JOURNAL 29


8:57 pm, 07/18/01

subject: when reality hits...

So, I am back from Univ. of Southern California's orientation last night. Before I attended the orientation, I don't think I ever did fully comprehend what it means to be a college freshman, you know what I mean? The school campus is VERY nice and has many excellent facilities provided to the students, but for some reason, I just wasn't feeling it. I don't know what it is or how to describe it, but I am SO frightened and scared that I want to cry. I don't think I am ready for this transition. As I told my mom, though I don't like boring routine, it provides me stability. Before I do anything, I like to know what to expect and how it is going to turn out. Yet, right now, I am like a lost lamb. How are the classes? How nice are the professors? How hard are the exams? I don't know answers to any of these questions. Surprises really can be both heaven and hell.

Joanna, you need to have more confidence! How easy it is to say...I just feel so alone right now, going to a place where I don't even know a soul! First day of school is the WORST thing even created...what am I going to do? After surviving 4 years of high school, and now this, 4 more years of undergrad.? In high school, I took all these tests to get into a good university, and now, I have to do the same thing again in order to be admitted to a business school? I don't want to study anymore! I don't care about my straight "A"s...I just cannot take this!! Why am I so scared?

Anyway, I am taking 4 courses this semester: ECON, ITP, a social issue class about comtemporary moral and social problems, and a writing class. Since I got a 5 on the AP Calculus test (what a surprise?! definitely heaven), I don't have to take math this semester. I'll be lucky if I can even update this site weekly...here are some cool facts about USC I didn't know. George Lucus is an alumni of USC, and Steven Spielberg actually applied THREE times to USC but was rejected all three times!!! And guess what, the kid who plays "the famous Jett Jackson" on the Disney channel is coming to USC this fall as well! Want some autographs?! LOL