Sunken Hopes Anchor my Dreams
I swim in a sea of lost love
Strapped tightly to my past
I struggle to be free
I drown in thoughts of you
My soggy lungs gasp for air
I thought it was true love
But your words have made me deaf
And reality has blinded me
So I fight for life, as my past pulls me deeper into the sea
My Veiw
Silky immagination welcoming oppurtunity
Shadows dancing toward the sky
Seasons looking for the begginning
Life-giving blossoms imitate art
As bliss comes, sense is found
Chasing the quiet beyond, bodly offering love
Playing in golden ashes
Beautiful reflections above the blue
Delicous memory of outcast desire
Darkness balanced by beauty
Light forever shattering fear
Before The Night Ends
Nights bare end creeps slowly, silently
I stand, running from my heart
Past still rules, it's hold on me tight and unrelenting
From my dark place of regret and solitude
My eyes dart around, unsure
Delicious desire is found
And lost
The hand of the past releases
And with a single thought is once again strong
Before the night ends
Me
I am not me, I am someone else
Just some person you know nothing about
Don't pretend you know me, for I don't know myself
For I am not me, I am someone else
Kiss
I felt the world shift as our scents collided
Your eyes moving closer to mine, mesmerizing my sense of reality
Your lips reaching for me, capturing me in everything you are
Touching me deeper than deep
Enlightening me like orgasms
Bringing me closer to life.
I cherished most
The one moment we were silent
And I could hear how much you loved me
You could see it in my eyes
The moment where love meant everything
And the air between us held a carress that felt like fire
I knew we were flying so far above everything we'd ever known
But then you spoke, and I answered with tears,
"Goodbye"
Late and alone at night she plays with the knife she calls her friend
Whispered in his ear "You make me crazy enough to be sane"
She hated herself so much she couldm't help but love him
She dreamed of destruction on red satin sheets
Tears turned to smiles as she watched herself bleed
All she hated had once again returned
But she promised to make it right
Just one more beating
Addiction will end
Run the blade across her throat one more time
So close
Swelling pain, wounds reopened
Embrace this once again
She beckoned the violent rape to come to her, make her bleed inside
All she wanted
To feed this growing monster addicted to hurt
She knew she was the different one
She begged the rape to come
"Drain me" she screamed, and watched her eyes pour down her face
Romantisized anguish
"Just one more time"
She whispered in his ear "You make me crazy enough to be sane"
She knew she was gone
...............................................
We stood together to watch the sunrise
And alone i saw it fall
We stmbled carefully around those who danced with fire
And wondered why they
died in the flames
The hurt we covered in camoflauge
All the moments pride wanted to run
We stamped our worth into the ground, let it
flee with
the fingers of the men we fought against
Decided faith wasn't enough
i never understood why you turned your face away
We thought we could hold onto our own
But now the holes are showing through and
Paths we've chosen becoming our weakness
Scraped the honor from
This human race
MELTED
i looked
up in
surprise
to see
that the
sun had
not become
brighter
when you
finally
dried
your tears
ECLIPSE
Cold air clawing at my lungs
Lonely mind wondering if i ever cared
You told me about dying in the cold
"You go completely numb, and then you fall asleep..."
I must have died long ago, dissapeared
from the shameful lies of this frozen world
By hiding my face from all you deemed good
And screaming memories of emotion into the empty wind
Every story must have an ending, and this is mine
WISHFUL THINKING
Slowly, like the
petals of an
awakening flower
Your hand opens
to swallow mie
And in doing
so swells my heart
THE REVEAL
It
took
one
moment
inside
you
to
make
me
realise
i
need
to
dive
Sappy Love song...
i've been climbing my invisible ladder
Reaching for my imaginary city
With you and me alone
The world has slipped away
And nothing is blocking my veiw
Of you, so close to my perception of perfection
Tears falling down, a dream come true
And we close our eyes to the sound of singing
i feel your arms around me, the only thing that's real
i feel your arms around me
i'm climbing my invisible ladder
Reaching for my imaginary city
And all the things that used to be important fade away
But you
Everytime i sighed before, you heard me
And now we're dancing above the clouds
i can finally turn around and see into your eyes
i feel your arms around me, the only thing that's real
i feel your arms around me
Cuz i'm climbing my invisible ladder,
Reaching for my imaginary city
With you in it
GOLD
We saw it last night
Watched the people who dreamed in the rain
Smiled at the reasons they were dancing
And wondered why we couldn’t join them
You took it away last night
A moment of uncertain calm
Left because of all the reasons I could have flown away
And wondered why you couldn’t join me
REMOTE
I’m so spread
Like the sands that erode the skin from your face
You’re so behind
Like all the hearts that ran so far from mine
We’ve fallen upward
Like the paint-splattered stools we sat upon to draw our feelings
I’m so stained
Like your fingers after touching my lips
You’re so dreamy
Like the stars that sprinkle the same sky you see
We’ve broken away
Like the necklace you bought me for my birthday
I’m so worn
Like the doorknob only you could turn
You’re so perfect
Like the winding tunnel we met in
We’ve been wounded
Like the children of the promises I failed to keep for you
I’m so high
Like the butterfly that landed in your hair
You’re so tired
Like the eyes I’ve always dreamed about
We’ve exchanged fear
Like the name written upon my wall
I’m so messy
Like the shirt I sobbed upon
MIRROR
Trembling, dreaming of your presence
Speaking, only in a whisper for no one tp hear
Posing, pulling petals to win your glint
Hearing, the thoughts of
The broken men that lay facedown
Afraid, only in your albescence
Everything
Screaming, there is no hero to save us
Struggling, with the reasons I can’t run
Ruining, everything I once worked for
Floating, waiting for your words to pull me down
Spending, all my life ticking away with
Only one shadow on the wall
Awakening, to the reality that things aren’t going to change
Waisting, away to nothing and a shrug
Scribbling, pain in my disappearing eyes
Who cares?
Smile, no one
MOTHER
She always cut her pie into square peices
And stained her eyelids blue
They said "that's no way to cut a pie"
And questioned her integrity
She danced with me in her favorite yellow dress
And showed all her teeth when she smiled
The smoothed their navy-blue suits; stuck up their noses
And smirked
She milked the cows while barefoot
And sang love songs at the market
They sat in front of her; tied their laces
And stared at her
She baked bread for the neighboors
And sewed for the missonary barrell during church
They bitched her for fraternizing with sinners
And called her a lawbreaker
She watched the sunrise every morning
And wept when the flowers died
They told her she needed beauty sleep
And refused to give her a hanky
She used a knife to slit her throat
They were shocked
THE SOUL STARING BACK AT ME
She rememberd the hurt she understood
They told her she lied, to shut up
But she knew
They pushed her into a wall
So it stayed inside
She was crazy, but her memories remained
Her mind throbbed and no one cared
So she drew it on her arm when she was bored
She carved it into her neck and hoped no one looked close enough
She tried to pull it out of her hair
But only while she was strung did she care
She was tired of being alone
So she tried to sleep
She lay there in the cold, feeling her eyelid
All soft and smooth
She liked it
So she found a spike and drew a line
The blood trickled down her face
No longer beautiful
She smiled
HOLD YOU AND SAVE YOU FROM ALL THAT HINDERS
Standing there, the limits you place
Falling, the pain you trace
Because of love, the bonds you make
Fear, the life you live
It ends, what then, for me?
Tears cannot be enough for you (There are never enough tears for you)
i care much more than you ask me to
i would stand, and give the world for you
For a toy, only if you'd play it right
A smile, but limits i place
It's too tiring to breathe
You're too special to leave
Don't want to get too lost, too far, too found, too close
If i don't understand?
You're my little hand to hold
Your smile worth more than gold
You're a huge friend to behold
And those descriptions, i'm less than you're told
What if you knew?
What if i told you?
i cannot give, but i'll try
We can lie and watch the clouds drift by
As long as you see it in my eyes
i'm not enough
DIAMONDS
Let's play the Sorry! game, Love
Cuz i'm always bored
Oops...
i'm Sorry! we switched place
i wasn't meant to play that card
i'm Sorry! i knocked you out of line
i'm Sorry! i cheated
i'm Sorry! for winning
Hell, i'm Sorry! for even begginging
i've cried my apology
And paid for error with stone
i dug a hole and i'm suffacting inside
Don't tell me i don't need to hide
i'm Sorry!, but life's a game that's just no fun
my mind hurts cuz i'm trapped in it
Colliding with happiness, i've lost again
You have no need to forgive me
i'm Sorry!
(What's in a name?)
You could have died upon that hill
We could have flied beyond that hill
Why do you lied?
You could have smiled
At me when i looked in your eyes
And when you cried, i would have dried
Why didn't you try?
And now i lie inside that stream
You held my hair, don't let me scream
i didn't care what happened to me
But you were gone, and now i see
Don't you hide now, i'll let you go
If i died now, oh who would know?
So one more time, your hands could bind
And tell yourself that i would find
Your blade to be what i not wanted
Come unto me, always undaunted
What are you saying, why do you scream
To think of me, and what you've done
Fior without me, we hadn't begun
More than i've said, i wouldn't know
And if i did, to you i'd go
Did you sing the dream?
And later i'll cry on your chest
i'll breathe your name, i love you best
You cannot stand your own fire
It's you i want, death i desire
Just speak a word, and i'll agree
Just breathe a sigh, and set me free
These words i've said, i only mean
Those words you said, you didn't mean
THE DREAM
Maybe if you and i were left alone in this world
Maybe to complete my pain you'd live and then die, i'd scream and then do you away
One last kiss before this, if you love me like i love you
One more time you held my face in your strong hands while a flash of pain i produce takes everything away
Maybe i'd be the last one to go, to be truly alone is my destiny
It's you first, you are more, then i'm leaving after closing your eyes
Weeping, why'd we end up like this?
Who defines the boundary between life and pain
There is none
You hurt but you don't feel anymore (this is love),
They're all gone and lips forever frozen, eternal bliss and what else?
So it's my time to say goodbye to this dead earth, the trees wilting around me
Crimson stains from my fingertips, i'm more powerful than you thought, Love
Procrasinating, waiting until the sunset
You've been silent for seconds, i've aged years
Gray-haired, i drag your perfection to the plave from which i fly, my choice, (do you remember, you were there) and jump with no last cry, taking with me the emptiness that once inhabited all i knew to be real
my hand holding your former fingers, i spared you the agony and soon i'll be no longer on my own
So your before prison hits first, i wince at the crunching of bones but only one tear has the chance to fall before my flash of wonder, now it's over and thank you
No one left to see me, finally beautiful, the remains of the past forever broken and red-splattered
The begginging of everything i'd always wished for-the end
LIQUID PAIN (Un)
Art of Hush the dead women that cries
Is I'm impatient?
Learning in order always of, attending them creed
To the flight, but falling is one one word much the much easiest one?
Entrusting in mine a pain that compasess
Of unfortunate fate
Smiles inadequate
Itching of the person?
Of you I make to fuse that one finds on your arms and the glistening?
Of the extension they breathe in me, take opinions to me you leave yourself
From passion of the world,
me that detaches mine, closing the world outside of ago?
Between which the evil of you today?
It will calculate the utter of unfortunate fate of you
That it lacks clouds, than a hand of the sun far away from
The dead women, of the true life that leaves outside of my breath,
Because the aspiration he again?
Beautiful ramblings
Possesion to only
Catch up the far sunflowers therefore much they shine under the rain
That you have severed?
On heart and you have enlevened?
On spirit far away cut the
i'm pain that becomes stronger more and more weak person and "bold" and you that it waits for more far
away for consider
i that observes fixedly outside the rain ago?
Constant falls some, too much
Knows that i'm pouring
Don' t soul
Towards the high, appreciate the earth alive solo in a world complement of the goodbyes final of pain,
the points of view
Tremendous the tear leave you dirent
For sapire?
Art and i, uttements of tap me?
Not as can never convince them
You can fixedly observes yours in til of eyes the world flies by?
i want to soak them between is made in my pores, bath
with my veins you can ask the lack of appetite, but appreciate in
Order always the can't it models far away from that I have necessity
Are you only one dream?
That I can feel them to crawl under my skin
That closes my eyes, I leave them in rire of
Don't in misfourtune smirk of don.t?
A pain I see them in the night, I feel them when it's all
Empty the dead women underachieve?
i that of phase i have need of you for living, i wish to die unliklihood
Immortal them. Without you?
Ignoring my conscience, that it plays with the dead women if you're that it goes to go, kill it initially If mines before you, i end my phrase but you have obtain
SUNKEN HOPES ANCHOR MY DREAMS
I swim in a sea of lost love
Strapped tightly to my past
I struggle to be free
I drown in thoughts of you
My soggy lungs gasp for air
I thought it was true love
But your words have made me deaf
And reality has blinded me
So I fight for life, as my past pulls me deeper into the sea
LIQUID PAIN (Deux)
Does silence have an art i've mastered?
Silence death i'm impatient learning for always from you waiting i beleive in the flight but to fall is a word much easier
Trustful in my pain sympathizing of an unhappy fate?
smiles itching of the you i dissolve being on your arms and the glissi?
Extension breathe in me, take opinons started from patagueage, passion to me
Of the world me loosening my closing the world out of whose evil of i you today?
Will calculate my utter of unhappy fate you missing the clouds
Smiling as hand of sun?
A far from death of the true life leaving out of my breath, why the aspiration it again?
Beautiful ramblings
i can only reach the so remote sunflowers shine under the rain which you have
Oh heart and have endowed on sprit evolved cross far the i'm pain becoming stronger and weaker and
more blod
And further awaiting you
For consider me fixidly looking at outside the rain
of do constant in fade, i know that i'm too pouring
don't me soul? upwards i only like the ground alive In a world complement of final goodbyes
Of pain, the sights flickering left tears direct me for always?
Art and the utterments of trap m don't how can i Never to convince you of?
E true?
Can me look fixidly in your til eyes the world steals by
i want to soak in you phase in my pores, bath by my veins
You can ask for apathy, but likes me for always i can't mold far from what i need am you only a dream?
That i can feels you crawl under my skin closing my eyes i leave you in the laughter of don't
In the misfourtune, smirk of don't a pain i see you in the not
i feel you when it's all stabbing?
Lies of phase i need you to live
i wish to die unliklihood
Mortal, on?
i without you?
Being unaware of my consience, playing with death
If you're going to go kills me initally if i die Before you finish my sentence but you obtained to test
A BLEEDING HEART
Blood dripping on the ground slowly forms a puddle
Thoughts growing stronger, blood pouring faster
It's flow makes the ground red
My life drains away
As the hour passes, all I see is black all around
Love is forever gone
I watch and smile as my heart pours down my body
Remebering when I beleived I was everything, I know now I am nothing
Nothing without a heart
Mistakes.....
I don't need help!
Slow, painful death is better than life
I press my fingers to the flood on the ground
One last cry and I follow
BEFORE THE NIGHT ENDS
Nights bare end creeps slowly, silently
I stand, running from my heart
Past still rules, it's hold on me tight and unrelenting
From my dark place of regret and solitude
My eyes dart around, unsure
Delicious desire is found
And lost
The hand of the past releases
And with a single thought is once again strong
Before the night ends
MY VEIW
Silky immagination welcoming oppurtunity
Shadows dancing toward the sky
Seasons looking for the begginning
Life-giving blossoms imitate art
As bliss comes, sense is found
Chasing the quiet beyond, bodly offering love
Playing in golden ashes
Beautiful reflections above the blue
Delicous memory of outcast desire
Darkness balanced by beauty
Light forever shattering fear
