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Wed, 13 Jul 2005
23:29:50 -0700 (PDT) |
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From: |
"Dawn
Watts" <severnsmom@yahoo.com> |
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Regarding Severn |
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Hello Jo,
I hope Severn is well,
I miss him so much. Please tell him I love him, I don't know how I will explain
to him why I missed his birthday. Why the people he loves so much despise me
and will do anything to keep me out of his life.
I
am living in my own apartment in Austin alone. Michael doesn't live with me
anymore, I am hesitant to give you the address. As you know I say John at the
Showdown in San Marcos, I was staying with Iris for a month while I got my new
apartment. I tried to speak with him once, I am sure he told you how he
reacted. I find it amazing.... I watched while him, Natasha, Jimmy all got on
the stand and said mean things about my family and myself.
I
kept my mouth shut about the fact that my son was living with them who had
lived in a nudist colony with their children, while I was raked over the coals
because I attended a tax deductible federally recognized church where a small
portion of the service the priestess is nude, which I only attended a few
times. I also NEVER took my daughters there. I also kept quiet about the
fact that John,Natasha and Tommy all shoot up speed for many years. I also kept
quiet about the fact that Natasha and Tommy did porn together. (Tommy gave me
that info. so ask him for details). I also kept quiet about the fact that John
has been diagnosed with psychiatric problems. Even though my whole psychiatric
history was thrown on the judges bench to be scrutinized my all.
That
is just a small portion of the things I know, but I felt that if I kept my
mouth shut maybe the "Watts" would realize I wasn't out to get them.
I also thought who know what Tommy told them, because I know what he said about
you all.
I
have exhausted every form of legal aid I know of, my epilepsy has made it
impossible for me to drive, I get 579.00 a month. I live in an all bills paid
apartment which is 575.00.
I
have nothing left to lose. I tried Jo, I tried with you, I called you after my
seizure told you about my inability to drive asked you to please bring Severn
to Austin. I told you I couldn't get a bus to Bastrop. I never heard from you
again. I am tired of laying down to be crapped on, I have nothing left to lose.
My son is gone, I have no way to get back to court. It isn't in your best
interest for us to return to court. You are an intelligent woman and know the
longer you draw this out the worse my chances. There will be a day when we both
will have to answer for our actions though, in front of someone who knows our
real intentions.
I
am sick of playing the victim, John was right about me playing the victim. I
have been scared of the consequences of speaking my mind. I knew I wouldn't
last long at Severn's school. If I could drive an 1 1/2 hours a day and
teach children all day I wouldn't be on disability. I would be able to get
gainful employment and 2/3's of my problems would be solved. I know no matter
how hard I try you will just set the bar higher.
I
really do care about you Jo, I really did think of like a Mom. I still do, even
though I am angry as heck right now. I think it is a shame for Severn's sake
that you will not do your part in rectifying this mess. I will happily pay for
your gas to come to Austin, you can come to my apartment, have social workers
and police officers watch me night and day. I have nothing to hide. I DO NOT
want to keep Severn from any of you.. I just want to be his mother. I don't
know how to make you believe that. I know you say show me, but how can I when I
have no car, can not afford a phone, can not drive and barely have money to
live on? Please tell me and I will do it.
But
as for as slinging mud, I will sling back. I have laid down for to long. I have
been acting the victim, I apologize to you and Tom (only you and Tom) for any
wrongs I have done you. I know I acted the victim, was depressed and miserable
all the time. If I had witnessed me from your perspective I would be cautious
as well. There is a difference between being cautious and YOU playing the
victim... I am sure everyone feels so sorry for you Jo for having to raise your
grandson because your son is a psychotic wife beater and your daughter-in-law
is a "crazy, irresponsible, epileptic". What is your real motivation
could it be not as altruistic as you claim? I am examining myself as well
and by no means find myself without sin. Maybe you should look at yourself
as also.
Sincerely,
Dawn
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From: |
"jotomjim"
<jotomjim@sbcglobal.net> |
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To: |
"Dawn
Watts" <severnsmom@yahoo.com> |
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Subject: |
Re: Regarding
Severn |
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Date: |
Mon, 7 Nov 2005
08:15:27 -0600 |
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Dawn, I know that you are not really interested or you would at least call Severn on the phone once in a while, however, I think the court would like for you to know that he was in the ER at Smithville recently. He's fine now; nothing to worry about. I just feel I should make an attempt to keep you informed. It would be easier of course, if I knew your phone number or where you live. Since you have chosen to deny me that information, I will do what I can and hope this is still your email address and that you read your mail.JoP.S. Pretty smart of you, by the way, to figure out that if the =government learned that you volunteered at the daycare they might expect you to actually work for a living. |
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Fri, 23 Dec 2005
09:29:02 -0800 (PST) |
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From: |
"Dawn
Watts" <severnsmom@yahoo.com> |
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Subject: |
Severn |
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To: |
"Jo"
<jotomjim@sbcglobal.net> |
Jo,
I
apologize for not emailing you sooner but I don't check this email often as I
hadn't heard back from you.
First
I would like to apologize for the nasty comments I made in in the email I sent
you quite some time ago. Although the facts were correct, and I felt that
way it doesn't help if I am nasty with you.
I
have always kept the courts updated as to my address, I thought you had it. I
moved to Oregon for a short time for treatment for my Epilepsy. I have
just arrived, (three days ago) in PA. I sent you a certified money order with
my new address, I didn't check to make sure you received it but I am assuming
you did.
Jo
if you don't believe I have Epilepsy or mental illness I would be happy to send
you the stacks of papers from my ER and doctors. Ever since the court thing and
Severn both have gotten worse. The only thing that is better is now Daniel and
I have a very nice friendly relationship that I am not with Tommy, but he moved
back to Florida temporary due to a lay off and doesn't know where in the
country he will be next.
I
may be able to "fake" mental illness which I am not, but Jo I can't
make cat scans show Epilepsy and seizures if they aren't happening. The greater
my stress the more likely I am to have seizures. Please check into that for
yourself and you will see I am being honest.
I
believe you are filing for continuances, I can't believe we haven't been seen
in court again yet. I have written the judge and everyone else I can think of
but no response.
I
did call Jo quite a few times I have the records to prove it but never received
a return call and I am honestly frightened by your family. Every time I would
call you I would start to get all panicky I don't think you would psychically
hurt me, But knowing that you have been able to keep my son from me for so long
I don't know what you all are capable of. I am not "tough" like your
family, I get scared and don't know what to do. I have seen you use that to
your advantage ever since I left Tommy. I am worried for Severn, I know you
would never hurt him but with his father a criminal and his Mom not allowed to
see him he must be confused and scared.
I
will happily give you my address and phone number which you are welcome to call
anytime. You had Michael and I's cell phone number it hasn't changed.
My
address until we get an apartment is with my Aunt Dee,
128
Leasureville Rd Sarver PA 16055
The
number here is 724-353-2182
Our
cell phone is still 512-787-7730
I
have moved to try to get treatment for my Epilepsy. I was going to get as VNS
operation were they implant a device in you that stops the seizures but my are
all over my brain not just partial lobe. I honestly am trying to stop the
seizures so I can be a productive person. I have continued my psych. meds and
have been doing as well as can be expected under the circumstances.
Jo, I
know you are never going to like me, I realize we are very different people and
you think I lie about everything. I try really hard with you, can you imagine
how I felt coming to your work knowing how all those people must think of me? I
didn't want to but I did for Severn, then after a few days volunteering at
Severn's school I went into status ellipsis, (uncontrollable seizures) and I
wasn't allowed to drive. I wrote and called asking you to please bring him to
Austin. I never heard back from you.
I
know you are a Christian women and the only peace I have is knowing you love
Severn and are probably doing the best you can. I do worry about him, I think
of him constantly.
Here
is a link to my website..... If you click on the family photo album part their
are pictures of him and the girls and other of my family members. I would
really appreciate it if you showed Severn the pictures... I am sure you will,
thank you in advance.
https://www.angelfire.com/planet/frugal
BTW,
me volunteering doesn't effect my social security as I volunteered in Oregon
and with the women's shelter in Austin. Just not everyday.
Why
was Severn in the hospital? Does he even know me? How is he? Does he still like
to read? Has my Mom made any attempts to see him as she told me she would? How
about my sister? Does Severn have friends? Does he play with his cousins a lot?
Please
Jo, you are right I should have made more attempts to call. I should have
called every few hours if that is what it took. But remember when little Tommy
died how hard it was to even look at pictures or anything. That is how I feel
like my baby is gone forever and I feel helpless about it. That doesn't make it
OK for me to not have made more attempts though. I am still responsible for my
own behavior.
I
am not sure if Karen (that is Michael's ex "friend") that he got
pregnant has been contacting you. I know she has read all the court papers. She
actually is the one who told me about the continuances. She is really psycho,
but you will find that out on your own if you are talking with her. She says
she just wants Michael to be a part of Kristin's life but I have contacted her
everyday since we have been here and she will not respond but then she called
my house 50-70 times a day. I have all the phone records. I am just pre-warning
you but I know you are a tough cookie and will be fine. Please!!! Don't give
her my families address or phone number if you are in contact with her, I don't
know if you heard but last Christmas Eve my cousin, my Aunt Dee's son killed
his ex wife's boyfriend. He is severely schizophrenic and just got sentenced to
40 years on Dec. 8Th. My Aunt and Uncle are a wreck he is their only son and
whatever Michael made or may not have done to Karen my family doesn't deserve
her harassment. She has been calling his sick Grandma in Iowa saying that she
raised a horrible daughter, that in turn she raised a horrible son. My family
wouldn't put up with that behavior but please don't give her that info. I will
give her our address and you our new address after the 1st of the year when we
move into our own place.
Please
give Severn hugs and kisses and tell him I love him. Bethany and Sophia ask
about him all the time. I will send more money on the 1st of January.
Best
Wishes
Dawn
PS
my other email address is rainbowatdawn@gmail.com I locked myself out of my hotmail
account so I had to change it. You are welcome to use either address.
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Date: |
Thu, 29 Dec 2005
20:08:45 -0800 (PST) |
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From: |
"Dawn
Watts" <severnsmom@yahoo.com> |
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Hello Jo |
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"Jo"
<jotomjim@sbcglobal.net> |
Hi Jo,
It
was good to speak with Seven the other night. I will call again soon. I am
going shopping tomorrow with Christmas money I received. Could you please email
and let me know what Severn likes now? Think small things that will not cost a
fortune to send please.
Bethany
and Sophia are doing well. They ask about you, I told them you had horses and
they were very excited. I am flying to Florida after the 1st to stay for a week
with the girls before they have to go back to school.
I
am doing much better here in Pennsylvania. I have a lot of family support here.
They are helping me with this legal situation and I have about 10 different
families who are going to testify for me about my competency and there ability
to step in if I were to have a seizure. I was hoping you and I could work out
something instead. I can give you many family references which you are welcome
to check. My family here are upstanding people who have children of there own.
My one cousin is a teacher, the other a psychiatric RN. I need people who
know me to tell the courts about my behavior. When you tell people I am an
actress I have no way to defend that as everything I am saying could be
just an "act". I am not telling you this as a threat at all. I
realize you hold all the cards you have money and Severn. I just want you to
know no matter what happens I would never keep Severn from you the way you
have kept him from me. I love him to much.
I
care for you too Jo, but I am as mad a heck for what has happened with my
son. I am angry because I know you realize I never would abuse or hurt Severn.
You know me to well. I am not be perfect but I have done nothing to be kept
from my son for this length of time.
I
even left a message with your attorney, giving him my address and asking when
the case would be heard. I haven't heard back from anyone. I know you all
have influence and I am not sure how you can really feel this is in
Severn's best interest. I guess you know the longer you keep him from me
the worse it makes me look and the more you can say he has become
attached. I realize you love him, but I really wish we could work something
out. I will put in writing that you can take/see him anytime you like. I
realize how important it is for him to know both sides of his family. My family
here is NOT like my Mom. They are involved and surprised by the fact that
courts could keep me from my child this length of time. Even criminals and drug
addicts don't get there children taken away. I am getting a lawyer here as this
state is not as bogged down the way Texas is.
I
am not trying to antagonistic, please don't think I am, it is hard to
express in words the feelings I am trying to convey.
Please
tell Severn I love him and miss him.
You
are welcome to call here anytime, 724-353-2182
Sincerely
Dawn
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Dawn,
I've re-read your last couple of emails and have decided that I will respone to
neither. I had actually written you quite a long letter addressing
several things you had said, but it's really pointless. Dawn, I wonder
whether you know the difference between truth and lies or if you just can't
help yourself. There are people who find a need to lie when the truth is
easier, better, more convenient, etc. You need help. I hope you
realize that eventually and get it.
Please don't contact me again unless you are prepared to be truthful.
Jo
P.S. I stopped by your mother's house this morning. She's fine..... she
must
have a really good surgeon.
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Jo,
I will not
contact you again if you wish. I have also read back through the last emails I
sent you. I can not find one thing that could even be considered a lie. If you
will point out what I have supposedly lied about I will be happy to provide
proof.
I am in PA
with my family, they are being supportive, willing to testify and help in
any way with Severn
I did
contact the courts about my moves, I spoke with the District clerk last
week to confirm this, I have sent my new address here in PA via mail. As they
would not take it over the phone. I sent it out last week.
I am taking
my medication, trying new meds for Epilepsy. I have considered the VNS
operation.
I am not
sure what else I spoke about besides these things. If you choose to not respond
to me, that will be your decision.
I am sure a
great deal of this is because of Karen. She has told me personally that she
talked with you. I will not try to convince you of her lies, and harassment.
She will continue to be nice and reasonable to you as long as she feels she is
getting what she wants. She was nice with me at first too... Please do
not allow her to come between Severn and I, if you feel I have lied to
you, call me out on it. I will be happy to give you proof of my
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Quoting Dawn <rainbowatdawn@gmail.com>:
> Jo,
>
> I will not contact you again if you wish. I have also read
back through the
> last emails I sent you. I can not find one thing that could
even be
> considered a lie. If you will point out what I have
supposedly lied about I
> will be happy to provide proof.
>
> I am in PA with my family, they are being supportive,
willing to testify and
> help in any way with Severn
>
> I did contact the courts about my moves, I spoke with the
District
> clerk last week to confirm this, I have sent my new address
here in PA via
> mail. As they would not take it over the phone. I sent it
out last week.
>
> I am taking my medication, trying new meds for Epilepsy. I
have considered
> the VNS operation.
>
> I am not sure what else I spoke about besides these things.
If you choose to
> not respond to me, that will be your decision.
>
> I am sure a great deal of this is because of Karen. She has
told me
> personally that she talked with you. I will not try to
convince you of her
> lies, and harassment. She will continue to be nice and
reasonable to you as
> long as she feels she is getting what she wants. She was
nice with me at
> first too... Please do not allow her to come between
Severn and I, if you
> feel I have lied to you, call me out on it. I will be
happy to give you
> proof of my statements.
>
> Dawn
>
> On 1/11/06, jotomjim@artistsnaction.com
<jotomjim@artistsnaction.com>
wrote:
>>
>> Dawn,
>> I've re-read your last couple of emails and have
decided that I will
>> respone to
>> neither. I had actually written you quite a long
letter addressing
>> several
>> things you had said, but it's really pointless.
Dawn, I wonder whether
>> you know
>> the difference between truth and lies or if you just
can't help
>> yourself. There
>> are people who find a need to lie when the truth is
easier, better, more
>> convenient, etc. You need help. I hope you realize
that eventually and
>> get it.
>>
>> Please don't contact me again unless you are prepared
to be truthful.
>>
>> Jo
>>
>> P.S. I stopped by your mother's house this morning.
She's fine..... she
>> must
>> have a really good surgeon.
>>
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Jo,
I
apologize for not emailing you sooner but I don't check this email often as I
hadn't heard back from you.
First
I would like to apologize for the nasty comments I made in in the email I sent
you quite some time ago. Although the facts were correct, and I felt that
way it doesn't help if I am nasty with you.
I
have always kept the courts updated as to my address, I thought you had it. I
moved to Oregon for a short time for treatment for my Epilepsy. I have
just arrived, (three days ago) in PA. I sent you a certified money order with
my new address, I didn't check to make sure you received it but I am assuming
you did.
Jo
if you don't believe I have Epilepsy or mental illness I would be happy to send
you the stacks of papers from my ER and doctors. I
have NEVER doubted that you are mentally ill, Dawn. Ever since the
court thing and Severn both have gotten worse. The only thing that is better is
now Daniel and I have a very nice friendly relationship that I am not with
Tommy, Not true, you and Daniel rarely speak. but
he moved back to Florida temporary due to a lay off and doesn't know where in
the country he will be next.
I
may be able to "fake" mental illness which I am not, but Jo I can't
make cat scans show Epilepsy and seizures if they aren't happening. The greater
my stress the more likely I am to have seizures. Please check into that for
yourself and you will see I am being honest. I
have never denied that you have any illness that you say you have.
I
believe you are filing for continuances, I can't believe we haven't been seen
in court again yet. I have written the judge and everyone else I can think of
but no response. I have never filed for a
continuance. The only continuance I have ever dealt with is the one you
asked for when Tommy and I went to San Marcos to meet you in court the first
time. You and the DA filed and we had to go back another day.
I
did call Jo quite a few times I have the records to prove it but never received
a return call and I am honestly frightened by your family. Try leaving a message when you call. I have voice mail
on all three of my phones. Every time I would call you I would
start to get all panicky I don't think you would psychically hurt me, But
knowing that you have been able to keep my son from me for so long I don't know
what you all are capable of. I am not "tough" like your family, I get
scared and don't know what to do. I have seen you use that to your advantage
ever since I left Tommy. I am worried for Severn, I know you would never hurt
him but with his father a criminal and his Mom not allowed to see him he must
be confused and scared.
I
will happily give you my address and phone number which you are welcome to call
anytime. You had Michael and I's cell phone number it hasn't changed. The email I received before this one said that you were no
longer with Michael, that you had moved to a different apt and did not wish for
me to know your address. Was that supposed to make it easy for me to get
in touch?
My
address until we get an apartment is with my Aunt Dee,
128
Leasureville Rd
Sarver
PA 16055
The
number here is 724-353-2182
Our
cell phone is still 512-787-7730
I
have moved to try to get treatment for my Epilepsy. I was going to get as VNS
operation were they implant a device in you that stops the seizures but my are
all over my brain not just partial lobe. I honestly am trying to stop the
seizures so I can be a productive person. I have continued my psych. meds and
have been doing as well as can be expected under the circumstances.
Jo, I
know you are never going to like me, I realize we are very different people and
you think I lie about everything. I try really hard with you, can you imagine
how I felt coming to your work knowing how all those people must think of me? I
didn't want to but I did for Severn, then after a few days volunteering at
Severn's school I went into status ellipsis, (uncontrollable seizures) and I
wasn't allowed to drive. I wrote and called asking you to please bring him to
Austin. I never heard back from you. I never
heard from you.
I
know you are a Christian women and the only peace I have is knowing you love
Severn and are probably doing the best you can. I do worry about him, I think
of him constantly.
Here
is a link to my website..... If you click on the family photo album part their
are pictures of him and the girls and other of my family members. I would
really appreciate it if you showed Severn the pictures... I am sure you will,
thank you in advance. No, I won’t show him the
pictures. He is confused enough. I did look, however and found no
photos of Severn.
https://www.angelfire.com/planet/frugal
BTW,
me volunteering doesn't effect my social security as I volunteered in Oregon
and with the women's shelter in Austin. Just not everyday.
Why
was Severn in the hospital? He had an insect bite that
became infected. I wanted to make sure it was not a Brown Recluse and to
get him on antibiotics. Does he even know me? Every now and then he asks “Grannie, who is my mommie?”
How is he? It’s taken a while, but he seems once
again to be happy and well-adjusted. Does he still like to read? Has my Mom
made any attempts to see him as she told me she would?
Now and then How about my sister? No Does
Severn have friends? Does he play with his cousins a lot? Yes
Please
Jo, you are right I should have made more attempts to call. I should have
called every few hours if that is what it took. But remember when little Tommy
died how hard it was to even look at pictures or anything. No, I still look at pictures, write about him and talk
about him. He’s never out of my mind or “dead” to me. That
is how I feel like my baby is gone forever and I feel helpless about it. That
doesn't make it OK for me to not have made more attempts though. I am still
responsible for my own behavior.
I
am not sure if Karen (that is Michael's ex "friend") that he got
pregnant has been contacting you. I know she has read all the court papers. She
actually is the one who told me about the continuances. She is really psycho,
but you will find that out on your own if you are talking with her. She says
she just wants Michael to be a part of Kristin's life but I have contacted her
everyday since we have been here and she will not respond but then she called
my house 50-70 times a day. I have all the phone records. I am just pre-warning
you but I know you are a tough cookie and will be fine. Please!!! Don't give
her my families address or phone number if you are in contact with her, I don't
know if you heard but last Christmas Eve my cousin, my Aunt Dee's son killed
his ex wife's boyfriend. He is severely schizophrenic and just got sentenced to
40 years on Dec. 8Th. My Aunt and Uncle are a wreck he is their only son and
whatever Michael made or may not have done to Karen my family doesn't deserve
her harassment. She has been calling his sick Grandma in Iowa saying that she
raised a horrible daughter, that in turn she raised a horrible son. My family
wouldn't put up with that behavior but please don't give her that info. I will
give her our address and you our new address after the 1st of the year when we
move into our own place.
Please
give Severn hugs and kisses and tell him I love him. Bethany and Sophia ask
about him all the time. I will send more money on the 1st of January. Today is January 12.
Best
Wishes
Dawn
PSmy
other email address is rainbowatdawn@gmail.com
I locked myself out of my hotmail account so I had to change it. You are
welcome to use either address.
Hi
Jo,
It
was good to speak with Seven the other night. I will call again soon. I am
going shopping tomorrow with Christmas money I received. Could you please email
and let me know what Severn likes now? Think small things that will not cost a
fortune to send please.
Bethany
and Sophia are doing well. They ask about you, I told them you had horses and
they were very excited. I am flying to Florida after the 1st to stay for a week
with the girls before they have to go back to school.
I
am doing much better here in Pennsylvania. I have a lot of family support here.
They are helping me with this legal situation and I have about 10 different
families who are going to testify for me about my competency and there ability
to step in if I were to have a seizure. I was hoping you and I could work out
something instead. I can give you many family references which you are welcome
to check. My family here are upstanding people who have children of there own.
My one cousin is a teacher, the other a psychiatric RN. I need people who
know me to tell the courts about my behavior. When you tell people I am an
actress I have no way to defend that as everything I am saying could be
just an "act". I am not telling you this as a threat at all. I
realize you hold all the cards you have money and Severn. I just want you to
know no matter what happens I would never keep Severn from you the way you
have kept him from me. I have NEVER prevented you
fron seeing Severn. In fact, I have his Montessori teachers and therapist
who will testify that I bent over backwards to help you become part of his life
last year. YOU are the one who stopped coming
for visits with him at Argent Court, at his school and at therapy. You
did this without so much as a phone call to let us know that you would not be
showing up. Until December ’05 I had received no child support since
January ’05. Today is January 12 – no check as yet. I
love him to much.
I
care for you too Jo, but I am as mad a heck for what has happened with my
son. I am angry because I know you realize I never would abuse or hurt Severn.
You know me to well. I am not be perfect but I have done nothing to be kept
from my son for this length of time. YOU have
not phoned, or in any way attempted to contact Severn or me since you stopped
coming to see him last Spring. The only time I have ever refused
to let you see him was in March of ’04 when the court hearing was
pending.
I
even left a message with your attorney, giving him my address and asking when
the case would be heard. I haven't heard back from anyone. I have heard nothing from my attorney concerning
you. NOT a phone call, letter, email, anything. Your mother
contacted me last summer to ask if I knew where you were. You had left
your apartment in Austin with no notification. They found your car, I.D.,
checks and a starving cat when they went to look for you. Is this how a
responsible mother cares for a child that she LOVES so very much? I
know you all have influence and I am not sure how you can really feel
this is in Severn's best interest. I guess you know the longer you keep him
from me the worse it makes me look and the more you can say he has become
attached. I realize you love him, but I really wish we could work something
out. I will put in writing that you can take/see him anytime you like. I
realize how important it is for him to know both sides of his family. My family
here is NOT like my Mom. They are involved and surprised by the fact that
courts could keep me from my child this length of time. Even criminals and drug
addicts don't get there children taken away. I am getting a lawyer here as this
state is not as bogged down the way Texas is.
I
am not trying to antagonistic, please don't think I am, it is hard to
express in words the feelings I am trying to convey.
Please
tell Severn I love him and miss him.
You
are welcome to call here anytime, 724-353-2182
Sincerely
Dawn
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Jo,
I am responding to your response.
Jo,
I apologize for not emailing you sooner but
I don't check this email often as I hadn't heard back from you.
First I would like to apologize for the
nasty comments I made in in the email I sent you quite some time ago.
Although the facts were correct, and I felt that way it doesn't help if I
am nasty with you.
I have always kept the courts updated as
to my address, I thought you had it. I moved to Oregon for a short time for
treatment for my Epilepsy. I have just arrived, (three days ago) in PA. I
sent you a certified money order with my new address, I didn't check to make
sure you received it but I am assuming you did.
Jo if you don't believe I have Epilepsy or
mental illness I would be happy to send you the stacks of papers from my ER and
doctors. I have NEVER doubted that you are
mentally ill, Dawn. Ever since the court thing and Severn both
have gotten worse. The only thing that is better is now Daniel and I have a
very nice friendly relationship that I am not with Tommy, Not true, you and Daniel rarely speak. but he
moved back to Florida temporary due to a lay off and doesn't know where in the
country he will be next.
Daniel and I do speak regularly,
and email regularly. I sent him an email asking why you would think otherwise.
I will send you a copy when he responds.
I may be able to "fake" mental illness
which I am not, but Jo I can't make cat scans show Epilepsy and seizures if
they aren't happening. The greater my stress the more likely I am to have
seizures. Please check into that for yourself and you will see I am being
honest. I have never denied that you have any
illness that you say you have.
Ok, I
apologize, I thought you had said that I was only "pretending" to get
SSI. If I am wrong I apologize.
I believe you are filing for continuances, I
can't believe we haven't been seen in court again yet. I have written the judge
and everyone else I can think of but no response. I have never filed for a continuance. The only continuance I have
ever dealt with is the one you asked for when Tommy and I went to San Marcos to
meet you in court the first time. You and the DA filed and we had to go
back another day.
Karen told me
that continuances have been filed, I see now that she was wrong. When I called
the District Clerk last week he confirmed that no continuances had been filed.
I said I "believe" not that I know, based on what Karen had said. It
was the only reason I could think of for why we hadn't been seen in court
again.
I did call Jo quite a few times I have the
records to prove it but never received a return call and I am honestly
frightened by your family. Try leaving a message when you call. I
have voice mail on all three of my phones. Every time I would call
you I would start to get all panicky I don't think you would psychically hurt
me, But knowing that you have been able to keep my son from me for so long I
don't know what you all are capable of. I am not "tough" like your
family, I get scared and don't know what to do. I have seen you use that to
your advantage ever since I left Tommy. I am worried for Severn, I know you
would never hurt him but with his father a criminal and his Mom not allowed to
see him he must be confused and scared.
I have left
voice messages, I left messages soon after I couldn't come to Severn's school
for lack of transportation. I even talked with you personally the day after I
couldn't make it. I called the school the morning I was suppose to come. I
ask if you could please bring him to Austin, I never heard back, I will have to
send you copies of Michael's phone bill. It will take some time for me to get
those records as his Mom and him are on a family plan and she gets the bill.
I will happily give you my address and phone
number which you are welcome to call anytime. You had Michael and I's cell
phone number it hasn't changed. The email I received
before this one said that you were no longer with Michael, that you had moved
to a different apt and did not wish for me to know your address. Was that
supposed to make it easy for me to get in touch?
I did move
into my own place, I was scared Tommy would find me living alone. I still
should have given you the address, although I was only there about 60 days, it
was still wrong of me to not keep you informed. Michael and I continued to see
each other but I was living in my own place. I apologized already for that
email, it was wrong of me.
My address until we get an apartment is with my
Aunt Dee,
128 Leasureville Rd
Sarver PA 16055
The number here is 724-353-2182
Our cell phone is still 512-787-7730
I have moved to try to get treatment for my
Epilepsy. I was going to get as VNS operation were they implant a device in you
that stops the seizures but my are all over my brain not just partial lobe. I
honestly am trying to stop the seizures so I can be a productive person. I have
continued my psych. meds and have been doing as well as can be expected under
the circumstances.
Jo, I know you are never going to like me,
I realize we are very different people and you think I lie about everything. I
try really hard with you, can you imagine how I felt coming to your work
knowing how all those people must think of me? I didn't want to but I did for
Severn, then after a few days volunteering at Severn's school I went into
status ellipsis, (uncontrollable seizures) and I wasn't allowed to drive. I wrote
and called asking you to please bring him to Austin. I never heard back from
you. I never heard from you.
I will send
you the call records, I can't argue that without the records. Please give me a
few weeks to get you copies.
I know you are a Christian women and the only
peace I have is knowing you love Severn and are probably doing the best you
can. I do worry about him, I think of him constantly.
Here is a link to my website..... If you click
on the family photo album part their are pictures of him and the girls and
other of my family members. I would really appreciate it if you showed Severn
the pictures... I am sure you will, thank you in advance. No, I won't show him the pictures. He is confused
enough. I did look, however and found no photos of Severn.
There are 10 pages of pictures,
and many of Severn. If you will not show him, that is your decision.
https://www.angelfire.com/planet/frugal
BTW, me volunteering doesn't effect my social
security as I volunteered in Oregon and with the women's shelter in Austin.
Just not everyday.
Why was Severn in the hospital? He had an insect bite that became infected. I wanted to
make sure it was not a Brown Recluse and to get him on antibiotics. Does
he even know me? Every now and then he asks
"Grannie, who is my mommie?" How is he? It's taken a while, but he seems once again to be happy and
well-adjusted. Does he still like to read? Has my Mom made any attempts
to see him as she told me she would ? Now and then How about my sister? No Does Severn have friends? Does he play with his
cousins a lot? Yes
He certainly
seemed to know me on the phone. He said Mommy I want you, you had to have heard
him.
Please Jo, you are right I should have made more
attempts to call. I should have called every few hours if that is what it took.
But remember when little Tommy died how hard it was to even look at pictures or
anything. No, I still look at pictures, write about him
and talk about him. He's never out of my mind or "dead"
to me. That is how I feel like my baby is gone forever and I feel
helpless about it. That doesn't make it OK for me to not have made more
attempts though. I am still responsible for my own behavior.
I guess we all
deal with things differently, this was not a lie, just how I felt.
I am not sure if Karen (that is Michael's ex
"friend") that he got pregnant has been contacting you. I know she
has read all the court papers. She actually is the one who told me about the
continuances. She is really psycho, but you will find that out on your own if
you are talking with her. She says she just wants Michael to be a part of
Kristin's life but I have contacted her everyday since we have been here and
she will not respond but then she called my house 50-70 times a day. I have all
the phone records. I am just pre-warning you but I know you are a tough cookie
and will be fine. Please!!! Don't give her my families address or phone number
if you are in contact with her, I don't know if you heard but last Christmas
Eve my cousin, my Aunt Dee's son killed his ex wife's boyfriend. He is severely
schizophrenic and just got sentenced to 40 years on Dec. 8Th. My Aunt and Uncle
are a wreck he is their only son and whatever Michael made or may not have done
to Karen my family doesn't deserve her harassment. She has been calling his
sick Grandma in Iowa saying that she raised a horrible daughter, that in turn
she raised a horrible son. My family wouldn't put up with that behavior but
please don't give her that info. I will give her our address and you our new
address after the 1st of the year when we move into our own place.
Please give Severn hugs and kisses and tell him
I love him. Bethany and Sophia ask about him all the time. I will send more money
on the 1st of January. Today is January 12.
My SSI check
is being forwarded, I still have not received it, I will send the money along
with my envelope showing the date I received it as soon as it arrives.
Best Wishes
Dawn
PS
my other email address is rainbowatdawn@gmail.com
I locked myself out of my hotmail account so I had to change it. You are
welcome to use either address.
Hi Jo,
It was good to speak with Seven the other night.
I will call again soon. I am going shopping tomorrow with Christmas money I
received. Could you please email and let me know what Severn likes now? Think
small things that will not cost a fortune to send please.
Bethany and Sophia are doing well. They ask about
you, I told them you had horses and they were very excited. I am flying to
Florida after the 1st to stay for a week with the girls before they have to go
back to school.
I am doing much better here in Pennsylvania. I
have a lot of family support here. They are helping me with this legal
situation and I have about 10 different families who are going to testify for
me about my competency and there ability to step in if I were to have a
seizure. I was hoping you and I could work out something instead. I can give
you many family references which you are welcome to check. My family here are
upstanding people who have children of there own. My one cousin is a teacher,
the other a psychiatric RN. I need people who know me to tell the courts
about my behavior. When you tell people I am an actress I have no way to
defend that as everything I am saying could be just an "act". I am
not telling you this as a threat at all. I realize you hold all the cards
you have money and Severn. I just want you to know no matter what happens
I would never keep Severn from you the way you have kept him from me. I have NEVER prevented you fron seeing Severn. In fact,
I have his Montessori teachers and therapist who will testify that I bent over
backwards to help you become part of his life last year. YOU are the one who
stopped coming for visits with him at Argent Court, at his school and at
therapy. You did this without so much as a phone call to let us know that
you would not be showing up. Until December '05 I had received no child
support since January '05. Today is January 12 – no check as yet.
I love him to much.
I guess we
will have to agree to disagree on this. I did call his therapist and the school
and you. I will have to wait until I get the phone records to prove this. I
guess you think that is bending over backwards to let me come to your work to
see him. I ask to please bring him into Austin. Wouldn't that give you more of
an idea of how I lived? I feel like that was difficult for me to get to your
work and to only see him at your work. I wasn't allowed to drive, I had no way
to get there. I only borrowed a car a month before I left for Oregon. It had
over heating problems, I used it for grocery store runs and local stuff, not
all the way into Bastrop.
I care for you too Jo, but I am as mad a
heck for what has happened with my son. I am angry because I know you
realize I never would abuse or hurt Severn. You know me to well. I am not be
perfect but I have done nothing to be kept from my son for this length of time.
YOU have not phoned, or in any way attempted to
contact Severn or me since you stopped coming to see him last Spring. The
only time I have ever refused to let you see him was in March of '04
when the court hearing was pending.
Once again I
will have to send you the phone records, as the issue of phone calls becomes he
said she said. I have ask Michael to ask his mother for the records.
I even left a message with your attorney, giving
him my address and asking when the case would be heard. I haven't heard back
from anyone. I have heard nothing from my
attorney concerning you. NOT a phone call, letter, email, anything.
Your mother contacted me last summer to ask if I knew where you were. You
had left your apartment in Austin with no notification. They found your
car, I.D., checks and a starving cat when they went to look for you. Is
this how a responsible mother cares for a child that she LOVES so very
much? I know you all have influence and I am not
sure how you can really feel this is in Severn's best interest. I guess
you know the longer you keep him from me the worse it makes me look and
the more you can say he has become attached. I realize you love him, but I
really wish we could work something out. I will put in writing that you can take/see
him anytime you like. I realize how important it is for him to know both sides
of his family. My family here is NOT like my Mom. They are involved and
surprised by the fact that courts could keep me from my child this length of
time. Even criminals and drug addicts don't get there children taken away. I am
getting a lawyer here as this state is not as bogged down the way Texas is.
I called your
attorney while I was in Oregon. I left a message with my new address and asking
why I we hadn't been seen in court. That was on my Oregon Phone which I do have
the bill for, I will send a copy with child support when I get my check.
As far as my Mother and my
apartment go, that was not my car. It was my friend Adam Keisler's car, which I
was borrowing. He was coming after work taking care of my cat, she WAS NOT
starving. I am not sure what kind of ID my Mom found as I still have my Drivers
license with me. I told Adam where I was going and to please speak with
my apartment manager. He had a son who just got out of jail. I thought his son
could take over my apartment. I will attach the email I sent him the day I
left. If someone wouldn't have taken my checks out of the mailbox they would
have been forwarded. My mother and I hadn't spoken in about 9 months at
the time I left for Oregon. I informed the rest of my family.
I am not trying to antagonistic, please don't
think I am, it is hard to express in words the feelings I am trying to
convey.
Please tell Severn I love him and miss
him.
You are welcome to call here
anytime, 724-353-2182
Sincerely Dawn
I hope this answered some of your
questions. I am doing my best to be a good person. Could you please explain to
me what I have done so wrong to not have my child. Your son and daughter in law
lived with their kids in a tent for goodness sakes. I took a nap in the
afternoon and gave Severn cold cereal?
I just don't get it.
Sincerely
Dawn
Here are the emails between Adam
and I. I want you to know I took out personal stuff between us, but added
nothing.....
Adam,
This is going to be hard for you
but..... , my protective order expires next month. I still haven't been
able to control my seizures.
I have just left for a retreat in the
Pacific Northwest. I feel I NEED to go for spiritual, medical and safety
reasons. I do not know exactly how long it will be before I will contact you
again but definitely in the next month. There are no phones/TV or internet at
this remote location.
I need for you to take your valuables
and car from my apartment. I am leaving the apartment key under the front left
tire of your car. The key to the car is on the table in my apartment. It is
parked in the left hand side of the bldg parking lot. Will you please return my
keys to Shelly the apartment manager she is right upstairs from me. Anything
you or anyone else wants from my apartment is welcome to it. It would be a
perfect step up for your son as it has everything down to the dishes already
there. I couldn't take more than I did.
Please Check on Kitty!!!!
love,
Dawn
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Dawn,
I don't know what to say. I'm happy for you that you are in a magical
retreat, but it is so far away!
I'll write you more later. I got the keys and gave
kitty a nice big bowl of food, some "whisker loving thingies" and a
catnip mouse. I'll email you later this weekend about your apartment, etc. I
just wanted to let you know that all is well, and I will take care of
everything.
You will always be in my heart. Thank you for being such a good friend.
Hurry home ...
Love,
Adam
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Hello Jo,
I don't
understand in one email you tell me I should call Severn. I get up the nerve to
call you, and you say I can't talk to him.
Could you
please at least let him see this picture of the two of coloring?
Could you
please at least email me with how he is doing and what is progress is, what he
likes so I can send some gifts?
Sincerely,
Dawn
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"It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and
goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk
to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly
tempted to worship."
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Jo,
I wanted to
update you, I still haven't received my January check, I called social
security. It hadn't been returned to them. They are confirming that it hasn't
been cashed and sending me a new one. I should receive it by Monday. I will
send the envelope with the support so you will know I am telling the truth
since you say I am always lying. Now that I am staying with relatives
indefinitely (they have a large home) I will be able to get caught up with
support quite quickly.
Another
point I wanted to address, I am not allowed to drive for 1 year after a
seizure. How was I suppose to get to Bastrop? Check the bus schedule you can
get a bus into Austin from Bastrop and from Austin to Bastrop in the late
afternoon. But after Severn was finished with school and I would have had no
way to get home.
I ask you
to please bring him to Austin, you can't deny this it is in emails and on
recorded phone conversations.
Please tell
Severn I love him and give him kisses from me.
Sincerely,
Dawn
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"It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and
goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk
to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly
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Jo,
I finally
received my Jan. SSI check they had to send me a replacement check. I am
attaching a scanned copy of the check where it shows that it is
a replacement. My Jan. check wasn't cashed or returned to SSI so it
must have been lost in the forwarding process. I also received my Feb. check. I
will be sending you money on Monday the 6th.
What am I
lyng about Jo, I have the phone records they show my calls to you. I have
my July email that asks you to please help me see Severn that I can't drive,
offering to pay your gas, have a social study, anything you want etc...
You couldn't find me, right! All you had to do was email me back, call my Mom,
call the Post office for my forwarding address, write me a letter. That will
not fly, I called many times, I didn't even realize how many until I seen the
phone records. It also shows I called the school and social worker. So what
have I lied about? I still can't believe you would keep your grandson away from
his mother all this time. IF you thought you were so right you would have filed
for those final orders right after CPS investigated me....
Please give
Severn kisses and hugs and tell him I love and miss him and will see him soon.
Sincerely,
Dawn
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Jo,
If I come
down early for the trial will you bring Severn to a San Marcos hotel for me to
see ?
Sincerely,
Dawn
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Jo, I sent Severn a present he should get it
between Saturday -Tuesday. I also sent him two personalized books but they are
special printed with his name, age and other info, so they will probably be
another week or so.
I hope you
will give them to him since you will not respond to my emails or let me speak
with him on the phone.
Sincerely,
Dawn