Everyone
This is what i do when I'm ready for change
Hide behind my insecurities and leave them to take the blame
EVERYONE
This is how I act when I'm pretending not to care
To let go of security when life treats me unfair
EVERYONE
I am a problem, I know it's true
Cause experience is honored and innocence is few
I'm sick of "no one understands me" and I am not to blame"
I know I am the enemy to your prominence and fame
Hey EVERYONE i'm listening and I'm ready for change
EVERYONE i'm watching you, waiting to fuel my flame

Don't look at me like you always did
You look at me like you always did
who said you could speak to me?
I'm angry and empty and dying to know why you had to abandon me
Now as we stand in the hall I'm lost for words
But you talk like you never hurt me
I choke on the speech stuck in my throat
That I'm too numb to let free
"Now she's glaring" you say
Well of course I'm glaring
Did you expect me to smile?
To welcome you back with open arms
When I'm holding back rage all the while?
And this morning my eyes were fighting back tears
Because you know what you've done is wrong
But instead of apologizing for your mistakes
You pretend you were right all along
And now I'm holding my breath
Hoping you're still the same
Holding my breath
But I know that you've changed
So don't look at me like you always did

I'm So Through With You
Fate let me down today
And it doesn't care if I'm okay
It just wants me to let you go
So I say to myself "self, I told you so"
And whether or not I'm mad at myself or you
Whether or not I'm gonna get through
I haven't decided
I kinda said goodbye today
This patchwork romance has started to fray
I had to make myself move on
Who knows now if that was wrong
And whether or not I'll still stare
Whether or not, I'm not aware
I haven't decided
And I'm burning all my mental pictures of you
And burying them with you
I'm so through with you
And after all my lies efface you
Peace will come from knowing I erased you
But I don't think that I can face you
Cause what am I supposed to do now if I can't chase you?

How Was Your Day Today?
How was your day today?
I'll just say I'm not okay and every time I try to think you're always in the way.
I saw your name again.
Will this issue never end?
I hate liking you this way when we're not even friends.
Cause I can't get you out of my head and I don't want to know what will happen if I don't.
Cause I'm not strong enough to force you back into the bottle on my shelf marked "I just won't."
Cause I'm falling again.
Back to where this begins.
And I almost like it.

If I Fall
"These slits that you do bear are your own fault" you said
But I know it's your words that cause them, don't pretend
And I can't rectify a piece of that
Forgiving's not a quality in me
And I can't rectify a piece of that
I don't trust you with a part of me
I faced rejection and you said "I told you so"
You refused to see all the dissent was your own
And I can't dissipate a piece of that
Contending's not a quality in me
And I can't rectify a piece of that
I don't trust you with a part of me
I felt your misery, I threw it all away
I hurt more than you could ever know
You say you understand but all of that's beyond you
When everyone's gone where will you go?
Cause your words will never break through this wall
Your words just can't catch me if I fall
Everyone's gone... where will you go?

The Pessimist
I have no goals, I have no life
Everyday with lack of strife
I'm a loser, friend's a user
I'm a begger and a chooser
Cause I'm not alright
I hat the sun, I want the rain
I'm always saying things in vain
Hypocrite, I'm full of shit
When I tell you not to quit
Cause I'm just a pain
My friends all suck
They're not like me
Preppy bastards bred now bleed
Their tagalong, I'm always wrong
Please sing me a different song
Cause I'm such a fiend
Don't lie to me
Cause I know that you hate me
But I wouldn't like me either
It's not your fault
It's all my fault

Passerby
Broken lights
Haven't shined on this city for a while
But still I can see
Cause there's something left
In this place that we consider our home
That keeps you alone
So you're driving away to the paper lanterns
That shine bright on the land of no return
But I'd be insane if I didn't follow
To the new places that don't leave you hollow
Cause you, you're the passerby
You say
Everything happens for a reason
Do you mean this?
I've been stuck here
Counting the stars from my window
Staying alone
So I'm driving away to the paper lanterns
That shine bright on the land of no return
And you'd be insane if you didn't follow
To the new places that don't leave you hollow
Cause I, I'm the passerby
You'll be my guide, you'll be my pride
You'll be my way
You'll be the one who's still holding on
When I start to stray
And all of your trials got you through the storm, into the rain
You are my guide, you are my pride
You are the passerby
Broken lights
Haven't shined on this city for a while
Can you see me?

City of Hope
Walking alone to the city of hope
And the rain is washing away my pain
So very close to salvation road
A million miles just to become sane
If words meant enough
I'd say them all to you
But I'm through
Walking alone to the city of hope
And I can't help but pick up the pieces
I feel I could break but I know I can take
All of your logic and reason
If words meant enough
I'd say them all to you
But I'm through
I guess I'm just sick of these memories pulling me down
Or Maybe I just don't want to ever be found
Walking alone to the city of hope
And I'm finally free of this disease
Empty head, I'm ready to start again
In a town of peace

Beautiful Disaster
She sings her diary a song of complaint
Wishing the wonders of the world away
What good can a broken heart be
When there's no fish left in the sea
He paints in black and red on a sky of gray
Bleeding shades and tears all fade
Does every night end days like these
Catching tears in twilight's breeze
You can't give back the cards on the table
Withered tethers of your fable
But someday maybe when you're able
You'll discover you're a beautiful disaster
His temporary high is running out
A new way to feel is all he thinks about
Broken inside, he falls to the floor
Maybe now no one will ever ignore
She finds his shattered heart cut from his sleeve
Trying to create a way for him to breathe
"Take my hand and I'll set you free"
And the red lights flash through her dreams
You can't rewrite the pieces of the book
There's no surprise when you've already looked
And though there's no fixing the bend in your hook
It's what makes you a beautiful disaster
I can't help but write words that scream from the pages
Like animals die to be let from their cages
I write to be heard but I don't make a sound
And I sing to the world when there's no one around
I will learn to appreciate myself
Get over my fear of fearing myself
Do it on my own, no one will help
Cause I am my own beautiful disaster