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Life:

I awoke today somewhat of a new man
and rustled away yesterday like it never happened
I went to the window and felt the wind on my face
...for the first time
I realized that within that instance I could do anything

Nights earlier
These last few espers shined
As soldiers marching towards
Mirrors with names that rang
Like bottletops with gentle air
But my light, though dull,
Reflects like any other
With only unforgiving glares
But who the fuck needs mirrors
To tell me who I am
When there's these windows all around
To discover just the same
... I awoke today somewhat of a new man
And rustled that night away.
I awoke today a new man
There was no yesterday.

And I looked out through my window
And watched the leaves blow outside
I realized I was just like them
Before I breathed in new life
With the breeze up, I would soar
Over treetops and through the clouds
But that wind would always die
And I'd go hurtling down
So I make this firm decision
I'll be living my own life
I will not be so wavering
I will now take control
From this day forward I will not
Let this breeze take my soul

I can not help myself from letting my soul wander
I feel there is so much left for me to learn
...to gain, to need, to want, to give...
Many can travel among the earth searching
Never finding
But I think even if I were to travel
The ends of the earth,
the universe, and the place between nothingness and order
It would be a palindrome to all that I already know
Unravel my body
Turn me inside out
For I hide nothing that can't be seen from one connection
One moment
Where I find myself next to someone else
Pouring my life into a simple, "Hello"
A greeting and a smile, because that's all life really is
I say this holding hands with destiny
And choking on the return of something I denied so long along

Every morning I seem to transcend time and space,
Escape life itself for just a little bit,
Until I’m shot back down into the prison cell of flesh you call a body,
All my feelings and ideas seem to fade away as I return,
Leaving nothing but an Empty shell of a man,
The truth of nothingness that can’t be insincere
Every day I live true in emptiness
Thus is Today and every other day until the end

Isn't it funny how the simplest things
Can ruin a happiness that I guess can't last forever
You're words sealed this truth
And wrapped this message with pretty string
But I guess the sentiment was covered in shit
I can only do so many things in life:
Fight for who I am
Fight for my friends
Fight for what I love and what I stand up for
Yeah when you say these words you attack what I stand for
A belief in the truth within myself, shattered out of hate
I want to be as heartless as you make me out to be
But being defeated by your words, and the deep hole it left in my heart
Is not something I will succomb too...
Hear me, new pain
New
Days
Give me thoughts without words,
Please
Save
Me

Through eras, it transcends like fools,
This blister they gave me, small, slightly larger than a
Pin's head on my right, my dominant hand.
And this slight stinging turns to burning,
Turns to strangling, turns to explosions of
Throwing myself across rooms, grabbing, hurling clocks
Books, pencils, anything, in aggravation.
But with it's damage done
I look down at this catalyst,
This blister, small,
Slightly larger than a pin's head and...
... Stinging.
Not burning, not strangling, not exploding, not even the size
Of the damage it caused.
So I gather those thrown, stand and walk away.
For as they create blisters no larger than pins,
This hand can create mountains. We're larger than them.

This hand has five fingers
Each powerful and effective
Much can be done with this hand
Words do much, but hands move quicker
And not a word in this world can change
The one who moves first is the one who stands last
The hand has five fingers
Each one loyal and dutiful
What kind of master will you be?
And what kind of things will your servants do?

I congradulate the night on its victory
Another time in which I am forced to reflect
But with thoughts of her, I am protected
It is this force where I can not be touched
Yet all I can do is feel her inside of me
The stars always seem to be falling on these nights
My wish seems so insignifigant
Compared to what I know I have in you already
Lets the worlds crash out your feet
So when it is all said and done
I know that angels will still have a walkway to heaven
Spread your wings
...my angel...
...my love...
Paradise is wherever you are
Even as I write this
I wish I could truly express how much you mean to me