Saturday, April 29, 2006

One week till history AP. Crunch time begins. Last night, my day began at midnight, studying.

I'm not happy right now.

I was sure I was above mood swings, but apparently it's gonna be some time before I'm finally over it.

I'm always in a good mood before school, and I was so today in particular, for no particular reason, though I imagine it had something to do with the shining sun and the brisk, cool weather. Sometimes this happy mood carries through even English and Steege, allowing the inevitable rejuvenation during third and fourth period.

Today was one of such days. I managed to keep a stiff upper lip throughout a brutal discussion of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, and even bombing the Steege multiple choice couldn't discourage me. Third period, I cranked out an AP Chem homework assignment briskly. I lost my fourth period exuberance slowly as fourth period passed. I did really badly in grades. I wish I were capable of being happy while doing badly... but I guess I'm not...

No classes sixth, seventh, or eighth today thanks to senior community service day. Meaning that I was surprisingly giddy during French class.

I can't help making a jackass of myself when I interact with people. Seventh period selling stuff for Hope in Haiti...

Math team was like Chemistry. Doing badly incenses me or depresses me. I'm particularly displeased with the math team judge. "How many days do Sue and Ed have off together?"

If you're an employer, you're going to wonder how many days of work total you're gonna lose. And there is no implication of a relationship. Fuck that.

Dinner with Anton and Robert: Quality male bonding time in the spiffin' new T-shirt.

Then Hope in Haiti. Again, jackassery abounds, as well as adrenaline.

Evening: Massive downturn. Massive downturn after returning home for a bit. Not typingi tu p a second tmie, but you can ask me for the whole story..

I love my hypocrisy.

1:36p.m.

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