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Christmas is only a couple weeks away
And I am not even looking forward to the day
I know that sounds horrible but it is true
Christmas for me doesn't feel like it use to
No matter how hard I try to get into the spirit of things
Sadness and grief is what Christmas to my heart now brings
It isn't easy nor is it fun to spend the Holidays alone
Spending Christmas with the one I loved is all I've ever known
God I know for me you are there but sometimes that isn’t enough
The days, the months, the years only continue to be rough
I will never be okay with the fact my love one was taken away
So it is hard for me right now to celebrate any Holiday
I know I need to surround myself with those who are still here
But I do not want to ruin nor do I want to put a damper on their Christmas cheer
And even though they would want me very much to participate
The thought of my love one not here is something I very much hate
Right now everything for me has came to a complete stand still
Time has not eased the pain and nothing in this lifetime ever will
All I can do is take one day at a time and go with the flow
And feel the spirit of Christmas like I did several years ago.
Pamela Lawson
©December 14, 2006
All poetry on The Light of Love is the copyrighted work of Pamela Lawson and may
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