Chapter 4

~*Ryan*~

As me and Livi were kissing and feeling each other’s body on my bed, I thought about Dan. I just wish he would never know what was happening. He was my best friend. How can you be attracted by your best friend’s girlfriend? I just couldn’t help it.

She was hot. And ready for everything. I knew I’d be able to fuck her tonight. I fondled her back, getting up to her butt and she moaned a little. This got me even more excited.

I couldn’t believe it. She was able to take over MY will. How is this possible? I took all my strenght and stopped to kiss her.

« Are you sure you..? »

I couldn’t continue. She pressed her lips on mines quickly.

« I’m really, really sure Ryan. »

Why did I care anyway? Did I ever care about the girls I fucked? As far as I remember I never cared if they really wanted to do it or if they just couldn’t stop.

She surrended my body with one of her legs while we were kissing. Slowly, I put my hand on her thigh and got up under her skirt until her underwear.

I couldn’t really resist to moan and I was growing hard as her hand was reaching my groin. FUCK, what was I doing? I was feeling so guilty. I needed to tell her. To make her remember she was with Dan. That she couldn’t ruin all that. But at the same time, I didn’t want her to stop. She was making me relive. And I knew I was doing her the same effect.

“Liv...” I muttered between two kisses.

“Mmmm?” she said, her lips still all over mines.

“Dan...” I just whispered.

She stopped straight and looked in my eyes.

“I never thought I would tell that one day Ry, but...” She made a pause that seemed to last after hours. “What you don’t know doesn’t hurt.”

She was right. About two things actually. Something starts to hurt when you learn it. And also, I never thought she would have tell that. That was not her manner to think. She was loyal, I knew that. Shit, why was she doing that? If she had just refused, we would have stopped. Wouldn’t we? The question is, Would “I” have succeeded to stop?

“You’re right.” I started.

She smiled and kissed my neck.

“But, everything is heard one day.” I admited with a sigh.

“Not if we both shut our mouths. And you have to shut it if you want to kiss me Ry.”

I half-smiled. I was waiting for the rest.

“I want you and you want me Ryan Thomas Dennis. Then why don’t you take me right away so we can end up this shit and do something else?”

This time I really laughed. She smiled back. She was right ; I wanted her. But was this giving me the right to betray my best friend?

*Livia*

I knew I would regret it. I was feeling it all over my body. I mean, inside. Because outside, on the physical way, I was mostly feeling excited. Right now, Ryan’s body was all I wanted. It’s not that my boyfriend was not hot! Total opposite!

But Dan and Ryan have 2 different ways to do things. I wanted to experiment both sides. I was going out with Dan since I were 13! I didn’t remember how an other boy tasted. I had never made love with an other boy. I had no time to live. And experiment. And I needed that. I needed Ryan. I didn’t want to know how any boy but Ryan tasted. How good he was, how sexy he could look. Call me crazy, I wanted this boy for years. Even BEFORE I could have thought about sex. I know, it seems stupid. But that’s how I was feeling. Maybe I was just REAL lost.

“Ry if you don’t wanna do something in your best friend’s back, I’ll understand. But trust me. It’s sex. Only sex. No emotion. No feeling. All physical.” I said.

I was scared of what would happen NEXT. AFTER this evening. Would I succed to be the same with Dan? Even if we wouldn’t do it all, I still kissed Ryan, touched him. And he did the same to me. Why not finish what we started?

“I’m mostly scared for you Liv. I know Dan and you could stay together forever. And maybe marry who knows? I don’t wanna ruin that. I don’t wanna ruin your life. But you’re right, I want you Livia. I think you should decide.” He sighed.

I didn’t know what answer he wanted. I’m used to give people what they want, but this time, I had no clue. He seemed to want both.

“We should decide together.”

“Okay but hurry ‘cuz what’s between my legs won’t calm down!”

We laughed.

“Okay, I’ll count ‘til 3. When I finish, we both say if YES or NO we want to continue. Ready?”

He sighed nervously and nodded.

“One..” I came closer to him.

“Two” I whispered.

“Three.” I finaly said.

“Yea” he said as I was slowly saying “Yes.” also. I pressed my lips firmly against his and I pulled away a second.

“You let what’s between your legs decide for you?” I joked.

“You did the same darlin’!” he joked back.

I put my lips on his ear and whispered.

“True.”

**

I was dressing up in silence. I looked at Ryan, asleep in his bed. The blankets were hiding his butt and I smiled. When I finished, I didn’t know if I had to wake him up or just leave him a message. While wondering, I sat down next to him and fondled slowly his back. As my hand was entering in contact with his back, a small smile appeared on his lips. The touch of his skin was so soft. He looked so well and happy, I didn’t want to wake him up. I got up and as I was putting my hand around the knob, he yawn and sat down.

“Where are you going Liv?” he asked.

I didn’t move.

“Please, come here...” he whined.

I half-smiled even though he couldn’t see since I was in front of the door. I passed my hand in my hair and sighed as I was reaching his bed. I sat down and he looked at me quizzically.

“You wanted to leave me?” he wondered as he was lying me on him.

I turned over to be next to him and he raised his hand in the air.

“What?” he asked.

I sighed again.

“I was not good or something?”

I started to laugh, seing this weird, almost sad, look on his face.

“Answer me Livia! Please!” he kept on talking.

“You were perfect Ryan! Please stop it!” I said, containing my laughter.

He sighed and a huge grin appeared on his lips.

“Really? How perfect?”

“Perfect is perfect Ry!” I said, maintaining my head with one of my hands, looking in his direction.

“Better than Dan?”

Chapter 5