May...
The striking of the glasses, the toastings and the cheerings,
Carry the echoes of all your good wishes
to that place where good wishes are granted,
Allowing you all in whole to achieve, obtain and
aquire
Everything that it is you are aiming for this year!!!
Happy New Year!!!
Ok, Let's get a little drunk now!!!
LOL!
Now for my own New Year's Resolutions...
Hmmmm...?
A resolution, a new plan
allowing myself for much more self-rediscovering and the discovering and
exploration
of others as I, 'once and for all', make myself available for DATING in this
new life-style of mine!
Yes Dating!!!
But that doesn't mean I will be logging on to the Internet, jumping onto any
local chat rooms and then
rush out the door to go throw myself at the mercy of
a complete stranger in the middle of the night,
just to get each other's rocks
off... Not looking for a real quick jump in the sac... Not looking for a
one-night
stand either... Not into cheap, cold, meaningless and quite insignificant 'instant sex hook ups'!
None my style at all.
As corny as this may sound...
I'd like to experience 'incredibly romantic' outings
with another 'incredibly romantic' male.
And I know exactly what it is that I
have been dreaming about all this time!
I don't know why, but I had always thought when two set up a 'dinner date' it was merely a fake little
self-exhibition on each other's part, sitting at a dinner table, simply bullshitting one another all the
way through when in reality perhaps all is
thought of, and intended to, is to get into each other's pants.
Furthermore my
thoughts added on; "Why on Earth would anyone go stuff each other like
stuffed
cabbages, then try to go fuck?!", I don't know about anyone else, but
I wouldn't be kissing at all,
Nor would I like to be kissed if our breaths ended up smelling like garlic or both stuffed like pigs!
:)~
Here's where the truly corny stuff comes out of me:
No, I don't think I'm quite ready to do the 'Let's go out to dinner' thing. But I am now sooooo
ready to
venture myself on much more fun, more exciting and hopefully even 'incredibly romantic' dates with
another male where perhaps the two of us could
end up at an old movie drive-inn. Yes, those do exist still!
Watching a movie, joking and laughing
and ultimately fogging up the windows, while parked right next
to the rest of the
'straight' cars, not just proving to each other that we do 'exist' as gays and as a 'gay
couple' but even more; allowing us both to enjoy that
type of 'perfect moments' just like any other
straight couple there would. Maybe even acting and feeling like 'teen-agers' all over again!!!
:)~
I would love to find myself in the company of another honest, romantic, caring and loving soul,
speeding
off down the 10 freeway on our way to the desert, where I'd hope we would end up
star gazing in the middle of the night and going "Oh shit! did you look at that one!!!!"
after seeing
a few shooting stars zoom by. Knowing me, I'm sure I would be making
a few wishes all throughout the night;
One of them wishing that perhaps I'd finally be in
the company of my own 'real' soul mate, for it would
be extremely beautiful to start
travelling the rest of my life today and already be holding the hand of
the one that's suppossed to meet me again once in Heaven, if I even make it to Heaven, that is.
(I'd sure hate to make him wait 'Forever'!)
:)~
I'd love to find myself with an extremely fun male driving off for a weekend of camping perhaps,
or
maybe going fishing, and actually coming back home and cook off a great fish together!
Or perhaps just hanging out at a local park, laying out on a blanket and reading
to each other.
I know myself, and therefore I know all along I would be talking and talking
and talking about
my three beautiful kids and how much I love my three beautiful
kids and how much they all love me,
so I know I would end up incorporating them
into a few of my outings here and there,
Besides it really takes more than two to set up that big-ass huge camping tent we would use
when ending up in Big Sur...
:)~
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps by now,
you may realize that I am not really just all about
"Are you a top?", "Are you a bottom?",
"Were you planning to travel or host?"
And the one I hate the most "Freeway-Close!?", I'm not looking for a 'convienience store' that appears to be open for 'business' for anyone at all at any given time of
day or night.
I am what I am, and I am who I am...
I am romantic, passionate, family-oriented and quite capable of giving my entire everything in the name of true love.
I know I can't hurry love and I won't, but quite frankly, I can't wait to be sitting at a park, enjoying an afternoon delight, writing those poems and love letters and saying "Thank you for a beautiful day!".
Yeap, I am what I am, and I am who I am...
and this year as an openly gay male I will
start to make the most and the best out of the rest of my own
Fabulous Life....
Who can say where the road goes... Only time,
But perhaps, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps,
at the age of eighty-five or ninety-five, I will be the world's
happiest gay senior citizen,
changing my own hubby's Dependables and not just saying "Thank you for a beautiful day!",
But saying "Thank you for a beautiful life... And God, do I love you so-very-much!!!"
Maybe I will end up alone on my dying bed, yet smiling as I fade away
whispering my last breath "Well, at least I did search for you...Wherever you are"
Whatever the case, my search into what is called 'dating' is on!
