DEUS EX MACHINA

When time fades into winter,

and you can't berive the past,

when your hope fades to despair,

and even that won't last,

You find yourself wondering,

just how it felt to feel,

because now your world's a quagmire,

and nothing seems quite real,

The things that you had counted on

have up and flown away,

they've come and gone and left again

and never stayed the day,

and now the night is closing in

and the clouds are pouring rain,

and the thunders are clapping up ahead

and there's naught to stop the pain,

you wish that things were well again

but you've got no good recourse,

I'll tell you what it is that you must do:

just step left and I'll be there.

Meaning: "When time fades into winter" --> when your life is cold and dark (things are bad in your life) and you can't fight the past (but think about it, unhappily) when all of that makes it so bad that you go beyond even hope and despair, that you start thinking that NOTHING matters, because nothing matters, and then there's nothing left to count on, there's nothing left to save you (not your family, not your friends, not your love, not your best friend), and everything has abandoned you, and things are getting bad, and you can see the crossroads ahead that are going to electrocute you... well, then I will still be there for you, to save you, to help you from anything, no matter what. The "step left" is from a friend (the 'Lin) who used to say he'd step left to avoid any attack. E.g: "I magic missile you!" --> *steps left, thus avoiding it* . "I nuke the spot your standing on and everything within 100 miles!" --> *steps left, thus avoiding it* So thus, step left, and into safety:) And of course, as it saves from "anything" "no matter what" and at "any time" it's like a God that can save even when it seems impossible: thus a Deus Ex Machina. A Deus Es machina is literary term based on something they did in the plays in the olden times (a "god" made possible by machines: e.g. pulleys that lowered someone, could come and save the day when everything seemed beyond hope). So... Anyway, yeah, thus the Dues Ex Machina. The poem was originally about me because it was how I was feeling, so it was "I" in the beginning. Then somewhere around the second stanza, I started thinking about: how about if Katie felt like that? How would ... I feel? And basically, I felt like I would always be there for her, no matter what. And then that's what the poem became about. Even against impossible odds: A Deus Ex Machina. For her to step left into: and I just picture myself there, and her stepping left, and into my arms- into safety. http://newark.rutgers.edu/~jlynch/Terms/deusexmachina.html *** Written the day that Chun-yi and I were supposed to celebrate Valentine's day (because we were too busy on the real day), but it went very badly so we never celebrated and at the end of the night I went home feeling kind of empty and missing Katie.