Four Down And One To Go

Tonight I'm no longer the host, your presence lingers like a ghost, why is it the ones you know the least you miss the most? Apprehensive is my state, my head pounds at alarming rates, why is it that I feel like I'm lost and out of place?

Stare at the mirror, time face my fears.

Tackling thoughts inside my mind, some say it's a waste of time, but I've got nothing else to do, dividing what is lies and truth. I arrived but came too late, I'm making others so irate, do I have answers? Don't think so, now it's four down and one to go. A last minute decision on my part, this one could build or destroy my heart, tough decision makes me pause, my decision, it never was.

I'm trying to slowly descend, why can't I make my will bend? Something's keeping me from trying to herald the end. I've refused to hold this rope, I've found something that let's me cope, simply put the ending to my pain was found in hope.

This isn't done, life has just begun.