.. on the day you got married, my heart broke. it broke with happiness for you, for the new life you were creating. it broke because it meant that no matter what we believed fate had in store for us, our dreams were over. i cry every single time i think of you, i remember all those nights we spent laughing and whispering, all those memories we created together. i've had you for many months, i'll continue to have you for many years. but the day we were supposed to touch hands for the first time will never happen now. i am so proud of the strong man you are. i know that i could tell you anything and you would keep it in your heart. i know that together we share a bond so wonderfully perfect, that the fact of you being married doesnt lessen what we have. i have the utmost respect for you and your family and loved ones and i smile knowing you have a life far removed from mine. my heart is filled with you and in a parallel world, you are by my side. my soldier, my andrew. .x.