my mind becomes hazy

my vision blurs

my breathing grows ragged

words sit upon my lips

unable to spill forth

my fingers tremble

my legs shake

and my stomach heaves to and fro

confusion gives way to fear

in an instant my mind is clear

sure of my purpose in this

I dash for the door

in a mad attempt to escape

as my fingers close around the handle

a knot of pain slices through my back

bursting forth through my stomach

determination drives me forward

I fling open the door with the last bit of strength I possess

a loud, sharp bang this time

then a searing pain in my shoulder

clutching desperately at my wasted body

in a vain attempt to stop the life from seeping out of me

willing myself to continue

I collapse to my knees

crawling across the stoop

marking my path all the while

with the bright red proof of my existence

I tumble down the steps

landing in a tangle of limbs

tears of pain coursing down my cheeks

the world begins to spin

while soft words of devotion and adoration

trickle into my ear

eyes full of remorse and self-righteousness

pierce through me

I struggle to form the words

to ask him why

barely a whisper slips from my tongue

the flow of gentle words

slow until they reach a halt

my life doesn't pass before me

there are fleeting thoughts of loved ones

of family and friends

he flings his head down upon my belly and cries softly

and then lifts his head slowly

when he feels the stiffening of my body

his lips painted scarlet from kissing my wounds

he skims them over my own

leans close to me

blows sweet declarations of loyalty into my face

and the last words I hear...

I'll love you now and forever

until the day I die

and for eternity

I am yours

and you are mine

forever

just as you were meant to be.

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