In My Fucked Up Life

I wouldn’t because I had you
No matter how good our time together
The ending hurt too much
And nothing will make it better
Every day in the middle of my thought
My mind gets sidetracked
Diverted towards the pain that can not be healed
The pain that will haunt a mind forever
And empty space
A broken heart
Two people in love torn apart
Every day brings a new tear to my eye
A tear of sadness
A tear of broken hope
A tear for the time we will not share anymore
I could tell you loved me
Just by the way you kissed me
And I thing you might just still feel for me
Everyday brings a new upset
In mind
In heart
In soul
In pride
Upset by how you’re so close
But I still can’t have you
Everyday I fall deeper into a black hole
One with no light on the other side
No matter how hard I try
I can’t fight this depression
It’s pulling me in to fast
Everyday in my fucked up life
It’s a challenge to get out of bed
Knowing today is going to be the same emotionally
Physically the pain will come in other ways
Bamboo shoots under a finger nail?
Struggling with work
5 - 7:15
Everyday you fuck up my already fucked up mind
You don’t mean to
It wasn’t planned
Either way it hurts none the less