Impossible

2 months ago, I thought you were gonna be
"The One"
But now I feel like I'm losing it
I was wrong to judge you so quickly
I was wrong to see you as so perfect
But was that really what I saw?
Or was I only looking to replace him
You're always on and off
So hot and cold
How can I stay with you?
Yet how can I leave you?
I'm so afraid of making a mistake
And you always say things are meant to happen
But can't you screw up Destiny?
And would it straighten itself up if you did?
If you think about something too much
It's impossible to really see it for what it is
And I've thought about this too much
But no one else really knows
It's just hopeless, we're hopeless
And I'm starting to hallucinate
My rosary is moving
I need you to listen to me, and you never hear me
There's always something
Something more important going on
I'm just noise in the background
And you're off, you're cold, more and more
The more I think, the more I don't know
What to do with you
I promised you I'd be there for you
But I need you to be there for me, too
What am I supposed to do?
I'm alone when making this decision
I have no one to turn to
What the hell am I looking for, anyway?
I'm sure I'd know if I found it
I'm losing control, it's 3 in the morning
I need to sleep before I deal with this

March 9, 2003

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