Notes: Set in the BW universe. Where else, but between chapters 2 & 3.

//I knew it from the start
You would break my heart//

I knew from the moment I first saw you that you would change my life. For better or worse, I had no idea which. I just knew that I had to meet you. The day we met and you moved into my dingy flat, it wasn't luck or fate that I was out on the balcony. I was watching, waiting for an excuse to meet you, to see what kinda pain or pleasure you would bring into my life .

// But still I had to play this painful part
You wrapped me 'round your little bitty finger
With your magic smile //

I think that maybe deep down, I knew that we would never work out. But I managed not to think about it. I choose concentrating thinking about the sweet smiles you would direct at me whenever I did something that pleased you. I was so enchanted by you that I did everything I could think of to make you happy.

// You kept me hangin' on a lovers cross a while
You put your spell on me
Took my breath away //

I don't know when I fell in love with you. It was sometime in those short weeks between you moving and me deciding to take you to meet the family. I was so uncertain about what to do. Should I make a move and risk the harmony in our happy little home? I had no idea how you felt about me. I only knew that you had me completely bewitched.

//But there was nothin' I could do

to make you stay
I'm gonna miss you//

Six beautiful months. I knew that you hadn't been happy, but I never thought you'd just walk out on me like that, with only a quickly written note. I'd tried my best to make you happy, but obviously I'd failed. If only you'd told me what was wrong, I would've tried my hardest to make it better.

//All the love I feel for you
Nothing could make me change my point of view
Oh girl
I'm gonna miss you baby//

I still love you. I will always love you. Nothing will change that. I'm ruined for other women now. I find myself looking for traces of you in every woman I pass on the street. Just something to remind me of you. You're my soul mate. I never really knew what happiness was until I met you. And I never knew what pain was, until the day you left.

// Giving all the love I feel for you
Couldn't make you change your point of view
You're leavin' //

Once you were in my life, I envisioned you as always being in my life. No matter what I imagined doing in the future, you were always there. At my side, encouraging me, cheering me up when things got too much. Obviously, you didn't feel the same way I did. Otherwise you would have stayed.

// Now I'm sittin' here, I'm wastin' my time
I just don't know what I should do //

I don't know what to do with myself anymore. You've gone and there's nothing I can do about it. Nothing matters without you. I just feel so… alone.

// It's a tragedy for me
To see the dream is over
And I never will forget the day we met
Girl I'm gonna miss you //

I feel like I've been torn apart inside. All my hopes for us, all my dreams, gone. Broken That's how I feel, like a pane of glass that's been shattered into tiny pieces. One thing remains whole though and that's the day I first saw you up close. Your beauty overwhelmed me. I'm going to miss you so much.

// Like a honey bee
You took the best of me

Now I can't erase those memories //

I gave you everything. My home became yours. My money became our money. Our souls entwined and became one. My heart was firmly in your hand. It made me happy to see you happy and so, I would do whatever I could to make you laugh, to make you forget the pain. It worked, if only for a short time. But now, whenever I close my eyes, all I see is your laughing face.

// Like a fairy tale
You are so unreal
You left a scar that's so hard to heal //

It was too good to last. Not that we were had a perfect relationship, just that whatever I thought I knew about emotions, about being in love was proved wrong by the way you made me feel. And the pain when you left… there's no physical marks, except some bruises that I gained after trashing our flat, but emotionally I've been in a car wreck.

// When you had a taste of paradise
Back on earth can feel
As cold as ice
I'm gonna miss you
I miss you //

I felt like I was living in a dream. An amazing, beautiful dream that I would never wake up from. That I never wanted to wake up from. To have had you at my side, then lose you… it’s like being ripped out of paradise and cast into hell. Which is what happened when you left me. To live without you, to exist in a world without you at my side, comforting me, teasing me, encouraging me, loving me… I miss it. I miss you Stephanie. I miss you so much…..