stupid stupid stupid. Today was a bad day. Actually, it was ok until pe. In PE I didn’t dress & my 2 friends I was sitting with were talking about a class they have together. I felt left out and was just left with my thoughts which is always a bad thing. . .aside from that, I guess my day was good. . .we have tests the rest of the week in biology. : ( I don’t want to take tests. . .i’m going to wear shorts to school tomorrow. *aaahhh* I am kind of scared/afraid people will…who knows what. But I’m going to wear shorts because I don’t really care what anyone thinks of my weight anymore…
um..just a note..the way I talk, people might think I’m depressed/overweight/whatever. . .i’m not. I’m just uncomfortable with my weight, and I have problems with life. But I’m not depressed or overweight. Or anything else I might complain about in here. . .
I’m listening to everclear’s new song "wonderful." Mp3’s are lovely. : ) it’s a cool song. Everclear rocks…um…I am tired of this…not my journal but just…everything…I want it all to be over. Today I realized that my life is just a bunch of counting-down…"18 days left of school".."23 days until everclear’s new cd".."24 days until we go to the east coast"..etc, etc…and when the count downs are over it’s just life again, and it’s not like a big marking point in my life. . .teehee I started a new countdown today, except I don’t know the day I’m counting for. . .just a certain event that I will not mention here because if I do I will regret it.
anyway. . .i didn’t actually get to go to san francisco yesterday, we just drove through it. however, god damn I sound like a fucking scholar or something, I heard about a concert thing. . .everclear, third eye blind, slipknot, limp bizkit, godsmack, offspring, and stone temple pilots are some of the bands playing. . .of course I don’t care about any of them except everclear & third eye blind. I’m hoping I can go, but I doubt it. nothing like that ever works out.
fuck this shit.
close my eyes and I count to ten, hope it’s over when I open them
