This Could Be
I wake up to my body being encased in a dull ache and a sense of exhaustion. Not to mention the feeling that all is right with the world. I'm curled on my side, my head laying on Ryan's chest, his arm holding me close, his heartbeat thudding softly against my ear. I smile faintly to myself, savoring the feel of the length of his naked body pressed against mine.
It happened. After nearly twenty five years of waiting, of never even having a chance with anyone, here I am laying in the arms of an incredible man, basking in the afterglow of giving myself--completely--to him. My smile widens and I hope desperately that he doesn't wake up to witness my complete and utter dorkiness. I just keep reliving it all. His touch, his voice, his smell...he was perfect. He was so patient, easing me into it, relaxing me completely before making any moves. And yet at the same time I could read the desperation in his eyes. He was holding back, giving me the reigns, no matter how much he wanted me. Its nice to be wanted that much, especially when you're used to being looked over entirely.
I still don't know how I got so lucky. Ryan could have anyone he wanted. He's a local hero, he makes more money than I can ever imagine, an amazing personality, a body to die for...and yet he's with me. And he wants to be, he acts as if I am all he's ever wanted. And I have never been so happy. Emotions never meant anything before this, they were always unimportant compared to academics, to my future career. But I'm already feeling things far too strong for so early in the relationship. Maybe I'm insane, maybe its just because i'm so inexperienced--but I'm a little bit scared.
This isn't just the people I know who are out for a meaningless fling. This isn't just playing. This is serious. This involves my heart and my feelings and my life...This could be huge. This could be earth-shattering. This could be life-altering. This could be love.
And for all of the A's I've earned, for all the classes I've taken, for all the things I've been taught--love is something I know nothing about.
This could be a disaster.
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