Author: MJ
Rated: R
Feedback: maryjennifer@webtv.net
Chapter 14Eddie woke up to find Howie wrapped around him, snoring softly. Moving slowly, he slid out from underneath the older man and made his way into the bathroom. Once he finished his morning routine, he entered the bedroom again.
"Morning." Howie said sleepily from the bed.
"Morning." Eddie answered as he began gathering up his clothes.
"You going so soon?"
"Yeah. The bus pulls out in an hour."
Howie knew he meant the crew bus. For the first time he wished the guys knew he liked guys. Then maybe he could take Eddie on his bus. "Ok." Howie answered softly. Letting the sheet pool around his groin, he grabbed his lover's hand. "I had a great time last night." He said anxiously.
"Me too." Eddie answered with a smile.
"Can I see you again?"
"Sure. I'd like that."
"Great." Howie answered, relieved. "Listen I'd like to keep us quiet though. I don't like my affairs known. Even by the guys, ok?"
"That's fine. I don't kiss and tell anyway."
"Thanks." Howie answered. "So will you come by my room tonight?"
"I don't know which room will be yours and it'll be pretty late." Eddie said doubtfully.
"Tell you what...." Howie answered grabbing some paper and writing something down. "Here's my number. Call me when you get to your room after the show if you want to get together."
"Ok." Eddie answered with a grin. "I will." He leaned over and kissed Howie sweetly. "Thanks for last night and I'm still glad you were my first." Howie looked relieved. "Did you think I would regret it this morning?"
"Yeah. Most do."
"Well I didn't. I'll call you tonight either way."
"Ok." The two men kissed again and Eddie stole out of the room.
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Nick woke up that morning feeling rather shaky. He had no energy and didn't want to get up at all but he was shaking like a leaf. Kevin rolled over and pulled him close before his eyes snapped open.
"Nick, baby, why are you shaking?"
"I dunno. I can't control it."
"Didn't the doctor say you'd have some withdrawal from the diet pills?"
"Yeah. I guess that's it." Nick sighed, glancing at the clock he noticed that it was time to get up and get ready to roll out. He kissed Kevin's chin and got out of bed. "I'm gonna go shower."
"Ok baby." Kevin responded, rolling back over. Cradling the pillow to his body, he fell back asleep.
Nick walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower. While he waited for the water to heat, he looked at himself in the mirror and frowned. The weight he'd gained back made a lot of difference in his appearance. He looked fat again. All that hard work for nothing. He was already bigger than he'd ever been before. He'd have to start over and just learn to keep it more secret. "Maybe I can throw my food back up..." He pondered silently. "If the guys see me eat they won't worry about me and I can still lose the weight."
In the bedroom, Kevin woke up suddenly. Instinctively he knew that at that very second, Nick needed him. Getting up he headed into the bathroom.
Nick started when Kevin walked in. Kevin wrapped his arms around Nick's flat stomach. He was disappointed he could still feel ribs but he knew it would take time for Nick to get to a healthy weight.
"Baby, you are so beautiful." Kevin said softly. Nick stared at their refection in the mirror and slowly his shaking stopped. His body felt warm and well loved in these arms. "Why don't we shower together?" Kevin suggested. Nick nodded.
The bathroom was filling with steam as Kevin pulled Nick under the spray. Kevin gently washed Nick's body, kissing various parts gently.
"Do you really think I'm beautiful?" Nick asked in a small voice.
"Baby, just looking at you turns me on more than anyone ever could. I think you are perfect."
Nick smiled slightly, knowing Kevin wasn't lying to him and feeling slightly relieved. Maybe he could hold off on losing the rest of the weight. As long as he had Kevin, it didn't matter anyway.
Nick picked up the sponge and took his turn at washing Kevin. The dark haired Adonis. This man wanted him. This perfect man thought he was beautiful. Life was good.
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Brian woke up early and decided to go check on AJ. Something seemed wrong the night before. He couldn't put his finger on what had bothered him but something had. He got dressed and went to his friend's room.
He used a pass key to enter the room and found AJ curled up on the bed, fast asleep. When he got closer he noticed the empty bottle of Jack Daniel's in the bed and the tear tracks down AJ's face.
"Alex." Brian said softly. "Come on Kid, wake up."
"Leave me the fuck alone." AJ mumbled.
"Come on J, it's time to get up."
"Brian, I SAID leave me the fuck ALONE!"
"We gotta go J. You can sleep it off on the bus"
AJ blindly reached for his sun glasses on the bed side table and put them on. He took the aspirin and water Brian handed him and slowly sat up. It took awhile but finally AJ was up and dressed.
"We've actually got a few minutes. Let's grab some coffee." Brian suggested. AJ nodded and put his last bag outside the door for security to pick up. The two men headed downstairs.
As they sat and drank their coffee, Brian got a sinking feeling. AJ wasn't talking much and his sunglasses covered his eyes. "Are you ok, bone?"
"Yeah. Fine. Why?"
"You had a JD bottle in the bed with you. What happened last night?"
"I was lonely Rok, fuck we all get that way."
"Yeah but we don't all sleep with liquor. Why didn't you come talk to me? You could've stayed in my room last night."
AJ made a sour face. "Cause you wanted to call Leigh." He said, unable to keep the bitterness out of his voice at the woman's name.
"It was a quick call, Bone. It would've been fine."
"No it wouldn't have!" AJ exploded. "She's your fucking WIFE rok. You don't need to be staying in a bed with me."
"I like to though." Brian answered softly. "I don't feel so lonely then. And I know you like it too. Why're you acting like this?"
AJ sighed knowing what Brian said was the truth. "I do." He said softly. "I feel so lonely most of the time but not when you are there. I just didn't sleep well last night."
"Me neither." Brian answered. "Listen why don't you take my bus today so we can get some sleep."
"Really?" AJ asked.
"Yeah."
"Thank you. Sounds great."
A few minutes later everyone boarded their buses. Howie into his own, Nick and Kevin into Kevin's and AJ and Brian into Brian's. Once the buses were out on the road Brian led AJ back to the bunk.
Since the guys had individual buses this tour, their bunks were slightly larger. It was in a room in the back. Both men stripped to their boxers and climbed into the bed. Brian rested his head on AJ's chest and slowly traced the 69 with his finger.
"Bone are you lonely a lot?" Brian asked worriedly.
"Not with you around." AJ answered honestly. Brian smiled up at him and both men settled down to sleep.