Nice Guys Finish Last – For Now
It’s too easy
She wonders why
All of the sympathy
Her mind always tells her
In the end
Tons of time
That nice guys finish last.
-- February 18, 2003
Free
Clean slate -
Flying eagle -
-- November 25, 2002
Thank You
This revelation that I had the other night
I have told myself time and time again,
But you finallly got tired of holding onto wishes
-- November 21, 2002
Decisions
I've been struggling lately with decisions since one decision leads to another, and it opens many doors of opportunities along the way.
I had a revelation today as I was walking around this beautiful campus when I realized that each decision I make is not really a decision at all.
So, I'm going to stop worrying and start loving.
-- June 26, 2002
Feeling
Alone but surrounded
Taken for granted but appreciated
Outspoken but timid
Loving but revengeful
All that I needed in life was lying straight in front of me,
-- June 20, 2002
Searching
Dreaming of a world still full of endless possibilities,
Pursuing an intellectual degree surrounded by intellectual people,
Being able to move from relationship to relationship,
Searching for the answers to all of life's questions...
-- June 19, 2002
To like the nice ones.
This may sound sleazy
But she likes the bad ones.
Her heart yearns to be hugged.
But the bad guys
Give her the good love.
Comes from the nice ones.
Ain’t nothing but a pity
Since she chose the bad one.
To be attracted to the nice ones.
But her body puts a spell on her
She’s attracted to the bad ones.
The nice ones win.
So just be her friend
She’s givin’ the bad boys a spin.
For her to find a husband.
Give her drink a lime
It’s fun for her to pretend –
Drawing thoughts,
Scribbling feelings,
Transform my future identity.
Free to live,
Free to experience life,
Fly me to my destiny.
Has finally begun to make sense.
He told me that you were still in my life for a reason,
But I was unsure of exactly what He meant.
That what we had has disappeared.
But I kept the thought of us in my heart,
Imagining you someday holding me near.
And agreed with me that we're better off as friends.
It took you telling me that you're moving on,
To finally understand what He meant.
I feel as if one wrong choice could send my life tumbling downward into a state of utter dismay.
Well, it is in the manner that I have a free will, but each decision has been accounted for by God in his plan for me to lead me to my purpose in life, my ultimate call.
Outgoing but shy
Unloved but adored
Caring but cold-hearted
Helpless but in control
Fearless but scared
Open but concealing
Vibrant but dull
Empty but complete
As I proceeded downward waiting to be caught.
But I'm growing old and growing fast.
Wishing my days were as simple as when I was a child,
Hoping my childhood friendships and dreams will last.
But I'm feeling less smart and less wise.
Wishing everything was as easy as high school,
Hoping it gets a little easier, so all dreams do not die.
Was once a trait that I inhibited with pride.
But now I'm looking for that commitment,
That long-term partner in whom I can confide.
When life has been searching for me.
