A Lack Of Colour

Waiting for the signal to turn green,
But the flashing yellow won't change,
Listening to a timeless tune,
Needing my heart to be at ease,
Sitting here wishing the song could make me cry,
I need the release,
But it never comes...
Just like this flashing colour,
My life won't seem to change,
I'm on pause,
And I'm feeling so content,
"I should of given you a reason to stay"
An outburst of notes,
I'm singing now,
And this pain won't seem to go away,
I'm not like I use to be,
I use to be innocent,
Kind, caring, sweet,
Now I'm just me,
With everything sugarcoated,
But the taste is bitter...
And my life just the same,
This music so uplifting,
I wish I could melt away into it,
And never be seen or heard again,
Just dissapear of the face of the earth,
And find a place all of my own,
Find a piece of mind,
And some space,
Some time to think,
People don't appreciate lonliness,
I embrace it,
Atleast then I can fall,
And blame it on no one else,
These tears like ice,
Cutting through my skin,
Numbing every sense except for this pain I'm in,
Dizzying, spellbound,
My life away from home...
Shattered,
Every ounce of me,
Coming to the rescue,
Trying to salvage everything once true,
But the lies have deterioated it,
Like rust to metal...
And I'm pouring everything in,
Just to get it back together,
I have no energy left,
Just to simply say 'Hello',
I want to fall exhausted to the floor,
But the thougt makes me sick,
I'd rather be beat down then quit.
 
Waiting for this signal to turn green...
But the flashing yellow won't change...
And, on and off this things ticks,
And, this timeless tune...still the same...