hi. today was ok. i went shopping but did not buy anything. it sucked like shit. i was going to go to buddha's birthday, but i didn't feel like going over there just to feel depressed and be ditched. plus, it was raining and i thought we could go to the mall sooner if i didn't. i should have just gone. . .but whatever. i'm listening to 'adam's song'. i like this song a lot. i feel like screaming at someone. i think i better not go around my mom or brother.
i've decided i'm going to go on a diet. all the pants i tried on today were gross-fitting, and i can never find pants that fit me right. so i'm going to go. "remember the time that i spilled the cup of apple juice in the hall? please tell mom this is not her fault. i never conquered, rarely came. . ." today is such a stupid stupid stupid day and i have to go back to SCHOOL tomorrow with all the materialistic fuckheads i don't want to see them i want it to be summer so i don't have to do anything besides hang out and try not to kill anyone SCHOOL SUCKS SHIT it ruins everyone's lives nobody likes it why do we have to go? i don't know one single person who likes it it depresses everyone school should be optional.
i got a free mag with hanson on the cover today. i read the article and right now at this moment i feel that hanson is stupid stupid stupid. they're stupid teenybopper singers they're not any better than the damn boy bands they have teeny fans and i don't remember half the stuff i thought when i read it but i got mad at hanson earlier. maybe it was because i was already in a bad mood, but they made me mad.
well, i gotta go. bye.
they don't understand that i'm happy in hell with my heroin girl
