Well apparently you liked the first site sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much you had to have more ill try to not dissapoint.

• Im am unique in my thoughts .
• well hell i am evil and you are little toys to crush under my heels thats right under my fucking heels.
• Sinner i am the future son of sam killer of all i am ben ball the ruler of your life ill cut your throat with my knife steal your soul this i know youll die and no one will shed one single tear more or less cry.
• I have a stalker hell yeah this is the greatest day of short miserable life.
• I really feel like i need someone to love me its getting old this being alone feeling.
• Why do people automaticaly assume on sight that they know what a person is like they dont know me they dont know you so fuck them they just dont realize the pain the hate the rage total feelings of abandonment . I attempted suicide three times cut my arm with a fucking butcher knife I didnt cry when my father died just stood there in shock as my brain was racing my feet were pacing as i left to go to the payphone my only thoughts were my dad will be so fucking pissed as the cops pulled up ran inside came told me that my dad had died well duh motherfucker fellings of rage swelled inside do i stay or do i hide family gathered round didnt realize what was happening hugging me trying to comfort me fuck them i didnt need it i hate them as the smell of cheap perfume lingering around as my aunt fell on the ground crying but making not a sound i stood there murderous thoughts running through my head i made a wish for everyone to be dead didnt happen though so i stood there in silence burning up inside i think that day BENJAMIN MATTHEW BALL truly died grandparents took me in how fucking christian of them they treated me good but i didnt want it i hated it telling me it was my fault you killed your father he couldnt take it you stressed him to death i did not went through three years of hell for what just to get in trouble and go to jail fuck you all i judge you by how you act toward me but before you tease and hate me i am not a nice person i am as sick as can be I am me why wont you see the world will not let me be .
• My life has been shitty from the very beginning Ive had the cards stacked against me and it seems anything that happens is always my fault Im not perfect all i ask for is a little respect a little recognition i do have a place in this world so fuck you heres my story. I was born in a hospital in a small town had both my parents my dad my mom when i was three god was laughing at me walked a parking lot thirsty as fuck found a sprite bottle took a drink it was gasoline burned my throat clean i cried i whined went to the hospital had to wait in line doctor took me in made me clean found a lump size of his fist turns out my life was at risk i had cancer ha! ha! look at me only three yet on the verge of defeat went to riley went into surgery legally dead three minutes of pure bliss interupted by my mothers kiss removed half my liver god as it turns out was my life giver went home four more years of family life then it happened BEN your mom and me are no longer happy were divorcing had nothing but sadness and hate seven yearsvold had no daddy not for long i left moved in with father he was depressed suicidal shot himself in the head trying to make himself dead didnt work what a jerk trying to die while he watched his eight year old cry i survived he survived life goes on sadness never ends when i was ten happiest time of my life begins my brother is born but not by my dad but by another enter stepdad oh fuck this is bad fucking bastard beat me beat my mom threatened me with death sorry to say he never took my last breath years went by now turned fifteen twenty days after my birthday woke up to the realization my dads dead fuck why me brothers five i love him school started to suck got lost in pain never truly got out again kicked some ass got my ass kicked out fuck it theyll all die some day anyway years pass im now eighteen lifes no better fell in love didnt succeed never do i am nothing but i dont care that the worlds not fair at least ive still got my baby brother without him i would cease to go on i would be fucking gone.
• The butterflies helpless and tumbling away into nothingness the void of time slips you by crossing the river of life the stream running cold as a butcher knife in the hands of a killer running from a cop if you don’t catch him he,ll never stop he wont get caught till he gets shot straight through the brain his dead body lain under the pouring rain you stopped the killer now the killings will end my friend but later at home your all alone talking on the phone your thinking about the girl you just raped and killed fed her lies until she came home with you trusting and ready for a good time but now her beautiful body is the scene of a crime you know youll never get caught because the detective that’s after you is your reflection in your mirror you laugh as you look at the poor dear her life blood a smear on your clothes you know your sadness shows the more you kill the more that will die at your unforgiving hands so cry when you see me pass you by this is not a lie I am an american killer I catch all the drug dealers I watch you while you sleep I write your speeding tickets you think your safe hiding behind your white picket fence it doesn’t make sense I used to have a family living happily together peacefully but the accident changed me took a toll burned my soul ill never get caught as long as the lust for your life is there youl lalways live in fear.
• Make me happy inside in immpossible dreams i do hide/ my life is vacant my soul scarred and naked !/Happiness is unnattaneable a state ive never achieved /try as i might i sleep alone at night have no one to be with /lifes empty and sad people think my life isnt so bad /fuck you and fuck them/ they say at least i have my health /id rather have happiness through love but god so far above has not sent me love / all he has sent me is stress my fucking lifes a mess/ i pray for someone special to be sent my way /i live alone ill probably die alone / i have no home im so cold i was told this would happen / i didnt listen / never been popular always made fun of no one liked me /i was a social outcast never been part of a group /any friend i ever had ended up stabbing me in the back / but i got them back had his sister in the sack / im not done until i kill you jack / why should i bother ill tell you why its because of what you said about my father/call him a cumsucker i hate you motherfucker/ people say im scary because i dress in black thats my style get over it id walk a mile just to kick your ass/ on second thought i yhink ill pass/ your not worth it you stupid piece of shit/ im full of anger and hate sadness and badness/ i believe that ill never be accepted always be alone of that i have been shown/ i hate being alone this is known/but ill get by what other choice is there dont worry ive decided to just not care.
• Hell is a time and place far away from the human race peel away our face and we will give chase you are nothing but death cheating it feeling it giving it I hate it life isn’t fair this I know catch me with the devil room to grow reach out from the earth just like a demon giving birth its belly an enormous girth the demon rises and our time grows anew on que the many few who are left on my side are scattered far and wide evil grows inside of us slowly taking us over you will feel the grasp of our hatred and rage take over the earth start of the demon age take our pride kill us from the inside life is no longer a free ride in you this I confide find a place to hide or else feel the lick of our flames burning our lives away constantly yearning finding your place as for me im lost in space im not fucking joking around as soon as you are found ill be world renowned when I kill you and murder your hope screaming while your hanging from the rope around your neck oh what the heck ill give you a chance run and if you make it ill let you go free but if I catch you be ready for a long eternity of pain and misery.
• I see you as you are a liar And a thief you played with my trust just because your sister and i enjoyed a night of pure lust I got lost in her found my way fucked her deep rubbed her tit whilst i licked her clit made her scream in agony and pleasure recorded it all showed my friends they drooled and cried when i went deep inside her mouth deep and wide she said she was a virgin boy did she lie she was a professional slept with the whole congressional have you seen the tape went in the backdoor while she lied on the floor came in her mouth while my fingered traveled south into her pussy i went and at the height of climax i put a gun her head one pull of the trigger (BOOM!) shes dead whod a thunk that my old bud would be out for my blood hiding around the corner should have got there sooner oh fuck it its in the past right now im busy putting it to you mother shes a beutiful woman laying there with her throat slit staring at me with her dead glassy stare while i lie on top fucking her bloated body you come in the room calling out for mothers name see me there ass up in the air thrusting bloody and rigid you go in shock cant say a word as i turn around point my guns you snap out of it lift you pistol toward me as i cum life fluid spilling on the floor i fire simutanesly with we hit each other as we hit the floor im laughing at you for im dying and so are you but you are helpless shot in the spine as i rise rigid and hard standing over you gasping for air falling on top of you kissing and carressing you softly and gently i close your eyes i go deep inside one last time good bye.
• Her voice a sirens laugh i see you sitting with him in the cafe / holding hands happiness being thrown around/ i sit there not making a sound but inside feel like dying you wont fucking see me crying/ feel sadness hes so lucky to have your feelings/ i can only imagine what its like being with you feeling you touching you loving you it makes me feel like killing you / your a fool what you did just wasnt cool made me feel stupid for asking you to be with me i was hoping to be with you / i needed you i wanted you now i fucking hate you / bitch left me hanging without feeling /i heard that you and him are already banging not a virgin anymore if its true your a fucking whore/ going home with that fuck that isnt so bad the fact that you lied about it to me now that was sad /every time i see you two i just want to fucking snap on you/ i realize you dont care hey life aint fair you broke my trust my heart you had it from the very start / i played my part its over now i give up and ill live my life being no part of yours so with a heavy sigh im saying goodbye.
• See me as I sit in my chair of forgotten despair, sadness and sorrow weeping for my lost love .
• I do not need fortune and fame/ as long as i have you by my side i have no reason to hide/ everythings meaningless except for my love for you and my hope for us / together me and you could raise a family and grow old together happy and free to be with you till i die without you all i do is cry /
• the world cries out for my blood slam my face in the mud /set me on fire while calling me a liar / heed my words trying to destroy me will not succeed / your life will end soon under the harvest moon/set the mood come to me you are my food/ i am immortal the chosen to rule the human race attack me and ill rip off your face/ I see you for what you are a human that hasn’t gone very far in life I was there when you were born I was there when you first walked and talked you thought I died that night 4 years ago but I was reborn as something better now im here for you my son my firs and last born remember he who showed you scorn he is nothing now ive destroyed him I ripped his throat out with my bare hands in the endhe begged for death for release and I didn’t listen currently he hanging bleeding and crying through seeingless eyes wich ive brought for you take them and cherish them for they are his soul and it belongs to you now.To keep you safe is my only vow.

My Favorite Web Sites

this is the first page
best friends website
A GOOD SITE
BUFFY SITE
cradle of filth
cradle chat
cradle movie
good band finger eleven
good punk rock band afi
social distortion great punk rock band
sex pistils need i say more
profiles a must
misfits of course
samhain danzig anyone
more samhain
kidneythieves great band
another cradle chat make preparations with me ahead of time maybe ill chat with you if i find you worthy that is .
danzig song lyrics
evil dead bruce cambell its all here
My own chat room its full of evil things, are you one of these?

This life is decay and im not okay tonight ill go to bed tommorow will be a new day and i hope and pray for a change in the way things are done for im not normal nor am i insane piss me off and ill rip your heart out through your vein no joke you im gonna choke its over your dead okay ill admit it maybe i am a little fucked up in the head.