Words
At an absolute loss for
words
Never knowing truly what I'm trying to say
Feelng deceived and
foolish and yet
Something else, something more
I don't know what I'm
looking for
I don't know what I'm trying to say
I need to let go, but I
want to hold on
And I have to let go, but you're coming back
And I
don't need this anymore
I need a change, a drastic change
They're all
around me
But are they for me, or I for them?
If I took the chance, would
they stay
Or would I lose all chance at happiness
No matter how
small
If I gave up what I already have
I had to leave my world to find
what I have
But could I find more, closer, in sight?
For the longest time,
no
But now? Could it happen?
Do people see me as I am
Or what I
was
Do they refused to acknowledge change
Or do they accept it
Or do
they ignore the better, see only the worse
So many risks, is it worth
it?
Am I worth it?
If I took it, could I keep it
Or would I,
eventually, desire another change
Cor te reducit
The heart leads you
back
The heart pulls you in.
But back to what?
Into what?
Am I even
making sense?
I don't know, I don't think so
I need to be
alone.
February 28, 2003
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