My name is Rhonnie and I am a 37 year old survivor. I have written poetry most of my life. It was the way I took what I felt inside, the hurt, the pain, the joy...and let it out. I have not until recently shared my poetry with others. I shared some with a couple of very good friends, and it helped them, brought them some comfort at a painful time. Because of that, I decided to make a website and share more of it, with more people. Some of the poetry here is recent, and written either for or about people I love. Much of it is much, much older...and was written when I was still a child trying to survive in a world of hurt. Much of it is very honest, and bares my soul.
All of my life has been such horror that most could never understand or believe. So it is in this forum that many of those emotions and thoughts can be expressed. Because while there has been pain and sorrow, there has also been triumph and joy. And above all, a faith in God that anything is possible with Him. It is some of both I have tried to put on the screen here. Be it the horror of self injury, the loss of sleep caused by nightmares, the sudden finding of my faith through pain, the love I hold for my daughters, or the special place two very good friends hold in my heart. They are the stories of lives touched by God, and could maybe reach someone who reads them, if even to let them know they are NOT alone in their hurt.
I encourage any feedback you might have regarding any of the pages you view here or on the poetry itself. I am nervous about letting everyone read some of these, not because they might upset you, but because there are some that show the complete desperation and anguish I lived in for so long. I am a very blunt and honest person, but there are parts of myself, the vulnerable parts I guard very closely. The Blade is very graphic, but not in a gory sense...just brutally honest and there are a couple that could cause another survivor to go back to their own pasts and could be upsetting. I will be adding many more poems as I have time. To anyone hurting, hold on to your faith. No faith, no hope.
If anyone has any questions on any of the poems, email me and I will answer best I can. If you want to know what any of the background midis are or would like a copy of them, simply email and ask.
Thanks...Rhonnie
