Dawn has Fallen
My voice is not heard
As it echoes through the night.
People do not hear me cry
As I look up to the sky.
Will God hear my solemn voice?
Or take it as a blatant joke?
Will He see my tears of sorrow?
In knowing I don’t wish to see tomorrow.
Do I wish to die today?
Or live another painful day?
What I reached in life to this day,
Will all be gone in a single hour.
My death is coming closer still.
In knowing that the end is near,
Will you cry when I am gone?
Or will you sleep through this morning dawn?
Everyday
Everyday I sit and wait,
For the whole world to appreciate
The feelings that I give to all
But they just turn their backs and fall.
As I lay in bed and pray
For the one day, they just may,
Notice me for who I am
And recognize what I can.
I try and fight,
Through all the strife.
But no matter what appears,
They will always see my fears.
I hope that day is coming soon,
Before it’s too late and I am doomed.
For if they turn one more time,
I can’t deal to repeat this rhyme.
Falling Among the Midnight Sky
I need you,
Like a rose needs thorns;
To protect me is all I ask.
You are my stars
That shine at night.
Without you my sky is dark.
Laying in your arms
Is what I want.
But how can I be here with you,
When you blacken my night.
Tell me how this is so wrong.
Because without you,
The beauty of the night is gone.
Gift of faith
As I sit and wait to cry again,
I beg to my God to hear my cries.
But does my father hear my worries?
Or ignore them like he has the rest?
How should I approach these thoughts?
Maybe with the fear of loss,
Or with the love of life.
I ask myself does He live on
Or does he live as a dream
To answer all my prayers.
Although they say dreams come true
I hope that He, may one day,
Show himself as a proof of faith
The faith that I have lived believing
That He will cure all my pain.
Love and Loses
I care for her as much as family,
But that is not like it always was.
You see before I felt love, I had felt guilt.
As it started out as a bet, that I had to conquer.
And in the end, the only thing that was conquered was my heart.
As we became closer and closer,
I realized we belonged together.
I waited out the truths of life for her,
As she had done the same for me.
Then became distance,
Distance that was hard to live by.
I could not go on without her,
So we decided to end it before it got worse.
But as we were supposed to grow apart,
I grew closer and I felt much more love,
More Love than any before,
I tried to lie to myself,
And say it could be done without her.
But I was hurt, and I had to be with her.
So we fell in love again,
And it was difficult, not like it was before.
But soon I realized a rule in life,
Love doesn’t become as it was before,
Love grows like trees, and it can always grow back.
And although I am stopped now,
My heart grows deeper,
Instead of getting chopped at,
The tree of love will be burned down.
And the ashes will be blown away for good.
I do not wish for this to happen,
You see I care for her,
As much as I do anything,
She is like a necessity in my life,
Just like humans need air,
And if not then my heart will stop,
And like the tree ashes,
Will never be seen again.
Love and Loses 2
I want to tell you
How I truly feel.
But this may be the hardest thing
That has ever come my way.
I have been waiting months,
To work up the motivation.
And gain the courage necessary
To tell you what I feel.
But I feel if I say this now,
It may be too soon.
And I may ruin anything, or everything
We ever had, or what we may have to come.
I love you, and even if you feel otherwise
My feelings and devotion will never change.
So remember this in the years to come...
I will always love you.
Please Return
You say you live a life of God.
To love one another is what you say
But to me, it seems, somewhat different
You live to love,
yet you've turned your back.
You gave me you shoulder
When i gave you my love.
I gave you my heart,
In return, you gave the knife
And put an end to all that was.
As I Move on I realize
That my life is nothing,
Without your love
Come back to me, with your heart
I cannot go on without you.
Satisfaction
He sits in the darkness,
Wondering what is to come.
But it will soon be his life
That turns up undone.
What is left in this world
For someone who seems to have it all?
No one sees the truth
Waiting in this hell for his last call.
Just prepare to hear the ring of his last fall.
The phone rings,
The body drops,
The soul is saved
The life is lost.
Think of what you have,
Before it is all gone.
Love yourself now,
Before buried in the lawn.
The Cold Heart
Just yesterday we were together
One another in each other's arms.
Peering into the future
And not noticing any harm
But now its over
And she is yet another past.
She is one in a thousand
But I took it all too fast.
It would last forever so it seemed
But now I hope for one last dream
For her and I to join together
And be one like this forever.
The One I So Adore
Does she know that I exist?
To be here for her is my only gift.
I dream of her every night
Thinking of what could be,
And what is to come.
Could she be a memory
Branded into my soul.
Or could we have more.
Like in the mindless thoughts
That I peer into once more.
I hope one day that she may see
How her beauty lies deep with me
For her and I to become as "one"
Instead of being there just to have fun.
The Perfect Fantasy
Laying here with you,
I look deep into your soul.
To find my body,
Crashing with your own.
My arms wrapped tightly
To show you not to fear.
Sharing every secret with one another,
While whispering into your ear.
Loving and caring words you wish were said,
While cuddling softly in my bed.
The radio plays our song
As I lean and kiss you gently.
And hope these feelings last long.
Yet then I awake,
And see it was another dream.
A dream of you and I
In my perfect fantasy.
The “Stuck Up” Boy
Everyone sees me for who I am not.
They think I have the perfect life,
But really they don’t see all of the lies.
On the outside, they see a conceited stuck up guy.
But what I do not let the see is the softer side.
They think I have no troubles,
But they couldn’t be more wrong.
All I am looking for is friendship,
But they don’t give me the attention that I need.
Some of them feel threatened by me.
Or they think I am in love with myself.
That I cannot have any love for another.
Inside I am very romantic and charming,
But they don’t give me the chance to explain myself.
They think I could care less about them,
But all I feel is the exact same care.
They don’t see that my feelings hurt,
Or see the pain, swelling, and killing of a personality.
I feel so shut down,
And I try and cover myself.
And all I can do is fight back,
When fighting is the last thing on my mind.
So the next time you feel someone is treating you badly,
Just remember; do not spread the hatred,
But that you should forgive and forget.
Because though you are being hurt,
The person already hurts a lot worse,
Even if it does not seem true, it is.
The Walk
I was walking one day.
Not knowing what to find.
I searched my soul completely
And words just started to rhyme.
A picture of you is what I received.
And thoughts just jumped,
Bringing back old memories.
I wish you were here.
Right here and now.
But the midnight sky
Is all I found.
I feel so good when you’re around.
But you darkened my heart,
And threw it on the ground.
I ask for your love,
But you tear up my heart.
Please forgive me is what I say
But you stab the steak deeper
And all of my dreams fade away.
This Strange New Feeling
You do not realize what you do
You look into my eyes
As I look into you.
It needs to stop now,
For we are through.
The pain and grief rises,
As this feeling is new.
I used to love you
For all you were worth.
But now when I see you
The feeling grows worse.
Leave me now.
It’s the least you can do
Turn your back forever
As I turn away too.
Together in my Heart
The time has come to say goodbye.
I wish for you, not to cry.
Though time has flown, oh so fast,
Don’t remember me as your past.
Don’t forget me after this
For you are what I will greatly miss.
We’ve had our fun, but now its come.
Time to leave our intentions behind.
So remember these few words I say
You will be in my heart forever,
Where we will lie together.
I will always love you.
True Love Never Ends
Oh how I remember the way I once loved.
Love-struck and blinded by your beauty I was.
Alone you sat looking like a peaceful dove,
While my thoughts wondered far away and above.
Above my reach you sat alone,
Like a queen, you lay upon your beautiful throne.
These thoughts rekindle in my wondrous mind,
When you appear in my sights one last time.
This time your beauty emerges like never before,
Lying on this bed, I want to kiss you once more
Knowing I will see you beyond this point in time,
One final good-bye lasts in my hope-filled mind.
It hurts to see you go, but I know I must be strong.
As a tear from my eye falls, when I hear the final gong.
The Runaway
As I lay, trying to hide,
I see my wrongdoing,
And see it as a misbelief.
You see the others do not see,
See the pressures of life.
You see life has many obstacles,
In which we must overcome.
The task I must complete now,
Is hard for me and u,
Us both, to understand.
I know they do this to teach me a lesson,
But my teachers are incorrect.
The teachers do not realize,
That all they are doing is hurting.
Hurting my mind and soul.
I cannot see, do, or touch them,
Them being my friendships, loves,
And even enemies, thought hard to explain,
I must see them, or maybe just talk with them.
My teachers have sentenced me,
A sentence I must overcome, to see the truth.
The truth that lies beneath the surface,
Which is punishment, yet punishment is not a sentence,
But the truth.
But the truth is one of those many obstacles,
Obstacles of life, that we all must overcome.
But this obstacle is not to be done, but to be seen.
And I see the truth, my principles are correct,
And my teachers are soon to be taught themselves.
In seeing the obstacle of life, the truth,
And that truth, obstacle, is that I may not be with you any longer.
Words To Be Told
Please forgive me for what I say.
I did not know it hurt you,
In so many different ways.
I needed to tell you how much I cared.
That I would love you forever,
And for you to never be scared.
I am here for you,
No matter what you say.
My heart grows fonder
Every time you push me away.
If you say that it all must end,
Just remember how much I love you.
It is my heart that will need to mend.
Friends Forever
You tend to see it all.
Whether it be thick or thin,
You still stand strong and tall.
But if one day, you seem to fall,
I am here to be your wall.
Maybe you will cry.
Maybe you will hide.
But you must promise me:
You will not die.
Best Friends stick together.
It’s been like this forever.
Girls have come, and girls have gone,
But no one can beat this type of bond.
Just remember…
We’re in this together.
Life’s thrown us curves,
And sometimes it rattles our nerves.
It’s tried to take us down,
But we will not break down.
We are Friends Forever.
Lost For You
She does not know I feel this way
Dying inside, I just want to say
I love you most of all, with all my heart,
But your feelings seem to be tearing me apart.
Its crazy that love hurts this much
I cannot seem to feel your touch.
Instead I feel empty inside
But this type of love I cannot hide.
I want to feel your gentle kiss
It would send me into breathtaking bliss
As of now it is too late
But deep inside I know its fate
My heart will always long for you.
Love Cycle
Life’s cycle is broken
As well as my heart.
My love was a token,
But she tore it apart.
I have nothing left.
My soul is now lost.
What’s left to live for?
It was she at all cost.
I say goodbye now,
To only those few.
I’ll love you forever,
And watch over you too.
Long Lasting Dream
What is left to do?
Where is left to go?
The days like these are few,
Fighting off these invisible foes.
My head is pounding,
Along with my heart.
I sit simply counting
On a new beginning start.
My life is completely filled,
Or so it shall seem.
I’ll take these final pills
And sleep through this long lasting dream…
Strange Day in May
The sunrise splits the morning sky.
I sit here with you right by my side.
The perfect beginning,
To the perfect day.
No need for forgiving
On this warm day in May.
The sun beats down on us,
As your words do to me now.
You do what you must.
But I sit and ask how?
Things were so different
Between you and I.
What we had was magnificent,
But now you say your good byes.
The sun now sets softly,
Along with the pain in your heart.
You run to me quickly…
But you tore us apart.
Days change often,
From good to bad.
Our relationship is rotten
And you’ve lost what you had.
Happiness to Hate
I drink and smoke,
To relieve this emotional stress.
Is this a hoax,
Or is it for the best?
Why do I suffer,
Through all of this pain?
Instead of becoming tougher,
I wonder if I am sane.
Take this mess away,
Before it is too late.
Blue skies have turned to gray,
Happiness has grown to hate.
Cuffed
You bind me to your soul.
I try so hard to break free.
But stuck here I am,
With lock and key.
You rip out my heart
As each day goes by.
You throw up the darts,
Still my love won’t die.
You try so hard,
To push me away.
Yet still here I stand
Each day after day.
I just cannot to lose you
No matter how hard you try.
You can shove all you want
I’ll never say goodbye.
Wounding This Heart
Like rain from the sky
Like leaves from the trees
You fall on the ground,
And topple over me.
Your words attack me,
As never before.
Want to come to you now,
You’re the one I adore.
But you deny the offer,
My heart bleeds even more.
Stop wounding this heart,
It’s frozen to the core.
Glimmer
The glimmer in your eye,
The smile on your face,
Wanting to touch your lips,
To gain one last taste.
You sit there with him,
But I ponder and think why.
Tears pour like a river,
But I show you they’re dry.
To hide these feelings,
Is killing me inside.
Want to tell you how I feel,
But instead I run and hide.
One Last Toast
Along come the days,
We’ve dreaded the most.
As we all say goodbye,
We take one last toast.
These moments left to share,
Are branded deep into our soul.
Let us remember these times,
As we step into our molds.
Where we go from here,
Pertains to our minds.
Look into the mirror,
It will show us the signs.
Arrow Struck Heart
Why do we hurt each other so?
Using our words like bows,
Shooting out arrows to harm the soul.
I can’t stop this bleeding.
Its torture for the heart.
Hurting me so
Is tearing us apart.
Let us stop this fighting
Put an end to the show.
Set down your arrows
While I place down my bow.
Daydream
Sitting and dreaming,
Just thinking of you.
Lost my self believing
You know what you do.
You don’t really know
How I feel deep inside.
Is it possible to show,
How my thoughts can collide?
I want to show you
In so many ways
But only these few
Come to show you each day.
Over Done
Sitting awake at nights
Just thinking of you.
Driving me crazy
With the things you do.
You’re not here
And I wonder why.
Things were so clear,
But you’ve said goodbye.
Why can’t we be,
Together as one.
You’ve roasted my heart,
To overly well-done.
Mythological Masterpiece
I write this poem,
For someone not me.
I’m sitting at home
Wondering where could you be?
I miss you; love
And everything you come with
Staring out and above…
Could you be a myth?
No, not you
I’ve touched you before.
No matter what you do,
You’re the one I’ll always adore.
The Missing Link
Where do I go?
What do I do?
There are only these few,
I wish to talk to.
I sit inside
All day and think
Getting off this ride;
Completing this link.
Kate's Poem
I hide these feelings
Deep within
But why does this feel
Just like a sin?
I want to cry out,
With tears of this loss.
If it were a different rout,
Would all still have been lost?
What should I do?
Where should I go?
I want to tell you,
Never to go…
Inside The Door
On this road to nowhere,
I begin this journey once more.
No one seems left that cares
On this side of the door.
I’ve traveled this path,
It feels like everyday.
People cannot figure the math
But I hope one day, they just may
See me for who I am.
And actually give a damn.
Until that day,
I’ll sit and wonder.
What’s left to say?
My words are like thunder,
But trapped inside my soul.
I want to reach this certain goal.
But I am trapped
On this side of the door
I want to get out,
But it pushes back even more.
What If?
What if you never came up to me?
What if you never said hello?
What if you never took the chance?
What if we didn’t share that dance?
What if this feeling didn’t last?
What if you made me part of your past?
What if this love ever grew weak?
What if we never laid, cheek to cheek?
What if I didn’t say goodbye?
What if I didn’t make you cry?
What if I could turn back time?
What if you could still be mine?
Many What Ifs come and go
But what could be,
We’ll never know…
Isn't It Strange
So very strange
How things change
From night to day
From bright to gray
Changes to occur
Ever so often
A simple murder
For life to soften
A pull of the trigger
A slit on the wrist
All still cannot figure
How he came to this
Procession is done
The cars, all cleared
A family in stun
For what they never had feared
Carpe Diem
Beginning to end these thoughts arrive
They creep into his mind
Like it is no surprise
Again you come to him, hurting him so
Fighting off all of these invisible foes.
Just can’t imagine how he feels inside
But these emotions he cannot deny
She can’t tell just how he feels
But these thoughts he still must conceal
He walks to her with hopes and dreams
A relationship he wishes to deem
But she turns her back away from him
And tears his hopes, limb from limb
Kiss Of Death
To meet like this
In your own paradise
He kisses your lips
As you close your eyes
Dreams of the future
Now jumps in your mind
But your gentle body
Now crashes in time
It’s later now, and you feel sick
He’s treated you like his little trick
Surprise, surprise, you’re the one in pain
Taking shots, from needle to the vein
Till death do us part
He once agreed to
But now no one’s left
To look after you
You lay so still
You lay so stiff
Your final thoughts think
Is this a myth
You giggle with laughter
As you realize this
A simple kiss, brought in all of this
Yet you’re the one, who will greatly be missed
Final Stepping Stone
Another stepping stone
With a skip, hop, and jump.
A night from hell
That ends with a thump.
This feeling of flight
The breeze in your hair
The leap from great heights
Yet it seems no one cares
Now you ponder why
You gained all this pain
Thinking they’re the ones
Who will end in the flames
You scream goodbye
As you end all this hate
She calls out your name
But for you its too late…
Writer's Block
Writer’s Block
Sinks deep in my head
But my mind is filled
With these thoughts of love
An expression of words
To show you I care
But not a simple rhyme
This paper will wear
I feel in time
My mind will turn
And this devotion of you
My words will concern
Until then I’ll wait
Pen and paper in hand
Just thinking of you
I’ll sit here and…
Writer’s Block
Dimmed Lights
Nothing left to write
Yet so much to share
Sitting under dimmed lights
Still knowing I care
For whom is unknown
For what is still left?
Sitting here like stone
With you I did best
I wrote with ease
Loved like no other
But now I am trapped
With not a single lover
Yes, nothing to write
Nor a thing to share
I stare to my right
At the dimmed lights.
What This Water Is For?
Someone please tell me,
What this water is for?
Comes straight from my soul,
My heart can’t take much more.
You’ve gone again,
But soon to return.
The back of my mind
Is where these thoughts burn.
This letter posted the 2nd,
Was sent months ago.
But reading it over,
Lets me surely know.
These tears are for fear,
That you will not return.
And this watery feel,
Is a lesson well learned.
These Feelings I Hide
Maybe they were right
Maybe I’ve been wrong
These words I’ve been speaking
Just don’t belong
Emotions are soaring
And raging inside
Dying to get out
These feelings I hide
Why should they care?
But better, do I?
Shall I even dare
To continue this lie…
Never Ending Love
When will you say,
It will be okay
Or perhaps my dreams
Will end in dismay
It may not be perfect
It may not be right
But my heart is screaming
With all of its might
When will this end
This silence is death
Running from stillness
I’m all out of breath
I just cannot hide
These feelings for you
What you thought died
Still seems brand new
Endings
The past, present, and future
Add together as one
My life seems complete
But has only just begun
What makes me think
It could all end here
From a slit on the wrist
To a simple John Dear
Endings in life
Arrive everyday
Make best what you can
Before its too late
Adding To Cipher
Our familiarities add to cipher
But still I feel this way
Another all nighter
And still turned away
When is it my turn
To say what is needed
She needs to learn
My mind is weeded
Weeded with thoughts
Of what this actually is
This head is in knots
Not knowing if your heart
Has actually become his.
A Mental Mishap
Deep temporal pain
Emotional status lost
Physical symptoms remain
All at mental costs
Darkness comes deeper
Light fades away
Now commences the reaper
For psychological slay
He’s left us completely
Is what the doctors say
He will soon discreetly
Pass us all away
Foresworn Photo
A mangled photograph
Is all that remains
But still left exposed
Are my worse pains
However what lies
In this now shattered frame
Are the prettiest eyes
I still wish to reclaim
But the glass is broken
The picture is torn
What longs to be spoken
Must be left forsworn
Moving Along
The pain that thrusts
Deep into my heart
Are words left unsaid
That I cannot start
Upholding my word
And moving along
Not speaking a thing
Although this feels wrong
Looking for distance
To cure all my pain
Though feeling resistance
I still must abstain
Midnight Drive
Waiting for a call
I know won't arrive
So I take this road
On a late midnight drive
My directions are thoughts
Of never-ending turns
Do i veer off here?
No, this presumption still burns
The map is now blank
I've erased my soul
I come back with caution
Was it worth the toll?
Numb and Bare
I fight through the cold
To show you I care
The weather is freezing
My hands, numb and bare
The wind rips through me
But my heart still stands strong
The temperature reads zero
But I still carry along
Burst open the door
To show you I'm here
My heart hits the floor
As he holds you near
Inside its warm
But my heart is now frozen
I'll go back to cold
It's him you have chosen
Timeless Glance
Time
Too little tends to scare
Too much we do not care
I’ll waste my time
Sitting in a stare
Pondering thoughts
On what’s drawing near
Dreaming of nights
Of what we both fear
The time will arrive
When we say goodbye
But trapped in this gaze
I’m lost in your eyes
My Journal
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