Heart Broken

1-28-2005

I don't know how to feel, I don't know how to think
What she is doing to me I don't think she knows
She may say she does, but I have my doubts
She says but she doesn't want to live with me
She just wants to go on her own
She says we are more like friends then lovers
How can we fix this if she doesn't even want to talk like husband and wife
I don't know how to feel these feeling are deep
She says don't touch me, but gets mad when I don't
She says don't talk to me, but gets mad when I don't
I don't know what to think about this
I don't want to hurt you she says
I hate myself right now because of what I said
That's what she says to me, but either way
I'm going to be hurt, I can't ask her to stay if she isn't happy
But I can't ask her to go because it will kill me also
Either way I feel like I am going to get hurt
I feel stuck like there is no fixing this, but I just can't give up
The only way I will be happy is if we can fix this
I hope it is possible, I hope and pray
I probably shouldn't write this I know how I will feel
When I come back and read this a year from now
I will be sad either way, but what can I do
I love this girl more then she will ever know.

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