Written from Bronwen’s point of view.
Westlife’s “Flying Without Wings” is featured in this part **"Everybody's looking for a something
I had found it, the love of my life by age 20. It was a weird meeting, me basically tripping into him at a nightclub and knocking his drink all over his shirt. To add to the insult I hadn't even realized it was him, Joey Fatone from *NSYNC. I was mortified, but he laughed it off. I think that's what drew me to him. His laugh and unpatronizing gaze. Anybody else would have sneered or made fun, but he didn't. He offered me another drink, and after I reluctantly accepted, he escorted me onto the dance floor. I was not anywhere near a talented dancer, but he didn't seem to mind, and he didn't make me uncomfortable. By the end of the night I had to basically be dragged out of the club by my friends, clutching his phone number in my hand, and leaving my heart with him.
**"Some find it in the face of their children
Six months later we had barely left each other's side. In him I had found something new inside myself. Someone stronger, someone who laughed openly, and even trusted. Trusted in him and the love I had given him. My insecurities had disappeared when I was in his presence. All I wanted to do was spend time with him but then it happened. A new record was finished and ready to promote. The three months we rarely saw each other were hard, but not impossible. We survived it, I survived it. I would never let him know it in words but I depended on him. He made my days brighter, and I was happier around him. I didn't want to burden him with my history or how I had been hurt before, because I know him being the person he was, would try to fix it. There was no fixing it though. My mother had left when I was thirteen, for almost no apparent reason, and I hadn't seen her since then. she wrote a letter about twice a year, and that was it. I look back now and know I should have let Joe know what had happened, but I didn't.
**"Some find it sharing every morning
So he came home, and it was all ok again. We were once again inseparable, doing anything and everything together. He took me jetskiing and I took him horseback riding. We made love under the moonlit sky on the beach. It was everything I had ever pictured love to be: blissful, amazing, and happy. Any squabbles we had were small and resolvable within minutes. The next small tour they did, I tagged along. The bus was cramped but fun, and I made a new friend. Lance's girlfriend Lauren, had me laughing beyond control, and we would wreck so much havoc together, with our practical jokes. It was like we developed into a family over that month.
**"You find it in the deepest friendship
Joey was my best friend. He was warm and he was safe. He had my heart and I had his. I know how hard it was for him to give that to me, to commit himself. His smile lit up my world and his laugh could send me into hysterics with it. I could have spent forever, just in his arms. We didn't need to talk, or even move. We used to watch movies together, and sports. We would never shut up, yelling and fighting. We were fun. We were young. We were in love.
**"So, impossible as they may seem
And then it happened. I turned 21. I heard Joey beep his horn, signaling for me to come out. We were going to dinner and then a club and then back to his place. I was on my way to the door when my phone wrang. I picked it up out of breath, it was my aunt. "Your mother died last night," a long pause as I didn't even answer. "Bron, she had AIDS." I couldn't even speak. Somehow I managed a thanks, and a good-bye. I went to the car and sat down. Joey was smiling and wished me happy birthday. I just nodded. I barely talked through dinner, and couldn't even find the words to say if I had wanted to tell him. We made it to the club and I began to drink. It was my twenty-first birthday and I was expected to anyway. I wouldn't let Joey help me when I had to throw up, and I walked straight past him when I came out of the bathroom. Looking back on the night I think in some way I was trying to keep him from knowing the pain I was going through. It's so twisted. I danced with the first guy I could find. I left with him that night. I know because I woke up next to him the next morning. I can't really remember anything past the bathroom. But I know that I haven't talked to Joey since. I have tried to several times, and even had a bodyguard carry me away as Joey watched on, stolid expression on his face.
**"Well, for me it's waking up beside you
I used to lay awake in his arms. Just feeling his heart beat against me, listening to his soft snore, watching his chest rise and fall. I wanted to tell him everything in my heart at those moments and I did, under my breath. Whispering everything I felt. I knew him, better than most. I knew that right behind his ears was where he was most ticklish. I knew he liked his cereal with extra milk; so he could slurp it when he was done. I knew when he was nervous his knee would bounce up and down. I knew he bit his nails continuously, and nothing, not even clear nail polish would stop him. And I knew that he loved me. Eight months later, I still hold onto that. I was flying without wings every time he took me into his arms.
**"It's little things that only I know
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be"**
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings"**
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry"**
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings"**
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete"**
To watch the sun rise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
at any given time or place
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings"**
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
You´re the place my life begins
You'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings"**