Exam Studies

-One Month Ago-

-Yuki-

We were supposed to study. Well, just me at least. I was going to do this alone. I told Asuka not to bother me. I turned off my phone and set up my desk. I was going to sit down and get it done. Despite my careful planning, I couldn’t focus. I leaned back in my chair and groaned. I cursed myself under my breath. Why was this so hard?

I lifted my head when I heard a knock on my door. Hm? Was Asuka back already? She would’ve said so.

“Who is it?” I asked.

“It’s me,” Shizuma said. My heart jumped in my chest. I jumped and ran over to the door. I threw it open. There he was. I felt myself choke a little.

“Yo,” he said.

“W-W-W-What are you doing here?” I asked.

“I’m here to help you study,” he said. I gave him a blank look.

“What?” I asked.

“For your exams,” he said. “You do have exams, right?”

“Yes…” I said. Shizuma folded his arms across his chest.

“Do you want my help or not?” he asked. I stood looking like an idiot for a moment.

“Sure…” I said. He had no emotion on his face as he teleported into my room. I looked around the hallway before I closed the door.

At first, we said nothing. If I couldn’t focus before, it was even worse. Shizuma narrowed his eyes at me.

“What are you stuck on?” he asked. My red turned face as I looked down at my notebook.

“This one,” I said, pointing below me. Shizuma moved my finger and looked at what I was pointing at.

“That one, huh?” he asked. I nodded.

“What are you stuck on?” he asked.

“I don’t know,” I mumbled. Shizuma lifted my face to his. I felt so small in his gaze.

“What is wrong here?” he asked. “Talk to me.” I could feel my eyes starting to tear up.

“Why are you doing this to me?” I asked. Shizuma gave me a strange look.

“What do you mean?” he asked. I found myself struggling to speak. Why? Why does he do this to me?

“We go back and forth,” I said. “You disappear on me for days at a time and you won’t tell me what’s really going on?” My lower lip trembled.

“What do you want from me?” I asked. I could feel a single tear rolling down my cheek. Shizuma said nothing as he let go of my cheeks.

“What are you having trouble with the problem?” he asked. I pouted as I eyed him.

I couldn’t focus on the questions Shizuma was asking me. Why wouldn’t he answer me? I felt like I wanted to scream. What was with this guy? I tightly clenched my pen. I clenched my teeth to keep from screaming.

“Are you listening to me?” Shizuma asked. I looked up at him gritted my teeth.

“No,” I said.

“Why did you ignore my question?” I asked. For the first time today, I saw a little hint of emotion on his beautiful face.

“You wouldn’t understand,” he said. I wouldn’t understand? I wouldn’t understand?! My face felt hot as I screamed in my head. I just had to say or doing something.

“Kiss me.”

“What did you say?” Shizuma asked. I leaned in and kissed him on the lips before I knew it. He didn’t try to push me off. Nor did I stop. I looked into his eyes when I pulled away. We didn’t speak. I turned back to my notebook and picked up my pen. Shizuma cleared his throat.

“Do you need me to go over the problem?” he asked. I looked down and cleared my throat.

“Yeah,” I said with red cheeks. He went over the English phrase in my notes again. We didn’t talk about our relationship or the kiss and I couldn’t focus again. There went my plans for studying.  Looking back, somehow that didn’t really matter anymore.