When the hell did he let his friends pressure him into doing things he didn't want to do?
Oh yeah. It was Danielle's birthday and Sara made him do it.
Both Sara and Danielle gave him the sad puppy face, and did those pleading and hopeful voices that they knew he couldn't resist. They knew he wouldn't say no, because that was him. He couldn't say no to people. It just wasn't in his nature.
He really hated himself for that.
And as he finished up the song, glaring at Sara and Danielle each in turn, his eyes wandered to the table not too far from theirs.
Several young men, 5 in all, were sitting grouped around their own table and were blatantly staring at him as he sang. He gulped loudly as he stopped singing and quickly grabbed his coke and took a long drink. One of the men was staring more intently than the others, but wasn't the man that rose and started over to his table.
The man that came to his table was tall, over 6 feet, and had long dark shaggy hair, electric green eyes, a very prominent and strong jaw-line, and very nice big hands.
He wondered what the man was coming over there for, but didn't have to wonder long before a deep husky southern voice, not unlike his own, spoke sending shivers down his spine.
"I don't mean to interrupt or intrude or appear out of line, but, I heard you singing, as did my friends over there," the man jerked a thumb over at the table he'd seen the man walk from, "but, I'd like you to come over to my house and record a song I've been working on. It's been in the works for a while now, and I just didn't know what was missing until now. Your voice." The tall man pursed his lips and stared expectantly down at him.
He gazed p at the tall man and then over at the bright blue eyes that he couldn't seem to stop staring over into. It was like a magnet was drawing his gaze to the man at the table. He shook himself mentally and smiled uncertainly up at the large man.
"My voice?" He questioned softly, unable to register what the man was meaning.
Broad shoulders moved beneath a blue t-shirt. "Yeah. The song didn't sound right with me singing it, or even any of the fellas over there, but you, you've got a different voice and it...really fits well with the notes and lyrics and everything. I don't mean to be presumptuous but...will you?" The large man's eyes widened beneath bushy eyebrows. "Oh hell. I'm so sorry, I forgot to introduce myself. I'm Kevin Richardson." Kevin stuck out his hand and he lifted his trembling hand, the larger man's hand engulfing it warmly in a firm handshake, before dropping it.
"Yeah...I'm Eddie Lawrence." He received a sharp jab in his ribs and looked over slowly at Sara. She was rolling her eyes back and forth between him and Kevin, and he rolled his eyes in response.
"Sorry, these are my friends Sara Matthews and Danielle Foster." The two girls smiled politely and said hello, and Kevin did the same, but his eyes returned immediately to Eddie's.
"Come meet the guys? Please? You can decide when you meet them, because they're going to be there. Don't think I'm a pervert of anything, I just really love your voice. And I think it would be a shame to not come and record this song and see if it will sound as good as I really think it would."
Eddie looked from Sara to Danielle thoughtfully. “I don’t know...”
“Sure. He’d love to.” Sara spoke for him, her eyes shooting daggers and telling him that he shouldn’t pass up this once in a lifetime chance.
Eddie’s lips pursed but he thought, what the hell? He wasn’t ever going to get another chance like this. Plus he’d get to be introduced to that hottie over there with the almost too blue eyes who’d been staring at him throughout the entire altercation.
He stood up slowly. “Uh...girls, I guess I’ll meet you back at the apartment, later.” He said his goodbyes, Sara and Danielle left, but he knew they were dying to know what was going on and he also knew that he’d get thoroughly grilled later on, and he followed the tall man over to the table where 4 young men sat watching them.
“Guys,” Kevin commanded the others’ attentions and they all looked up abruptly from their meals. The blond one’s mouth fell open and a french fry fell out, and the rest of the guys laughed breaking the silent spell that had been cast by Eddie’s presence.
Kevin rolled his eyes. “The blond that has the excellent manners is Nick Carter.” He flicked the blond’s ear, with thumb and forefinger, painfully, sending a small whimper out of his mouth. “The latin guy next to him, trying to hide his cell phone, is Howie Dorough.” Howie meekly raised his cell phone from underneath the table and quickly said goodbye and that he’d call whoever it was on the other end of the line back later, and smiled sweetly at Eddie. “The freak with all the tattoos, piercings and fried and dyed hair-”
“Hey!” Came an indignant, yet amused, rasp from the freak in question.
Kevin went on, ignoring the middle finger that appeared from underneath the table in his direction, as if he hadn’t been interrupted. “Is AJ McLean.”
AJ waved his fingers at Eddie and reached for his burger, taking a sloppy big bite of it and grinning with a mouthful of meat at him as Kevin glared at him for being rude.
“Anyway, last, but certainly not least, this guy right here,” Kevin put his hands on the last man’s shoulders and Eddie felt his heart sink. He was sure that Kevin and this man were lovers. He was certainly touching him as if they were.
“Is my cousin, Brian Littrell.” Eddie’s eyes widened and he fought back the big grin that nearly appeared on his face at the mention of the man, Brian, being Kevin’s cousin and not his lover.
Now that he thought about it, Eddie did see the family resemblance. The jaw line. The eyebrows. Shape of the eyes. The nose. Ears. Great genes, he thought, smiling slightly at Brian.
Brian smiled slowly at Eddie admiring the younger man’s build and good looks while Kevin droned on about something or other.
Eddie didn’t hear the older man either, but pretended to be listening as to not be rude.
Kevin must’ve introduced Eddie to them, because they all said hello ‘Eddie’, and he blushed sweetly, nodding in each man’s direction, as Brian jumped up and grabbed Eddie’s hand.
“Nice to meet you...Eddie.” Brian said softly in the slow sweet timber similar to that of his cousin’s.
Eddie’s stomach tightened at the feel of Brian’s hand against his own and swallowed. “Likewise.” He murmured, hoping his voice didn’t crack, as Brian let go after a long, lingering caress of the back of Eddie’s hand.
“Lemme get you a chair so you can sit down with us, Eddie.” Brian said, grabbing an empty chair from a table nearby and setting it, conveniently, between himself and his cousin Kevin who was sitting down next to the blond.
Eddie sat down slowly, cautiously, noticing that Brian was so very close to him and seemed to have deliberately seated him next to himself, and extremely close to his own chair. Eddie thought that odd, but shook the thoughts off to nervousness and finally cleared his thoughts enough to start listening to Kevin as he spoke with excitement about his song that he wanted Eddie to sing.
“--the song’s an older one that I’ve been working on for about 2 years now. I haven’t been able to find the right voice, until today. I just want you to sing it at my recording studio and we’ll see how it turns out. If it goes well, I might just be able to get you a record deal. I think you’d make a great addition to our record label, don’t you guys?” Kevin looked at the others at the table and scowled.
The only one that appeared to be listening was Brian. But, Brian was really only staring at Eddie.
Nick was playing with his french fries. Howie had called whoever it was back on his cell phone. And AJ, well, he was staring from Nick to Kevin and then to Brian.
If Eddie didn’t know better, he’d say AJ was gay. Or at least bi, because of the way he was staring at each of the men at the table.
“Shit. None of you were even listening to me, were you?” Kevin pushed a hand through his unruly mane of hair and Eddie watched AJ suck in a sharp breath as he watched.
“Yeah. Sounds good. Whatever, Kevin.” AJ licked his lips and took a long drink of the watered down coke in front of him.
Kevin sighed exasperated. “Fuck you too, guys. I’m trying to do business here, and we’re all in this together and you all don’t even listen to me. I hate you people. We might as well leave.” Kevin stood up, whipped out his wallet and threw some bills onto the table. “Let’s go, dipshits.” He growled before taking off toward the door leaving the others, including Eddie, to follow in his wake.
The others slowly followed and Brian waited for Eddie at the door. “Don’t worry about Kevin, he has a stick up his ass that never seems to be dislodged.” He gave this wide grin to Eddie and they all walked to the large SUV that waited in the parking lot with an angry Kevin behind the wheel.
Eddie somehow managed to be squeezed between AJ and Brian. He didn’t exactly mind Brian, but AJ was freaking him out. He decided to ignore his insecurities about the other man’s appearance and enjoy the ride to Kevin’s house.
The ride was long and silent.
No one wanted to piss Kevin off anymore because then they’d all end up upside down in a ditch somewhere.
That day, Kevin made Eddie sing his damned song at least 10 times, and Eddie was so tired and hoarse by the time it was over that he didn’t ever want to sing again. But, Kevin had said it was really good and that it was better than he’d first thought. That made Eddie glow with happiness.
And that’s how it all started.
Kevin was his manager/business person/whatever the hell it was, because Eddie wasn’t really sure. Howie helped too, when he didn’t have his cell phone glued to the side of his head.
And then there was Brian.
Brian flirted with Eddie. Touched him, smiled at him, brushed up against him, praised him. Brian said all the right things and before Eddie knew it, he was falling for the southern charms of the older man.
“Oh fuck, Brian!” AJ grunted in pain as Brian thrust hard into him, nearly ripping his ass hole with his frantic movements.
Brian’s hands grasped AJ’s hips and he dove deeper and deeper still inside the younger man’s ass, making AJ hurt with every movement. But, the pain was good. So good. And with the pain came the tendril of pleasure shooting through his lower stomach and cock as Brian hit his prostate with every other thrust.
Brian had been lovers with AJ for almost 3 years now. AJ didn’t even really remember how it actually started, but AJ just knew that he loved when Brian fucked the holy living shit out of him. And that’s what Brian was doing to him now.
But, Brian was nothing compared to Kevin. Oh, no. Nothing like Kevin at all. Kevin gave as hard as he took, where as Brian just took and took and took. But, that was okay with AJ. That’s what he loved about his relationship with Brian.
That, and the fact that Brian and him together was a big ass secret that nobody knew of but he and Brian. He liked it that way. Didn’t mind. And as long as he kept his mouth shut, Brian wouldn’t stop fucking him just the way he was now.
AJ’s ass burned and clenched around Brian’s pumping cock. He clenched his hands into the mattress and sheets that lay underneath him as he locked his elbows to keep from falling on his face.
That was how Brian liked it. From behind. Never wanted to look into his face as he fucked him. AJ didn’t mind. He had Kevin for that. Brian was just...a forbidden game that he’d played for far too long. But, it was like an addiction and he couldn’t let Brian go. Not yet.
He arched into Brian’s thrusts, his teeth gritting together as Brian slammed into him so hard that his head hit the headboard of the bed sending stars shooting through his vision; And with that hard thrust, it touched AJ’s prostate just right and he exploded, hard, and all over the sheets underneath him.
AJ collapsed with Brian on top of him still inside of him.
Eddie put down the head-set and sighed. He wasn’t singing that damned song again, he decided. He didn’t care what the hell Kevin had to say about it. Enough already.
“That was great, Eddie. I think one more take would-”
“Oh, no. No no no no no! Kevin, I’ve sang it like 50 times already, one of the takes should be good enough. I can’t sing it anymore or I’ll scream. And my throat’s sore anyway. I’m not used to this.” Eddie’s eyes dropped and he played with his fingers nervously. He knew that Kevin Richardson was one that was quick to anger and a perfectionist, which was a lethal combination, but he had to put his foot down. He couldn’t record the song one more time, he thought it was perfect the way it was. Actually, the take before the last one he did, sounded fine to him.
Kevin frowned and ran a hand through his hair. “I’m sorry. I keep forgetting that you’re not in the biz and that you’re new at this. That’s fine. I can pick from the takes I already have to find the best one.”
Eddie smiled. “Thanks. Can I go now?” When Kevin shrugged and went back into his office, Eddie assumed that meant yes, so he walked up the stairs from the sound-proof room, where he found AJ and Nick milling around, obviously waiting for Kevin, and Brian sitting at the kitchen table near the door he’d just walked from.
Brian grinned brightly and jumped up from his seat, nearly knocking the stool to the ground in his hurry. “Hey. Done, now?”
Eddie fidgetted. “Uh...yeah. For today I guess.”
Brian moved closer to Eddie. Eddie took a step back and ended up trapped between Brian and the wall behind him. He swallowed, staring at Brian.
“Wha...What are you...doing?” Eddie swallowed noisily, his pulse picked up as Brian’s blue eyes moved down from his and to his trembling lips.
“Nothing. Yet. Tell me, Eddie,” Brian drawled, running the pad of a finger down Eddie’s cheek to the corner of his mouth. “do you ever think about me?”
Eddie’s heart jackhammered in his chest. He was sure everyone in the whole house could hear it, even Kevin, who was down in the sound-proof booth. “Uh...yeah. Why?”
“Just wondering.” Brian raised his eyes, but kept his finger running idly up and down the softness of Eddie’s cheek. “Because, I think of you. A lot.” He licked his lips. “I think we could be good together, Eddie. What do you think? You wanna give it a try?” He reached down for Eddie’s hand and before Eddie could pull away, Brian had placed Eddie’s shaking hand onto his straining cock.
“You feel that, Eddie?” Brian murmured huskily holding Eddie’s hand on his erection. “That’s what you do to me. I think about you all the time. I need you, Eddie.”
Eddie’s eyes were wide with shock and fear. He didn’t know what to do. Brian was coming onto him, practically asking him to have sex with him and Eddie just didn’t know what to do. He’d never done anything like that before, so he didn’t know how to react.
His hand clenched involuntarily and Brian groaned. Eddie could feel Brian’s cock twitch beneath the straining fabric. “Uh....Brian...I....I don’t know. I’ve never...” Eddie’s face flamed in embarassment and he finally worked up the courage to remove his hand from Brian’s dick.
Brian stared at Eddie, his eyes showing nothing at first, and then a slow smile creeped onto his face. It was almost as if Brian were beaming.
“It’s ok, sweetie, that doesn’t matter. All that matters is that I want you. I want you so bad, baby. Can I have you? Please?” Brian’s hot breath caressed the side of Eddie’s face as he moved closer, and closer still.
Brian’s lips brushed the side of Eddie’s face and Eddie stood plastered against the wall, and pressed intimately against Brian’s hot body. He couldn’t move. He couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t really react, but one part of him did. The part that he really didn’t want to react just then.
“B...Brian....I don’t think-”
“Ssshhhh...” Brian pressed his finger against Eddie’s lips, silencing him. “Quiet, you. Thinking isn’t needed right now. All that’s needed is me inside of you. I want to fuck you, Eddie. I want to feel every inch of your body quivering beneath mine. I want to feel your hot mouth on me, sucking me deep inside. I want you to make me cum harder than I’ve ever cum before.” Eddie’s eyes nearly bugged out of his head and his cock strained painfully against the zipper of his jeans, and against Brian’s erection that was tightly pressed against it.
Eddie silently wondered where the hell the other guys were. They’d been there not long before, hadn’t they? Or had they left a long time ago? Eddie didn’t even know. He didn’t really care either. All he could think about was how tightly Brian was pressed against him, and how hard he was and how with just a few more movements, he’d be cumming in his shorts against Brian without even having been fucked.
“Do you want that, Eddie?” Brian licked a line down the side of Eddie’s face, up his jaw, and sucked his earlobe into his mouth. Grinding his hips into Eddie’s he pressed Eddie tightly into the wall, and buried his face into Eddie’s neck.
As Brian’s mouth opened and his tongue flickered out against the skin of Eddie’s neck, Eddie spasmed and came hard inside his boxers. His knees buckled and had Brian not had him pressed urgently against the wall the way he did, Eddie surely would’ve fallen to the floor.
Brian’s hips stopped rocking against Eddie’s and he looked at him. “Damn. You cum easily.” That slow smile spread across his face again. “I like that in a man.”
And with that Brian pushed himself away from Eddie and went down into the basement where his cousin Kevin was.
Eddie stood there for a few minutes, pushed his hair back from his face with an unsteady hand and looked down at himself. It wasn’t noticeable on the outside, but he could definately tell he’d just creamed his pants. He sighed and left Kevin’s house. He didn’t know what else to do.
“Kevin.” It was a command and when he commanded, no one was to ever not answer or do what he wanted.
Kevin looked up and swallowed. He noticed Brian’s bulge and knew what his cousin wanted. “What’s up, Bri?” He asked, putting down the clipboard and turning off the sound system he’d been listening to. Standing up, Kevin glanced nervously at his cousin, as the smaller man crossed the room coming to a stop just inches away from him.
“I think you know what’s up, Kev.” Brian’s eyes glittered and he grabbed the front of Kevin’s shirt pulling him down to him. “I definitely think you know what’s up, Kevin. And I think you know what to do about it, too.” Brian pushed Kevin away from him and Kevin immediately started stripping.
Kevin and Brian had been lovers for as long as Kevin could remember. Ever since Brian and he had been barely teen-agers. That was fine with him, because he got rough fucks from Brian and love from AJ, and great head from Nick. It suited him just fine.
And as he stripped down, he grew hard thinking about the nice rough hard fuck he was going to be receiving from Brian in a few moments.
It was always the same. Brian would come to him, make him strip, fuck him senseless and then he would leave. There would be no speak of it, and Kevin could never tell anyone, otherwise Brian wouldn’t come to him ever again. That much he knew, because that’s the only thing Brian had said after the first time he’d fucked him when they were kids.
But, that was fine with Kevin. Kevin loved when Brian fucked him so hard that he hurt. He got what else he needed from Nick and AJ.
He never questioned why Brian did what he did, he just followed orders, and did what Brian wanted. It was much easier that way anyway.
Brian was standing nude, hard cock, huge and erect, as Kevin finally turned around. Kevin stood there, waiting for Brian to tell him what he wanted, and stared at Brian’s hard pre-cum dripping cock with anxious anticipation.
“I want you to ride me, Kev, but you know I have the only say in what happens and how hard and fast you fuck me, in the end, right?” Kevin nodded and Brian smirked.
Brian kneeled down on the floor and then laid down, waiting expectantly for Kevin to ease down onto him. Kevin straddled Brian’s hips and positioned Brian’s cock at his hole, and slowly began to ease down onto Brian’s dick. He could feel it stretching, and burning him, and no matter how often he did this, he’d always feel that burning, stinging sensation as he was filled. He’d always remember that feeling, as long as he lived. Even if he was fucking Nick and AJ at the same time he was fucking Brian, it was always different.
“Hurry up, Kevin.” Brian’s hands latched onto Kevin’s hips and forced the older man down onto his cock, not waiting for him to adjust to his size, he thrust up into him. “Shit, Kevin...always so fucking tight...”
Kevin’s eyes watered with unshed tears of pain as he sat there, but he felt Brian’s tense hands and knew if he didn’t begin moving soon, Brian would leave and get someone else.
Kevin began to move, rocking up and down on Brian, slowly and then faster and faster until he was driving Brian’s hard cock deep inside him, feeling it hit his prostate and make him harder.
He felt one of Brian’s hands leave his hip and it grasped his hard cock, beginning to pump it as Kevin moved faster and harder above Brian.
Kevin moaned loudly, lowly, in the back of his throat and knew that if he made this good for Brian, that Brian would make it good for him and let him cum.
“Faster.” Kevin moved faster, dropping his body down onto Brian’s, feeling the younger man thrusting up into him in retaliation. It was so good. So very good. He loved being fucked by his cousin.
As Kevin moved, so did Brian’s hand and Kevin could feel himself starting to cum as he felt Brian’s climax hit him. Brian’s cock spewed hot cum into Kevin, and he thrashed beneath his cousin, momentarily losing grip of Kevin’s cock in his orgasm.
Kevin whimpered, but still moved above Brian, letting Brian’s orgasm fade and finally end. He stopped moving but didn’t remove himself from Brian, he knew better than to do that without Brian telling him to first.
“Brian? Please?” Kevin begged as he sat there looking down at his sweaty red-faced cousin.
Brian shifted beneath Kevin and inadvertantly his softened cock brushed against Kevin’s prostate, drawing a whimper and a little thrust from the older man.
“Do you want to cum, dear cousin?” Brian asked with an evil grin on his face as he raised a hand to Kevin’s cock and grasped it lightly.
Kevin swallowed a moan. “Yes...yes. Please. Please, Brian.”
Brian’s hand moved slowly and gently, picked up speed and intensity and finally he was jerking Kevin’s cock hard and fast, staring up at Kevin’s pleasure-filled face as he rubbed him.
“Do you like that, Kevin? Do you like me making you cum? Do you like the way I make you feel?” Brian’s hand tightened and he knew Kevin was close.
“Yes! Fuck yes, Brian!” Kevin’s thighs quivered and he thrust his hips involuntarily into Brian’s hand as he finally came hard all over his cousin’s hand and chest.
Brian removed his hand from Kevin’s spent cock, watching his cousin recooperate from his orgasm. “You have to clean that up now, cousin. Now, get off of me and do it.”
Kevin removed himself without a word, and began licking his own cum from Brian’s body and hand.
“So, Eddie, have you thought about our little...talk yesterday?” Brian whispered into Eddie’s ear as Eddie closed the soundbooth door to the basement.
Eddie jumped and faced Brian, an uncertain look on his face. “I...umm...yeah.”
“Well?” Brian asked, moving closer and licking his lips as he gave Eddie a once-over and placed a palm on either side of Eddie’s head as he backed the younger man up against the wall near the basement door.
“I don’t know...I’ve never done...anything. I just...I’m scared.” Eddie finally said, embarassed and stared down at his shoes.
Brian pushed his head up with a finger under Eddie’s chin and smiled sweetly at him. “Don’t be. I won’t bite. I promise.”
Eddie stared at him silently, feeling the tingle he received when Brian touched him, and while he still touched him.
“I...guess.”
Brian smiled and dropped his hands to his side.
“Let’s go to my place.”
Brian slammed Eddie against the wall and attacked his open mouth with his own without mercy. His hands groped Eddie’s body with a ferrocity that Eddie had never known before.
Before Eddie knew it he was naked, standing there uncomfortably bare, before Brian and Brian was standing back admiring his body, like he was a fine piece of art.
“Shit, Eddie, you have a nice body. I can’t wait to fuck you.” Brian’s mouth nearly watered as he stared at the young man standing in front of him. He took off his clothes, hurriedly, and was finally naked and ready to fuck Eddie.
Eddie swallowed nervously and let Brian guide him back to the bed. He thought it was weird that Brian hadn’t even given him a tour of his house, or even a tour of the bedroom, but he lost all other thoughts except for the fact that Brian was naked and hovering over him, once his back hit the cold sheets and Brian’s body lowered between his thighs.
Brian held himself up on his arms, staring down at Eddie. “You want me to fuck you, don’t you, Baby Boy?” He leaned down and nuzzled Eddie’s ear with his mouth, barely opening it and nipping at the lobe with a practiced set of teeth.
A sharp breath echoed through the room. “Yes. Yeah. Fuck me, Brian. I need you.” Eddie’s hands rose and tangled in Brian’s curls, pulling the older man’s face harder into his skin, wanting him to pleasure him as he pleased himself.
Brian disentangled himself from Eddie’s grasp and moved back until he was kneeling between Eddie’s legs. He ran a hand up Eddie’s thigh and stopped at the curve of his waist. “What did you want?” The hand ran lightly up and down his pelvic bone and hip and Eddie didn’t know how he was going to answer Brian.
“Uh...I...I want...want you to...”
Brian’s hand moved lower and over a little, his thumb grazed the side of Eddie’s cock. “Yes?” He urged.
“Fuck me!” Brian’s hand enveloped his cock and began to pump it slowly, teasingly.
“That’s what I thought.” Brian said softly, smirking, so that Eddie couldn’t hear. He grabbed some lube from the table beside his bed and squirted some liberally into his hand. He knew Eddie was a cherry, even before Eddie admitted it to him (he could spot virgins a mile away) and knew that he’d have to loosen him up for his cock.
After throwing the tube to the carpeted floor, he rubbed some lube up and down his hard cock, moaning as he did so, knowing that if he did that for too long it would pull him too far over the edge and he’d ream the holy living hell out of Eddie. He didn’t really want to do that just yet, he wanted to go nice and easy the first time.
Virgins were always the same. Pain, pain, hurt, screaming. Blah blah blah. And Brian knew that, which was why he always stretched his virgins a lot before fucking them. That was what he did with Kevin and Nick and AJ. Nothing better than fucking a virgin, which was why he did it.
He pushed his lube coated hand away from his aching cock and pushed a finger into Eddie’s tight ass. Brian moaned as his finger sank in over the 2nd knuckle and slowly pressed all the way into him.
Eddie’s eyes were shut as this strange new sensation overtook his sensitive body. He wasn’t sure what to expect at first, but, it wasn’t that bad. It just felt odd. He was sure he’d get used to it though. Brian was going to fill him and everything would be perfectly fine once it started.
That was until Brian added two more fingers. Then, Eddie froze and burning pain shot through his rectum. It was not good. Not good at all. He didn’t like it.
He tried to move away from Brian’s thrusting fingers, but Brian grabbed his hip and forced him to stop moving. “It’s ok. It’s only like this for a little while. I have to loosen you up, or I’ll tear you to shreds when I enter you.” Brian’s soothing voice flowed over his body like a blanket of honey and he relaxed, as much as he could under the circumstances, and lay back down on the bed staring up at him.
Brian removed his three fingers, “This is going to hurt like a bitch,” He admitted, “But, it’ll be so good once you get used to it. Feels so good.” As he spoke he positioned himself between Eddie’s open thighs and pushed the tip of his cock into Eddie’s pucker.
He slowly slid in and Eddie whimpered at the intrusion. It felt...beyond weird, he thought, as he shifted beneath Brian and tried to relax so that it wouldn’t hurt as much. But, it did hurt. It hurt a hell of a fucking lot, as Brian pushed more of himself inside and sank, finally, in up to his balls.
“Fuck. Tight. So fucking tight.” Eddie’s ass was tighter than anyone he’d ever been with. Even his cousin’s tight little 15 year old virgin ass way back when.
Eddie’s eyes teared over as he felt Brian bury himself deep inside him. Brian began moving slowly in and out, deep sure thrusts that hurt him with every tiny little movement.
“It hurts. Oh my God, it hurts.” Eddie cried, trying to stay still and let Brian do what he was doing. He didn’t even care about it anymore, just let Brian get it over with and get out of him. It fucking hurt!
Brian’s teeth sank into his bottom lip as he started thrusting harder and faster. He knew he was hurting Eddie, and somewhere in the deep recesses of his mind where his conscience hid, he was feeling remorse, or maybe he wasn’t, but at the moment, Brian didn’t care, and mostly he didn’t ever care about anyone he was fucking. It was just sex after all. Anyone could go and get sex from anyone.
But, Brian was getting it from Eddie at the moment, and all he could think about was how hot and tight Eddie was around his cock as he pounded harder and faster.
He grunted and moaned, sweat trickled down his temples and his face, and Eddie stared through tear-filled eyes at him, wondering when the hell this was going to start feeling good. He didn’t think it ever was and was resigned to his pain until he felt a slight twinge of pleasure shoot through the lower half of his body.
Eddie angled his hips instinctively and that twinge came back, only much more pronounced as Brian thrust. He grabbed onto Brian’s arms and moved with him, as the older man started to cum.
Brian’s head flew back, sending sweat flying through the air, and howled out as he came inside Eddie’s ass. He could feel Eddie beneath him and around him and it was like nothing he’d ever experienced before. It was a strange feeling for him, given the fact that he didn’t care who he fucked as long as he got off. Somehow it was different this time.
His hips stopped moving and he fell forward onto Eddie, his sweaty body sliding against Eddie’s and trapping Eddie’s hard cock between the two of them.
“God. That was...shit. So fucking good.” He mumbled into Eddie’s skin tiredly.
Eddie swallowed. “B...Brian? I....can you...please, I...it hurts...”
Brian lifted his head from the pillow behind Eddie’s head and stared at him. Without a word, he pulled out of Eddie and took Eddie’s cock in his hand.
Brian rubbed and caressed his balls, hoping to bring Eddie over quickly before he passed out onto the bed, and jerked the hard hot flesh between his palm and fingers.
It didn’t take as long as Brian anticipated, because with an extra-hard stroke from his hand and a well-placed caress behind Eddie’s balls, Eddie came hard all over Brian’s moving hand and his own stomach.
Brian left the mess where it was and collapsed exhaustedly onto the bed next to Eddie. Within a few minutes, Brian was asleep and Eddie lay staring up at the ceiling wondering if he should’ve done what he’d just done.
He flipped over, his back to Brian, and curled into a little ball. Maybe things would look clearer in the morning, he thought, closing his eyes and sinking into dreamland.
The next morning Brian was gone when Eddie woke up, and Eddie wondered what the hell was going on. Did Brian care about him at all? Or was it just about the sex? Why wasn’t Brian there when he woke up? Didn’t he care?
Eddie dismissed those thoughts. He figured Brian just had something to do with the other guys that didn’t pertain to him. They did lots of meetings and such about the record label.
He shrugged and crawled from the bed. Grimacing as every movement he made caused his ass to relive the pain of the previous night, he finally made it and slipped on his clothes.
As Eddie walked out of Brian’s house and to the cab he’d called, he looked back and wondered if this was going to work out. He really had a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach about everything. He was sure it was nothing but nerves, but he still couldn’t get that inkling feeling out of the back of his mind.
After Brian left his house, leaving a sleeping and very angelic looking Eddie in his bed, he went to Nick’s house. Nick always knew how to make him forget his troubles. And he was certainly having some of those at the moment.
He’d never felt anything like he had with Eddie before. It was different. It was strange. It was really freaking him out. And he didn’t know what to do about it. He figured it was just a phase though, because how many times had it happened in his life before? None. Zip. Zilch. Nada. Niet.
And he wouldn’t let his feelings, temporary as he thought they were, no matter how strong they were, make him change the way he did things. He was happy the way things were. Fucking AJ. Fucking his cousin. Fucking Nick. And now fucking Eddie.
He knew he’d always have it his way, even with those strange thoughts that kept tickling the back of his mind.
As Nick opened his front door, Brian didn’t waste any time. He pushed the younger taller blond roughly back into the house, slammed the door and had them both naked before Nick could even blink.
“Suck me, bitch.” Brian commanded, pushing the blond onto his knees in front of him, as he leaned against the wall for support. They’d never made it into the bedroom, Brian was too impatient for that, so he forced Nick to perform his incredible act on him right where they stood, near the front door against the wall.
“I said fucking suck me.” Brian growled, thrusting his hands into Nick’s hair and pulling hard until Nick whimpered and moved forward closer to Brian’s cock.
Brian could feel Nick’s warm breath on his hardening cock and he sighed blissfully, then sharply, when Nick’s hot mouth touched and then covered the hot flesh. He flexed his hips and tried to push himself deeper into Nick’s mouth, but the blond actually held steadfast, his warm hands latching onto Brian’s straining hips as he tried to force himself deep into Nick’s mouth.
“C’mon, Nick, I need it now. Don’t fucking tease me, you cock teasing slut. Do it.” Brian ground his teeth together and pushed his head hard into the wall behind him. Nick’s tongue flickered out and touched Brian’s throbbing head as his mouth lowered onto Brian’s cock. He teased Brian, mercilessly, and he knew that Brian would punish him for that, but he wanted to be punished, he loved being punished. He was into pain, he liked it, thrived on it, and he got it from all of his lovers, but got it best from Brian.
His teeth grazed the sides of Brian’s hard cock, and he felt pre-cum leak out and onto his tongue as he took the cock farther into his mouth. He loved how Brian tasted. Sweet and tangy and salty all at the same time. He couldn’t get enough of Brian. He knew he’d never get enough of him.
“Suck me, damn it.” Brian’s low voice penetrated the pre-orgasmic fog Nick’s brain was in. He lifted his head and smiled at Brian slowly. “Or what?” He was brave. Too brave. And Brian would give him what he wanted. The pain. The rough fuck that he always lived for. He couldn’t wait.
Brian’s eyes narrowed even as his cock twitched. He knew Nick was fucking with him so that he would hurt him, he really liked that about the younger man. And, had he not been so damned horny, he might’ve tied Nick up and punished him properly, but he didn’t have the time nor patience to do so.
His fingers tightened in Nick’s hair and he pulled him up, eliciting a low moan-squeal from the younger man’s mouth.
“You want me to fuck you, don’t you, bitch?” He snarled softly, gazing up into Nick’s dilated pupils. “Don’t you? You like when I put my hard cock in you so fast and rough that you hurt inside?” He pulled Nick closer, by his hair, and licked the man’s trembling chin, down to his quivering neck, feeling the pulse point throb as he moved lower.
“You want me to own you like I always do, Nicky?” He stopped at Nick’s collar bone, his tongue flickering out against the sweaty flesh.
Nick moaned softly in the back of his throat, his Adam’s apple bobbing from his arousal and excitement. “Yes. Please. Fuck me. Own me. Do whatever you want to me. Please?” Nick begged, and Brian liked it when Nick begged, or when anybody begged him for that matter.
Brian smiled, slow and evil, letting go of Nick’s hair and pulling the younger man after him as he started over to the couch.
“I want you on your knees, facing the couch, legs spread.” He pushed Nick hard and the man fell against the couch cushions, nearly cumming from Brian’s authoritative commands.
Nick pushed himself up, leaning over the couch, his ass in the air and ready for Brian to take.
Brian licked his lips and moved behind Nick. He needed this. Needed Nick’s tight ass to get away from the thoughts he had thought that morning. About the feelings he’d felt when he’d fucked Eddie. He’d even felt remorse when he’d woken up that morning, but he shook off all those thoughts and feelings. He was in the now. He was in Nick’s house. And Nick was in front of him, ready for Brian to fuck the living shit out of him. And he would soon be in Nick’s ass.
He kneeled down behind Nick, his cock aching with need, and dripping with pre-cum for Nick’s wet tight heat. He caressed the round pale globes of Nick’s ass with both hands, “You want me?” The hands moved to Nick’s hips, and he rubbed his wet cock against Nick’s tight puckered hole.
Nick whimpered, his eyes shutting as he grabbed onto the cushions in his sweaty trembling hands. “Yes. Please, Brian? I need you in me.”
Brian removed one hand from Nick’s hip and grasped his hard cock in his palm. He moved forward so that the tip rested against the tight pucker of Nick’s ass. Slowly he slid just the head inside, and he waited for Nick to beg again. That was the best part, other than the fucking, and he would milk it for all it was worth, because Nick let him.
“Brian, please!” Nick’s voice rang out, quavering and raspy from arousal and want and need. He pushed his ass backward taking a little more of Brian’s cock inside him, but not enough. “Brian!”
Brian’s hand rose back to grip Nick’s hip and he pushed his cock inside of him all the way, in one hard quick thrust. As soon as he was inside Nick, he began thrusting hard and fast. He needed to get off, and he needed it now. He wasn’t going to waste time fucking with Nick when he could be fucking Nick and getting himself off.
He kept slamming into Nick, pushing the younger blond hard into the couch, trapping Nick’s cock between his stomach and the sofa. Nick was in pain and it was so good. His cock was pulsing from each of Brian’s hard thrusts. Brian knew just how to fuck him so that every thrust would send a spark of pleasure through his entire body, not to mention his hard screaming cock.
“You like that, bitch? You like me fucking you like this? Ramming my cock deep inside you? Making you my bitch even more than you already are?” Brian loved to talk like that during sex, Nick had found that out a long time ago. He wasn’t turned off by it in the least. If anything, it made him harder and made him come closer to cumming.
“Yes. Yes. Harder. Fuck me harder, Brian.” Nick ground his hips back into Brian’s thrusts and he gasped as red-hot waves of pleasure continued to flicker over him through the pain of Brian’s rape-like fuck.
Brian’s teeth bit hard into his bottom lip. He could feel his orgasm fast approaching, and he began to pummel Nick with even harder and faster thrusts. Making his cock delve deeper inside. Shallow and deep, that was how he liked it. None of that slow and steady crap that most people enjoyed. No way. That wasn’t for him. He loved the nearly rape-like fucking that he was performing on Nick at the moment, and he knew the younger man loved it as much as he did.
He pulled out nearly all of the way and slammed himself back inside Nick, deep and hard, and his cock spurted hot cum into Nick’s spasming ass.
Nick could feel Brian cum into him. Felt the hot streams of cum going far up into his ass. And then he came. Hard and hot all over the couch and his stomach. Then he lay there, in his cum, panting and unable to move from his post-orgasmic bliss.
Brian pulled roughly out of Nick and made his way to his clothes. He put them on and then breathed a sigh of relief. Thank God for his dumb sado-masochistic friend. Nick was always a way of relieving himself of unwanted thoughts. This time wasn’t a disappointment.
“Let’s play Nintendo, Nick.” Brian said, throwing Nick’s clothes at him, while he walked to the t.v. and dug out a game.
Nick slowly pushed himself up from the couch, dressed, and cleaned up the mess on the couch from where he’d cum. He was used to Brian acting like what they just did never happened. It was their secret. And always would be. He grabbed the controller from Brian’s outstretched hand and they played Nintendo.
“Eddie, how about you take a few days off. I can hear it in your voice that you’re tired. You should rest it and then we can work on this new song I have that would be perfect for you.” Kevin said, as he pulled off his headphones and shut off the music.
Eddie took off his own headphones and greatfully walked out of the sound-booth. “Thanks. It’s hard singing day in and day out like that. I’m not used to it.” He paused for a second, but then decided to ask Kevin about Brian. He hadn’t spoken to Brian in 3 days, since their night of passion, and he was wondering what happened. “Kevin, can I ask you a question?”
Kevin looked up from where he was looking at a clipboard full of notes. “Sure. What is it?”
“Uh...your cousin Brian, is he like...attached or...anything?” Eddie hadn’t thought of that at the time, or even before their encounter, but he’d thought about it for the past few days. He was certain that’s why Brian was avoiding him and hadn’t tried to contact him.
Kevin’s eyes widened imperceptively and he looked at Eddie nervously. “What do you uh mean attached?” Kevin didn’t know what to say about that. His cousin was fucking him. But, did that mean they were attached?
“Well...I don’t know. I sort of got this vibe from him. I like him. And he’s been...really nice to me and...flirting. I was just wondering if...he was available or he was just screwing around with me.” Eddie didn’t notice Kevin’s inner turmoil, as Kevin tried to think of something to say.
“Uh well...I don’t think he’s attached...exactly. I’ve never known him to be attached romantically with anyone, I don’t think. You’d have to talk to him, though, because I don’t know everything he does.” Kevin sighed mentally. He knew Brian was fucking other people. He knew he wasn’t the only one. But, then so was he. He was fucking AJ and Nick along with Brian. He couldn’t judge, when he was doing the same thing his cousin was doing. It just hurt him that Brian was bringing in another lover that he had to compete with.
“Is he coming over today?” Eddie traced a random pattern on the wood of the door as he studied his fingernails.
“I dunno. He probably will...later.” Kevin cleared his throat and tried to ignore the tightening of his crotch as he thought about Brian ‘coming’ over later. He knew what coming over to his house meant to Brian. And he was all for that.
“Well, would you tell him to call me, later? Or something? I really wanna talk to him about something.”
“Sure. I’ll do that. Have a good day, Eddie.” Kevin went back to shuffling some papers on his desk, and Eddie left, perplexed at Kevin’s odd behavior.
“What the hell is Brian doing?” Kevin murmured softly to himself as he straightened up the studio, shut off the light and wandered upstairs, hoping that his cousin would come over. And soon.
“Shit, Kevin...fuck.” Brian thrust hard into Kevin. Harder than before. And he came, hard and hot inside his cousin, clenching his hands hard on Kevin’s hips, leaving his mark as he emptied himself into him.
Normally that would’ve been enough. He would’ve left his cousin and gone to his own house for a shower, but it was different now. So fucking different. He wanted to kick Eddie’s little virgin ass, well not virgin anymore, for doing this to him. Making him weak. Making him think about him all the time.
“Brian...” Kevin started as he pulled on his jeans.
“What is it, Kev?” He asked, pulling his own shorts on over trembling legs. He convinced himself that the trembling was because of his orgasm and not because he’d been thinking about Eddie again.
“Eddie wants you to call him. He wants to talk to you about something...” Kevin sounded like he wanted to add something to that, but he fell silent as he stared at Brian.
Brian nodded curtly, pulling his shirt over his head and then slipping his shoes on. “That it? Just wants me to call him?”
“Yeah.” Kevin frowned at the distracted behavior of his cousin.
“Ok. Thanks. See ya.” And then Brian was out the door and on his way home. He couldn’t talk to Kevin about Eddie. He just couldn’t. He’d work this shit out on his own, he thought, as he stepped into his house and made his way upstairs to take a shower and rid himself of Kevin’s cum.
For 3 days, Brian thought non-stop about Eddie, but didn't call him. That’s all he could do. He would watch the younger man as he sang. He would watch the way he moved. It was driving him insane. He figured if he fucked Eddie again, that might cure him of whatever he was ailing of.
That was his logic anyway. He didn’t understand these feelings, because he’d never had them before. It was weird. And he didn’t like it. He was out of control. He was never out of control of anything.
And while Brian was having his own problems with Eddie, Eddie was going out of his mind about Brian. He’d asked Kevin to tell Brian to call him, but Brian hadn’t. He wondered if Kevin had even told Brian that he’d wanted him to call. He thought there was something funny about Kevin...maybe he was jealous, or something.
Eddie shrugged as he sat at his computer checking his email. He didn’t really want to think about why Brian hadn’t called. He just...didn’t want to hurt anymore than he already was. And he didn’t want to think that Brian didn’t want him or that he’d sucked in bed.
Eddie sighed and turned his computer off. He was alone in the apartment, Danielle and Sara both had dates. He hated them for that, but he was also happy for them, because at least those two got out and had lives, even if he didn’t.
Just as Eddie sat down on the sofa and leaned his head back ready to shut his eyes, the phone rang, shattering the absolute silence that Eddie had been in.
He groaned and moved so that he could pick up the receiver. “Hello?” He said softly, running a hand through his tossled hair.
A throat cleared. “Uh...Eddie?”
Eddie sat up quickly, nearly dropping the phone. “Brian?” He tried to sound nonchalant and detached, and he succeeded, but inside his heart was racing and he felt like jumping for joy now that Brian had finally called him.
“Yeah. It’s me.” A short laugh issued, turning Eddie’s insides to jelly. “I was wondering...would you like to come over here? To my place? We could...do something...” Brian left it at that, hinting at something but not saying anything.
Eddie didn’t take the time to analyze or even really think about what Brian could mean. “You want me to come over?” At Brian’s affirmative, Eddie smiled and stood up from the couch. “Sure. If you want me to. Uh-”
“I’ll be over in 10 mintes to pick you up.” Then Brian hung up and all Eddie could hear was the dial-tone in his ear.
He never really stopped to wonder about how Brian knew where his apartment was. All that mattered was that Brian was coming over and taking him to his house. They could talk and get to know each other better, and maybe do a little more.
Eddie smiled. Maybe Brian did care about him.
Eddie had been expecting a nice talk with Brian. And he’d gotten it on the drive over to Brian’s house, but as soon as they walked in the door, Brian had crushed Eddie against his door and attacked him. His clothes were ripped from his body, and Brian practically dragged him into his bedroom.
Brian pushed him down on the bed, and Eddie stared up at him shocked. “Brian? I thought we were going to talk?”
“We talked. Now let’s fuck.” Brian shrugged out of his own clothes and leapt up onto the bed and in between Eddie’s open thighs.
Eddie’s face creased into a frown, but as soon as he felt Brian’s hard cock rubbing against his own, all doubt, or really any other thoughts period, left his mind and his pleasure center was in over-drive.
“Yes, Brian.” Eddie moaned as Brian thrust his hips into Eddie’s. He lifted his hips against those moving into his and Brian’s head lowered to his neck, where he sucked on the sensitive skin below his earlobe. “Shit.”
“Do you like that? Do you like what I do to you? Do you want me to fuck you, Eddie?” Brian punctuated each sentence with a nip at Eddie’s skin, then lifted his head and stared down at him. “Do you want me, Eddie?” Brian’s eyes were intent upon Eddie’s face, and it was unlike anything Eddie had ever seen before. His eyes were so bright and luminous.
“Yes.” There wasn’t a doubt in Eddie’s mind about being with Brian.
Brian smiled slowly, and lowered his mouth to Eddie’s trembling one. “I want you too, Eddie.” He murmured softly before capturing the younger man’s lips in a scorching hot kiss.
Brian’s lips moved from Eddie’s down his neck and into the hollow of his throat. As his lips made a journey down Eddie’s chest, he moved his body down through Eddie’s thighs, his hands caressing every inch of hot skin he came into contact with.
He looked up, a devious smile playing about his lips. “What do you want, Eddie?” He nibbled at the indention in Eddie’s waist, his tongue playing along his hip bone.
Eddie sucked in a sharp breath, his body tensing, his hands clenched in the bedclothes. “You.”
Brian stopped what he was doing and sat up. “You want me to what?” He gently ran his fingertip down the side of Eddie’s pulsing cock, rubbing some pre-cum into his skin.
Eddie’s body convulsed at Brian’s touch on his hot skin. He wanted Brian to fuck him now, not tease the holy living shit out of him as he seemed to like to do. “Please, Brian, I need you in me. Now.” He whimpered, his eyes pleading up at Brian’s hard diamond ones.
Brian’s hand stilled and he swallowed over the lump that had somehow formed in his throat. “Your wish, is my command.” He said softly, leaning forward to capture Eddie’s lips once again in a hot kiss.
Eddie groaned loudly and then whimpered as Brian moved back from him again. He wished he knew what was up with that. He hated how Brian teased him to the edges of his sanity and then suddenly stopped. Before he could utter a word, Brian’s mouth was near his aching cock and his breath was brushing it, caressing it.
Eddie wasn’t one who much liked getting head, or really even the prospect of fucking another guy. He was one of those rare guys who got off souly on giving to his lovers, but when Brian’s hot sweet mouth clamped down on the end of his pre-cum soaked cock, he bucked upward into his mouth and without so much more as a tiny little suck in the tip, he was cumming hot and hard and wet down Brian’s throat.
Brian drank all of Eddie up. Then crawled back up his body and kissed him, letting him taste himself inside his mouth as he explored Eddie’s mouth with his cum flavored tongue.
“You’re so easy.” Brian whispered in wonder, not really meaning it as a fault on Eddie’s part.
Eddie’s moan of desire floated through the air and Brian couldn’t take it anymore. He needed to be inside Eddie right now.
He reached for the lube, set conveniently on the beside table, and squirted some into the palm of his hand. He coated 3 fingers and shoved all of hurriedly them inside Eddie, noting the incredible tightness he would soon be inside, he groaned and wrapped his lubed palm around his ever-growing cock. He lubed his cock and lubed Eddie at the same time. He didn’t waste much time or effort on that, because he knew he would cum not too long after sheathing himself inside of Eddie.
Eddie’s ass muscles clenched around Brian’s fingers from the slight pain from his intrusion. It hurt, but not as much as the first time, he noted thankfully. He made himself relax and then suddenly Brian’s fingers were gone and Eddie felt a wet stickiness blunt against his ass hole, pressing slightly into him.
Brian eased his slippery wet head inside of Eddie’s tight ass and groaned as Eddie’s muscles clenched around him. “Shit, I love this. You’re so fucking tight.” He bit his lip and eased all the way inside, until his balls rested against Eddie’s ass cheeks.
Eddie shuddered, licked his lips in preparation and grasped hold of Brian’s sweaty biceps. “Fuck me, Brian.”
Brian didn’t say a word, just stared down at the younger man below him. His throat was tight and he didn’t know why this young man was having such an adverse effect on him, because he’d never ever felt the feelings he’d been feeling since he’d met Eddie. He didn’t want to feel this way, he just did. At that moment, he didn’t want anything but to be with Eddie.
He started moving, slipping slowly in and out of Eddie’s tight ass hole. His muscles flexed with each movement and he gritted his teeth as he tried to hold onto his sanity and control.
Thrust after thrust, Brian pounded into Eddie, harder and harder and faster and faster. The only sounds were gasps and moans and heavy breathing and the slap of sweaty flesh against sweaty flesh.
Brian’s climax overtook him without warning and soon he was emptying himself inside of Eddie who was climaxing underneath him all over his stomach and chest. He collapsed on top of Eddie, his eyes wide, his body heaving, his mind full of thoughts he’d never thought he’d think before.
Brian made sure to be gone long before Eddie woke up. He couldn't face the younger man. Not with all these crazy thoughts cirulating around in his head. So, he decided to go to one of his bitches. AJ.
AJ could sure as hell make him stop thinking such crazy ass thoughts about a young man he barely even knew. That he shouldn't care about. That he couldn't care about, because he was Brian and he had 3 other bitches he had to fuck.
AJ opened the door and was quickly pushed inside before he was aware of what was happening. He knew who it was though, there was no doubt in his mind that it was Brian. Brian was finally coming to him, after several days of neglect. AJ had taken his neglected feelings out on Nick, though, so it was all good. Especially now that Brian had come back to him.
"Are you horny, Brian?" AJ asked, bemused, as Brian began stripping himself of his clothing, staring at AJ as if he was a piece of tenderized meat.
"Shut up, bitch." Brian snarled, removing the last bit of clothing and beginning to advance on AJ. He was pissed. At himself for these feelings he was letting himself feel, but he was going to take it out on AJ. He felt like being incredibly rough this time.
AJ swallowed, backing up a little. He didn't like the look in Brian's eyes. It was scaring him. Yes, actually scaring him. He didn't know what to do.
"Stop, or it'll be worse." Brian growled.
AJ's eyes widened in fear, but he stopped backing away from Brian, who was really close to him now.
"Uh...Brian-"
"I said, shut the fuck up!" Brian's fist connected with AJ's face before AJ even knew what happened. He staggered a little, but stood still, his face smarting from Brian's hit, but shock out-weighed the pain ten fold. Brian had never hit him like that before, he didn't know what to think. Brian was scaring the bejesus out of him.
Brian grabbed AJ's arms and forced him against the wall. He attacked AJ's mouth with his own, bruising it much like his fist had done to AJ's face. His hands brutally groped AJ's body, sliding down his sides and loosening and undoing AJ's pants. He roughly pushed them down, along with AJ's boxer-briefs, his mouth still attached to AJ's.
AJ didn't fight back. He knew Brian would make it worse if he did. He was starting to like what Brian was doing, anyway, so he gave in whole-heartedly. His mouth was tender and so was his face, and he could feel Brian's naked arousal, now, against his own.
Brian rubbed against AJ, hard, loving the friction that he felt from the movement. He let go of AJ, only long enough to turn AJ around and rip off his shirt. He slammed AJ into the wall, grinning at the muffled whimper and moan that came from the younger man.
His fingers moved down AJ's body and he thrust hard against AJ's ass. "You like it rough? Huh, bitch? Do you, like it rough?" His hands pulled AJ's hips flush against his own and he ground himself against AJ.
"Yes. Yeah. Fuck. Do it, Brian. Fuck me." AJ grimaced as Brian's fingers bit into his skin, and Brian's body pushed him hard into the wall again.
Brian wasted no more time. He was hard. He was horny. He was still reeling from being with Eddie, but didn't want to think anymore about the younger man. Even if he was. He moved back a little, pushed AJ's legs apart so that the younger man was open to him, and thrust into AJ hard, without lube, and without caring how AJ felt about it.
AJ screamed out in pain and his body tensed as Brian began to brutally fuck him. It was almost a rape, Brian was fucking him so hard, but he was beyond words, or anything. He could just feel the intense pain and the spark of pleasure he felt every now and then.
Brian was nearly there. It wasn't taking him long to cum at all. He pummeled AJ's ass with fast, hard thrusts and grunted deeply as he came. With a few more thrusts he was done and removing himself from AJ. He collapsed on the floor just behind AJ, and AJ turned around, surprised and shocked.
"Bri...Brian?" He said uncertainly, quietly, standing there feeling the pain from his rape-like experience, and from his hard-on.
Brian stared up at AJ, tears now filled his eyes. "I'm sorry. I...I'm just sorry. I can't do this anymore. Bye, AJ." Brian jumped up, dressed as quickly as he could and was gone before AJ could utter a word.
AJ stared dimly at the door. Heard Brian's car screech out of his drive-way. He crumbled to the floor, cried, and buried his head in his drawn-up knees and crossed arms.
He didn't know if he was crying because of what Brian had said, or because he hadn't gotten to cum.
Either way, it was bad.
For the next month, Brian's routine changed. He would fuck Eddie, at either his house or Eddie's appartment, then be gone long before the younger man awoke. He'd immediately go to either Nick's or Kevin's house and fuck the living shit out of the one he went to, trying to drive out the insane thoughts he'd been having about Eddie. Thoughts he'd never wanted to have, feelings he'd never wanted to have.
He couldn't fuck AJ again. Never. He'd hurt him, and just couldn't do it. All of it was getting old, though. He wasn't the same when he fucked Nick or Kevin. Both men could tell it, too, but didn't know what was happening.
Brian wasn't one to lose control, and he wasn't about to do it just because he felt a little more for Eddie than just as a fuck toy.
As much as he denied it, though, he couldn't push Eddie from his thoughts entirely. No matter how hard and brutally he fucked the other two.
That scared him.
Brian was going crazy. Every time he fucked Kevin or Nick he would feel Eddie, taste Eddie, and think about the younger man as he was with the others. And he would see what he'd done to AJ, how he'd raped him, hit him, been mean to him. He couldn't take this much more. He didn't know why he was feeling all this, going out of his mind, thinking about another fuck toy. He just wanted it to stop. To stop before he completely lost it.
And soon Brian was fucking Eddie more than Kevin, and Nick combined. He didn't even think twice, either. All he knew was, was that he couldn't get enough of Eddie and that he didn't care about fucking the others. He still did, though, to assert his power over them, but he was really fucking Eddie when he fucked them. In his mind, he was.
Eddie was all Brian focused on. He ate, slept, breathed and fucked Eddie. He started to ignore Kevin and Nick, more and more, and each of them wondered what the hell was going on with him, because Brian didn’t offer any kind of explanation for his strange behavior. They just suffered silently, unknowing of the other's pain, while Brian continued to pretend that he didn't love Eddie and that he wasn't really spending that much time with him.
And AJ was losing it. He didn't know what had happened to Brian, but he was left out in the dark as Brian's emotions slowly started to take him over. And as Kevin and Nick were slowly being pushed out of Brian's life as he had been.
One day, Kevin pulled Brian aside to talk to him. “Brian, what’s going on? You hardly ever...come to me anymore. Have I done something wrong?” He worried his lip thoughtfully, staring down into his cousin’s eyes.
Brian stared up at Kevin. He hadn’t even noticed he’d been ignoring everyone lately. He’d been so wrapped up in Eddie, it was hard to remember that there even ever was anyone else.
“No. You didn’t do anything wrong, Kev. I’m sorry. I’ve just had a lot on my mind, is all.” He smiled sweetly at Kevin, and caressed the side of his cousin’s face gently. “You missed me, huh?”
Kevin’s eyes closed, his mouth dropped open a bit, his breaths grew shallow and quick and he leaned into Brian’s touch even as he moaned. “Yes.” He breathed.
Brian’s cock stirred in his pants. It had been a long time since he’d thought of fucking anyone else but Eddie, even when he was fucking someone else, but now that he was feeling this about Kevin, he figured he needed to get back to his old habits. Old habits did die hard.
He released Kevin’s face. “Strip.” He commanded quietly, watching Kevin’s eyes darken with hunger and lust and need.
“I want to try something different, Kev. Lie down on the floor.”
Kevin did so quickly. It didn’t seem so different, he thought, as he drew his legs up so that they were bent at the knees.
Brian stripped off his own clothes and then straddled Kevin’s waist. The older man stared up at Brian, questions in his eyes, but he never got to voice them because Brian suddenly lifted himself up and guided Kevin’s hard cock into his ass.
Kevin’s eyes widened. “Brian, what-”
“Ssshhh, Kev.” Brian grimaced and slowly eased down until he felt his cousin’s balls resting at his ass cheeks. “Just wanted to try something different.” He said, then began to move.
Brian didn't know what had gotten into him to let Kevin have him like this, and neither did Kevin, but it felt too good to turn back now.
“Fuck, Brian.” Kevin moaned and dug his heels into the floor, thrusting up into Brian as he thrust down onto Kevin. His hands clenched into the carpet, fighting to not touch Brian. He didn’t know what had gotten into Brian, but he didn’t want to fuck it up by doing something Brian didn’t want him to do. Touching was a big no-no unless Brian said he could.
Brian moved faster and harder down onto Kevin, the pleasure of what he was doing building in his balls as Kevin’s cock grazed his prostate. He reached down and brought Kevin’s hands to his hips. “Touch me.” He felt Kevin’s hands tighten on his waist and Kevin pulled Brian down on him harder, thrusting up into his cousin’s ass.
Kevin’s teeth ground together as he moved under Brian and Brian moved down over him. He didn’t know what had gotten into him, but he liked it. Vaguely as he started to cum, he wondered why Brian was being so nice to him and letting him fuck him, but his orgasm washed over him before he could analyze those thoughts.
His back arched pushing himself deeper up into Brian and Brian squeezed his ass muscles purposely around Kevin’s cock as he pushed down onto him one last time. Kevin’s orgasm was ending as he sat there still on top of Kevin’s cock.
Brian watched Kevin’s eyes. They were glazed over in his post orgasmic paradise, and half-narrowed as he stared up at Brian breathing hard and shallow.
“Shit, Brian, what was that?”
Brian bit his lip, his own cock incredibly hard, still, “Just thought I’d try something different.” He shrugged and pulled off of Kevin. He sucked in a deep breath as he felt Kevin’s dick leave his body and then he sat down next to Kevin on the carpet. He stared down at his cousin for a few silent moments, “Kev, do you love me? Or do you just fear me because of what I’ve done to you all of these years?”
Kevin’s eyes widened and he pushed himself up so that he could look at his cousin. “What? What do you mean? Fear you? Bri, I love you, and I always have. I always will. No matter what happens, I’ll always love you. You’re family.” He reached out and caressed the side of Brian’s jaw with his fingers.
Brian sighed and leaned into the touch. His cock was still pulsating, needing release, but all he could think about was what he’d done to Kevin, AJ and Nick all of these years. He’d fucked them over, literally, for years upon years without any regard to their feelings. He didn’t really know why he’d all of a sudden thought about everyone’s feelings. Normally he didn’t. He couldn’t. He didn’t care. But, maybe it was Eddie that was making him see the error of his ways. Making him see that he’d hurt them and not cared about them as he should have.
He stood up. “Kev, I’m gonna go. I...” His eyes took on a far away look as he searched for something to tell his cousin. He mentally shrugged. He couldn’t think of a damned thing, really, so he might as well tell the truth. “Kev...I think...no I know that I’m in love. I have to go be with him now. This,” He gestured with a hand from himself to Kevin and back again. “This can’t go on. It isn’t right. I’m sorry for using you and I’m sorry for using everyone else. I’m just sorry. I have to go.” He said hurriedly, pulling on his clothes and walking out the door without another glance at his cousin.
Had Brian looked back, he’d have seen Kevin’s eyes tearing up and tears slipping down his beautifully chiseled face as he pulled on his own clothing. He’d have seen Kevin’s chin trembling and shoulders shaking with silent sobs. He’d have heard Kevin finally scream as emotion so great over-took his soul that he didn’t know how he was going to survive without his cousin.
Kevin had depended on Brian for too long. This was going to be hell.
Brian was on Eddie's doorstep. Just standing there. Afraid Eddie would reject him for some reason. He didn't know what was going on. He couldn't think straight. He needed to be with Eddie so he could think again. That was weird. Thinking properly when with Eddie. Normally he thought better on his own, away from everyone, especially away from his bitches. Then again, Eddie wasn't just a bitch to him anymore. Neither were Kevin and Nick or even AJ, who he'd been completely ignoring lately.
He sighed and scuffed the tip of his shoe on the stoop, wondering if he should actually go through with it. He was ready to knock on Eddie's door and tell him everything. About how he'd been fucking 3 others, and how he'd been fucking Eddie with no intention of taking it any further than that.
He was afraid of how Eddie would react. Didn't know if Eddie would want to be with him after he learned the truth. But, he cared enough about Eddie to tell him the truth, and was ready to express his true feelings, and take whatever Eddie had to give him. However he reacted to Brian's news.
Brian took a deep breath, let it out, and prepared himself for the worst. That was all he could do, he supposed, shifting a little and raising his hand to finally knock on the door.
As he waited, he imagined the worst. Eddie would hate him. Throw him out. Tell him to go to hell. Tell him that he hated him for what he'd done and for using him.
Brian's stomach was in knots as the he heard the locks being turned and the door finally opened. His stomach clenched as he stared at the woman standing before him.
"Uh...hi...can I...is Eddie available?" He swallowed thickly as he watched her eyes narrow.
She held the door back for him without a word and walked away. Maybe Eddie had been talking to her, Brian thought, going inside and shutting the door behind him.
Brian sat in the living room, on the couch, nervous as fuck, staring at the blank tv screen. Danielle, as he'd finally been told, had gone to get Eddie and to apparently make herself scarce so that the two of them could talk.
His fingers began to play with the edge of his shirt and he snuffed that action immediately because it reminded him too much of AJ. And being reminded of AJ at the moment wasn't a good thing.
So, he just sat there, silent, scared, too afraid to move or look around the apartment.
"Brian?" Came a quiet voice from behind him.
Brian's head turned and he looked over his shoulder. There stood Eddie, uncertain, and shy, and so fucking beautiful to Brian that he wanted to cry.
"Hey." He smiled slightly, then that smile melted and a grave expression took hold of his face. "I need to talk to you."
Eddie's stomach flip-flopped and he slowly walked to the couch and sat down. When someone said they needed to talk to you, it was never good. So, this couldn't be good.
"What is it, Brian?"
Brian cleared his throat and stared at his hands. "I need to tell you some things. Please, don't interrupt, I need to get all this out in one go. I don't think I could do it if you said something."
Eddie sat there wide-eyed, only nodding.
"Ok, so. For years I've had this...system. I fucked Kevin. I fucked AJ. I fucked Nick. I never told any of them about the others, but I think they suspected. Anyway, I've done this for years. Started with Kev. Worked my way to AJ. And finally Nick." Eddie stared silently shocked, and Brian ran a hand through his hair. "Well, see, this system worked for a long time. Up until recently. I....Eddie, I was doing it with you too. You were a part of it. You were one of my bitches." Brian bit his lip. "I was using you as I used the others. But, I don't know...something happened. I've never felt this way before. Never felt these feelings before. Never felt anything like this, and it's scaring the shit out of me. I don't know what to do. The way I did things is shot now, and I can't fuck Kev, Nick or AJ anymore. I just want you. I know you hate me, I don't blame you. I just needed to tell you the truth about it all. I'm ending it. It's over. I'm not going to play this fucking game anymore. I just thought I'd tell you all of that and," He paused, his eyes rising to Eddie's finally.
Eddie sat there, unable to say a thing. Shocked was an understatement for what he was at the moment. He was pissed, and sad and shocked and a whole lot of other emotions all rolled up into one.
"And?" He choked out, his hands clenching against his knees.
"And...that I love you. That's all. I love you. I love you more than anything or anyone. And it scares me because I've never loved anyone before." He stood up. He was ready to leave before Eddie snapped out of it and yelled or threw something at him. He didn't want to hear any of that, because regardless of how he treated everyone else, he did have feelings.
"I'm gonna go now. I'll...see you around, Eddie." Brian headed for the door and was out of the appartment before Eddie could find his voice.
Brian was crying by the time he reached his car, and on the way home he could barely see straight he was crying so hard. He was lucky he made it home alive.
As he pulled into his garage he thought about everything. He needed to call Nick and AJ and Kevin and tell them all what was going on. Kevin knew a lot of it, but the other two had no idea.
He sighed. It felt like the weight of the world was resting on his shoulders.
Eddie slowly made his way to the door and locked it. He heard Brian's car leave and he slid down the door to the floor. He'd never thought Brian had been using him. Never ever thought that. But, now that Brian had confessed, it made sense. Kevin was so protective of Brian. He'd thought it was a family thing. In a way it was, but it was more of a sexual thing than that.
He rested his forehead on his drawn-up knees for a minute, his thoughts racing through his mind like frightened horses. He was floored by what Brian had told him. Everything was a surprise. Especially the love part.
Eddie quickly got up and went to his bedroom, he shut and locked the door. Locking out Danielle and Sara. He curled up in his bed and cried. His life was shit now, and yet he still had to face everyone in a few days when he returned to Kevin's house to keep recording.
He really hated the music business.
Brian ruminated on everything for a few hours, and finally came to a decision. Calling them wouldn't be good enough. He had to do that in person. It would be better for them all. He just hoped they didn't hate him or attack him after he told them what he had to say.
He reached for the phone and called Kevin, AJ, and Nick. He told them all to meet him at his house in a few minutes, then hung up. He felt a little better, calling them. He knew the truth was going to come out and that he'd better be ready for the consequences of his actions.
Half an hour later they all sat in Brian's living room. They all wondered what was going on, except Kevin that was. He knew.
Brian sat down in the recliner and stared at the other three who were sitting on the couch staring at him curiously. He looked from Nick's innocent clueless face, to Kevin's dark and brooding one, finally to AJ's bruised one, and swallowed hard.
He cleared his throat, his hands clenching together between his open legs as he leaned forward. "Ok. I guess you all wanna know what you're all doing here, right?"
"I know what we're doing here, but I need to know what this is all about, Brian. What the fuck are you doing?" Wondered Kevin, causing Nick and AJ to stare at him.
"Why are we here, Bri?" AJ asked, his black and blue bruise tightening and hurting slightly as he frowned at Brian.
"It's over. It's all over. I can't be with any of you anymore. I've discovered love. Even if he won't have me, I know it now, and I can't do this," He gestured at each of them then himself. "I can't do it anymore. I just thought I should tell you. It's the right thing to do."
He sat back and waited.
The three men on the couch stared at him.
He stared warily back.
"Brian, since when has the concept of wrong been in your vocabulary? In your life?" Kevin snarled, his eyes piercing Brian's. "It was wrong when you raped me when we were kids, but you didn't stop, did you? It was wrong of you to hit Alex and you still did that, didn't you? It was wrong of you to fuck us and use us and you still did that didn't you? What gives you the right to say what's wrong, now? I don't even think you know what's right or wrong, Brian. I don't think I can handle this shit."
Brian's eyes were wide, but no more so than Nick's and AJ's.
"What? Kev? You and Brian? Brian, you were fucking all of us?" Nick's face crumpled and he stared sadly at Brian, his supposed best friend. "Why, Brian? Why did you do this?"
Brian felt so bad now. He felt the need to lay it all out for them. Honesty was the best blah blah blah and all.
"I needed control. I needed sex. Since I knew all of you would keep quiet, it was easy to just go after you all. Don't look so shocked. I know what I did was bad, but hell, I'm fucked up. I'm sorry for everything. I mean it. That's why I'm callin' an end to all this now. I can't deal with it anymore."
"It's Eddie, isn't it?" AJ said quietly, his black eye peering at Brian thoughtfully.
"What? How'd you know that?"
"Even if I didn't want to admit it, I saw the way you watched him and acted around him. Hell, I even saw you leave with him. I didn't have to be a rocket scientist to figure it out, dude."
"Oh...well. Yeah. It is him. But, I told him everything and now he hates me. So, I don't think it's going to happen with him. I don't care though. Getting all of this out and telling y'all made me feel better. Even if he doesn't wanna be with me, I'm glad all this is over."
And then all was silent. No one said a thing, they just stared at each other.
Finally, "Well, I'm fucking Alex and Nick too, cuz, so I guess I know what you're talking about. I'm not using them like you did us, though, and I didn't lie to them about it, but I guess I can understand where you're coming from. Even if I hate your guts right now."
Kevin's words shocked Brian. He hadn't suspected at all what his cousin had just told him.
"How long?"
"Uh...about 2 years now for all three, I guess. Been with Alex for about 5 now, though." Kevin shrugged.
Wow. What a mind-blowing day he'd had. Brian shifted. "Then y'all don't really need me."
"We do, Brian, but if you don't want this anymore, then don't come to us. I'm shocked, yeah, but that doesn't mean I don't want to keep up with what we were doing." AJ said, taking Kevin's hand in his as he was talking. "I hope Eddie forgives you, you're a good guy, basically, just didn't know what the fuck you were doing." He shrugged, rubbing his thumb over Kevin's skin.
"Uh...yeah. What he said, I guess." Nick finally broke out of his silence, taking Kevin's other hand.
Brian stared at them. At least they were together and wouldn't be too put off without him around. Still, seeing them like this was weird as hell to him.
Another uncomfortable silence met the group.
"Look, we'll go and leave you alone. We're still all a little shocked and don't know what to really do about all this. We'll talk to you later, cuz. I wish you the best." Kevin stood up, still hand in hand with both Nick and AJ. But, he let their hands go to hug Brian as he stood up too.
The hug was a lingering one, then a chaste kiss and Kevin walked to the door. Nick hugged Brian and kissed him, then joined Kevin. AJ stood uncertainly, his eyes ever expressive and showing his doubt and wariness about the whole situation.
"Guess, I'll catch you later, bro." AJ mumbled, hugging Brian and starting toward the door where Kevin and Nick were waiting for him.
"AJ?" "What?" He turned around.
"I'm sorry for everything. I really hope you three are happy together. You deserve that."
AJ smiled slightly, his eyes warming. "You too, Brian. Everyone deserves happiness."
And then all three men were gone and Brian was left alone to his own devices. And thoughts.
Six days after Brian had been to his apartment and told him what he'd told him, Eddie was back at Kevin's house recording songs. Judging from the pinched, pained and betrayed look on the older man's face, Eddie assumed that Brian really had told Kevin that their little game was over. And, if Brian had told Kevin, he had to have told AJ and Nick too.
Eddie was hurt, hurt beyond belief, but he still loved Brian. He'd loved Brian since the day they'd met, he'd come to realise. He didn't think he'd be able to live without Brian, but Brian had been scarce in presence as of the moment he'd walked out of Eddie's apartment and Eddie didn't know what to say to him anyway.
Well, he did, but he didn't think he'd actually be able to tell him all of it out loud. It was always harder that way. Expressing feelings to someone in person was a hard thing to do.
Brian hadn't been at Kevin's when Eddie had arrived, that wasn't really a shock, and now that Eddie was about to leave, he didn't see any indication that Brian was going to come.
As Eddie was about to walk out the door, Kevin's voice stopped him.
"Brian loves you, you know that now. He stopped all the shit he did with all of us, I know you know that too. But, here's something you might not know, Eddie. Brian is scared. He's never loved anyone selflessly before. It's always been about him and what he wants and needs and desires. Now, it's a whole different ball game and he doesn't know what to do about it. He's been moping around his house lately, I haven't been there for him and neither have the others, but I know that's what he's doing. I've known him too long to not know his quirks and moods in certain situations."
Eddie stopped at the door, his back still to Kevin who was hovering in the doorway watching him. "Why are you telling me this, Kevin?"
"I want Brian to be happy. I know that you would be the one to make him happy. He's changed since he met you, Eddie, and none of us could do that. He never changed for any of us, and I guess I've come to realise that that's a good thing. All in all, he's so in love with you that he can't see straight. Excuse the pun."
Eddie turned around to face Kevin. "You mean that?"
Kevin sighed, his face and body tense with emotion. "Yeah. I do, Eddie. I want Brian happy, and if he needs to be with you to be that, then more power to him and you both. I just don't want him to lose you, because you're what he needs and I know that you feel the same about him. I know you wouldn't do to him what he did to us, and that sets me somewhat at ease. Just wanted to tell you that." Kevin walked back into the kitchen and Eddie stood there a minute before leaving the house.
Kevin sat down and buried his face in his arms. That had been harder than he'd thought it would be, but he really did want to see Brian happy. If Brian's happiness cost some of his own, then so be it. At least he still had Alex and Nick. They at least returned his feelings.
Eddie stood at Brian's door, much like Brian had stood at his days earlier, and thought about going home. Just going home and not seeing Brian or talking to him. But, he couldn't leave now. He was there, and he had been told by Kevin many things that he hadn't known before. Maybe Brian did want and need him as much as Eddie wanted and needed Brian.
He knocked on the door and waited impatiently, a thousand butterflies taking up residence in his stomach as he stood there.
When Brian opened the door, he looked like he'd been through hell and back. His hair was uncombed. His face pale and drawn. He hadn't shaved in days. And he looked as if he hadn't changed clothes or showered in a few days too.
He looked beautiful to Eddie, though.
Brian stared at Eddie wide-eyed. He thought he was hallucinating or that the man before him was just an apparition, a part of his tortured dreams.
"Eddie?" His scratchy voice tumbled from his throat gravely and nearly too soft to be heard.
"Yeah. It's me. Can I come in?"
Brian stood to the side, allowing Eddie entrance. Eddie walked in and Brian closed the door behind him. They both walked through the foyer and into the living room. Sitting down on opposite sides of the room, they stared at each other and Brian waited for Eddie to speak.
"So, I talked to Kevin today after the recording session. He told me some things."
Brian waited, his fingers twitching in response to Eddie's words. He wondered what Kevin had told Eddie.
"Did you really give them all up because you love me?"
Brian stared at his hands. "Yes. And add to the fact that I was fucking them over royally, using them, not caring that I used them. But, mostly I did it for you. I'd never seen anything wrong with the way I did things until I met you, Eddie. I'm just so bowled over by all these feelings inside me." Brian shrugged.
"I love you." The statement was so quietly said that Brian nearly missed it.
"What did you say?" His haggard face had taken on a look of hope.
"I said, I love you, Brian. I have since I met you. Even if you did use me and all that other shit, I don't care, because I love you. Call me stupid or whatever, but I'd love nothing more than to be with you."
"Eddie, you're not stupid. You're you and I love you." Brian stood up and walked to the other side of the room where Eddie was seated. He kneeled down between Eddie's legs and stared up at him. "I love you. Don't ever doubt that. I know I've done some terrible things, but that's the only thing that I know is real."
Eddie's eyes filled with tears. "Oh, Brian."
Brian clasped Eddie's hands in his own as he kneeled there on the floor. "You forgive me?"
Eddie smiled and sniffed a little bit, tears running unabashedly down his face now. "I forgave you before it even happened, Brian. You didn't know." He said simply.
Brian smiled sincerely for the first time in a long time. "No, I didn't know. Not until I met you."
