It was my last few days before I was rushed to the hospital because I was dying from cancer. Most people would spend these days with their families but I spent it with my boyfriend Brian Littrell. As we danced to "I'll Never Break Your Heart" he stared at me like he was very worried. "Nicole, you really should spend these last days with your family." He explained ready to cry.

"I know I should," I replied as I could feel the tears ready to pour out of my eyes, "but I want to spend them with you. I love you." I started to cry and put my head in his shirt. "Don't cry, baby." He tried to make me feel better, "The world just won't be the same without you. I'll miss you so much. But I really think you should be with your family right now." Brian started to cry too but not as much as me.

"Ok, if it makes you feel better tommorow I'll spend with my family." I told him while crying my eyes out.

"Ok, baby, that would be best for you." Brian replied as a few tears dropped from his eyes. We continued dancing throughout the night trying to forget that it was out last time together with me not in a hospital. Although we cried most of the time, we tried to enjoy ourselves.

The next day I went to visit my mom, dad, and my sisters. Of course the rest of my family was at the house. When I walked in the door they all started to cry. Everyone hugged me and told me their goodbyes as if I were already dying in a hospital bed. "I'm not dying yet!" I yelled for no apparent reason. Everyone looked more sad now. I felt bad because I though I insulted everyone by yelling. I stayed there for about and hour longer then I left to see Brian again. I knew it wasn't the right thing to do for my last day before being rushed to the hospital but I had to do it.

"Nicole!! I thought you were spending today with your family!!" Brian yelled a little angry.

"I couldn't. They weren't understanding!! I had to be with you!!" I cried as I broke down in tears and fell onto the ground. I started to cry. I was too young to leave the earth. Why me? Why was it me who had to die? Brian joined me and started to rub my back trying to make me feel better. He put his arms around me and held me close to him. It made me feel better just to know how much he loved me.

The next morning was the day. I woke up with this horrible pain. I couldn't move, I was practiacally paralyzed. I knew it, I was going to die soon. Hearing my cries of pain my mom ran into my room and quickly dialed the paramedics to come and get me.

The paramedics came and rushed me to the hospital. They put me in all this stuff. There was nothing they could do, I was gonna die!! I layed onto the soft bed as my mom read me the first story she had ever read to me when I was little. A tear ran down my cheek. My mother got up and leaved. Only a few more days before I kicked the bucket.

The next day was the last day of my life. I was visited by all of my family. Just as my mom was about to leave Brian walked in the room. He was cying like a child, just like the song. My mom waved at him then walked out after saying "goodbye" for the last time. Brian came and sat on the side of my bed.

"Brian?" I said feeling the pain. He grabbed my hand and started to sing softly to me. I could feel him gripping on my hand quite hard as if he never wanted to let go. Soon I could hear in his singing how sad he was not only that I could hear my life fading quickly. "Good bye." I whispered, "I love you!" After that I went to Heaven. I watched as Brian grabbed onto my lifeless body and hugged me crying. It made me cry myself. "I love you Nicole!! I love you!!" Brian yelled as he cried.

"I love you too, Brian." I said. He looked my way, "Nicole?"

"Good bye Brian." I said then left, "I'll always love you till the day we meet again."