Oh What Tangled Webs We Weave...

I can't believe it. I'm shocked. I'm more than shocked. I'm stunned, I'm a babbling mass of incoherency. On the other hand, I've been expecting it and preparing myself for it for almost a year now. Although I'd let my guard down and figured that if it happened by now, it would never happen. I was wrong.

When the cops arrested me and I was sitting there wondering who the hell would do this, Test never crossed my mind. I covered everyone, from Kurt, to Foley, to Vince, to Steph, to Billy, to Rock. Hell I even thought it might have been Austin coming back. Test! Fuck, I'm blown away.

I don't blame him one little bit. I mean, to fuck up someone's wedding like that is a fairly shitty thing to do. OK, incredibly shitty, I admit it. I want to apolgise to him, for treating his emotions as a tool, but I doubt he'd accept it. Honestly the thought of saying sorry to him had never crossed my mind before, but on Raw I saw something in his eyes that I'd never seen before. Self -disgust.

I don't know Test that well, but our time together in the Corporation taught me someting. He's not the kind of guy that beats himself up over anything. If he fucks up, he's the type of guy who'll say "Well I made a mistake. I'm not gonna dwell on it, next time I'll know better." He doesn't hold him back from

anything and he definately doesn't hold grudges against himself.

Obviously Test is pissed at himself about something, but what? Normally I'd turn to who I usually turn to in times of crisis, but now is probably not the best time to be calling Chyna. She can tell Shawn all she wants that things are ok with her and Eddie, but I know her. Nothing is as she wants it to appear. Eddie had better treat her right or he is in serious trouble.

Shawn called straight after Raw. He wants to know if he should come down for a few days. I'd love to see him again, but I don't want to drag him into all this. Things are messy enough as it is. It's amazing how far this has all spread. I'd only planned to hurt Vince. Instead I've dragged in Chyna, Eddie, Kurt and poor Test. For that I'm truly sorry.

I don't believe it! What the hell gives him the right? Where does he get off pulling a stunt like that? He has no right to interfere in my marriage, none whatsoever!! I can't believe what a monster he is dragging all those innocent people into this! Poor Kurt was absolutely destroyed that someone would think he'd do such a horrible thing!

Most people don't understand Kurt. He really is kind and gentle and very intelligent. Everyone thinks he's very arrogant but he just has very high standards for living his own life and he expects everyone else to have those same standards.

I don't understand what's going on in Test's mind. I thought we'd agreed from the start that it was just a set up, something to piss off Dad and to advance Test's career. Mission accomplished on both counts. If he was going to do a 'revenge' scenario, he should have done it before now.

I feel bad for Eddie, getting dragged into this. The only thing he's done wrong is get involved with Chyna. There's one bitch that deserves everything he gets. Am I scared of her? Oh yes. Chyna and Hunter have a history, one that I can never hope to come close to. I envy that. Plus she can - and has - kick my ass.

I've never liked Chyna and that's never been a secret. There was always something about her that creeped me out, besides her masculinity. Those eyes of her creep me out too - sometimes it seems she's looking into your soul.

One thing is for sure though. Test and Chyna are both gonna get what's coming to them. I just hope I'm there to see it happen.

I can't believe Commissioner Foley accused me of calling the police onto Triple H. I'm, a man of integrity, I would never do something like that! Sure, I want to hurt Hunter but not in a way that's gonna bounce around and hit Stephanie in the ass. I care about her too much for that.

I don't know what it is about Stephanie that captivates me so, but that woman is completely bewitching. She's got such innocence about her, but at the same time she's got a world of experience behind her. I guess that being Vince McMahon's daughter forces you to grow up quickly in some areas while at the same time remain naive in others.

One big mistake she made was ditching Test. If nothing else, he would've treated her right and taken good care of her. She wouldn't have to go through all the bull shit that she's gone through with Hunter. Test would've treated Stephanie like a Queen. The same way that Eddie treats Chyna.

I shouldn't have accused him of calling the police. He's not the kind of guy who'd do that. Eddie's more likely to confront you face to face than sneak behind your back and do something.

I envy him and Chyna. They have an incredibly perfect relationship, despite Eddie's jealousy where Hunter is concerned and red hot Latino temper. They are a couple deeply in love and I feel slightly wistful whenever I see them together. I'd once hoped to find a relationship like that myself, but now, as the days pass I doubt it more and more. Oh, I love Stephanie, I'll never deny that, but I can't delude myself into believing she feels the same way.

One thing I know for certain is that eventually Steph will escape from that sham of a marriage. And I'll be there to help her pick up the pieces.

Kurt Angle is an Olympic jackass. And as soon as I get the chance I'm gonna wrong his scrawny little neck. It's true, it's true. Because while he may have been completely wrong about me calling the police, there was one thing he got right. My feelings about Hunter.

I can't believe Kurt said that! Does he suspect or is he just guessing? Kurt's not stupid, he knows that bringing me back into the mix will take some of the pressure off him and make Hunter look like the bad guy.

I love Eddie. I really do. But my feelings for Hunter haven't changed, I loved him for many years and I still do. Let me rephrase that. I love Hunter, but I'm not in love with him. I haven't been for a long time now.

First it was Shawn, Hunter and I, Then X-Pac, Hunter and I, then the 3 of us and Outlaws. Then Hunter and I together in the Corporation, then in the Corporate Ministry. When the Ministry fell apart it was Hunter and I against the rest of the roster. Noticing a common theme here? I thought so.

When someone has been the most important part of your life for so long, then suddenly their life and your life in no way interact any more, it's weird. It's even weirder to see them married to someone, who not six months ago he considered 'a cute, but extremely irritating child.'

I know Steph has never liked me and she has some damned good reasons. I've never liked for disliked her one way or the other. She was always just there - the bosses daughter. Now she's pretty much the boss and doing a fairly good job of it as well. I'll give her credit for that.

I have a lot of respect for Test. It can't have been easy for him watching Stephanie and Hunter together over the past months. He was in love with her a long time before he asked her for that date. He and I struck up a close friendship during our time together in Team Corporate and we've remained friends since.

I don't care how jealous Eddie gets but I intend to keep my friendship with Test alive. And one thing I can say for certain is that if Stephanie fucks Hunter around or hurts him, I will hurt her ten times as badly.

Have I missed something? I feel as though I've been asleep and woken up in the middle of a play. Has everyone around here gone completely nuts?

OK, so Test finally got his revenge. Pretty pissweak if you ask me, getting Helmsley carted off by the cops. How's that gonna hurt Stephanie? Oh that's right, sic Mama Cita on to her while there's nobody around to defend the little princess.

In case you can't tell I'm not entirely happy about the situation. I think Kurt is right, Chyna and Hunter still 'have the hots' for each other and that scares me. Did you see the look on his face when Angle accused Chyna of calling the police? He didn't believe a word of it. He thought his wife may have done it, but not Chyna, no way.

I trust her, I really do, but I love Mama Cita so much and the idea of losing her terrifies me. I don't like the fact that she's got such a good friendship with Test or that she remained friends with Roaddogg and X-Pac and I definitely didn't like the idea of her meeting with Hunter to discuss his marital problems.

Oh I'll admit it, I'm a jealous guy. It boils my blood to see her getting cosy with other guys, but I know she won't stand of any over protective stuff. I just wish that we hadn't been dragged into this mess. Kurt's statement about Chyna's feelings for Hunter make it hard for me to believe that Mama Cita has put Hunter behind her in the past.

I can say for certain that Chyna and I will get through everything that gets thrown at us and survive. I'm not so sure about the Helmsleys though and to be perfectly honest, I don't care.

I have to admit it, that was one of my finest moments. The look on everyone's faces when Trish and I came out was priceless. Just the look on Helmsleys face alone made it all worthwhile.

Actually that's a lie. Nothing could've made the last 10 months worthwhile. I have been to hell and back. Revenge is sweet. Calling the cops, wasn't much of a revenge I'll admit it, but there's more than that. Who do you think first pushed Kurt in Stephanie's direction?

I feel slightly bad using Kurt as a pawn like that, although it didn't take much of a push. Just get an old friend from my Corporate day to have a few quiet and complimentary words about Stephanie in the Olympic Zero's ear and get a once future in law to arrange a few meeting between the two of them and the poor schmuck was hooked. Thank you Chyna and thank you Linda, I couldn't have done it without you.

It's a surprise to most that Chy and I are friends. She's one of the best friends I've ever had, Like me, she wanted to a way to get at the happy couple. I can tell she still loves Hunter. I can tell because deep down somewhere in the bottom of my heart, I'm still in love with Stephanie.

As far as she was concerned it was all an act - to piss off Vince and Shane and to push my career. She has no idea I've been in love with her since the start of last year and that I would've done anything to be near her. I knew Stephanie would find a way to get out of the wedding. I just never thought she'd break my heart like that.

I'm envious of Chyna. She's managed to put Helmsley behind her and move on. Eddie's a nice guy, but he's too clingy and possesive for her. He's not the right guy for her at all. I can tell you now, if Eddie hurts Chyna it'll be the first and last time DX and I ever team up, because I'm not gonna let Eddie hurt her and I doubt the DX boys would be able to restrain themselves - and that includes Helmsley.

He still loves Chyna. Me may not be in love with her, but there's a bond between him & Chy that can't be broken. They're soul mates and nothing will change that. At least Hunter's smart enough to recognize that.

It's amazing where this really began. Austin vs McMahon. I'm not kidding. Vince formed the Ministry to get at Austin. Then, Steve gave us Union members the chance to call any person down to the ring. I used the chance to finally ask Steph out and I'm sure everyone can remember what happened after that.

Oh what tangled webs we weave, when we first practice to deceive.