After what seemed like an eternity the doctor softly said my name. I acted like I didn't hear, I need Tay with me forever. I needed to feel the warmth of his body against mine for the rest of my life.
He said it again louder, and there was no way around it. I stepped back and looked at Taylor through blurry eyes. He was wearing a long sleeved red shirt and blue jeans. He looked so adorible, I started crying more.
"Ashley, I can't go to the foster home because you're not going." Tay said. I looked at him funny.
"What?"
"They stayed up all night last night and found you a home.. Ashley, you're going to..." he couldn't finish, he started crying.
"Ashley, you're going to Connecticut. The plane is going to be at the airport in an hour. You have ten minutes to say goodbye." the Doctor said, like he wasn't totally ripping me away from everything. Sure, I could run from the city to Tulsa, no problem, but from CONNECTICUT to Tulsa? No way! I would have to get back, but how?
"I made you this tape. I went through all my CD's last night and put you together this tape. Just, listen to it as soon as possible. And all your stuff is in the car. It was hard as hell to take everything out of your room. It's so empty Ashley. It feels so lonley. Derik called last night. He says goodbye. We all do. Mackie made you this," Tay handed me a folded peice of white paper with A-S-H-L-E-Y written in realy sloppy little kids letters, when I opened it up I saw a heart and the word goodbye. I cried, and a tear landed right in the middle of the heart, "He's really hurt, he doesn't know the meaning of goodbye. He thinks you'll be back tomarrow."
I couldn't help but cry. As I walked backwards twoards the car, I stepped slwoly. Tay followed, walking the same pace. I knew this was good bye.
I got into a car, and someone I didn't know said hello. I looked out the window. I rolled it down and Taylor came over and squatted enxt to the car. He reached his head in and we kissed a long, full kiss. I never wanted it to end. As she started the car, we stopped, and Taylor whisperd "I Love You" and I whispered it back. We started crying together as the car pulled away. I stuck my head out the window.
"I LOVE YOU TAYLOR! NEVER FORGET THAT! I WILL CALL, WRITE, WHATEVER. I LOVE YOU" and he was screaming back. I started crying. I couldn't belive it.
This was good-bye.
Linx
