i don't want to be a substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling
say 'keep within the boundaries if you want to play' say 'contradiction only makes it harder'
untangling the world. getting frustrated. not enjoying life. wish I could escape, but physical self-elimination does not seem right. gun to the head, knife to the wrist, poison to the lips. none makes sense nor ever will. salvation only in escape. no means is obvious.
consulted with stuffed animal last night. lost faith in god for the time being. time is indefinite. strangled mickey mouse. couldn't understand.
