I can feel him drifting away from me. I watch him when we’re together and something is missing that used to be there. There’s no fire or excitement in his eyes anymore. He comes home later and later each nite, and sleeps on the couch more than he does with me. At first I brushed it off, chalked it up to the “romance fading” or the honeymoon is over that so many couples go through. But I know it’s more than that now. Even now, he’s sitting next to me in his favourite chair, but it’s like he’s a million miles away. I’m scared to ask him what he’s thinking anymore…what is he thinking? Is this over with us? Is this connection I thought would always be there…gone? I lean closer, trying to get him to notice me…trying to see the love that once was there shining in his eyes, in his smile…in his touch…

And then he looks at me…

And my heart shatters into a million broken pieces.

Don't say what you're about to say
Look back before you leave my life
Be sure before you close that door
Before you roll those dice
Baby think twice

No…no…Oh god…he’s leaving me. Leaving us. I look at him, silently begging him to stay. Why? What did I do wrong? I can feel the tears slowly starting to fall down my face. My hands reaching out to touch him and feeling my stomach churn as he slowly pulls his hands from beneath mine. His face grows so pale, his eyes so sad, but determined. I can see it, feel it. He’s going to leave; he’s going to walk out the door tonite…out of my life.

Baby think twice for the sake of our love, for the memory
For the fire and the faith that was you and me
Baby I know it ain't easy when your soul cries out for
a higher ground 'Coz when you're halfway up, you're always halfway
down
But baby this is serious
Are you thinking 'bout you or us

What happened? What went wrong? I beg him, watching him stand and walk to the bedroom. Pulling the suitcase down from the closet. It all seems to be moving in slow motion, watching him pick things up and pack them. I sit on the bed, holding our wedding picture, tears flowing shamelessly down my face. Asking him what happened. I know we’ve grown apart some, he works so much, gone for days, weeks at a time. I know it’s been so hard to stay connected. But he never talked about it. Never let me know tragedy was so close. And even now…even as he puts his clothes and his toothbrush into his bag, even now he won’t say anything. Not a single word.

Don't say what you're about to say
Look back before you leave my life
Be sure before you close that door
Before you roll those dice
Baby think twice

It’s like I’m in a dream. No, more like a nitemare, a horrible never-ending nitemare. You can’t leave! I grab the suitcase, throwing it to the floor, his clothes scattering like leaves in the wind. I face him, waiting for something…for anything…a reason to throw so many years away…to throw away so much love. He looks at me, and wavers, his voice trembling as he tries to speak. I don’t…

Don't say what you're about to say
Look back before you leave my life
Be sure before you close that door
Before you roll those dice

No…no…no…no…no…no! Don’t say it! Don’t say those words to me! Not to ME! I can feel my insides being torn out, watching as he bites his lip trying to keep back tears. I can’t think straight anymore. Watching him kneel on the floor, picking things up and tossing them back into his suitcase. I can feel the anger start to take over, pushing the pain and the hurt back down inside. I want to scream…to lash out at him. How can he just walk away? How can he just walk out the door without realizing that he’s walking away from his life…from his past…from his future? I beg him, plead with him not to leave. To work things out with me, to work things out for us. We were happy once. So happy, so much in love. That can’t just disappear can it? I still feel it, how can he not? Confusion sets in as I watch him open the front door.

Don't do what you're about to do
My everything depends on you
And whatever it takes, I'll sacrifice

Silently he walks down the front walk, to the car and slides behind the wheel. And my body gives out. I feel myself falling…clawing for some chance, some hope as my body crumples to the floor and I watch the car pull away. And I feel my life dissolving into nothingness, as the one true love I’d ever known or believed in disappears, without a second glance my way.

Before you roll those dice
Baby think twice

**lyrics “Think twice” by Celine Dion**