5 days until hanson!!!!!!!!

I’m starting to become re-obsessed. Hehe. =) today in biology my teacher showed us pictures of STDs, and oh my goodness I thought I was about to gag. I didn’t eat all day because of it. they were so disgusting. . .if I ever see the kind of rocks that those things looked like I will probably puke all over. Anyways. . .

in w.c. I got the highest grade on a test out of 3 classes. =) sometimes stuff like that makes me happy, but others it makes me mad at myself, [ooh alliteration] like I don’t have a social life and I’m too damn smart. But this one didn’t make me feel like that, because it was open homework, so anyone who did it could’ve gotten a good grade. ANYWAYS, enough about my stupid classes.

sarah and kyle cut today. I don’t know why. . .chelese told me that they have some sort of bet going on that sarah has to do whatever kyle says. I said "what the hell kind of bet is that?" but chelese seemed to think it was perfectly all right. What if he told her to have sex with him or something, though? Eek, then maybe she’d get one of those awful STD’s we saw pics of in bio. . .oh christ I don’t even want to think about it.

I’m listening to "little black backpack". =) I like this song a lot, it’s quite nice. At lunch there was basically NOBODY there, which sucked a lot. the people who were I am not too great of friends with, so I kinda stood with people I’m not really friends with. heh. I don’t mind sitting by myself but I don’t want people to look at me and think ‘oh look at her, she’s just a stupid loner. . .sitting all by herself. . .’ so I made it look like I wasn’t. heh.

Today jenna made me think that I care about how I look too much. Which isn’t really true, if I actually did care about how I look too much I’d wear a lot of makeup and blow dry my hair for hours every morning [there’s a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriend’s four post bed. . .]. I was saying something about my hair, and she said something like ‘terra, you care entirely too much.’ That made me feel terrible, horrible, no good, very bad, because I felt vain. Who wants to be vain? There is a happy medium between vain and not caring at all, and I think that’s where I am. Jenna just doesn’t.

tomorrow’s friiiiiday! I have so much dang homework due in the next few weeks I’m probably going to spontaneously combust. Hey, that’d be cool. I’ve always wanted to spontaneously combust, but not I just don’t want to as much. But anyways, my homework. Nobody wants to hear about it, so I won’t mention what all I have, but it’s way too much. Teachers should be fired for assigning so much homework.

well, I should go. I’m in a talk-y mood, so I could talk all night, but I’m going to put this online & check my email & stuff now. . .hopefully someone’s online so I can talk to them!

absence of agony, pleasure from the lack of pain