And now some old moments of Zen from April 2001...

    4/1/01

    I spent most of my day watching the health discovery channel. The new technology in the medical field is just amazing. I pretty much got addicted to the stuff. Kind of makes you feel lucky for your health because you never really know when something bad will happen. Also the love it takes to stand with someone while they are dying is just amazing. It gave me a much needed reminder of the beautiful side of the human race.

    4/2/01

    Well, I missed the bus today. And as the patented saying in my house goes, "Screw you. Now leave me alone. I'm going back to sleep." Sure I could of done more to prevent today's absence but who am I to rock the system? Actually my dad did get up at 8 and offered to drive me in. But since my school would rather me miss the day then go in at all I had to decline. See many times I was sick but I still came in half way through the day. And now I have a Saturday detention for 5 tardies to school...

    "Oh no... stand back I'm rebelling."

    4/3/01

    And now a random act of thought...

    I was talking to a friend yesterday about names. I don't know if I like my name, I guess I never thought about it. But there's one thing for sure, I'm glad that my name isn't Ashley, Brittany, or any other popular name. Don't get me wrong there's nothing wrong with those names. But it would drive me crazy if everyone had my name. It's kind of like our new car. It's silver and sleek looking like every other car. It makes me almost wish we had our old, crappy, but unique looking car back. It's been 7 months and I still pick my car out considering everyone in my township has my car.

    4/4/01

    I swim all summer every day around the clock for the past 6 years. Because of that fact I thought I'd do pretty good in swimming. I couldn't be more wrong... I must be the slowest swimmer... EVER. It's a bad feeling when you are half way to the wall and people already going past you the other way. And of course I had a make up test today. (tests are basically laps of a certain stroke) So I was forced to swim 3 laps without rest instead of the usual 1... Trust me that's hard, especially when your sore from karate the night before.

    4/5/01

    So our usual spring bomb threat is supposed to happen tomorrow. I don't really know whether take it serious or not. Either way I'm still going to school tomorrow. Last year there was a time set for when the bomb was supposed to go off. I remember sitting in the cafeteria while the students started counting down to our supposed death. It was one of the most morose things I have ever experienced...

    "So what are your favorite color roses?"
    "Yellow... Why?"
    "To put on your grave" *chuckles*
    "MOM THAT IS NOT FUNNY!"

    4/6/01

    So the day has passed and I haven't blown up. It was kind of nice having small classes. A lot of people did not go to school today. I didn't care. Heck, I even got extra credit just for showing up. The police never found the jokers who left the bomb threat. I guess it was some bored kids who wanted to miss school and give the student body a little scare. It still was horrible of who ever it was. I've never been in a serious situation were my life was endangered luckily. But I know those that have. And they still hurt

    "So you blow up yet Sheila?"
    "Hmmm... let me see..." *checks pulse* "Nope not yet."

    4/7/01

    I went to see the play Tea today in down town Pittsburgh. It was about the hardships of Japanese war brides. It was very good. Also last night I watch Fight Club for the millionth time. Every time I watch it I notice more details. It is definitely my favorite movie. The book rocks also. Those who think it is sacrilegious need to get a life considering it doesn't mention religion even once in the whole movie. And they apparently missed the whole point of the movie... It actually has a profound message behind the violence.

    "Only when you have lost everything are you free to do anything." - Fight Club

    4/8/01

    In gym class while we lift we listen to the radio. Well last week a song came on. It consisted of strange pops and whistles and inaudible screeches. After I regained consciousness I asked what this ballad of crapiness was. Someone told me it was "Lady Marmalade" remade by Christina Aguilara, Pink, and Lil' Kim. *sigh* Yet again another example why the originals should be left alone...

    "Voulez Vous Coucher Avec Moi"

    4/9/01

    I just got home from school and it's 10 o'clock. I have to pack, do 3 reports, and actually get some sleep. Tomorrow after school, I go to play practice, and then directly to the airport... Just thinking about it makes me tired.

    So I did it. I chopped off most of my hair. It's gone and I'm happy. I always say I need change. And I do I thrive on it. People talk about amputees and the phantom limb. It's basically the same thing. I just keep on wanting to touch my hair at my shoulder but there is none... I think all the compliments and the surprised looks I got from my new doo is going to my head. I am now just a walking ego/cool hair do.

    4/18/01

    Ahhh... It feels good to be back! Back to the ole grindstone I guess. Florida was good. Not much has happened really. Anyway here are a few things from my vacation.

• I broke my New Year's resolution... I was extremely bored.
• On Easter we jumped into the pool with our clothes on and played taunt the dog then see how many times you can run around the pool 'til you are forced to jump in. Funness...
• I learned a useful skill this vacation... CROCHETING! You laugh but if ever I'm naked and cold and have a large amount of yarn, I won't go cold for long. Plus crocheting is very enjoyable.

    4/19/01

    I am in a deep and bitter rage... They voted Roger off Survivor... Cold bastards... I have the urge handicap someone... I do regret setting that hobo on fire though... grrar

    In other news I got lost in school today. For 15 minutes... You think you know the school ‘til they switch one classroom in your schedule.

    "Umm... Sheila that's not a classroom... It's the janitor's broom closet."

    4/20/01

    4/21/01

    I got invited to prom about a week ago by a very nice guy. Anyway today my mom and me went dress shopping today. Good god I hate shopping... Whenever I shop even if I'm energetic when I walk in the store, within 10 minutes I get the urge to just lie down and sleep. I managed to stay awake today. And got a great dress. I won't spoil the surprise now but expect pictures.

    Tonight I spent a large time rolling around in the sweet new green grass. It was pure delightment. That's the one thing about Florida. You NEVER EVER lay in the grass. Just too many fire ants. But in the good ole 'Burg I can roll down my hill over and over again and only get a few slugs on me.

    4/22/01

    And now a useless piece of information provided by Satan himself, Martha Stewart...

    4/23/01

    4/24/01

    "My parents will probably kill me when they see this report card... Then they'll ship my corpse to school so I don't miss a day." - me

    Report card time rolls around once again. And if there is one thing I hate it is a teacher that won't give you the 2 or 3 points you need to bring up a grade. *grumble* My parents weren't very happy with my report card and I'm not either. I'm definitely going to buckle down this semester. Keep in mind I say this every semester.

    "Sheila you better get a job as a waiter because we aren't going anywhere in life with these grades." - my dad's response (By the way I only got 3 A's, 2 B's and 2 C's.)

    4/25/01

    Today was play previews during school a.k.a. I get to miss class and act. It's to entice more people to come to the shows by showing them some of the play. It was fun but now I'm exhausted. I have another long practice tonight. Ohwell...

    "You should really come see the play because there are a lot of kooch dancers. You heard me KOOCH dancers. Really! Doing their KOOCH dance." - My director persuading the masses to see the play

    4/26/01

    "SHEILA! NO more BUTT!" - My director's note to me...

    I'm tired... Tonight is opening night my body tingles in antici... pation. Wish me luck. And those who live near me come see On the Town.

    "Have you hugged your techie today?"

    4/27/01

    Yesterday's play did really good. I can only hope we can keep it up. As for today I've had a horrible day not counting the 5 tests I didn't study for. It seems now that some druggies in my 9th period class think I'd a drug dealer... They found an aspirin in my backpack and were convinced that it is Endo. I'm not quite sure what Endo is... Anyway they took it which I didn't care and then proceeded to draw naked women... OH those lovable pot smokers and their shenanigans...

    "Are you SURE you're not a drug dealer?"
    "Last time I checked I wasn't."

    4/29/01

    And now a deep and probably obvious thought by Sheila...

    I found that sure it's easy to act sad in a play if your happy in real life. But one of the hardest things is to act happy when you’re sad in real life. An actor draws from their experiences in life. When you are happy you can draw from the sad times and appreciate the glad moments even more. But it seems when sad it is impossible to remember the good times. Even the greatest of moments bring a frown to your face. The way things used to be.

    "Nostalgia is a bitch."

    4/30/01

    As I nonchalantly walked down the halls today a sudden realization hit me like a sack of bricks. OMG.. I actually have a free day. NO homework. NO play practice. I actually have no idea what to do with myself. I usually have something to look forward to. But all I have now is prom and that's 19 days away... Now I have time to think. And that's the last thing I need to do. I may actually go back to... reading. *gasp*

    Also I'm retiring from the eating weird foods for money business. I pretty mush crossed the line today. I've always been proud of my iron-lined stomach I inherited from my grandpa but today it was just horrible. Definitely not worth the 5 bucks I received.

    "Come on Sheila! Eat the tortilla/chip/ketchup/tatter tot/chicken/applesauce thing."