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Well, we have a little more on a few characters that are on the site but it isn't typed... oh well. I'm not actually sure why I keep writing these people, I just can't stop seeing them but they don't seem to have any relevance to, well, anything...

As a side note, have you ever had that tenseness in your stomach that won't go away. That feeling that comes up whenever you talk about something but you're not sure why? I can't quite figure it out... it hurts but has no point of pain, it confuses me but I don't know why or how or... anything.

Have you ever sat back, taken a good look at your life and said, 'yeah, this is exactly what I wanted' then turned and cried 'cause you want more? Or you want something different or you don't really want anything at all because you have almost all of what you want but you're still unhappy and in pain and wondeing what in hell you are doing with your life... I do it all the time. Throughout my life I have said "hm, I don't like this, I want... that." Then you get *that* and you love it, it feels just as good as you though it would, it looks just like you wanted and sometimes even better but you still want something else, something more. I know that I have a few great goals in my life and when I get them I'm going to sit back, look around and say, 'hey, I actually got it... what next?' Is there no end to this? I want an end, I want... I want a time when... no I don't know what I want...

I'm going now...

love.