took that stupid advice and things went on the wayside. You must fight for the things you love or you will lose them.

    7/2/01

    Now it's time for a new poll so like usual I take in the results for the last one. So the results for the Can a Sheep be Viscous? Poll our of 24 people:

    This was a point of debate for my optometrist and me. He seems to think that sheep are gentle animals. When I know the truth... Underneath all that fluff and meek eyes are a deep hatred that is only quelled by blood and lots if it. Beware next time you close your eyes and think of them... it may be your last...

    7/3/01

    I went rafting today. It was a blast! It's something I could really get into, that and spelunking. I really love the woods. I prefer it to Florida's tropical savannahs. Anyway I noticed one thing about myself today. I usually can be a bit chatty more so when nervous and there is silence but some days about 1 out of 30 I get stone silent. It's not that I'm not having fun or sad, I'm just silent. Like today I had a great time I just preferred to not talk. Sure, I had lots to say but I did not care to voice it. For some reason this really worried my friends. *laughs* Nice to know they care.

    "Better to be a silent fool than open your mouth and prove it."

    7/5/01

    Happy 4th on the 5th! Sorry I didn't update anything yesterday needed a break. Oh and what a nice break it was! Lately (a.k.a. the past few days) have been remarkable. I'm in a state of utter bliss. So good that it scares me. One of those thing that you are so high you can't imagine the bottom. This maybe cynical but now that things are going right, I know eventually things will go bad. The better things get, the worse things can get. Even saying that now makes me feel like I'm jinxing myself.

    I've gotten to the point that I've quit looking at my horoscope. lately it has been right on and when it's correct it makes me believe it when it's wrong. If you know what I mean. So far it says things are great but what if suddenly it tells me of an unknown danger? I don't want to know that. I don't want to even think of possible danger. I don't like the feeling of not being able to change the future it's too hopeless. So today I glanced at it for the last time. The last line was "Be ready for a successful and blissful life". I'll leave it at that.

    "I don't want to get down from this cloud."

    7/6/01

    I've been doing some soul searching and I realized that I have quasi-ego. Basically I have confidence in myself and my abilities and that I really do have a lot to offer to people. (Now here comes the but) But I don't think people realize that. You know one of those "Another face in the crowd" syndromes. So sometimes it looks like I'm trying to show off but really I just want people to realize how great I am... Okay now that sounds bad. I guess you'd only have to be me to understand. It's not that I think I'm better then everyone, just that I don't want to get lost in this sea of people. I'm proud so I show it.

    "Forget Science I need to learn more about myself before I can solve the mysteries of the universe."

    7/8/01

    I start my two day journey, down to my summer home in Florida, on Tuesday. And of course I have not packed at all. So I will be taking off about a week to get settled. Last summer I did not have internet so I was totally cut off from my friends. But recently my brother got a computer for college (he lives with us down there.) So if my brother's surgery goes well (he's getting that stick removed from his ass) hopefully he will let me use it. Peace and rice.

    7/21/01

    Well, plenty has happened in the past 2 weeks here's a short list to summarize.

• Got elastics for braces causing migraine headaches.
• Drove to Florida with my dad for 2 days or as I put it "extreme bonding."
• Took some guitar lessons with my dad. I'm really enjoying it.
• Saw millions of movies.
• Volunteered at FOS. I've been doing that for about 6 years. Today I went snorkeling with some people from FOS.
• Started a new part time job helping kids paint pottery at day camps. When I say part time job it means like every two weeks I do it. One of the most random things I've ever heard was uttered errr.. more like screamed was by a six-year old at the day camp. "The weirdest thing I've ever seen is my brother stuck his head up a dog's butt!" Is that even physically possible?

    7/22/01

    Well, today was a lazy day. After 16 hours of sleep I took a swim then off to the mall. I really despise malls but it was something to do. I noticed everyone I know are obsessed with mullets. It seems like it's a new fad. There are t-shirts, hats, and bumper stickers. If anything the merchandise are encouraging an awful looking haircut and the prosecution of those so blind they have it. *shudders* I'm sorry it should be some sort of child abuse when parents let their small children get them. Makes me wonder what people think when they say, "Hmm... how about something new? Make it short on the sides and long in the back."

    7/23/01

    I was thinking and I came to the conclusion one of the worst enemies against the War on Drugs are those who survived drugs. Every kid that I know that smokes say, "Well, my father smoked for 20 years and he didn't get sick." or, "Oh that's all hype I won't get cancer. *shakes head* That's the shame with kids now a days they think they are immortal. I don't think there really is a solution to this other then a good punch in the jaw. They can't smoke if their jaw is dislocated. ;P

    7/24/01

    I think it's about time I pull in the results to my latest poll: What do you think of the name Pantiehose Taro?

    So, I take it you don't like my new AOL screen name. It's okay... *sniff* I'll live. I think. Anyway the general consensus when I IM people with it is, "Are you a pervert?" It's nice of them to ask.

    7/25/01

    It's now... 4:54 AM. I've noticed something over the long hours in front of the glowing halo of my computer screen... I've noticed that I forgot it due to lack of sleep. This sucks... My new site layout is almost done except a few touch ups. Now I remember what I had once forgotten. I noticed that I've said notice a lot. *giggles* Now seriously people... After a few cups of coffee the descent is a steep one and leads you thirsty.. that's what I have learned.

    After long hours in my room the only thing that gave my parents notice that I was a live was a scream of horror when I heard the TV announce, "A new Elian like scandal has surfaced! Will they let the little Asian boy stay in the US?" It was too much for me to take at 4 AM.

    7/26/01

    “E to the I to the E-I-O”

    I recently took a trip to the farm. Yes, out to the boonies to roll in filth and get slobbered on. The reason we were out there was to see how an injured horse was doing, (My brother is a vet tech so he helped.) They are such majestic creatures. Horses are I mean not vet techs. *laughs* My brother is far from majestic, stinky but not majestic. I also got to pet a baby cow. It then tried to eat me. Silly cow people eat them not visa versa. I was frightened for a second but then I stepped away from the fence.

    7/27/01

    And now a lesson in English by Hanson...

    A MMMM-BOP is actually a section in time. It is catchier than a minute but more annoying and get's more radio attention than an hour.

    I think we can all sleep more easy now that we know that...

    7/28/01

    Today I literally dragged myself out of bed to go my D.A.T.E. course. Oh it's not a wacky game show where you are put through the rigors dating like I supposed. No, it's basically you sit in a room full of awkward people who don't know each other and a teacher talks for 4 hours about why you should not drink and drive. Boy was I surprised. ha ha ha... Ahh but the Drug Alcohol and Traffic Educational course is required in Florida if you want your license so I was forced to comply.

    The teacher was a nice guy and really tried but alas the class was boring as all hell. And likely hell is more amusing though more painful. The class is required to be 4 hours long and so the teacher could only say, "Don't be an idiot don't drink and drive." in so many ways. I think the treat of going to traffic school if you get caught driving under the influence is enough to scare anyone sober let alone the fines. Plus we got the privilege of paying $30. So as I see it the parents could just pay me $5 and I would do just as good of a job. Sure my class would consist of me punching everyone in the face and threatening I'd do it again if they ever drive under the influence. But at least it would be effective. Hey I could look threatening for $5.

    In the end all I really learned is if a 30 lb. child hit a telephone pole traveling at 40 mph (in a car silly) it would fly out of it's seat at 1,200 lbs of force... ALRIGHT! Also don't make jokes about hitting pedestrians around traffic school teachers... they don't seem to like it that much.

    "A test was taken where a 2 men had to travel 3,000 miles. One had to follow the laws and the other could speed and would be pulled over but not charged. The time he was arrested would just be added to the total time. Can you guess who won?"
    "Umm... the man that drove safely?"
    "Well, no but the point still is... DON'T SPEED!"

    7/29/01

    Yesterday as I flipped through the channels I landed on MTV. Weezer a favorite band of mine was playing their recent hit, "Hash Pipe." Unless you aren't "hip" with drug references "hash" is a drug. I noticed something peculiar, the censors beeped out hash but not bitch. Maybe it's just me but i think bitch is a lot worse than hash. I mean one is a drug (they can say cocaine on TV) and the other one is a degrading term for women. But then again after seeing Britney Spears prance around the screen in a tube top I guess bitch doesn't do too much harm.

    7/30/01

    Yesterday some friends and I got confused by a "Christmas in July" sale and went Christmas caroling. Boy were people in the K-Mart parking lot confused.

    In other news Justin is the most popular member of N'Sync, not only that but the most publicized. JC is a close second. This may not be big news to most but I just wanted to voice my opinion that if I was Lance I'd be pissed. I mean he has a good voice, he's young yet he's grouped with the other losers of the group (Chris and ummm... that big kid.) He's always in the background and he gets the second rate chicks. I mean Chris is like 30 and the big kid is errr... well he did get some girl pregnant so it's not a big surprise teens don't lust after them. If you ask me Lance got the short end of the boy-band stick.

    7/31/01

    I have a new found love for copy and paste after re-doing my site. So in honor I wrote this short poem, entitled "Technical Vinyl." It's free verse so get out your funny hats and bongos.