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UPDATE:I have just recently added a few new poems. Lemme know what ya think : ) This is my favorite part of this site. These are a few poems I have written over the last year.And some poems and lyrics to songs I like a lot. This page kind of reflects my life. Some of it anyway.

Broken Dream

This pain has silenced the truth of an empty tomorrow
I'm praying that maybe just one of these dreams could come true
Maybe those missing pieces don't exist
Every day I wish I could abandon this tortured soul that is chronically bleeding
in this life All I have gained are more regrets to hate
I don't need your sympathy It's never real anyway
I have nothing
the shadow of a chance the once existed faded just as quickly as it came
I don't remember how it feels to smile
One question screams in my head as I keep going,
Will I ever find a cure for this heart that won't fail me?
-Amber S. Miller (c)2001

Gone Away

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair
And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away
Leaving flowers on your grave
Show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would
And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings
Yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away
-The Offspring


Find me here, speak to me
I want to feel you, I need to hear you
You are the light, that's leading me
To the place, where I find peace, again
You are the strength, that keeps me walking
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting
You are the life, to my soul
You are my purpose, you are everything
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how can it be
Any better than this
You calm the storms, and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall
You still my heart, and you take my breath away
Would you take me in, would you take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
Cause you're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
-Jason Wade of Lifehouse

I Wish For Yesterday

To hear you gentle words calms the raging storms in my heart
the touch of your loving hands on my face heals the scars
caused by the burn of hot tears
I find where I belong is in your arms forever
Just to look into your eyes blesses me with a happiness I've never known
You picked up the million peices of my shattered heart
when I was too weak to even breath
Today I wake up and reach for you
when I find that you are gone
And the only thing I have are these four white walls
I cry and tell them how I wish for Yesterday
When I was living in the beauty of your love
-Amber S. Miller (C)2001

Forgive Me

A million things I need to say
But I do not speak a single word
Maybe I'll have this mind of mine written out
For you by morning
I'm searching for some kind of evidence
To prove my theory to be a fact
My ignorance isn't by choice
But by lack of good teachers
Forgive me for not being perfect for you Perfection isn't what I am or ever will be
But I could try to fix my unworthiness with your aid
Don't raise your voice or leave bruises on my body to mold me
Tell me I can make it with a little time and strenght
Then, maybe, I could become someone you are able to love
-Amber S. Miller (C)2001


Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I had no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you
But these words
They can't replace
The life you...the life you waste
How could you paint this picture?
With life as bad as it should seem
That there were no more options for you
I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words
They can't replace The life you...the life you waste
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
For not having
The strenght in your heart
To pull through!
I've had doubts!
I have failed!
I've f***** up!
I've had plans!
Doesn't mean
I should take
My Life
With my own hands
But these words
They can't replace The life you...the life you waste
But these words
The don't replace
The life you...The life you waste

For The Sake Of Me

I continue walking down this road of pain and loneliness
The rain stabs me like a million knives
My face is stained from tears that rarely dry
I am determined to find an answer to a prayer I have whispered more times than I can count
It seems like this road I have been on all my life may never end.
I remember a time when I could say I was happy
But now it only seems like one of my pointless dreams
Signs on the left tell me to give up
and on the right I read the promises that I will find a way back to happiness
I want to give in and end it all right now
But for the sake of my heart's desire to be complete again I keep going
If happiness can't last forever then neither can pain
-Amber S. Miller (C) 2001


It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
A day to love someone
-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone
Let your light shine upon others-
-That they might see the and wish to become it also

The best gifts are from the heart
Gifts that can only be given by one heart
And Received by another
-Rainbow Skywolf

People are like stained glass windows
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out
But when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed
Only if there is a light from within
-Elizabeth Ross
I keep my ideals
Because in spite of everything
I still believe that people are really good at heart
-Anne Frank

The best most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched
They must be felt with the heart
-Hellen Keller

Every man dies;
Not every man truly lives.

Fear less, Hope more:
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things will be yours.

Pain is inevitable.
Suffering is optional
The greater the obstacle,
The more glory in overcoming it

To love and be loved
Is the greatest joy on Earth
No man is worth your tears
but the one who is won't make you cry.
-Sent in by Tamika Williams


Happiness is entirely beyond my reach
I slowly die as I drown in a million and one lies
I seach for an easier escape
How do you turn your heart off?
I'd give any thing for one of stone right now
It seems as if the only cure is death
Obstacles that had intentions to make me stronger
Only drain me of what little life I had in me left to claim
It's amazing how you cover yourself so well
With all of those masks you wear.
Maybe someday I will learn to be happy again
Until then I will live in myself hiding from you
For it is my only defense
You have stripped me of my only shield
-Amber S. Miller (C)2001

For You

To my mother To my father It's your son
Or it's your daughter Are my screams Loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit here Locked inside my head
Remembering everything you said The silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere Way to fast
The silence Is what kills me
I need someone Here to help me
But you don't know how to listen And let me make My decisions
I sit here Locked inside my head
Remembering everything you said
The silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere Way to fast
Your insults and your curses Make me feel like I'm Not a person
And I feel like I am nothing
But you made me So do something
Cause I'm f***** up Because you are
Need attention Attention you couldn't give


Oh precious one, why is it you hide so deep,
Deep inside you ocean of secrets?
In your eyes a fear is visible but still unknown
Feared, yet held so close-Love
Your kisses pouring sweet emotions all over me and your touch pleading for more that you still hide
Surrender to every need that you possess- I will give it all to you in a simple request
Through the fire and the freezing ice-I am here
Never doubt: Just understand
My own fears have been revealed to you
You-searching but not yet found
Tell me my love what demon forced you so far into yourself?
Desperatly waiting, searching
A craving for pleasing you-Will it ever be satisfied?
Tell me precious one:
What is it you hide so deep?
-Amber S.Miller (c)2001

Never Forever

Breaking ,forgetting , losing trust
I see the end in a clear vision
You feel you know but in only a matter of time it will be just as before
Another pretty face will fill your heart and dreams
She will speak sweet words to tempt you
Today you say "It'll always be you and me"
Tomorrow the truth will show "We've grown apart, maybe we'll find one another again someday"
Typical and painful I already see the seams splitting and the coldness begin to creep in
The shadow of lonliness lurks beside me waiting to engulf me and swallow me again before teasing me with another false hope
I'll wrap myself in never and trust in only that I've been "loved" I've been "hated" but never has someone kept their word to me
Slower than before I walk down the road of predicatable heartbreak
They never payed their promises to me
Why would it change?
Doubts are facts
Remember the "promises" are never-ending lies
All good things must come to an end...
-Amber S.Miller (c)2001

Close To You

I am gone from that world
but the memory still flollows me just a few steps behind
It taunts me in photos
And phone calls from the people who were supposed to care the most
Everytime I cry I remember them
And the words they killed me with
The knife I used to heal myself is tucked inside a tiny shoebox
The hate they made me see myself with still sometimes seeps through the cracks
They claim to be the beholders of the universe
Do they know they could end before their next breath begins?
And if tomorrow doesn't come for me bury me deep inside your precious heart
The rest of the world is too blind to see just why you mean so much to me
Living without your love is the most painful thought of all
all I ask if for you to never leave my side
Don't be like the others and leave me on my knees in tears
You are my only peace in this carousel of hell on earth
A broken record their words of "wisdom" as they say
They are only filled with jealousy
They wish they could feel the way I do when I'm close to you
-Amber S.Miller (c)2001

No Promise For Tomorrow

We live in a world where quanity of possesion divides us
I watch silently as horrifying scenes are burned into my mind from a television set
We've never had a promise for tomorrow
But now it's sadly more of a realization than ever
Everyone tells us how we are just too young too see
"You'll understand someday" they repeat
The wrong I see if for prayer being illegal in school and the murder of an unborn child seen as "moral"
If the older one is so wise do they not see that life too unstable and unpredictable
Each new day could be our last
We say "united We Stand"
When everyman is truthfully only standing for himself
You can plan for the future but you cannot say there will be one
I want to lock myself inside my room with you
Away from the ugliness of this world and drown myself in the beauty inside you
Because tomorrow may not exist
-Amber S.Miller (c)2001


Slipping, suffocating in a flood of my tears
Hypocritic monsters point and push me deeper into my death
So close to surrendering
A voice from above the surface, so calming, so gently calls my name
A strong hand brings me back
The monsters watch in awe and cry with icy envy as you dry my tears and kiss away all my fears
My only sanity
The only one stading tall for me
A burden I do not mean to place upon your loving heart
I owe you everything
All I have for you is a love that runs deeper than the earth and passes the end of time
Your touch speaks to my heart
Never will they break me wrapped in the blessing of your Love
-Amber S.Miller (c)2001


Laying in a motionless state,
As time trickles between my fingers,
Stems start to spout splitting the grass,
Engulfing my body in the ruins.
They swallow the rain,
And drink the soils,
Growing deeper and higher.
Surrounding me.
Tangling me in its coils.
Say good-bye to freedom.
Then close my eyes,
As the painful whips lash out at my skin,
And embedded fear weave through my bones.
I lay here wishing for
A tulip to hide all of my grief in.
It would grow above my head,
Overlooking my straining eyes.
My gravity would never be seen again,
As my body wrapped in tugging vines.


Must be your skin that I'm sinking in
Must be for real cos now I can feel
And I didn't mind
It's not my kind
Not my time to wonder why
Everything's gone white
And everything's grey
Now you're here now you're away
I don't want this
Remember that
I'll never forget where you're at
Don't let the days go by
I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
Are you at one
Or do you lie
We live in a wheel
Where everyone steals
But when we rise it's like strawberry fields
I treated you bad
You bruise my face
Couldn't love you more
You got a beautiful taste
Don't let the days go by
Could have been easier on you
I couldn't change though I wanted to
Could have been easier by three
Our old friend fear and you and me
Don't let the days go by
I needed you more
When we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
It might just be
Clear simple and plain
That's just fine
That's just one of my names
Don't let the days go by
Could've been easier on you
-Gavin Rosdale

"Remebered Times Forgotten"

Did you let the moment pass you by?
In it all you cried for your dreams and misplaced trust
I healed your scars and replaced the void you ached about
Immune to the sweetness; you are apathetic
Ifluencing voices-demons pushing you too far
Why did you leave the safe?
You break the gold line and wait for your freedom to sink in
You feel nothing but a missing place
Forgotten and missed is the love you once accepted
A broken heart and forgetton dreams remember all there was
I watched the stars shine as I forgot my name
Where did you go?
Instill in me some sort of grasp on a hope that isn't a lie
They tore away your wings and destroyed your faith
Beautiful one why did you leave your shelter?-The place I kept you safe

I have also posted some of my poems at you can also read My Love Poems here
-Amber Miller (c)2001