Poetry - Dove - E Writers Block

Poetry added on 10/16/02

From Me To You

in the palms / of my hands / i hold me dear / like no other can hold / my selflessness to myself / i care for places / no one has touched / the woman in me breathes deep / in a sigh / renewing all / blowing away all the misty spots / making the lines match up / the words into paragraph form / and when i am white again / i give me to you / to abuse

Covering Up

"love is not about forever" / she said / my mother / she is dyeing within herself / as i cower down and cry / i can not bring her back to childness / from the cold adulthood / for i didn't know her as a child / so i again pick up the dirty glass / that cut my fingertips / deeper then the scars that are hidden / under make-up / but my blood does not flow / it gets sucked in like a vacuum / along with the slivers of pain / and the lies / all in me now / my mother smiles / but can't remember what just happened to the broken glass / i see myself smile back at her / and hear my veins scream out / in utter pain / and all is silenced

Touch

i find myself / reaching out to touch little things / as though if i don't / i might never be able / to touch again

Trying To Not Start The Hurt

"love don't leave me!" / she screamed / as she closed the door on him / "i can't do without you!" / he screamed as he walked down the path / "i have been hurt before" / they both thought / as they pushed their feelings to dissipate / just because of a little slip of the tongue / of the words / "i love you" / too soon

Innocence

a little girl / of five years old / when stepping so lightly / over a handicapped space / painted blue and white / knew that it meant / not to sit on the dirty ground / the fact that the stick figure was in a wheel chair / was indifferent / to the small girl

Bob

an old cowboy / in the town of folsom / stands on the corner / each night / we used to play darts at his house / never questioning why such an old man / would want us there / at all hours of the night / maybe it was a reason / not to stand on that corner / alone

San Lorenzo River

the river to my home / twists and turns through the mountains / carrying my leaves / that i so lovingly placed / on it's surface to float to freedom / i knew what leaves did on the ground / they decay / someday i might go back / and teach my children to save the leaves

2nd Class

many are the silent screams of ladies / with robotic arms / they bend and sway with the desires of their men / this is the 90's / things have been changing / they say / but just the other day in Safeway's / i saw a man roughly say to his wife / 'pick up that pen' / and she did it / with hands trembling / she meekly held the counter edge / waiting for a thank-you / that would never show it's face / i never heard her voice / but i'm quite sure it was as small as her lips

Seeing

in my small lifetime i have passed many people / people i will never know again / people with eyes so cold / making me back away / eyes that look me up and down / as though they own me / chilling my spine / loving eyes / as though / you have known them for years / blank stares / looking past me to a distant event

Light Pink

my love has colors / tints and contrasts / a shade for each individual / my heart, a door / open to all who might want to enter / maybe that's why i get hurt so much / but i will never let it lock / my head is an ocean / never ending waves of thought / knowledge to do right / by everyone

Getting Back To Normal

waking up to the sound of lawn mowers / too tired to think / or act rational / my hands fumble with the clock / and as the haze clears / i suddenly remember / that you are no longer mine / and i resort to staring at the wall / till my alarm screams at me to get up

The Dream

sleep / come take me / cover me with your blueness / or perhaps your lavenders / take my soul so that my body can rest / but my mind can sore / give my thoughts to the sky / your sky / your sky of waves / carry me up / so I no longer hear the buzz of the world / grab me away / till i can't remember where I came from / show me myself / as I really am / which I have long forgotten... / and will forget by tomorrow's sun

Blank

"i hate you" / she said / hate that comes from the spider webs / that held her mind from speaking / blood gushing from her heart / the cold trickle on the floor / making faces / changing color / water won't wash that away / and she just sees / the line she crossed / well it came from a friend / idiotic minds really / let everything take over / and the incense burnt out long ago / and he just looks / nothings there / yet she hits the wall again / the anger so dense / no escape through him / then a thought of reality / and she gives up / and they just look... / blank

Pills

the bars creep in again / from the past so far away... / and I think / i could never feel this way again / this fear / the one that kept me cold / the one that held me within it's numbness / and the pills / me / an adult / i could never feel this way again / how can it come back / i'm smarter now / everyone says I'm happy / it shows in their eyes / but with a cup of water / i swallow my savior / and think within myself / no i could never feel that way again

The Glance

i saw you once / then we looked away / how is it that true beauty is only noticed / in a second glance / and why do we fear that glance most? / is it that we see ourselves overcome with modesty / or could it be guilt?

Ocean

when I close my eyes I see you / smell you... / something so fragile / slipping right through my fingers / no one can capture the sea

Do You Feel?

do you feel it when i laugh? / my eyes filled with light / or perhaps when i cry / all alone at night / do you tense up when i fall / or when i try with all my might? / did you forget to feel me / when i held you tite? / for i am just your little girl / out of your mind / and out of your site

Think About It

call me silly... / i'll think about it for an hour / call me a bitch... / i'll think about it for a day / call me a whore... / i'll think about it for a week / call me ugly... / i'll think about it for a year / call me stupid... / i'll think about it for a decade / don't call me at all... / i'll think i'm worthless for a lifetime

Always

holding on to what i don't have any more / thinking everything is the way it was before... / but there's no way that can be / they took what was left of me / through my veins and choking my heart / my vines of pain tearing me apart / slamming into nothing there / looking back at my empty stare / push forward before I'm ready / onto a ground that is never steady / some lane I never dreamed of walking / while slowly the ghost of the past comes stalking / "what was once is no more" echoes in my head / i must cover with cement my past cold dead / if it haunts me once more / i'll have to show myself the door / crossing thoughts i should not let / "always remember to never forget"

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