The saga begins.. It starts with pain, Hurt, and Distrust of others
Alone
Alone, alone always alone.
Most especially on this
Thanksgiving Day.
Not allowed to share
with the ones you love.
Always hurt and always
alone.
Oh so alone, so alone
and lonely.
Even in love, still
alone and lonely.
It hurts so much to
be in love
and be alone and lonely.
Not knowing how to love.
Always hurting, always
hurting.
Giving the only kind
of love you know how to.
But always causing hurt
to the one you love.
Alone, alone always
alone.
Always lonely, always
hurting those you love.
Alone, alone always
alone.
Into the Night
Into the night love does
fly.
The night so dark and
quiet.
Into the night love
does fly.
The night how it shrouds
everything in darkness.
Into the night love
does fly.
The darkness so like
death it is.
Into the night love
does fly.
So like death is darkness
in that
it signifies a new beginning.
Into the night love
does fly.
Eternal Sleep
To sleep, to sleep how
great it would be.
To have sleep eternal.
Never to wake again.
The joy of eternal sleep,
never to know pain.
Never to know fear.
How sweet eternal sleep
is.
Oh how I wish that I
could have eternal sleep.
Never again to feel
pain, never again to suffer
at the hands of another.
How I wish that I could
have
one moment of eternal
sleep.
No worries, no cares,
nothing
to make you feel pain.
To sleep for an eternity
is all I ask.
Never to cause another
pain.
Never to hurt another.
Please Lord, grant me
this request.
Give to me that which
is best
for others and for me.
Give to me sleep that
is eternal.
Why
Why is she breaking my
heart?
Why is she doing what
she is doing?
Why, Oh why, does she
hate me so?
Have I not been good
to her?
Have I not given her
everything?
Then why is she doing
this to me?
Why is she destroying
me?
What have I done to
deserve this?
Why does the world keep
on turning?
Why doesn't it just
stop?
Why does she not love
me
as I love her?
Why, Oh why, does she
hate me so?
Nights So Long
Why are the nights so
long,
and the days so short?
Since you have left
me the nights
are so long and lonely
and the days so short.
Oh how I wish that the
days
were longer and the
nights were shorter.
Then the nights I spend
without you would
not be so long and lonely.
Then, My Dear, the pain
and
suffering that I endure
would not be so much.
How I wish to have this
pain and suffering gone
from me.
Then I could endure
the nights without you.
Why are the days so short,
and the nights so long?
Why?
The Dagger
As the dagger plunges
deep into my heart.
My blood spills
forth into the gutter.
As I lay in the gutter
my tears wash the blood
away.
Hundreds of people
pass me by.
None notice the dagger
in my heart nor the
tears that wash
the blood away.
For they all walk
with their heads up
turned.
The pain, Oh the pain
that the dagger brings
to my heart as
my life force ebbs.
I Sit Here
As I sit here drinking
Mountain Dew and
Southern Comfort.
I put my face
closer to the screen.
To better read
those words you write.
For my eyes do not
see what is there
to be seen.
Question
Am I the only one? I
ask you.
You stand there and
say
"Yes you are the only
one."
I ask myself, "Can I
trust her?"
I want so much to believe.
So do I believe her?
Yes.
But then I ask myself,
"Well,
what if she is lying.
What if
I'm not the only one?"
I want so to trust her
words.
A heart so twisted and
torn as mine.
Forever seeking that
which has been denied.
To heal this twisted
and torn heart
is all I want.
To love again, that
would surely
heal this twisted and
torn heart.
A Web
Sweet lady you've caught
me in your web.
A web of intrigue, deceit
and lies.
But willingly I came
to your web to stand
in front of you to profess
my love to you.
Though I walk in the
shadow of you.
I know my love for you
is true.
But what of you, my
love, is
your love for me true?
Oh my love you have
spun such a web.
Like a spider would
do to catch her prey.
You spin your web around
me.
Holding me fast.
The strands of your
web like steel cables.
Brut strength alone
cannot break them.
Only my undying love
and devotion to
you can snap the strands
of
your web and release
me.
Life Without You
Life without you is not
a life but
Death.
Death is far better
then living without you.
Oh Angel of Death come
take me away.
Carry me away from all
this suffering.
I care not for a life
like this.
For truly this is not
a life
But more a sentence
of Death.
Angel of Death come
for me now.
Take me to where there
is no pain.
Protect me in your arms
from the pain.
Take me, Angel of Death,
come take me now.
What Is
What is life without
love?
Death.
What is love without
life?
Death.
Without love and life,
what is there left?
Death.
Without the happiness
that love brings,
what is there left?
Death.
Where in lies the truth
to all these
questions, you ask?
Death.
For in death is truth.
In love is only falsehood.
Abandoned
Abandoned again, left
alone.
Always abandoned
Abandoned as a child.
Abandoned now.
Flown away, gone.
Left on a stoop,
Wasn't needed,
wasn't wanted.
Abandoned again.
Don't Know Why
Don't know where you
are.
I know I miss you.
Don't know what you
are doing.
I know I love you.
Don't know why I do.
I just know that I do.
Don't know why, I just
do.
Don't know why I worry
about you.
I just know I do.
Don't know why I do.
I just know that I do
that's all.
Once
Once we created a life.
And from that creation
came a son.
For nine years we loved
and nurtured him.
We watched him go from
crawling to walking.
From kindergarten to
the 4th grade.
At age eight he started
to ride a bike.
Now at age 10 I know
not what he does.
For you have taken him
away from me.
And now I have no heir.
Where?
Where oh where can my
love be?
Why has my love not
came to me?
Is she hurt, is she
aware?
Does she really know
how much I care?
Oh dear, oh dear whatever
could be wrong?
I know she knows how
much I worry about her.
Oh Lord please bring
my love to me.
Send an angel to her
my Lord
to tell her how worried
I am.
To whisper in her ear
how much I care.
To tell her of my love
for her.
Where oh where can my
love be?
Why has she not came
to me?
A Loser Be I
To all that would see,
A loser be I.
In all that I do, I
do wrong.
A loser be I.
Cry not for me,
A loser be I.
Shed not a tear for
you see I know,
A loser be I.
I cry not for I know
in truth,
A loser be I.
I gain it once, I gain
it twice,
but always,
A loser be I.
What need of you of
one like me.
A loser be I.
Now this little saga
ends as always.
A loser be I.
For it shall always
be true.
A loser be I.